Chapter 59 – All The Love But None Of The Attention
February 10, 2025
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59 – All The Love But None Of The Attention
Triquet climbs the narrow stairs through the open trapdoor up into the bunker. The structure is forlorn in the shadows, showing no sign of the life it held for so many weeks. They emerge into a gray morning. Their second to last here. The camp where they had so many parties and arguments is now covered with new detritus. The stump that cradled the barrel of wine is just a stump again.
They cross to the beach and survey the length of it. Such a tiny little world they inhabited. But it had everything they needed. Ennui fills them. Oh, great. They’re going to bawl like a baby when this is over, aren’t they? How odd. They’ve never had such a reaction to a field trip ending. Usually it was some measure of relief and excitement to get back to the lab so they could analyze their finds. And there is some of that here as well. Excellent finds. But this has been one of the most special and significant episodes of their whole life and they will never forget any of these people.
Ah. There they are. At the edge of Tenure Grove. Arguing, as always. Triquet approaches, holding their treasure up like a bible.
“But what we’re saying is that this isn’t going to have any kind of island-wide effect.” Jay, for once, has a dispute with Pradeep. “Bro, there’s like no conceivable network that connects these trees to the trees in the interior, which is the whole—”
“And I am saying the same thing,” Pradeep interrupts with impatience. “That is why we do it here first. To see if there is any effect on the grove before we unleash it on the entire island.”
“But what we are also saying,” Amy adds, “is that we don’t have enough time to meaningfully monitor our effects. We will be gone by the time this forest can express any kind of reaction. So this is a waste of time here. We can’t tilt the conversation of the island in the time we have left, and certainly not from here. I appreciate your desire to be methodical, but either we do this or we don’t.”
“Then I say we don’t,” Pradeep declares. “It is too dangerous. The communication networks of forests are hardly understood. We might be doing grave damage and we would never even know.”
“It’s a bloody good idea, though,” Katrina sighs. “You got to admit. Once we learn the languages of plants and forests we’ll be able to talk to them no problem. Oh, what a world that will be! ‘What kind of apples are you growing here, mate? You mind if I climb up and sit in your branches?’ Anyway, I wrote a bit of a, well, a piano concerto. I tweaked it so it has overtones in the ultrasonic range, well as much as my shitty phone speaker can emit, to see if I can get close to what the trees hear. Jay said that’s their range. I was going to play as you did your work on the trees.”
“That is very sweet,” Pradeep allows, “but I’m afraid the study showed the trees only make the noise when they are under stress. The more noise, the more stress. So we need to make sure your music doesn’t sound like alarm bells to them.”
“Yeh. Right.” Katrina quirks her mouth in thought. “I’ll just have to play it like super soothing, I guess. Legato. Legato.”
“Maybe this is not a terrible idea.” Alonso places a hand against the spongy bark of the redwood which towers over him. “Maybe we cannot change the, the tenor of the whole island, but at least this grove, our special grove where only we lived, can get our blessing. And who knows? Maybe some of us will come back some day and see the results of our work. Ehh. Then we will tell the others. How would those results manifest, Amy?”
“Just Tenure Grove…?” Amy steps a couple more paces into its shadows. “Yes. That’s a lovely idea, Alonso. Let’s just leave the best of us here in this beautiful spot. Who knows? Maybe things will grow more lush, more inter-related. I think of it as harmony…”
To illustrate, Katrina plays the opening chord on her phone’s piano app. It is like glass breaking, in a bittersweet, minor key.
Amy nods. “Yes, exactly. Those five days with the vixen… I could feel it. I can still feel it, what that level of connection to the living world is like. I hope I never lose it. It’s like speaking to god…”
“Yes,” Maahjabeen agrees. “For as the Prophet said to his companions, ‘If the Hour of Resurrection is about to come, and one of you is holding a palm shoot, let him take advantage of even one second before the Hour has come to plant it.’ In Islam we love trees and respect our environment.”
“So how do we do this?” Alonso asks. “Maahjabeen will pray. Katrina will play her very nice music. What can the rest of us do?”
Pradeep lifts a tray filled with open dishes of cloudy liquids and a cartoonishly-large syringe. “These are mostly alkaloids for the mycorrhizae, for their signaling channels. There’s some salts as well. I just drew on what I know about them so far. It’s all about increasing signal strength. I don’t want to tell them what to say, I only want to increase their ability to say… whatever they want.”
“Right on.” Jay pats his shoulder. “Mister free speech over here. I was thinking of a couple things, myself. You know, trees talk with pheromones through the air so I was trying to think of ways to share mine. You know, like, if I’m thinking beautiful thoughts. Get into those alpha waves. Then once I have a good groove going, release some stank, talk to my brothers and sisters here. But I want to shoot it right into their veins and this outer bark is so thick I don’t know how to reach the cambium. I mean… I was just going to like hug big fella here, but… then I thought… maybe I should like dig a shallow pit and crouch down in it. You know, let the feelers of its roots pick up my vibe.” He lifts a foldable spade.
“No no no,” Pradeep answers. “No digging. That will invariably cause stress, don’t you think?”
“Yeah…” Jay’s face falls. “Probably right. Maybe I can get up in the canopy and sing like a bird.”
Esquibel cannot help herself. She bursts out laughing. Flavia does too. Even Miriam joins them. “I’m sorry,” she gasps. “It’s just the idea of Jay dressed as a songbird, crouched on a branch up there, whistling…” Esquibel laughs again, until nearly all of them are.
“Nah, dude. I was going to rap.” But that just makes them laugh even harder. Jay’s earnestness dissolves before all this mirth.
“It’s just all so silly…” Esquibel finally manages. “I was trying to be respectful, but we have strayed so far from established science with this claptrap that I couldn’t…”
“I am so glad you did,” Flavia tells her. “Because I was about to. There is a difference between experimentalism and—and voodoo.”
“Yes, yes. The unbelievers have had their say.” Pradeep smiles modestly, readying his syringe. “Cynicism is easy. Of course there is only a tiny chance that these efforts have any affect at all. But we don’t actually know. Like Alonso said, I want us all to promise that if any of us come back here, we must do every possible test on this tree and this grove to see if our work has done anything at all.”
He shoves the cylinder of the syringe into the earth and pushes its plunger. Katrina plays more of her shattering, ear-piercing piano concerto. Jay yelps in alarm, realizing it’s happening now, and embraces the tree. His face is muffled so they can’t make out his words, only that they follow a beat.
Esquibel and Flavia laugh again. Alonso peers upward, fighting the stiffness in his back and neck, trying to see a hundred meters to the top. The trunk vanishes into the dark green canopy, and wind flutters its limbs. “I would like to think,” he says, placing a hand against the wall of bark, “that we will leave this place as friends.”
“And I’d like to offer,” Triquet finally says, having waited for the proper moment, “the words of Lieutenant DeVry, who left a bit of a journal I just found. Remember him? He was the delinquent one always fraternizing with the locals? We thought he was like chasing skirts but it turns out he was actually quite the sensitive soul. He was fascinated by the Lisicans. But he never really understood them. ‘They remain closed to me and won’t ever speak directly to me. But they have finally become animated in my presence. The parents are very tender and warm toward their children and they love a good squabble. What led their ancestors to this godforsaken rock I have no idea. But since it has been peopled, at least we are lucky that they are a gentle folk. Suspicious, but gentle.’ At the end of his journal, he complains several times about being prevented from seeing them any more. He says, ‘by the end of my time here I enjoy the company of the natives more than my own race, even though they still don’t speak with me! Perhaps it is because they don’t speak with me. Ha ha. I’ve never been comfortable as the center of attention. I like to stand aside and observe. The villagers let me. Boren never does.’ That’s the Staff Sergeant. Doesn’t sound like old Clifton DeVry got along very well with him.”
Katrina concludes her concerto and Jay releases the redwood. Amy brushes a spider from his hair.
Mandy looks up at the waving tops of the tree, thinking how Jay first proposed to turn it into a tower for her weather station. She’d thought he was a real meathead then. Now she has much more tender thoughts for him. He smiles at her, abashed. But she reaches out and snares his hand to squeeze it. “That was so sweet. Now don’t forget. You and I aren’t done. We’ve still got more scar tissue to pull apart when we get back home. You promised to visit.”
He beams, squeezing her hand back. “No doubt, sister.”
“And now,” Esquibel declares, “ceremony complete, let us get back underground, or at least away from where approaching ships might spy us. Remember. The American boats aren’t the only ones who promised to come back tomorrow.”
Ξ
Alonso rests a hand on the wine barrel and tilts it. “About halfway empty. We drank perhaps one hundred fifty bottles. In eight weeks. Fifty-six days. That is nearly three bottles per day, a good amount. I am proud of us. Our appetites. But now, my liver needs a bit of a break.” He peers at Amy, who is putting the last of her things in her duffel. They are in the sub’s ward room that is closest to the surface, where they have removed all the furniture so they have enough room to organize and pack all their gear. “Perhaps the rest of it, we can leave with the sailors who are coming. Or maybe someone else wants it. But I will never drink a Château Ausone again without thinking of this place. And all you lovely people.”
He shares his smile with Amy and Mandy, the only other person in here. She is struggling to pack with one good arm. Amy finally notices her difficulties. “Oh, dear. Let me help you.”
“Thanks.” Mandy steps back with a sigh, clutching her shoulder. “All this movement. Starting to hurt.”
Amy nods, sympathetic. “Sorry. I should have realized… Just got caught up in my own mess and didn’t look up for…” She falls silent as she works on folding Mandy’s t-shirts.
“Where is Esquibel?” Alonso wonders. “Perhaps she can help?”
Mandy and Amy both glower at Alonso.
“Ah.” He recalls the status of their relationship. “My apologies. It is too sad that things have ended as they have. I remember when we first got here and how happy you made each other. Now, we haven’t heard the good doctor laugh like that in too long.”
“Alonso. Mandy doesn’t want to hear…”
Mandy sighs. “No, it’s fine. It’s actually like good to talk about it. I haven’t had anyone… She doesn’t have anyone to… I mean, break ups can be so lonely. And I don’t even know if that’s what this is. I mean…” She shrugs, helpless. “I don’t know where we stand. I can’t blame her for—I mean… I can’t look at anything Esquibel did and say she should have done something different. She had her orders.”
“And she followed them as well as she could.” Alonso agrees. “We always like to have a dream, this fantasy that there exists a place somewhere that is truly cut off from the troubles of the rest of the world. But such a place does not exist. Even here. We are all one planet, and no matter how far we travel we bring the sins and crimes of the world wherever we go.”
“The sisters pushed the father of their children into the sea.” Amy doesn’t know if she necessarily agrees, but this is what his words made her think. “And yet they didn’t consider it a sin.”
“I don’t know.” Mandy sits back against a bin, shoulders slumped in defeat. “Getting shot… It’s like it knocked the wind out of me and the wind never came back. Maybe it will with time. I just thought, I mean, even a few days ago I still thought that we’d go back and I’d be in Topanga and every once in a while Esquibel would come to port in Long Beach or San Diego or whatever and we could have a lovely weekend or week, but now I don’t know. Now I think that we…”
“We are just too different.” Esquibel slips through the hatch between ward rooms, her hands full of folded sheets. “My path is far too dangerous for a wonderful, beautiful person such as you, Mandy.” She says it factually, her voice flat, her eyes downcast. “I love you too much to put you through that.”
Mandy eyes Esquibel speculatively. “Oh, you do? You’ve made that choice, have you? You know, I think that might be my biggest trouble with our relationship after all. Esquibel, you never once let me decide. You never told me about your secret life, and then when you did you said you could never change and that I can’t be near you. Now you’re breaking up with me before I even get to say whether that’s what I want or not. And that’s fucked up.”
Esquibel looks at Mandy with astonishment. “Meaning… what? You don’t want to break up with me?”
“I don’t know.” Mandy flails her good arm outward. “All I’m saying is that the real problem isn’t that you’re a spy, or that I’m in danger, the real problem is that you never let me decide for myself! Okay? We have to make this decision together, or there really is no hope for us.”
Esquibel smiles, shy. “So you think there might still be hope? Oh, Mandy! Yes. You are right. I am a control freak. Just like you. But even worse. And I am so sorry. I thought if I just kept you safe and comfortable you could ask for nothing more. But I never made sure that is actually what you wanted. I just… I just came here with things inside me that I thought could never be negotiated. Like, upon pain of death. And that—that hardness in me, it has only pushed you away from me. Now I don’t deserve you.”
“Stop. You’re doing it again. Why don’t you let me make that decision?” Mandy asks. “You know I love you. I know you love me. Let’s work together to see if we can find a way through this?”
“My god, Mandy,” Amy murmurs in admiration, “listen to you. Who taught you to be so wise?”
Mandy shrugs, then winces. “I guess that Chinese spy. And his gun. I learned from them that life is short. And it can be so easily stolen. That’s what I now know. So there’s no more time for regrets. Come here, Skeebee.”
With a sob of relief, Esquibel kneels and puts her head in Mandy’s lap. Hot tears flow from her tightly-squeezed eyes. A sound she’s never made comes from deep in her throat.
Mandy pets Esquibel as she quivers and gasps, watching in silent wonder as her lover finally unlocks. How long has it been since she has let her guard down and unclenched these held muscles? Has she ever? Esquibel trembles in her lap, clutching Mandy’s legs like she’s drowning. What has it been like for her, working on ships year in and year out, tending the wounded sailors of a different nation? How solitary has her life been?
“What’s that sound? Is there trouble?” Triquet appears in the hatch, then Miriam and Maahjabeen.
“No trouble,” Alonso reassures them. “Just forgiveness.” He wipes his own tears away. “And sometimes it can be messy.”
Ξ
Their last dinner is cold, the remains of torn sheets of seaweed and dried banana chips. This would have been an unpalatable dish when they first arrived but their tastes have been forcibly changed by the environment. Now it satisfies them.
They sit on and lie against their stacks of gear, silent in the dim ward room. All of them are present, drowsing after a full day of effort. Jay chews the nori like gum, studying Katrina across from him. She has aged dramatically in the eight weeks here. Not just in the weathering of her fair skin but the look in her eye, her poise. Nobody would mistake her for a sixteen year-old any more. “Yo, dude. We should have one last concert. Don’t you think?”
Katrina shrugs, flips a hand. “All packed up. And I ain’t…”
“No no no, you’re right,” Jay agrees.
“But that doesn’t mean we can’t have a concert.” Alonso closes his eyes and tilts his head back. In a moody baritone, he sings the melody of Dvořák’s Serenade for Strings. His voice echoes in the metal chamber. Eyes closed, they all absorb the waves of sound washing over them.
A metallic clunk interrupts him, from deeper within the sub. Eyes open. The room waits in quivering silence.
“Got damn Chinese spy still out here.” Jay rises, looking for a weapon. “And he’s still got his orders. Just cause he’s somebody’s slave doesn’t mean…”
Esquibel has already fetched her satchel. She waves an urgent hand at the room. “Turn off the lights, Triquet. Everybody back against the walls.”
In a quiet rush, they all comply with her orders.
A slender figure steps into the hatch. “No more music…?” It is Jidadaa. She blinks into the darkness of the ward room.
“Oh, sweet!” Katrina cries out. “It’s Jidadaa! Aww. Wasn’t sure we got to see you again, love. Come here!”
“But the music?” Jidadaa asks. “Where is it?”
“Ah. You mean some of this?” Alonso laughs, self-deprecating, and begins again. This time Bach’s first Cello Suite. He waves his hand back and forth in the air like a fish’s fin in the water as the notes rise from him. Jidadaa kneels down on the deck, entranced. “Yes, lovely, is it not? Ahh. Just imagine hearing Bach for the first time. I envy you, young lady. Everything we have been talking about here, about the rhythm of nature and Her harmonies, has already been fully given voice by Johann Sebastian Bach. From hundreds of years ago. What do you think, Jidadaa? Eh?”
“More.”
“Yes, it sounds of the truth, doesn’t it? The secrets of life?”
“But, wait.” Esquibel leans forward. “Before you continue, Alonso. First, a few questions for Jidadaa. Are you alone?”
Jidadaa looks steadily at her. “I have Kula.”
“No. Just right now. Is anyone with you tonight?”
“No.” But as she says it, she nods her head yes.
“Eh.” Katrina reaches out. “No is a shake of the head this way.” She demonstrates.
Jidadaa laughs. “New to me. English words with my body.”
“So you are alone right now?”
“Jidadaa last saw the people this morning.” Her tone suddenly shifts. “This is a story about the ecchic oviki.”
Triquet finally gets the light back on. “This is?”
“The house of Thunderbird rests along the path to the house of Inchwi, god of winter east wind. That is what they say.” Jidadaa turns and unerringly points aboveground toward their secret village in the trees. “They say the god sends the cold wind to drive their enemies away. But the Shidl Dít say the wind make them strong. Their skin thick. Their blood hot. I do not say it. I do not believe. But I feel the wind. I sleep with them last night.”
“Oh, up on those platforms?” Katrina longs to console the lonely girl, to encircle her in her arms. But she knows she cannot touch her. “They sway so much it’s like a ship at sea.”
“And how are our old friends the golden childs?” Alonso asks.
But Jidadaa is too literal for this question. “Only people of the pollen in the spring. That season is past. No more golden childs. Now they are people of start of summer. People of the green sea.”
Alonso nods. “Understood. Are they well? I hope they know how much we appreciate all they have done for us.”
“It is a happy village. Three fox babies for them, young people and old. Great blessing. Old curse is lifted. The Shidl Dít say the prophet poem that the island has chosen is mostly their own.”
“Oh!” Katrina squawks. “It happened? The doom has passed and we’re now in the new era?”
“For most. Then I go to Ussiaxan. Not happy. Shouting. The people only have one fox and the girl, she is not strong. Village split. Many want to join with Keleptel. They have four fox now. Many want to find mama fox. To them she is new god. Shaman tell them to find her.”
“But isn’t the shaman their slave?” Flavia frowns. Then she holds up a hand. “No. I will never understand. Do not explain.”
“So, wait. When we first got here there were only three foxes,” Pradeep inventories. “Morska Vidra’s, the old one with the exiled shaman on the north coast, and the vixen. Where did the vixen come from? The Shidl Dít?”
“Yes.” But Jidadaa shakes her head no. Then when she sees Katrina correct her she laughs and imitates the nod.
“And then ten babies?”
“Eleven.” Amy lifts her own kit, now sleek and full, with colorless fur shading toward silver. The vixen still feeds her kits, appearing twice a day on an endless circuit around the island accompanied by her mate. “And I think I can finally safely say this one is a female.”
“Three with the Thunderbird. Four with the Mayor’s village. One with the bad guys. Aren’t there two missing?”
“Other íx̱tʼ on island.”
“Aye,” Miriam agrees. “Other íx̱tʼ. Whoever they are. The mysteries never cease. We could stay here our whole lives and never really learn the way Lisica works, could we?”
“Wait…” Amy holds up a hand like a student. “That’s what Xaanach called out, isn’t it? When she killed Wetchie-ghuy. She repeated that phrase again and again. What was it?”
“Ja sam sada íx̱tʼ!” Katrina mimics the girl’s triumphant cry from the clifftops. “The first part is Slavic. Like, ‘Now I’m the…!’ And the last part is íx̱tʼ. What Jidadaa just said. What is íx̱tʼ? Shaman?”
“Yes…?” Jidadaa tentatively nods in agreement. “Wetchie-ghuy was íx̱tʼ. Daadaxáats is íx̱tʼ. Aan Eyagídi was íx̱tʼ before—”
“Yeh. That’s it!” Katrina puts the puzzle together. “Now I’ve got it. She said, ‘I’m the shaman now!’ So Xaanach killed Wetchie-ghuy and became the shaman in his place. Bloody circle of life, mate. I thought that may have been it. Does that mean she got one of the missing foxes?”
Jidadaa frowns. “I look and look. No Xaanach. No more fox kit. This is a story of ecchic oviki.”
“Oh, right. What is that?” Katrina starts recording video on her phone. “Ecchic Oviki. Or who…?”
“Sacred stone. On the path to Northwest forest god. That is what they say. I climb there, follow its poem. From ecchic oviki, see like bird over Agleygle valley place. See all island of the south gods.”
Katrina tries to square this with the relational framework she has puzzled out in their language. “So the story is about the place from where you searched for… Xaanach? The baby fox? It isn’t about your search or her hiding from you or even about the vixen. It’s about the rock. And, what? How it like bears witness?”
But Jidadaa frowns at these questions. They are evidently the wrong ones. She makes a flushing gesture with her hands, pushing them away from herself. “The current ran from me, too fast.”
“I see.” But neither Katrina nor any of the others do see.
Finally Jidadaa collapses with a sigh, leaning against Katrina’s legs. “No find her. My heart hurt. So I come to you, under the grounds. Then I hear music.”
Alonso offers, “Yes. Would you like more music? Perhaps a little Brahms lullaby to put us all to sleep? What do you think? Nice and gentle…” And he begins to sing it.
Jidadaa nods happily one last time then slumps, the simple lyricism of the lullaby affecting her deeply. She rests her head against Katrina’s knees and sighs again.
Katrina hasn’t moved since the unexpected contact. She is too surprised. But as Jidadaa settles against her, she reaches out and touches Jidadaa’s hair. The girl does not startle. So Katrina runs her fingers gently through the tangles. After a while, she begins picking at them, grooming her like the fellow primate she is.
Jidadaa is the first to fall asleep.
Ξ
In the dark, Flavia pulls herself through the tight squeeze of the lower tunnel to win through to the culvert beyond. She takes out her phone and turns on its light, looking in despair at her clothes. These are her favorite top and pants and she’d hoped to travel in them but now they are filthy, and will only get more so when she returns. But she needs to empty her bladder too much to care.
“Ah! Blinded!” Mandy’s head emerges from the tunnel, her black hair streaked in mud, and gets a face full of Flavia’s light. She shuts her eyes with a grimace and drags herself from the tunnel.
“Eh, sorry.” Flavia whips the light away, to the water racing in the culvert below. “I think, maybe, we should just pee in here.”
“I’m not going down that slope. Looks slick. Might fall in. And then what?”
“Yes, you are right. Better somewhere in the cave…” With an aggravated sigh she leads Mandy to the rusted steel door and they step through.
“Who is that?” It is a male voice. Pradeep.
Flavia startles, then laughs. “Oh, great. Just looking for privacy. Didn’t find it. Sorry. I have to go!”
Maahjabeen sits up, clutching her pillow to her bare chest. “Go? Go where, Flavia? What time is it?”
“Ehh…” Flavia can’t hold it any more. “Go to the bathroom!” And she hurries in the other direction from the sleeping pair, toward the rotting pier and curtain falls in the back corner.
“Me too!” Mandy ducks into the cave and hurries after Flavia, squatting like her at the edge of the fall’s wide but shallow pool, adding their own fluids to the Lisica freshwater and the ocean’s salt. For the sake of decency, Flavia turns the light off and they finish in darkness.
“Creepy.” Flavia stands and sorts her clothing. She turns the light back on and joins Mandy, who is waiting a few paces away. “I thought something would jump out of the water and bite me on the ass! The whole time!”
“Oh, god!” Mandy cries. “So glad I didn’t think of that.”
“You didn’t? How? What were you thinking of?”
“I was just thinking how nice it was. The dog pile we were all in. Me and Skeebee and Jidadaa and Katrina and Jay. But I don’t think you were in there? I didn’t… like, feel your skin.”
“Ehhh. I was in another pile of skin. Triquet and Alonso and Miriam and Amy. Like the sea lions on the rocks. Best sleep I’ve had in weeks. I never knew I liked sleeping in a pile!”
“Huh. Maybe it’s like,” Mandy approaches the door, her voice dropping as they near Maahjabeen and Pradeep, “it’s the ancient way of doing it. How we slept for like millions of years. Everyone spooning each other every night. Young and old, cousins and strangers. The only way to beat the cold, right? Imagine, like, you got into a fight with someone during the day. But you still had to sleep with them at night. That’s like super healing, you know?”
“Or,” Pradeep’s voice emerges from the dark, “one of you is held to be in the wrong by the larger group so you are shunned and you must sleep on your own. Those would be some pretty strong social contracts. Risk death of exposure for not conforming.”
“Like the world is not full of homeless people now,” Flavia says. “Or maybe the group splits. Some agree with you and some agree with the other one. And this is how we get the first like individual houses. From some prehistoric drama in the bedroom.”
Maahjabeen’s sleepy voice mumbles, “What are we talking about here? I am trying to sleep.”
“Ah. Sorry.” Flavia tiptoes by to the door. “Group sleeping. How it must have been the status quo forever, until we got too emotional or something.”
“Yes, come here.” Maahjabeen doesn’t even open her eyes. Flavia can only see that she holds out her arms to her. Without hesitation, Flavia goes to her, embracing the woman she still privately considers a living goddess.
“Aww, so sweet.” Mandy joins them, taking the edge of the mat behind, enclosing Flavia and Maahjabeen between her and Pradeep.
“Sisters,” Maahjabeen grunts, kissing Flavia once and petting Mandy with a heavy hand, before falling right back to sleep. Flavia is not far behind. She begins to snore.
Minutes pass. Pradeep coughs.
Mandy whispers, “I can’t believe this is our last night. I hardly got to know any of you. And at the same time…”
“One big Cuban family,” Pradeep whispers back. “I’ve hardly ever known a group of people better.”
“You and Maahjabeen just have to stay together.” Mandy reaches across the two sleeping bodies to clutch his arm. “Oh, please promise you will. You two give me like so much faith in humanity.”
“Yes, we are working that out. Money will probably be the main concern, as well as visas and all that nonsense. But Monterey has a huge oceanic sciences and kayaking community. We’ll be able to find something fitting there for Maahjabeen, especially with Amy and all her contacts.”
“You know, LA is only like five hours away. If you guys would ever… like come by for a dinner or something?”
“Really?” Pradeep’s hand clasps hers. She feels something deep within him release. “You know, you people are so good for my anxiety. I never knew I could be so… liked.”
“Loved,” Mandy amends.
He squeezes her hand. “Yes, Mandy. Loved.”
Ξ
“Good lord, dude, I couldn’t tell what I was looking at there.” Jay laughs and approaches the giant log on the lagoon’s beach, behind which Esquibel stands in her purple jacket, peering out at the gray haze of dawn. “You looked like another log, just like vertically resting against…” He reaches her and rests his sternum against the cool, wet wood. Jay studies the horizon. “So what are you doing?”
“The Russians…” Esquibel doesn’t take her eyes from the water. “They said they would be back in two weeks. As of midnight, it has been two weeks. They could arrive at any moment, yes?”
“Uh… yes. Right. Dawn raid. Total Call of Duty commando-style. Too bad we can’t lay down trip wires and C4. Right?”
“This isn’t a video game.” Esquibel sighs. She has been standing here for an hour and the chill has penetrated to her bones. With a hiss, she rubs heat into her legs and claps her arms. “And you aren’t a soldier.”
Jay grabs her hands and blows heat into them. Esquibel scowls and begins to pull them away but the sensation is too nice. “Ehh. What are you doing out here, Jay? Why aren’t you asleep?”
“Scouting the perimeter, yo. Like a sheepdog. You know me. Damn, sister. Your hands are like ice.” Without asking permission he wraps her from behind in a bear hug and breathes hot air into the back of her neck.
Esquibel squirms. “You can’t just grab me!” Then she relaxes into his embrace. His hot breath cuts straight into her bones, warming them. She sighs. “You really haven’t learned a thing about consent, this whole time? Surrounded by women?”
Jay pulls back, shocked and hurt. “Oh! Did I do it again? Fuck. So sorry, dude. I just thought…”
Esquibel shivers again. She draws his head back down. “Just don’t ever do it again. But now. Just blow.”
“Aye aye, Captain. And you keep watch.”
Esquibel does so, glaring at the blue smear of a horizon with hostility. She hasn’t had a man this close to her in years, and never so gladly. This must be what it is like to have a brother. Esquibel was never really exposed to the masculine world in her home. The home was for the women, and her father was out drinking every night until late. She would only ever see him in the morning, contrite with a hangover, sipping coffee and demanding quiet. Friends had told her of their own brothers, and how much grief they gave their sisters. So growing up, she had never wanted anyone but her mother and herself. But now, it makes her wonder what it would have been like to have a little brother who loved her.
“Good Heavens, I couldn’t tell what I was looking at there.” Triquet approaches through the mist, their face pinched in a frown. For this chilly morning they’ve brought out the vintage ski bunny coat with the ermine hood fringe. It’s so warm there hasn’t been too much opportunity to wear it here. But Triquet is determined to finally make its weight and bulk worth all the effort they’ve put into hauling it around for eight weeks by wearing it on the open water when they get picked up. “Well, if it isn’t the most unlikely couple I could imagine here. Pardon my interruption.”
“She’s just cold.” Jay breathes another lungful into Esquibel’s neck. “I ain’t macking on her.”
“Looking for the Russians?” Triquet shifts closer and wraps their own arms around Jay and Esquibel.
“Someone must.”
“You know Mandy’s plan? To be up on the cliffs where her weather station was? Scouting from the highest point, but from a spot where she can’t be seen. I think Amy’s going with her. But I don’t know what kind of luck they’ll have in this fog.”
“Well if they don’t get up and start soon, their plan won’t be of any use at all.”
“They’re already up and heading out. What, you think I woke up of my own accord at five in the morning?” Triquet laughs. “Amy was my blanket.”
“Good. And perhaps we should have a string of runners through the tunnels, to shout it out and relay the news faster than they could carry it. Everyone else is staying in the sub, yes?”
“As far as I know. Mandy said she left Flavia and the lovebirds in the sea cave. They were still asleep.”
“We should all stay together now. Remember,” Esquibel speaks softly in the gathering fog, “the Russians have always used that west beach entrance before. So they may be there this time. Or they are waiting for the dead scientist, and when he doesn’t arrive there they will sail back over here again. That is my thought.”
“It’s a good thought,” Triquet nods.
“I wish we knew,” Esquibel continues, “what killed that scientist. If it was intentional or not. But no one is talking.”
“They say the dead tell no tales but I wish I’d been there with you,” Triquet says. “ I’m sure I could have gleaned something from his gear and his context. They don’t call us forensic scientists for nothing. God, what a bloody place. He’s dead. Wetchie-ghuy. Those two Chinese soldiers we found.”
“The bodies in the bunker on the west beach,” Jay pauses in his warming breaths to add. “The ones Maahjabeen told us about.”
“Maureen Dowerd,” Triquet continues. “And look at you, with your broken hand and twisted ankle.”
“And the spear blade along his ribs.” Esquibel shakes her head in despair. “The report I will write… My god. They will bring me up on charges. Not for the espionage work, but because I did such a poor job protecting the health and safety of you lot.”
“Pradeep and Maahjabeen getting poisoned…” Jay lists. “Katrina had that night of exposure. And Flavia did a couple times. Then Maahjabeen almost getting lost in that storm. And Mandy getting shot. Shit, we’ve really been through the wringer out here.”
“Not to mention what Alonso arrived with.” Triquet grimaces, then confesses, “Then there was my miraculous healing from the bird bite and those unhygienic tattoo dots between my toes… And I haven’t been able to take a deep breath since March.”
“What? You? Why?” Esquibel shakes Jay off so she can inspect Triquet, who only waves her away.
“No, Doc, I’m fine. It was just that dive through the waterfall after I got lost inside the cliff. It hit me hard. Hyperextended my spine or something. Never really got over it.”
“You should have let me look at it,” Esquibel admonishes them. “I’m sure Mandy could have helped.”
“And that is why,” Triquet purrs, “I never mentioned it. I heard all the screams of the tortured. No thank you. Motrin and jacuzzi for me. I’ll be right as rain. As much as I’ll miss all of you and this beautiful place…”
“Motrin and jacuzzi,” Jay echoes. “Yeah, that’s hard to beat.”
“Look, it’s Alonso.” Esquibel peers over Triquet’s shoulder to see the man’s width resolve out of the fog.
“Aha! I found you. I woke up alone and I wondered where everyone was. For a moment…” Alonso shakes himself and wipes the sleep out of his eyes with the heels of his hands. “I was afraid I’d been left here. The boat had come and gone.”
“Oh, lord.” Triquet laughs. “Could you imagine? How sadistic we’d have to be, to leave one of us here.”
“Not just anyone.” Esquibel laughs as well. “To leave Alonso.”
“No, but I awoke from the most lovely dream. And then that panic almost made me forget it but I…” Alonso shakes his head, a fleeting sadness washing through him. He sees they are waiting, expectant, so he tells them. “It was morning. Bright and sunny. Not like this. And the ship was here. But the tide was very low. So we started packing it and we had so many things, a mountain of things that needed to be piled on the boats and taken out. And I was very busy. We all were. Then the tide went out. Like far far out. And the lagoon became very shallow. Like it didn’t even cover my feet. So then we were able to work very fast, moving back and forth across the water right up to the hull of the ship. And I would pop the things in the hatch and go back for more. And I worked so hard everyone else got tired and collapsed on the beach so I…” Tears suddenly spring into Alonso’s eyes and his throat closes. “I began to run. And I was so fast. And it didn’t hurt at all. But everyone was so tired so I just picked you all up like my children, carrying you one or even two at a time through the water. And I was so strong. And I had so much energy. And my legs didn’t hurt. Not at all…” Then he can’t speak any more. He buries his head in Triquet’s embrace. Jay pats his back.
“Our big Cuban papa.”
“Doctor Alonso,” Esquibel stands at attention and speaks with formality. “I do not know if you would ever want to work with me again, but I would very much work with you again, sir. You were in a difficult position, between the military and your scientists. And you handled the situation as well as anyone could. I have learned from you, how to be a leader and how to…” She shrugs eloquently, “as inappropriate as it may sound, you and your incredible wife and your crazy graduate students have taught me how to love. Better than I ever have. And because of that, I will miss you.”
“Aww, Esquibel…” Jay goes in for the hug.
She wards him away. “You, not so much.”
Alonso laughs and pulls Jay into an embrace with Triquet. “No, don’t listen to her, Jay. We love you so much. You are our mascot. You are the littlest brother. In every family, it is the same. You get all the love but none of the attention.”
Chapter 48 – God, We Suck
November 22, 2024
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48 – God, We Suck
Triquet is monumentally annoyed. And the infuriating part about it is that they aren’t quite certain what it is annoying them. All they know is that things that normally don’t provoke any reaction in them are now enraging. The fiddly bits of the espresso maker. The disorganization of last week’s laptop files. These brown stains on their flower-fringed ankle socks that never seem to get truly clean. That’s what it is. Things have gotten so dingy here. The lovers are all quarreling. The villagers are stubbornly distant. Everything is covered in a layer of dirt. It’s enough to drive anyone batty.
With an immense effort, Triquet tries to shake off this ennui with a return to their tent. But none of their clothes hang on display any more. There’s no room in here. They sorely miss the bunker and its storage. And the sub. It’s basically lost as well. Getting to the sub now is a thirty minute crawl through mud. And Triquet can’t do it alone. So their investigations have slowed to a halt.
No. No more of this gloom and doom. It’s actually a pleasant morning after the gentle showers. The bees are buzzing. The sun even makes brief appearances and the dewy meadow glitters with refracted light. Come on, Triq. This is still paradise. Of course it’s dangerous. Everywhere is dangerous. Now put on some chiffon and find your courage, soldier. Even if the whole Lisica expedition ends tomorrow, it has still been one of the highlights of your life.
There. Triquet always looks better in green. Now, how to finish this look? Hmm. They left their really big pieces of costume jewelry at home. Otherwise it’d be that chunky fake jade necklace and bracelet set that’s half Cloris Leachman, half Flintstones. Here they’ll just make do with the wooden prayer beads and a fake garnet ring. They pull on a pair of booty shorts underneath for modesty, locate the pink slip-ons, and step back out into the fresh air feeling somewhat restored.
Makeup? No, not with the amount of sweating they’ll most likely do. Today is hopefully the last day of really putting this camp together. But it’s going to take all day. Triquet can see Flavia has already wired things to the solar panels. When Katrina gets back they can fly the parachute overhead again and get a little more protection from the rain. Then her lights can get strung and the little village will feel complete. But before then, Triquet has ideas.
First, a riverstone path to the trenches. Those have been dug a hundred meters upslope and away from the creek, over a rise and hidden in a cleft. It’s a better spot than they had on the beach but this isn’t sand beneath their feet. They’ll all quickly churn an ugly line of mud into the ground unless Triquet is able to prevent it.
Crossing the meadow to the creekside, Triquet is disappointed to find that the bank has no easily-removed rocks. They’d imagined this would be like most of the creeks they’re familiar with, mostly like the slate and flint banks of the Delaware Gap. But here it’s all loam and moss and ferns overhanging the banks and the water is running fast and black. No loose stones anywhere.
Following the creek upstream, Triquet unwittingly follows Amy’s footsteps up the canyon toward the tributary where she would have done their laundry. But they stop at the base of the cliff she ascended. Here is a pile of rounded rocks deposited during some long ago flood. Now it’s just a matter of transporting them. Triquet waves at the golden childs dogging them. “Care to lend a hand?”
But of course the youth makes no move to help.
Triquet unfolds a small tarp and loads as many of the big rocks onto it as they can safely manage. Then they drag it back to camp. Hm. These slip-ons are not the right shoes for the job after all. And maybe a flowing gown of tissue-thin fabric isn’t the best either. But it did unlock something about their mood. Now Triquet can see that it’s the unyielding pressure coming from the natives that’s making so many of them crack. It’s Jidadaa with her cryptic demands in the middle of the night, the shamans stalking them, the golden childs hovering. They are in an inexorable hydraulic press and its plates just keep squeezing closer and closer together.
Returning from their third trip with the stones, Triquet passes Mandy emerging from her tent, who looks completely out of sorts. “Good morning, sunshine.”
But Mandy doesn’t respond, peering at the sky instead. She steps further out from camp and crosses to the meadow.
Intrigued, Triquet drops their load on the pile and follows her.
Mandy holds a barometer. “Crap. Look at that.” She absently hands it to Triquet and scans the gray-mantled sky. This marine layer can often hide what’s happening above.
Triquet reads the barometer. “920 millibars. Very low. That’s what it says. Is very low bad?”
“920 now? OMG. Uh, that’s a lot more than very low. That’s like… one of the lowest recordings I’ve ever heard anywhere in the world. The world record is in the 890’s and that was a tropical cyclone in the West Pacific. My god. What’s coming our way?”
“You’re saying that means another storm’s coming? This is what they mean by a drop in barometric pressure? But like when? And how much? Can you retrieve your weather station first?”
“God! I haven’t been able to fetch it! I was going to, but then we found Jay and Pradeep instead. I mean, I’m super glad we found them, but… I need data!”
“Well, what’s your guess?”
Mandy accesses her newfound powers of observation. She smells the air deeply, noticing that it’s wet and perhaps a bit fruity, like it swept across continents of thawing tundra. Well, that will be its engine no doubt. Cold differentials. And the trees on the far ridge are riffling in a stiff breeze that has the character of a compressing wave, as if the air itself is being pushed hard from behind by an accelerating force. They don’t have long. An hour at the most. But this half-assed camp won’t be able to survive a real onslaught, not if it hits as hard as it promises. “So sorry. But my guess is that we will all have to go back into the sub for a few days.”
Triquet’s pile of rocks is still pathetically small. “No! I just got all this work done! And—and… Ah, hell.” They drop their head in defeat, a black mood descending again just like that.
“Ah! That’s why I’ve been so grumpy!” Mandy realizes in relief. “We’ve all been on edge! It’s because there’s a huge storm coming! This like looming threat feeling has totally been weighing on me. Oh, what a relief. I thought I was losing my mind.”
Triquet studies Mandy, uncertain about her conclusion. It’s eerie how much her analysis matches Triquet’s own, but it’s led them each in opposite directions. An oncoming storm somehow gives Mandy peace? Ye gods. No it doesn’t. Isn’t this just another compounding amount of pressure, to crush them all into bits?
Mandy waves at Miriam, still at work in her trench. “Hey, lady! Storm coming! The biggest!”
Miriam sighs in defeat. “Oh my days. Seriously? Turns out this place is as bad as Ireland. Great… When?”
Mandy squints at the sky. “Don’t know. Soon. We need a real roof over our heads for this one.”
Miriam uses the spade to clamber out of her trench, covered in dirt. “God forbid we ever get any actual work done.”
Ξ
Katrina unweaves the plaited cord that secures her to the trunk. Iwikanu smiles, encouraging her, tapping at her wrist with gentle fingertips. It is a long cord, stiff and thick as her finger. But she has depended this whole time upon its strength. Now it is time to go.
Finally it falls free and she is untethered, crouching on the fragile skein of this platform they’ve built high in the redwood canopy. Iwikanu smiles at the gap in the floor, the ground nearly a hundred meters below. She is expected to climb down through it and begin her long descent down the trunks and branches that form a woven series of living ladders all the way to the ground.
This fairy ring of redwoods is perched on the western slope of the interior bowl of the island. The land rises nearly vertically beside the trunks, with madrone trees pressing beneath, granting the irregular rungs for the ladders she climbs down.
Finally Katrina finds her way to the lowest trunk. This last ladder hangs down the trunk’s length in a long line of looped cords like the one that kept her safe above. But these are for her hands and feet, tied off at regular intervals. She supposes this ladder can be raised to prevent any attacks. She thinks once more of Singlung He and his aphorisms about attack and defense. “I don’t know. I’d be more worried about people shooting us from the hillside.”
The matted platform Katrina had spent the last day and night on was a marvel of construction, something she’d never conceived. It rocks quite strongly in the wind. Tall trees sway far more than she ever knew. When a gust pushes through this circle of columns, it hits one first and then the others at greater and greater delays, making the platform rock and oscillate with increasing force.
Those who live up here ride the rhythm with sea legs, never losing their footing, never tethered to the limbs. But Katrina could barely stay on her feet up there. She spent most of her time on her hands and knees, laughing and gasping in terror, trying to stay on the good side of her hosts as they finally gave up on her balance and tied her off with an umbilical cord to mother tree.
They did make it easy. The Shidl Dít were kind and patient with her, understanding her lack of experience being a bloody bird. It wasn’t that she was unwilling either. Or that she had a particular fear of heights. It was just… absolutely debilitating. Survival instincts kept shorting out her abilities. And gravity felt different up there, like it was on some sort of counterbalance or pendulum and if she didn’t watch herself her feet would kick out and she’d pivot from the waist and tip over some edge to her terrifying death.
Okay. Maybe she did have a fear of heights. But Katrina was fairly certain it was less the heights and more a fear of death. Or, as in the old joke, it’s not the fall that kills you, it’s the landing.
Only as she nears the ground does she notice that Iwikanu has descended with her, waiting patiently in the loops above for Katrina to drop to the earth. She does so and soon the two of them are standing face to face, sharing one last smile. Iwikanu unslings a boarskin bag and presents it to Katrina. “Ohh, that’s so sweet. God, I don’t even know if I have anything for you. Um. Here.” She pulls off a hair tie and makes a short ponytail of his hair. She wraps it tight and steps back. “You look proper handsome now.”
They say farewell in Russian and Katrina tells him that she will never forget him and that he must visit her in Australia some day. But this is more of the language than he knows so his smile just freezes and his eyes dart. She breaks off, the strong impulse to give him a hug bringing her up short. It’s probably a bad idea. She does it anyway. He laughs.
Then Iwikanu puts his golden mask back in place and steps away from her. She understands now, that this is a ritual distance that she cannot break, even if she needed him. Iwikanu is no longer her sweet new friend with a little sister and two gentle parents who gave up their own bed to her last night. Now he is what they call kadánda dayadi, child of pollen, child of the spring. And to them, he is no longer human. He is transformed.
She would have understood none of this if his chief the Dandawu hadn’t spoken a fair amount of pidgin Russian. But through broken phrases and mime and a lot of patience on both ends, they talked long into the night and again in the morning. He is an old man with extensive knowledge of the island, but little of the outside world. She did what she could to avoid too many unfamiliar ideas, and he showed no appetite for exploring them.
Katrina wonders what her insatiable curiosity must have seemed like to him. Is it just the unfathomable luxury of a modern life, to pursue knowledge for its own sake, even on topics that will never be useful? Is it just her overactive first-world brain that would be happier harvesting nuts and making boarskin leggings? She recalls telling one of her university professors about a hike she had taken and how she felt like a Stone Age nomad but he had corrected her. She was, in fact, nothing like a paleolithic human. Their conscious minds were fixed in the present, watching the branches of each tree for a bird that might make a meal, scanning shadows for predators waiting to make a meal of them. They did not have any fancy ideas about social media or petrol prices running through their heads. They couldn’t afford to. She is not any kind of ancient ancestor. Katrina is instead very much a product of her generation.
The day is gray and gusty. She knows the plan must be to retrace her steps back to pine camp and she only hopes she can remember how to do it. For being a hidden village, getting here was pretty straightforward. Two ridgelines and then a drop to the trees. So after she climbs that drop and follows the two ridgelines back, she should be where Iwikanu slaughtered that boar who attacked them.
Mentally, she divides the hike into four sections. Actually it forms a cohesive narrative, like they are each chapters in a novella, a charming story called Katrina’s Hike. The first chapter must be the introduction to her return, reacquainting herself with the ground and climbing the steep slope up to the top of the ridge, from which she can briefly spy the ocean on the western horizon, between gaps in the farther ridge’s peaks.
The second chapter is that first ridge, which leads her up and down its broken spine and over knobs of reddish stone. Miriam would like it here with all its exposed geology. But Katrina would prefer to get back under the trees. This is too much sun and wind for her all day.
The third chapter is the second ridge, a transverse line across the south of the island that brings her back to the east and the valley at the bottom of the sloping Douglas Firs. But the weather is starting to sour here. The wind really sweeps through the trees now and each gust brings the crack of falling branches. Getting close now. This is the far end of the valley in which that boar lived. All she has to do is cross it again and she’ll be home in no time.
But… as if there’s a pressure-sensitive plate beneath this meadow, as soon as Katrina steps onto it, the skies open up and a deluge of rain drops on her head from out of nowhere. The meadow darkens and the temperature drops. She is instantly drenched.
Cursing at the icy water finding its way beneath her three light layers, her teeth start chattering. “Got to… keep moving…” If she can just get back to camp she’ll be able to dry out.
Katrina ascends the final slope as runnels of water race past her, tearing the soil out from under her soles. It is a grim half hour of struggling against the elements. The wind and rain lash at her, chilling her to the bone. The golden childs who is otherwise Iwikanu still paces behind, patiently watching but never helping.
When Katrina finally does get back to pine camp, water sheets across the ground, carrying away the pine needles, the tents are all soaked through, and no one is there.
Ξ
Alonso and Miriam limp into the village, holding a hopping and grimacing Triquet between them. They are all soaked to the skin and miserable. Just before entering the village Triquet had slipped in the mud and twisted their left ankle. Despite assuring their older colleagues that they can walk it off, they had fussed over Triquet and hauled them up by the arms, nearly carrying them the last few paces with care. Easing their patient down to the deck of Morska Vidra’s covered porch, the three refugees look around.
The village looks deserted in the purplish downpour. No smoke, no light in any door. Puddles are already forming pools in the village square. The only sound is the creak of the trees in the wind.
Alonso grabs a handful of Triquet’s clothing and wrings it out with strong hands. He shares a sidelong pleased look with Miriam. “Did you see?”
She is shivering, slicking back her hair to get the water to stop dripping into her eyes. “See what?” She scans the village again.
“No no…” Alonso stands again. “Mira.” Then he crouches. “I helped Triquet. I carried them. For the first time. I helped. I was the carrier instead of the carried.” His proud smile is so wide.
She nods, dumbly, knowing how significant this is but unable to find enthusiasm within her. She squeezes his hand instead and looks into his eyes, her breath ragged.
“Oh, Mirrie, you’re freezing.” Alonso reaches over Triquet’s legs and envelops her in a bearhug.
Triquet thinks of saying something, but then doesn’t. Instead, they fall back in regard to study the two dark figures in embrace. What must it be like to love so well, so long? It is outside Triquet’s experience. Their parents certainly never did. Growing up, they had a few friends with cool moms and dads but certainly nothing like this. There is a silence in the contact point between them, as if Miriam and Alonso have sealed themselves together. Dyadic withdrawal. Triquet remembers the term from a sociology course. They have just retreated into a world they alone populate where they are something larger than themselves alone. And now the storming world is beaten back, with Triquet sheltering beneath.
Finally they break free and Alonso blows on her fingertips. Then he places a strong hand across Triquet’s chest. “How is the pain?”
“Oh, I’ll be fine. But I saw you, Alonso! I sure did! Big man on campus, carrying me away. How are you?”
“There is pain, certainly, yes.” Alonso considers what to say next about it. But nothing more is required. He holds out his hands and shrugs. “I am only glad I can help such a sweetheart.”
“Can we like… knock on his door?” Miriam stands, staring doubtfully at the hut. “What do you think, Zo?”
“I think they are not here. I mean, where even is the door?”
Miriam and Alonso step toward the black gap between the redwood bark boards that used to be covered by a door of smaller bark pieces. He leans his head in. “Hello…? Ah. Here is the door. They stowed it inside. I wonder why.”
“There’s no one in there?” Miriam steps inside, ducking low. The ceiling isn’t much more than Amy’s height. Alonso has to hunch over quite a lot.
“And nothing. There is only a door. And an old… eh, loom? Bedframe? I do not know what this is here in the corner.”
“But where did they go? I mean, the floor’s dry. Why would you leave your dry house in the middle of a huge storm? Madness.”
Another refugee arrives, stepping on the boards of the porch outside. It is Esquibel. She ducks in and looks around. “Good. This one is empty. And it has a firepit. Bring him in here.”
Alonso and Miriam go back outside to find Maahjabeen and Flavia unlashing Pradeep from the travois. Soon Esquibel helps them pull his unresisting body inside. His eyes are open and his face is slack. Mandy follows, carrying a sodden ball of sleeping bags and pillows. She disappears within as well.
“What the F?” Jay stands in the center of the the village, turning round and round. “Ghost town. Great. Where’d everybody go? And what do they know that we don’t?” The rain is cold but not frigid and he’s warmed up now. It’s just a lot. Even with his hood cinched tight, it’s hard to keep it out of his ears and eyes.
Alonso watches him from the porch. He beckons to Jay, in disbelief that the boy literally doesn’t have the sense to come in from out of the rain. “Come on. Get out of there and dry off.”
“Hold on, chief.” Jay pokes his head into each of the other huts first. They’re all empty, all the belongings gone except the doors. “So weird… Hey, Alonso. Why do they put the doors inside?”
“Maybe so they do not float away?”
“Seriously. I’m going to float away for sure.” Jay steps onto the porch, shakes like a dog, and unzips his rain parka. It kept him pretty dry except for a hefty leak at his neck. But he’s in shorts and sandals anyway. “You think we can all fit in there?”
Esquibel sticks her head out as Jay asks this. “Firewood,” she orders. “Before you get out of your wet things.”
Jay sighs. “Sure thing, Doc.” He zips his parka right back up and steps out into the downpour.
Once Esquibel withdraws from the small door, Alonso peeks in. Yes, they are all settled and now there is room for the rest of them. “Come on, Triquet. Let’s drag you in here too.”
“Oh, fine. I’m fine. I’m coming.” Triquet hauls themself to their feet and tries putting weight on the ankle. “Yes. Perfectly fine.” But then they try tilting their foot outward and pain runs up the outside of their lower leg. “Or, well, not entirely. But walking I can do. Careful walking. Or even crawling.” It does seem like the better option. They make a grand entrance, on hands and knees, but no one even looks up. The others are engaged in their own struggles. Triquet finds a spot in the far corner and eases their back against the blackened timbers.
Miriam also drops against the wall with a groan, still shivering. Triquet drapes an arm across her shoulders and she leans into it. “How about a fire? Anyone? That pipe’s a smoke hole, right?” An intact tube of bark is stuck in the roof at a shallow angle. Whenever the wind swirls a few raindrops spatter in.
Esquibel nods. “Jay is getting us some wood.”
“And here he is.” Alonso steps away from the door to give him room to enter.
Jay ducks in with an apologetic half-smile. He is empty-handed. “Nada. They took it all. Wherever they went, I guess they knew they’d need their firewood.”
“Well we need a fire too.” Esquibel is worried about Pradeep. She doesn’t know how he will deal with all these extreme changes in his environment, just on a metabolic level. She doesn’t know if he can generate enough heat. What are these bizarre narcotics the shamans keep using against them? They present in ways she’s never seen with any compound or heard about in any literature. Oh, yes. This is a new drug we discovered on an island called Lisica. It removes your soul.
Jay shrugs. “We can burn the door.”
Miriam barks a sarcastic laugh, appreciating the dark humor. But then she stops herself. “Oh, you’re serious. And how do you think our hosts will like us after we’ve done that?”
Jay shrugs again. “It’s the only dry wood around. I can build them another door when the storm dies down no problem.”
“Yes, do it.” Esquibel doesn’t have time for the niceties of outreach and community engagement right now. “We need the fire. And we need that door to last all night. So keep it modest.”
“Will do.”
Jay pulls the door away from the wall and makes a face. “Okay. Problem one. This is redwood bark, which is super flame-resistant. Good against rot too. But it’s going to be a bitch to burn. Problem two. No dry kindling. So that’s going to be fun. Not exactly sure how we’ll get this done yet… Aha! But the frame is another wood, like laurel. Now that’s some good firewood there. Okay. I got a plan.” He pulls a buck knife and collapsible saw from his pack.
They all work in silence at their various tasks. Mandy helps Maahjabeen out of her sodden jacket and squeezes out her thick hair for her. But Maahjabeen only has thoughts for Pradeep. He doesn’t shiver but there is a bluish cast to his skin that worries her. “Mandy, please cover the door with a blanket. Where is that fire?”
As if she invoked it, a flame blooms under Jay’s hand in a pile of sawdust and strips of kindling. They all turn to watch as he coaxes it to life, putting wafer-thin sheets of redwood bark atop it. These only blacken and smoke but refuse to catch fire. “Need to make it hotter…” Jay pushes more kindling into the blaze and soon it reaches a critical heat, igniting all the other fuel he carefully places on the growing pyramid.
The heat spreads into the wide room, smoke spiraling up into the canted smokehole. Firelight flickers against the dark walls. They all ease back, letting the fire give them its primeval comfort.
“I love a good plasma.” They are Flavia’s first words. She has been engaged in a long silent struggle against the deteriorating conditions of the day. But the sight of those bluish-orange twisting sheets of ionized heat soothe her. “Remember the bunker? How nice it used to be in there?”
“I loved the bunker!” Mandy clasps her hands under her chin. “It was like one big dorm room. And the sub?”
“We should go back to the sub.” Yet as Triquet says it they realize how impossible that would be right now. Descending the tree trunk down that shaft in the tunnels would be agony on their ankle. What a dope, stumbling in the mud like that.
“We are not going anywhere.” Esquibel says it firmly, cutting the foolish notion off before they can seriously consider it. “This fire is the most important thing right now. Keeping Pradeep warm.”
“Did anybody bring food?” Flavia presses a hand against her growling belly. “I didn’t realize how hungry I am until now.”
“Shh.” Alonso holds up a hand. “There is somebody outside.”
They can all hear tentative footsteps on the planks of the porch. A tension winds in the air. Jay stands, gripping his knife. Is this it? Is this his moment? Is Wetchie-ghuy about to come barrelling in here with his potions and his spells? Where will Jay even stab him? He should probably decide before the whole thing goes down so he knows how to hold his knife. In the neck, like a stab down from above? Or a slash across his belly, which means he should reverse his grip and…
A figure leans in, dark and hidden, and a breathless voice hisses the Lisican greeting, the final syllable rising in hope. “Bontiik…?”
It is Katrina.
Mandy squeals and throws herself at her, pulling Katrina into the hut and squeezing her tight. The space is suddenly charged with everyone’s heat and movement, their exclamations and questions. They all have to hug Katrina, or at least touch her or pet her hair. For a long sweet interlude, it’s nothing but chatter and laughter and most of the sounds they make aren’t even words.
Finally they settle again. Katrina scans their faces. “Still no Amy? Blimey. Out somewhere in this storm? Poor dear. I hope the shamans are keeping her dry.”
“Jidadaa told us,” Alonso informs her, “that the shamans do not have her and neither she nor the golden childs know where Amy is. We are very worried. Very worried.”
“I mean… She’s an outdoors person, right? Probably living better than we are right now.”
“Where are the golden childs anyway? Have we seen them?”
“Oh, yeh.” Katrina points back out the door. “They’re out there a few houses down. Just watching. They’re kadánda dayadi, like the children of pollen. Don’t worry about them.”
“Why?” Triquet asks. “What does that mean?”
“So… From the beginning… They brought me to their village in the trees. Crazy place. Way up high in the redwoods. And they had this long ceremony to remove their masks up there. Lots of colored powders smeared on their skins then washed off. And when it was all over the bloke next to me took off his golden mask and he was just this guy. He introduced himself as Iwikanu. We were totally best buds. He took me to his parents’ house and they fed me some nice eggs and mash and his little sister couldn’t get over my pale white weirdness. Just like prodded me all night. She was so cute. But yeh. When he put his mask back on he wasn’t Iwikanu any more. They told me he transformed into an agent of the gods. The springtime god, to be exact. They’ve only got a couple more weeks of this before summer comes and the kadánda dayadi vanish like pollen on the wind.”
“So poetic.” Miriam unlaces Katrina’s shoes and peels off her socks for her. “And how did you learn all this?”
“Their chief speaks a bit of Russian. I learned so much. But here. Look. Check this out first.” Katrina holds up her prize, the sack that Iwikanu gifted her at the base of the tree. It is large and heavy and she is tired of carrying it.
Jay goggles. “What the hell? What is that made of?” He grabs the sack. “This is like pigskin. Feels like some giant hairy NFL football. Ew. Where’d you get that?”
“There’s boars, Jay. On the island. One attacked me. That’s why he took me back to their village. I needed to help him carry—”
“I knew it!” Jay crows. “Remember when the bad village showed up and they had those cross-braces on their spears? I just knew there had to be big-game hunting! And what’s in here?”
“Go ahead and open it.”
Jay unfolds the irregular flaps of the sack to find ingots of raw flesh, gleaming and purple, inside. Dozens. “What the…? Oh, baby! We’re eating like kings tonight!”
The hut fills with their joyful clamor once again. Nobody is happier than Flavia. She grabs Katrina and kisses her face over and over. Jay hops up and down like a child at Christmas. Only Alonso sighs, doleful, and Triquet sees it. “Ah, what’s wrong, boss man? Not a pork guy?”
“I love it. But I miss my wine. It would pair so well.”
Triquet giggles. “And bring me some truffle oil while we’re at it.”
Alonso laughs, appreciating the teasing. “Yes, I’m a wretched alcoholic, it’s true. Very spoiled. Eh. Mira. This bag is made from a single pig, just stitched up the sides. Kind of gross.”
“I don’t think that meat is very hygienic,” Esquibel cautions. “How long has it been out? Over 24 hours, yes?”
“Well they didn’t carve it up until this morning if that makes you feel any better. Then they rubbed this oil all over it and packed it away. I didn’t think I was going to get to taste it. Was kind of broken up about it, to be honest. But they were just waiting to give me my share! Oh, he was such a brute. His tusks were so scary, just like these pointed broken giant teeth coming at you.”
“Ehh…” Esquibel is unconvinced. “What kind of oil?” But then Jay gently drops the first steaks directly on the burning coals and the sizzle fills the night air with heady scents. “Just make sure you sear all the edges at least.” Then Esquibel has to stop talking because there is suddenly too much saliva in her mouth.
They all watch in silence as Jay cooks. He is a timeless figure, stooped over the flames, tending to the first feast of the hunt. From time to time he pokes at the sizzling meat with his fingers, testing its consistency. Within a few minutes he’s pulling the first ones free, knocking the ash from the charred crust.
Flavia has found a small flat tray in her belongings that can serve as a plate. “Here, Jay. Right here. Come to mama.”
With a grimace he drops it onto her plate and waves his fingers to cool them. Jay grins at Flavia, wolfish. “Let me know how it is.”
Flavia kisses him. “I have never been so attracted to you as I am right now.” They all laugh at her but now there is a sharp edge of anticipation in it as they crowd round. Flavia doesn’t even offer to share. She picks at it, blowing on the steak to cool it, and tears a bit off the corner. “Oh. Che meraviglia. So good. A little chewy. Gamey. Is that the word? But who cares.”
She hands the plate to Esquibel, who wrinkles her nose, inspects it minutely, then takes a bite. “Ah. Very hot. That is good.” She waves her hand in front of her face. “To kill the bacteria so… Oh.” Then she starts chewing in earnest. “Oh. This is amazing.”
“Yeah, I bet that oil is really helping lock in the juices.” Jay giggles, dropping the next finished steak on top of the first. Mandy finds another lid as a plate and soon they’re all eating and groaning in pleasure, falling back against the walls of the hut with dirt and ash and grease smeared on their chins.
“But what did you learn from this chief of theirs?” Alonso finally asks Katrina, licking his fingers. “You say he speaks Russian. That is another thing Jidadaa told us, that Russians visit them regularly. The tree village. What did you learn about that?”
“Oh, you saw Jidadaa? How is she?”
“Same as ever. She rescued Prad from Wetchie-ghuy at least.” Jay allows some grudging admiration to color his words.
Esquibel repeats, “Katrina. Tell us of the Russians.”
“It’s not a very good relationship.” Katrina is still eating. She can’t stop and there’s still three steaks they haven’t finished. “Lots of distrust. Strictly transactional I think, although I can’t figure out what the Russians give the Thunderbirds in return. The Shidl Dít. Like I didn’t see any modern stuff anywhere up on their platform. Maybe like some winter coats from Siberia or something.”
“And what do the Russians want from the Thunderbirds?” Esquibel locates a notepad and pen. She wants to make sure she gets what Katrina tells her recorded word-for-word. This is the most valuable intelligence she can bring back.
“And why are they even called the Thunderbirds?” Jay wonders. “I mean, like there are only a few birds in the whole world that can strictly be called thunderbirds and we haven’t—”
“Jay.”
“Sup, Doc?”
“Let her answer my question first please. National security and all that.”
“Oh. For sure.”
Katrina shrugs. “Well, like I said, there’s a lot of distrust. And like layers, you know? So I didn’t get what you’d call a straight answer. But they really opened up after I sang them some Marvin Gaye. They think I’m some kind of wizard.”
“That is so wild that they don’t have music.” Jay shakes his head. “I mean, can you imagine what your daily life would—?”
“Jay! Please!” Esquibel glares at him.
Katrina shakes her head in memory of the painstaking dialogue. “We went back and forth. Lots of miming. After a couple hours of that, what I was finally able to figure out is that what the Russians want here more than anything is the foxes.”
Esquibel’s pen is poised above the blank sheet of note paper. She blinks. “Eh? The foxes? What do you mean?”
“You mean like for their fur?” Jay frowns. “That’s so, like, 19th century. Nobody wears fur any more.”
“Okay… Eh…” Miriam can make no more sense of it than any of the others. “So did the Thunderbirds give them the foxes?”
“On that point,” Katrina manages through a full mouth, “they were quite clear. Absolutely not.”
They all consider this in a perplexed silence.
“But what did the Russians have to say about the Americans or the Chinese? Anything on that?” Esquibel can’t tell her superiors that the Russians were here like English bloody lords hunting foxes for sport. They’d tell her this whole mission was a waste.
“They don’t know. I tried to get kind of geopolitical for a bit but the Thunderbirds are like wildly incurious about the world outside. They know Lisica and its three tribes and that’s about it. But they know Lisica better than anyone else, I’m pretty sure. Even better than the shamans. The Dandawu has the deep cuts, that’s for sure. Like, they recognized the name Maureen Dowerd, Triquet. They like fully remember her.”
“Oh my god. The modern mystery. Yes,” Triquet groans. “Can we please get back to that?”
“She was a friend to all the tribes. The only one who could speak to everyone, even the great shaman at the time, Aan Eyagídi. It was the first time they had met an outsider who was a woman and not a soldier. And he spoke of her great heart. She sounds like a lovely woman. Very charming.”
“And then she fell in love with a local.”
“Yes, and that is when the fractures appeared. The Shidl Dít had no problem with their affair and the child she had. But those nasty Ussiaxan condemned them both. He said they’re the ones who caused her death. And for years they hunted her lover too. Killed him when he was old. But their lineage lives on. All those blond curls. Morska Vidra’s village mostly had no problem, but some did and left them to go live across the river. Reactionairies and their racial purity. Tale as old as time.”
Jay calculates. “So it was the, like, grandparents of the Lady Boss and that whole crew who killed Maureen? Poor thing.”
“Not exactly. We went round and round about this all night. The Dandawu used different words for what the Ussiaxan did to Maureen and her lover. They killed her lover. That was clear. But for her he used a more complex phrase, like ‘they brought about the reasons for her death.’ Like they set some kind of trap.”
“That’s wicked.” Triquet shakes their head. “And this is how the past informs the present. I wasn’t sure the bad tribe would hold their grudge forever but it sounds like that’s exactly what they do.”
“And the Dandawu confirmed the Ussiaxan kept all the secrets. On Maureen Dowerd and the Russians and the Americans and the Chinese. When Wetchie-ghuy deposed Aan Eyagídi during the time of the twelfth mothers, the Ussiaxan took all the island’s maps and diaries and keepsakes to what they call the treasure house—”
Triquet claps their hands to their mouth. “Oh my god there’s actual diaries out there? Plural? Mine mine mine! Ooo baby. That’s like textual chronology primary source white gold.”
“Yeah, but all surrounded by about like sixty warlike spear-warriors,” Jay reminds them. “We’d need like Seal Team Six to drop on their heads if we want to snag their shit.”
Now Esquibel is writing. “It is in their village, you say?”
But Katrina hesitates. “Ehm, you aren’t going to like call in a missile strike or anything, are you?”
“Are you serious? No. I can’t do that. This is just information-gathering. A big part of my job here.”
“I mean he didn’t tell me exactly, but yeh. I figure it’s in there with all their holy holies.”
“Do any of the Ussiaxan speak Russian?” Alonso doesn’t like how close this aggressive tribe is. Just across the creek. How much will their taboo to cross it matter if they are impelled by a greater need to kill the foreigners? “Can we reason with them?”
“No. Chinese. They’ve been contacted regularly by the Chinese, who come in from the north and always avoid the Russians and the Americans.” Katrina looks everywhere but at Esquibel. “They also used to be the contact tribe for the Japanese, like 80 or 90 years ago during the war.”
“That was the bunker I found on the west coast during that first storm.” Maahjabeen shakes her head at the memory. It seems like it was from six years ago, not six weeks. “Definitely old. Definitely Japanese. And Soviet too. So there’s some crossover.”
“I really need to get a look at that site.” Triquet flexes their ankle. “Some day. Could you like tow me on a raft?”
“Oh, the breakers would never allow it.”
“And the other really cool thing he told me,” Katrina continues, “is about the founding of the island. He said it was one man and two sisters. They were Eyat but he was Rumelian.”
“Rumelian?” Alonso wonders. “What is Rumelian?”
“I have no idea,” Katrina answers. “I was hoping one of you would know.”
But none of them do.
“What are you doing?” Flavia asks Jay, as he shakes as much water off his coat as possible and pulls it back on.
“Just thinking. One place I haven’t looked. Maybe it would be a good idea before it gets too late.”
“Where’s that?” Miriam asks.
“In the caves. That’s got to be where they’re hiding, right?”
“The sub,” Triquet grumbles. “Scattering all my sorted piles.”
“Who knows?” Jay goes to the door and pulls Mandy’s blanket wide. The loud drumming of the rain is disheartening, convincing all the others to stay by the fire. “Back in a sec.”
“That boy is a lunatic,” Alonso announces. “But I am glad we have him back.”
Jay returns nearly instantly. “Yep. Cave mouth is just full of all their belongings. But no villagers to be seen. They got no faith in their huts during a storm like this, I guess. And look!” He pulls a bundle of sticks through the door. “Stole some of their firewood!”
All the others are pleased, but Katrina thinks back on her time with the Dandawu and all the kindnesses his people showed her. She shakes her head in despair. “God, we suck.”