Chapter 52 – A Human Body
December 23, 2024
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52 – A Human Body
Esquibel releases the climbing rope and lands on the far side of the creek. They’ve suspended it between two trees and she’s the first one across. Now she scans the treeline around her, looking for threats, as Mandy grabs the rope behind her.
“Wait, Skeebee! My hands aren’t as strong as yours!” She hangs straight-armed from the rope over the opposite bank, her toes dragging in the current.
“Hook your legs over too! Like a spider!” Esquibel mimics the technique. “Your heels!”
With a heave, Mandy swings her body up onto the line and gets a leg over. Then the other. She inches across, followed by Katrina. Esquibel helps them both to the ground.
“Jidadaa!” Esquibel’s voice rings out, filling the meadow. “Last chance! We can’t wait any longer!”
But the island girl remains missing. They haven’t seen her since they started packing. And she was supposed to guide them.
“Anyway, I know where we’re headed.” Katrina strikes out across the meadow, pushing against the green grasses that are just now starting to turn gold and brown. They reach her elbows, their flowers and stalks and fronds surrounding her in a vibrant rainbow. To the treeline she goes, where the Ussiaxan had marched away to, and where she had seen their trail from the drone.
It is less of a clear path on the ground when they reach it, more an absence of obstacles. Yet it is the only passable tunnel through the thickets and dense copses of young saplings. Every shade and hue of green is here, from the darkest fir to the most fluorescent leaf, and everything in between.
Following Katrina’s footsteps, Esquibel considers whether she should get her sidearm out yet. Worried about ambushes ever since they came up with this scheme, she had resolved to be always on guard from such a thing. But now that they face the immensity of the vegetation before them, she realizes how impossible it would be to anticipate any kind of ambush. She can hardly see a meter in front of her face.
Katrina halts, peering into the tangle. “Feels like the very heart of the island, eh? Like we just been nibbling round the fringes this whole time but these Ussiaxans live in an absolute ocean of greenery. Kind of claustrophobic, to be honest. And dark.”
“What did Jidadaa mean,” Esquibel asks, trying fruitlessly to see past Katrina, “when she knew the villagers would return by night? She confirmed it by saying they only move in shadow. Are they… nocturnal? I thought you said your encounters with them with all their spears and speeches in the meadow were during the day.”
“Yes, but in the instance that I saw,” Katrina says, picking her way forward through hanging vines and heavy fir limbs, “they were responding to an immediate security threat. So maybe they rousted themselves out of bed or something. Hard to say. But she was pretty sure they wouldn’t be back til sunset and we’ve definitely learned to trust her. Oh, here’s an open bit. Look at all the clover.”
They spill out into a long narrow defile filled with the clover’s pink blooms. A tiny rill splashes with water below hanging lilies. “It’s all so… charming.” Mandy trails her hands through the soft petals of the lilies. “Like this is what I imagine when people talk about magical forests. With elves and fairies and all that. There could be like a unicorn stepping out from behind that tree and I wouldnt even be surprised, you know?”
“Yes, I know all about your overactive imagination.” Esquibel peers past Katrina to the end of her view. “It looks like we must make a decision soon.”
“Ah. Right.” Katrina approaches the T instersection ahead. The trail is forced either left or right by the sudden rise of the forested slope before them. “This is that ridge that hides the Ussiaxan from the big meadow behind us. If I had to guess, going to the left is probably a bit shorter.”
“Then maybe it is the path they are watching.” Esquibel looks to the right. That way vanishes in a curving tunnel through the dense vegetation. It looks hardly better to the left, with the exception of a patch of light in the distance that implies an opening in the forest.
“Yeah, let’s swing around the long way and sneak up on anyone if they’re there.” Mandy takes a step to the right.
“I don’t know…” Katrina grimaces. “I think we have to trust Jidadaa here. She said it’s empty, but she also said there’s a time limit, eh? I’m worried we go off to the right and get lost just trying to get around this hill. Let’s go left and make it as quick as can be. I don’t want to even be on this side of the creek in like three hours.”
They both turn to Esquibel. Her thoughts are taken up on the delicate negotiations she plans to have with the Japanese operative. Who knows how long that might take. She will have to defer their time concerns to the objectives of her mission, at least within reason. In the end, it is the patch of light to the left that decides her. She needs to get out of these thickets before she loses her mind. “Left. And quickly.”
They hurry ahead, single-file, Esquibel now in the lead. Her hand remains inside her black satchel, around her pistol grip. The decision to keep it hidden is less about the natives and more about the way Mandy will look at her.
“How…?” Katrina asks idly behind her. “How did we get to a point where we’re willing to risk our lives for this shit?”
But Esquibel has no answer for this. Instead of such philosophical questions, her mind has cramped down into the necessities this mission dictates. In fact, such existential matters aren’t suitable here. “Let’s focus. We are here now. And the path is getting wider. I am on point, so I will be looking ahead. Katrina, I want your field of view here,” Esquibel extends her left arm, “to the left. And if you see anyone you tap me. Mandy. You look to the right. And every third step I want you looking behind. We will do this properly.”
The opening they enter is from an old rock slide that fell off the bluff above and collapsed a whole grove of trees. To judge by the height of the saplings coming up through the deadfall, it can’t have been much more than a dozen years or so. But the gray sky is visible here, and the bare bluff that emerges from the ridge above is crowned with dark red faces of stone.
“Wait.” Before Esquibel enters the clearing, she stops them in the last of the treeline. Pointing at the crown of the bluff, she whispers, “If I was to set a watch, it would be up there. Let’s wait and see if anyone gives their position away.”
They wait there for several silent minutes, peering at the dark edge of the crown’s silhouette. But nothing moves. Finally, with a decisive nod, Esquibel hurries them along the dusty path that can be found between the fallen logs. They clamber over firs as tall as themselves, trying to hurry. But it is a good ten minutes before they win free to the far side.
Gasping, Mandy hisses, “Well if there was someone up there we are definitely dead now. Dead dead dead.”
“Mandy, stop.” Esquibel considers leaving the other two here, where they can hide among the trees, and going on alone. But no. If they have learned anything at all about Lisica it is to never split up. “Stay close. We’re heading in toward city limits now I think.”
“Yeh.” Katrina nods, trying to square the view she had in the air with what she now sees on the ground. They’ve definitely skirted the ridge and are about to head in, aren’t they? “I just hope we can find their trail up that bluff. If we’re going to get the drone back we got to get up there somewhere on the return trip.”
“Close. And quiet now. This will be the most dangerous part.” Esquibel’s warning silences them. They hunch forward, Mandy hooking her fingers into Katrina’s waistband. “Remember to watch. And tap me. Don’t walk on leaves or branches unless you must. Step softly. Now let’s go.”
The three women hurry silently through this last stand of trees. Soon they can spy the first of the log houses through the trunks. They stop and listen but there is no sound. So far, it does seem that the settlement is abandoned. Then the complacent grunt of a pig breaks the silence. That’s right. They have livestock.
Esquibel reconsiders her plan to enter the village proper. These animals will make too much noise when they see the strangers. She pulls the other two down into a crouch and speaks as softly as she can. “Look. We do not need the town. We only need the treasure house. Look there first, at least. We can skirt all the rest to the left here, in a wide arc. Where would you say the treasure house is?”
For an answer, Katrina turns instead to the ridge, now behind them to the south. She tries to orient herself based on where the drone had been in relation to that landmark. She turns to the northeast and points. “There, I reckon. About half a klick out.”
Esquibel nods, heartened to hear this kind of precise data. It’s exactly what she needs. “Okay. Same as before. Quietly in this line here. You said there’s a stream?”
“Yeh. We’ll have to cross it somewhere.”
They follow a broad but shallow diagonal slope through brown pine needles. Their footfalls here are noiseless and they pass like ghosts. Mandy holds her breath, clutching her hands together. So many parts of her want to freak out or collapse or complain but she knows this is all too important. Adrenaline so far keeps her alert. She has always prided herself on being good in a crisis. It’s just that this crisis is eight weeks long…
Mandy releases her breath and looks at Esquibel’s long lean back, her slender arm that still reaches into that satchel. Yes, she knows what’s in there. She just hopes it doesn’t come to violence. Mandy hates violence. But she came because she has made her choice. She is with Esquibel, come what may. And if Skeebee is in danger, then Mandy will be too.
But they make it to the bank of the stream without seeing anyone or raising any alarm. Now how will they get across? Its width is only a third of the creek they belayed across, but it looks like they will certainly have to get wet for at least a few steps.
“Here.” Katrina lifts a couple fallen logs, about as thick as her leg and twice as long. She puts one down across the front of a shoal of stones in the stream, giving them an easier start. Then she edges to the end of that log, skips onto a close-by stone, and places the second log she cradles onto the next patch of open water. This time, the log rolls and floats back against a few rocks, but never stabilizes. “Aw, well. Wet feet it is.” Katrina shrugs and splashes the rest of the way across, the water cresting just above her knees.
The two others join her on the far bank, where they all remove their shoes and squeeze the water from their socks. Katrina nods along the bank. “We’re upstream of it here, fairly sure. There’s hills up that way.” She points to the north. “When Jidadaa said the Ussiaxan had taken to the hills I was pretty sure that’s where she meant, so we are not going that direction at all.”
“Agreed.” Esquibel puts her shoes back on and stands. “Come. We are making good time. But if you see the operative, I need you to stand back at a distance and allow me to have private words with him. He will not speak to me otherwise.”
“Sure.” Mandy squeezes Esquibel’s hand in encouragement.
But Katrina looks at her sideways. “Private words? What kind of game are you playing now, Doctor Daine?”
Esquibel grimaces. “No game. If you were contacting an agent in the field, what would you do if they showed up unannounced with two civilians? This will be very tricky. Please.”
Katrina only shakes her head in distaste. “Bloody spooks.”
From a distance, the cottage almost looks like a mirage. It is so out of place, after their weeks of bark huts and concrete bunkers, that Katrina feels like she must be tripping. It’s quite beautiful, with planed planks of the darkest wood and a steep pitched roof. A carved cross is in the lintel above the narrow doors. Is it a church?
Its clearing is a well-maintained lawn of clover and meadow grasses. They wait at the edge of the woods to check for signs of life but apart from the trilling of songbirds and the buzzing of insects they don’t hear a sound.
With a shrug, Katrina stands. “Get on with it, I reckon.”
Esquibel nods. “Do not put yourself in the doorway. Stay behind me. Let’s go.”
She approaches the dark entrance, the ancient panels of the two doors tilted ajar. Straps of hide act as hinges and the top ones have rotted through. Esquibel clears her throat. No sound within. “Hello?” Her voice is flat and low and vanishes without a trace.
Mouthing the word ‘wait’ to the others, she takes out her phone and turns on its light. She peers into the shadowed building.
It is dark, with a dirt floor and stripes of gray light across the floor and the assorted treasures collected here. And there are so many, piles upon piles of clothing and papers and stacks of furs. But not a single person within. Oh, heaven help her. Where is he?
Katrina slips past Esquibel through the door after she sees her sag in disappointment. Disappointment can’t be dangerous, can it? She enters and beholds the staggering array of treasures here. “Oh my word. Good thing we didn’t bring Triquet. We’d never get them to leave. Here. Uh. Video everything. Photos of all the documents we can…” Katrina turns, and then sees against the left-hand wall the written word she saw in that old photograph. Here, written in the Cyrillic: “Jidadaa.” And below it, positioned as a shrine just as in the old photo, reside a clutch of postwar American memorabilia. The tapestry Katrina had studied still hangs here, tattered and rotten. The ancient fishing spear and the battered reliquary box haven’t been moved in decades.
Katrina falls to her knees before the reliquary. It is a little dark wood box with bits of off-color enamel decorating it in an abstract pattern. Triquet could give her its entire provenance, she’s sure, but to her untrained eye it looks like maybe 18th century, central European. The Orthodox cross on a staff leaning beside the fishing spear moves her estimate east, though, as do the Slavic linguistic clues she’s been collecting.
With her fingertips she eases the lid open. It cracks and the wood slides sideways, stuck on a frozen hinge of wooden dowels. Katrina quivers in place, worried about damaging it further. But there’s nothing to be done about it now. She pushes the protesting lid up a centimeter or so before the wood cracks again.
Using a finger to fish within, her first touch crumbles a rolled paper. She pulls her finger out. It’s just too old. And she doesn’t know what she’s doing. “I can’t…”
“Someone’s coming.” Mandy covers her mouth with her hands and retreats to Esquibel.
All three of them scan the interior. There is nowhere to hide. The piles are too low, the architecture too simple. It’s nothing but corners and shadows.
Esquibel’s sidearm finally comes out. It is a standard-issue M18 pistol, battleship gray, steady in her grasp. She points it at the door.
Mandy turns away in dismay.
A shadow fills the light of the cracked door. An older, thickset man steps through. Upon seeing them, he freezes. All that move are his eyes, taking in the women, the weapon, the damaged reliquary at their feet.
Finally, he speaks. “Ni hao ma.”
He gestures with an open hand and Katrina recognizes him. “Fuck me. This is the bloke I saw from the air. You were in here, weren’t you, with that other lady? Having an argument. And now you’re speaking Chinese? Wild. Uh, ni hao.”
He nods imperceptibly, his eyes locked now on Esquibel’s pistol. With careful deliberation, he begins a speech. His Chinese vocabulary is very limited and his accent is poor. But it doesn’t matter since none of the three women speak the language.
With his hands up, the man slides sideways into the room, edging toward the shrine they stand before. He points at something on the wall behind them, and mimes draping a necklace around his neck. Now some of his words lapse into Lisican, as he tries to explain what he wants. He’s striking a deal. With his hands, he mimes pushing the reliquary toward them.
“We take this and you get whatever’s on the wall back there you want?” Katrina asks. “And none’s the wiser? In fact, they’ll think we’re the ones took whatever you got, so it’s yours forever, eh? Well I wasn’t going to actually nab this thing. It was more going to be a photo kind of shoot but… I mean, if we’re actually taking things, it sounds like a fair deal to me.” Katrina lifts the reliquary. Mandy enthusiastically nods. Esquibel doesn’t take her eyes off the man, the barrel of her pistol tracking him.
They withdraw to the far wall, giving him access to the shrine. With a hiss of pleasure he leans in and finds a nondescript necklace that had been looped over the staff of the cross, hanging there for ages. Its brittle thong holds a blackened oblong of a locket. With a huge smile he drapes it over his head and bows formally.
The three women bow in return. Careless of them now, he turns his back to them and walks happily out to the entrance. He slips out the doors and departs without any look back.
After a long moment, Katrina follows him to the doors. She peers out. There on the flower-speckled sward she spies four men. The man who just left approaches the other three. It is Sherman the shaman and two men holding them with halters around their neck.
Lifting the necklace he just stole, the man drapes it over Sherman’s head instead. Then he instructs the shaman severely, perhaps threatening their life, before leading the others away.
Ξ
“I feel like Agatha fucking Christie.” Triquet stands back and clasps their hands. They have organized stacks of documents and photos along a pair of tables into an interconnected network of the thirty-seven men and one woman who ever left any record of being on the island. There are a few main characters, like Colonel Ingles and Maureen Dowerd, the fraternizing Lieutenant DeVry, and a colorless figure only known as Corporal, then Staff Sergeant Boren, who signed all the requisition sheets for a decade.
Here they all are, the characters in the murder mystery. All the men who came through this isolated outpost for one reason or another. Of the portraits they’ve found, none of the soldiers look particularly sharp or ambitious. This must have been one of those punishment postings for soldiers they didn’t like, like when they send officers to command posts in the Aleutians. That must have caused resentment here, dark thoughts and actions. Add in a few Soviet encounters over the years and they had themselves a real spicy stew here. Suicide must have been a major factor. “And I don’t even want to think about the sexual assaults.”
But Maureen deserved better than that, didn’t she? She came here for love, if the words in her letters are to be believed. And then she found even greater love once she got here and her former lover the Colonel had them killed. Or he killed her himself. But for some reason he didn’t get her lover, nor the child…
A creak on the deck above interrupts their train of thought. They have been alone down here for a day and a half and both their ears and mind have been playing tricks. Nope. There’s another creak, further along. Someone is in here with Triquet, approaching the hatch leading belowdecks.
It turns out to be Pradeep and Maahjabeen. Triquet can hear their low musical voices and giggles as they approach. Good. They didn’t need any more heart-pumping moments of terror than they’ve already had.
Maahjabeen steps through the hatch, her smile radiant upon her weathered face. “Ah! Doctor Triquet! Still hard at work! Have you been here this whole time?”
“Yes, that’s me. Homebody extraordinaire. And how about you two? How is the sea cave?”
With a laugh they explain to Triquet how they spent the last thirty-six hours circumnavigating the entire island instead. The tale leaves Triquet with their mouth hanging open by the end.
“And…” Pradeep finishes, opening up his daypack and removing the cell phone he retrieved from the corpse of the Chinese soldier, “we brought you something back. A present.”
“Oooo, I love it! Where’d you find it?” Triquet gingerly lifts the outdated HTC smartphone, its screen cracked. “Fell off a fishing boat, did it?”
“No, Pradeep did not tell you about the corpse. It was with the old man. Right in his little hut with him.” Maahjabeen describes what it was like to encounter the rotting flesh of the Asian soldier and their decision to take his phone.
“All good, yes, very good.” Triquet inspects the phone’s ports. Micro-USB. “Look. We can charge this right back up. I’ve already got the cord and a spare battery with me.” It is only a matter of moments before a charging symbol is displayed on the phone’s screen. “So what do you think he was doing here?”
“Well, crashing his plane into the ocean for one.” Maahjabeen has maintained this since finding him. “He must be the pilot, yes?”
“But why here? And why now…? Ah!” Triquet coos happily as the screen fills with text. “Lucky us. No password. But unlucky us. It’s all in Mandarin. So you’re right. He was Chinese.”
Pradeep pulls on the phone. “What about the texts? That’s what I thought might help us first. What were his last texts?”
A long list of Chinese characters is all he can deduce. He opens one text thread, then another. But he has no ability to read any of it. Then in the next text thread he spies a word written in English: B-A-I-T-G-I-E. “Look. They wrote something here in our script. But it appears to be, just, random letters. Bait-something.”
“What are those characters around it?” Triquet uses their phone’s camera to take a picture of the Chinese phone screen. They zoom in on the character. “Got this universal OCR reader here… See if it can make sense of this letter… Or word… Says it means colonel. Colonel Baitgie.”
They all look at each other in shock. This is the name of the Air Force officer running their mission. They’re sure of it.
All three of them bend to the urgent task of translating the rest of that entire text thread.
Ξ
The twin spires of the redwood trunk extend upward like a gigantic wooden version of those old rabbit ears tv antennas. Amy takes a moment to gaze upward, rare these last few days, and admire the gargantuan redwood in which they shelter.
It has a single massive trunk, perhaps five meters in diameter, that only rises perhaps twelve meters from the ground before its bark swells and folds back on itself and gives rise to two trunks of equal size, each big enough to be a mature redwood giant in its own right. It is almost like a defiant fist raised against the sky, with a pair of oversized chopsticks stuck in the fingers.
Its canopy far above is a mass of dark green. She’d love to find a way to explore it some day. It might even be possible to build a platform way up high in a tree like this…
What she loves about this tree more than anything is that it is a testament to resilience. Even though it was hit by lightning or some long-past disease that nearly killed it, this redwood has come back stronger than ever, with nearly a hydra’s heads multiplicative response. “Just try killing a redwood. I dare you.”
Amy’s voice is a raspy whisper, her throat sore and tired from speaking to the vixen all day and night. She has never met a more needy animal. The pregnant fox makes more demands than a blind Chihuahua. And each one leads into the next, drawing Amy again and again into a deep web of obligations and tasks that can be as simple as stripping fern stalks into fibers for a new bed to puzzling out vulpine blood kinetics of some of the herbal remedies the vixen has instructed her to make and administer. She did what research she could on her phone, but only a handful of clues are stored in there in saved notes and digital field guides. It turns out foxes are hardy and brave. Immensely self-aware. At least this one is, to a point where animal intelligence is blurring lines with her own.
They are collaborators here, in this hollow beneath the tree. By all rights this vixen should already be dead. When Amy met her she was septicemic and miscarried one of her litter that first night. But with Amy’s help she was able to stabilize the struggling little mama and then, incredibly, she learned that the vixen knew where the medicines were that she needed herself.
It reminds Amy of her visit with the Karen tribes of Thailand. She got to live in one of their mountain villages for ten days once. Their elephants are sacred and instrumental members of the community, working not only as draft animals and guardians but also the doctors and nurses of the village. Mature elephants would diagnose ailing humans and animals, then go off into the jungle to find the necessary herbs. The elephant would eat the herb, and upon their return encourage the sick villagers to eat, or in some instances smoke, their droppings.
So Amy learned to patiently follow the waddling little fox from bush to tree, collecting samples. She first tried giving the herbs to the fox raw but she turned her head in rejection every time. So Amy tried poultices, which seemed ineffective through her thick silver fur. Finally she had started a fire and brewed the herbs, steeping them for nearly half an hour before cooling them and pouring them down the vixen’s throat.
She responded by the next morning. Her coat was more lustrous and her body seemed more at ease. But she still carried a litter far too large for her little body. Amy fears that what happened is that with too many kits in her womb, it ruptured when they grew too big. Now they are in a race to get the babies out before she has more internal bleeding and systemic infection.
The vixen waddled out of her nest for the first time in two days this morning, leading Amy to a low thicket of Juniperus communis and then to a flowering lily she doesn’t recognize at all. Amy took pieces of both plants, the stem and the petal and the needles of the juniper and bark. Then she returned to brew them, worried the entire time that the vixen had just chosen an abortifacient—which juniper is—to save her own life and terminate this pregnancy.
But that isn’t what the demanding creature needed. After a long mind-melting series of trials and errors Amy finally learned that she did want these new ingredients, but not until they were added to three of the others. Only when Amy had finally put it together in the proper order did her patient acquiesce and sip from the hollow trencher of bark until the broth was gone.
Now Amy is catching her breath, trying to recall what being a human is like after these deep days here with the little fox. Over the course of their non-verbal dialogue, Amy was somehow able to glean from context that the fox has no intention of losing her babies. This medicine will save them all. And she is so close now, the litter coming perhaps tomorrow or the next day. But there is an equal chance they all die first.
If Amy only had a real veterinary station here. She isn’t an actual fully practicing medical professional or anything but she did spend a long summer once sterilizing sea lions. That made her handy with a scalpel for sure. Here she doesn’t even have a sharp rock. Nor anything resembling clamps. With the amount of blood that might be lost here, clamps and sutures are probably the tools she misses the most. But there’s a sphagnum moss the vixen has shown her that not only absorbs an astounding amount of blood but seems to coagulate or perhaps even heal her internal wounds. It had been a delicate operation inserting bits of it up her birth canal, during the first of Amy’s sleepless nights.
Now the vixen bleats a demand at her again. It’s been an hour or more since her last dose and perhaps she needs another. Amy ducks back into the cozy little shelter she’s built against the hollow in the trunk. She lifts the bark trencher to offer another dose but the vixen isn’t asking for it. Her eyes are glassy again, always a bad sign, and her belly is once again distended, as if the kits aren’t lying right. The expectant mother rolls onto her side with a groan and reaches out a beseeching paw.
“Oh no! What is it, mama? I thought you were on the mend. What’s wrong?”
The little fox pants, her forepaws twitching. She is clearly in distress. Is this it? Is this the moment Amy has come to fear more than all others? She has poured her heart and soul into saving this beautiful little animal, and she isn’t ready to lose her and all her babies too. “No. No you don’t. No no…”
She strokes the vixen’s ear and in her agony the fox snares Amy’s ring finger in her molars and grinds down on it.
Amy hisses in pain, sharing it now with the vixen. The creature somehow retains the presence of mind not to break her skin, but it is still tooth against knuckle-bone in sharp agony.
The vixen finally releases Amy’s finger and rolls away. Amy clutches her poor injured hand and scrambles after. No. This splendid creature can’t die. There must be something she can do…
With a stuttering grunt the vixen bears down. Blood trickles from between her rear legs. Amy exclaims and uses the remainder of their moss to stanch the flow. She holds it in place as long as she can and after a nearly unendurable episode the vixen’s breath finally regularizes and she seems to pass into a calm sleep.
Amy removes the moss. A dozen milliliters or more of blood is in her hand. And also, to her complete shock, a pale wriggling fetus no larger than her pinky finger.
Amy exclaims. “Oh! Oh…! Come on now, sweet thing! Tiny one! You got this! Uh… Uh…” The fetal kit is blind, its eyes pink-lidded orbs, and it hardly moves. She folds it gently into her hands, hoping against hope that her own warmth is enough to… to what? She can’t keep this premature newborn alive. Her mother isn’t even lactating yet. There’s no nourishment or therapy Amy can provide the poor thing. If she was merciful she’d just suffocate it right now and end its short tragic life. But she can’t do that. Not when there’s a chance, however remote, that it can hang on.
“Poor mama.” Amy curls around the sleeping vixen. “Poor poor mama. Oh my god. Your uterus must be in such miserable shape. Just hold on, mama. Just hold on one more day…”
And for the first time in days, Amy sleeps.
Ξ
“Jay.”
“Miriam.”
“I was looking for you.”
“I was looking for you.”
“Oh? And what do you need, love?”
“Uh, we got a kind of situation. Underground. So you’re the first one we thought of. What do you need?”
“A spliff. Cracking headache here.”
“Got you, mamacita.” His fingers are so practiced that the joint appears from his pocket as if by magic.
“Bless.” Miriam takes his lighter and sparks up, inhaling deeply before passing the joint and rubbing the center of her forehead with her fingertips.
“Oh, here you go.” Jay hauls on her shoulder, turning her roughly around, and puts his big warm hands on the base of her neck. Then he starts kneading the muscles, parting them to get to the tendons beneath…
Miriam groans and her knees nearly buckle. She falls back against him instead.
Jay laughs. “Yeah, I know a thing or two about headaches. Let me just give you a quick little adjustment here. I can do more later. We’re on sort of a kind of time crunch here.”
“Who’s we?” Miriam’s eyes are closed, already spinning in the THC euphoria and tension release.
Instead of answering, Jay folds her arms up against her chest and lifts her off her feet, bouncing her up and down until she finally releases her spine and the vertebrae pop, five time up a musical scale. She sighs and three more release between her shoulder blades. Then he drops, stretching her out on the dry pine needles, and kneels at her head. He rolls her skull from side to side until she starts to breathe more deeply, releasing those fibers. Then he rolls his knuckles along the straps of tendon.
Beneath her closed lids she sees fireworks. Miriam groans again. Her next breath is deep and shuddering. She drops within herself like a free diver going down, down, deeper than she has in years. For an instant she touches a remembered dimension of herself that she hasn’t seen in years. Oh, what a trickster she had always been. When did that core identity disappear?
Too quickly it’s over and Jay is pulling her back to her feet. There is something thrilling in being manhandled so. Alonso never did. His strength is different. But this lad is like an amusement park ride. What fun.
She opens her eyes with something of the old mischief in them. Now that she recalls how feisty she used to be, she won’t forget it again for love nor money. Oh, this is what she had lost with her five years of grief. Her fey spirit, true to no reality but her own.
Jay sees the feline light in Miriam’s eye and it wipes the smile from his face. Uh oh. What has he done now? “Uh. Cash or credit. Tips accepted.”
Miriam cups Jay’s chin and gives him a deep liquid kiss. She steps back, appraising him. “Thanks, doll. You’ve got the strongest hands. Now, what was your underground mishap?”
“Ah. Right.” Jay’s head is spinning. That was a hell of a kiss. “Yeah. It’s this way. You need anything? We might be a minute. But we really should, uh, get going…”
Miriam rolls her head around. “Right. That really did help. Ah, I can think again. Let me just snare my kit then and we’re off. You keep saying we…”
“Yeah. Jidadaa. If it ain’t one thing with that chick it’s another.”
They pass through pine camp so she can retrieve her canvas sack filled with tools. Then they walk deeper into the grove upslope of the meadow.
Jay hands Miriam the joint. She’d forgotten completely about it. Once again, she’s gotten way more high than intended. But at least she hasn’t thought about her headache now for nearly five minutes. Strong medicine, this. She takes another tiny puff and passes it right back.
“So there are more of these goddamn military tunnels under this island than anyone knew. I mean, seriously. Here. Up on this outcrop. Check it out.”
“Limestone.” Miriam approaches it, the rough crags of the pale reddish stone indicating the inclusion of something ferrous. “Siderite. Interesting feature. Thank you for showing it to me.”
“No. In here.” Jay weaves around the highest of the stone tops, chest high, and leads her to a crack in the ground that disappears into darkness.
“Oooo, you sure have the most surprises, Jay my boy. What a lovely spot.” Miriam kneels at the fissure’s edge, peering down into the inky void. Then an oval face looms up out of it like a swimmer breaching and Miriam falls back with a gasp.
Jidadaa blinks at her. “Good. Coming?”
After Miriam’s heart stops racing, she smiles devilishly and hauls herself into the cave entrance, lowering and extending her leg until she can find a solid footing. “Cheers.” She smiles up at Jay, then descends into the ground like a babe crawling back into the womb.
The tang of iron in the air is noticeable. Geology come to life. This is a ragged tunnel, carved at a deep angle into the heart of the outcrop. Miriam picks her way downward, putting on work gloves and turning on her headlamp. She realizes that until she did, Jidadaa was climbing around down here without any light at all. Barefoot. Sensing the path with her feet, most likely. Now this is a real trickster here come to life. The girl named Doom can never be depended upon to be anything other than herself.
They move quickly, squeezing through narrow passages, and drop perhaps twenty meters in a few minutes. Then they suddenly spill out onto a larger tunnel, squared-off and shored up with dark timbers like an old-time mine. “Oh!” Miriam is startled by the change. She’d thought this adventure would be more challenging. But she can stand up nearly straight in here. It is a straight passage that extends before her but ends in a collapsed cascade of rock behind. She illuminates the nearest wall. They’ve gotten beneath the limestone layer. “Phosphorite, with kernels of silicates. Must have been a bloody beast to dig through. Poor bastards.”
Jidadaa only regards Miriam with a blank stare. “Come.”
Miriam nods and gives Jidadaa a brave chuckle. But it is spooky down here. Now now, old girl. Her old self used to run to embrace the darkness. When she walked in the Irish woods at night as a teen, she’d get worried about someone following her, a pervert from town or a mythical monster who only came out at night. And sometimes she would shock herself into stillness. The only way she could get moving again, alone in the cold foggy night, had been to tell herself that she wasn’t someone’s prey out here. She was the predator, hunting them.
That internal pivot meant everything. Instead of waiting in dread for something to befall her, she would lean forward, knees bent, and divide the darkness with her focused intent.
Miriam does the same here. This is an uncanny place, yes, but she’s an uncanny woman. This is her home, these dark secret caverns that have been forgotten by anyone yet living.
“Look.” Jay, bringing up the rear, directs Miriam’s gaze away from the stone and toward one of the timbers. It has writing on it. Ideograms. “Chinese? Japanese? I don’t know enough to tell.”
Miriam studies the crude symbols carved into the wood. She takes out her phone and takes a picture. “We’ll figure it out. Where does this tunnel lead anyway?”
“The Ussiaxan village. Jidadaa wants me and her to run support for the ladies while they’re in there. But we can’t get past this blockage. Kind of a new development, if I’m reading Jidadaa right. She thought it would be clear sailing.”
They pass under a dark band of moisture that bisects the tunnel. Drips form puddles at their feet. “Creek.” Jidadaa points above.
“Ah, yes. The creek in the meadow.” Miriam orients herself. “We’re passing right under. What a massive engineering project this must have been.” They continue on, another thousand steps or so, the tunnel as straight and regular as a hospital corridor. Miriam begins to see why Jidadaa felt no need for light.
They pass a junction, then another, passages on the left and right disappearing into the dark. “Where do those lead?” Miriam asks.
“No way out.” Jidadaa urges her on. “Now here. Katrina looks for Jidadaa. Too long.”
“Yes. Mustn’t keep Katrina waiting. Aha. Is this your rockfall?”
“This year I did not come. Not last year but year before, the way is clear.” Jidadaa shrugs, helpless, standing before the slide. “Now, too much rock.”
“Well, let’s see…” Miriam appraises the slide. It is mostly a cone of gravel that must have been folded long ago into a metamorphic seam that has broken open. The ancient riverbed was released but instead of flooding the tunnel with water it spilled a surfeit of pale gray riverstones and yellow sand. Miriam removes a collapsible spade and sets its handle. Then she climbs the slope and digs at it, trying to clear the rupture so she can attempt to fix it.
Beneath the layers of sand and gravel is a wetter clay. Well this should be suitable for her purposes. She clears the top of the cone and digs the clay back into the fissure, sealing it as best she can.
Then it’s just a matter of clearing out the gravel so they can win through to the far side. The work goes smoothly. Until it doesn’t.
Her spade hits something woody. She stops and clears the falling sand from what she hit. She can only slow the cascade, though, and not make it stop. The streams of sand fall like ribbons of blond hair over a skull darkened by time.
Miriam beholds the desiccated remains of a human body.
Chapter 39 – Nonsense I Mean
September 24, 2024
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39 – Nonsense I Mean
“How did Jidadaa get you back anyway?” Amy sits beside Flavia on her platform in camp. The fog has not let up and a dank chill creeps up from the ground through their feet and legs. She murmurs the question, conscious of the masked golden childs, as Jay calls them, squatting at compass points on the camp’s perimeter. These figures are never still. They shift and scratch itches and follow sounds. But they don’t respond to any questions or offers of food and drink and they evidently aren’t going anywhere anytime soon. Spooky.
Flavia shrugs. “A lot like the first time. Then it was the girl child Xaanach. This time Jidadaa. Both woke me in the middle of the night and led me quietly out of his camp. I guess he needs better security, but I am glad he does not have it!”
“That’s amazing. And did Jidadaa lead you right back here or did you go somewhere else first?”
“Somewhere else?”
“Like maybe she has some hidey-hole of her own? See, last night, after you got back, Jidadaa disappeared again. Right before these golden childs appeared. I think maybe she knew they were coming and she wants to avoid them. Jay says to the Lisicans they’re like the four horsemen of the apocalypse. They scare her. But if we could find her now, like if you know where she might be hiding, we sure could use more answers.”
“They are pretty scary.” Flavia is empty. She wants to just give up. Completely surrender. Why can’t she? Everything here is an arduous epic adventure. Nothing is as simple here as settling down to her workstation with her dog across her feet and a steaming espresso in her hands. She misses big Boris. And she is sure he must miss her. She tilts her head back. “Ehh… Amy. I can’t do this any more. I have to go home.”
Amy throws a comforting arm over Flavia’s shoulders. “Soon, my dear. We’re nearly into May now.”
“You think that is some kind of help? We still have weeks of this! Weeks! And now the villagers are coming in and like taking over! We can’t do anything outside of their view! There is no privacy! Who cares if it is Wetchie-ghuy or these…” She gestures at the nearest golden child, who twitches when they hear the name Wetchie-ghuy. “These… I don’t even know what to call them. But what happens if we try to leave? Eh? Has anyone tried yet?”
“One goes with. When anyone goes to the trenches. Or like when Jay went down to the lagoon. Perhaps they’re protecting us.”
“I don’t want them protecting me,” Flavia declares loudly. Defiantly. “I just want them to leave me alone. All of them.”
Amy nods, patient and sympathetic. “See, if we can figure out where Jidadaa went then she could help answer some of these questions. If they are protecting us, then toward what end?”
“So we end up in their pot instead of someone else’s.”
“Cannibalism. Wow. Huh. There hasn’t been any sign of it here. Unless you know something that Wetchie-ghuy…”
“No.” Flavia waves a disgusted hand. “I don’t. Don’t worry. It is just me stereotyping your beloved natives, right?”
“Beloved? Ha. They won’t even talk to me. I’m too unclean.”
“Well, Amy my dear, I would be happy to switch roles with you at any time. They can’t seem to get enough of me.”
“Did Wetchie-ghuy try to put that loop over your hand again?”
“Oh, yeah. Like five times. Finally I took it and threw it off a cliff. And you know what he did? He giggled. Then he made another one out of some branches and tried again. Such a creep.”
“I feel like the two shamans are trying to claim us. Each one is taking as many of us as they can get. And if they can’t have us, then it’s better to poison us so the other one doesn’t get us.”
Flavia scowls. “We are just like… trophies to them.”
“I don’t know if we can continue to work under these conditions. Although I have no idea what else we can do.”
“Amy?” Miriam exits the bunker with Triquet and waves. “Come with us?”
“Sure thing, Mir.” Amy gets up and squeezes Flavia’s arm. “Well. I guess I get a chance to see. You just stay here and rest up, Flavia. Be Alonso’s partner. That means don’t let him go anywhere alone. Otherwise, nobody needs anything from you today.”
“Good. Because I swear to you I have nothing left to give.”
Amy grimaces, her inability to raise Flavia’s spirits grating on her, and joins Miriam and Triquet at the edge of the camp. They head toward Tenure Grove, one of the golden childs following.
“Do you think we can put this one to work?” Triquet wonders. “Ask how handy they are with a spade and trowel?”
“I mean, you can try…”
Miriam looks up at the cliff face they approach. “Right back at it. It’s important to Alonso that we continue the work today.”
Amy nods. “I’d say it’s important for all of us. We have to keep our routines or we’ll go crazy under these conditions.”
“Yeah, but Alonso… He had a very bad night. You saw him, Ames. He thought he was back in the gulag.”
Amy’s face falls. “Oh yeah, in bed I could hear him. And when he got up… At first I didn’t think it was a bathroom call. He looked desperate, like he was trying to escape.”
“Escape?” Triquet frowns. “Uh, where? Forgot he was on an island, did he?”
“Escape… life. I don’t think…” Amy answers quietly, “his mind was working all too well. Oh, Mir. He really is damaged.”
Miriam nods, sad. “And I don’t know how to fix him.”
“Time.” Amy and Triquet both say it and Triquet follows it with a giggle. “Jinx! Time, Miriam, and loads of chocolate.”
“So what are we working on today, boss?” Amy rolls up her sleeves as they near the base of the cliff. It is choked with brush and a fallen skirt of loose stone.
“I want to inventory who lives in that scree pile, if anyone. Got to be a dangerous place to call home, rocks sliding all over the place and crushing you. But still, if we are going to be thorough for Plexity, then it is a habitat we have to sample…”
“Life finds a way!” Triquet boldly pushes past the first branches of the manzanita and immediately squawks, ensnared, arms held above their head. “Except this life. Me. I’m stuck.”
“Life didn’t find a way?” Amy chortles, pulling the branches away from Triquet and allowing them to continue.
Miriam has paused in her examination of the scree pile to study the golden child, who has turned three-quarters away, their mask pointed up at an angle. “What do you think they’re looking at?”
“Well, Pradeep and Jay think Sherman the shaman hides up in those trees with his osprey. Maybe our protector here is on the lookout for them.”
Triquet scowls at the golden child. “What do you think that mask does for them? I mean, how do they see or anything?”
“I doubt we’ll ever know.”
“Lord, I am so sick of being hopelessly confused.” Triquet lifts their arms and drops them again. “I mean, yes it’s the first step in scientific inquiry, yeah yeah yeah, blah blah blah. But, I mean, can’t we just get a tiny bit of clarity every once in a while?”
“Not a chance.” Amy pushes past Triquet and climbs to the top of the scree pile. Small flat rocks shoot out from under her feet in all directions. “Well, this is… Hm. I can’t get on this without…”
“Yeah, careful. You’re killing all our specimens up there, Ames.”
“Okay, but how…?” Amy hurries back down to the clawing branches and solid ground underfoot. “I mean, how else can we do it? We have to climb it. If we don’t start at the top, the loose rocks will just slide down onto whatever we uncover.”
“Well, according to him,” Triquet indicates a robin hopping along the scree slope to their left, “the scree pile is good hunting. So I guess there’s something in there.”
“You’re right.” Miriam sighs. “Anything moves and the rest just slides. Ugh. This is going to be hard.”
“Miriam?” Amy turns to study her old friend, gaze troubled. “What happens to Alonso if we aren’t ever able to make anything of Plexity? Like if, by the time we’re finished here, we don’t have enough samples and he isn’t able to get it up and running?”
“I do not know, Amy dear.” Miriam shakes her head again, watching the robin pull a winged insect from the gaps in the rocks. “I do not know.”
Ξ
A shadow darkens Maahjabeen’s cot. Pradeep squints, dazed from lack of sleep, at the silhouette looming over him and his beloved. “Jidadaa! There you are. Everyone has been looking for—” He falls silent as the Lisican girl’s hand urgently clamps his arm.
Jidadaa casts a worried glance at the square of blurred gray daylight visible through the sheets of hanging plastic. Once she’s certain that Pradeep will remain quiet she removes a white plastic package from folds in her clothes and unwraps it. It is an old shopping bag carrying blackened leaves, mashed and pulpy. Juices have collected in the bottom.
Jidadaa kneels beside Maahjabeen and awkwardly struggles to figure out how to get the concoction in the woman’s slack mouth.
Pradeep helps, whispering, “Does Doctor Daine know you’re doing this? Is this like a prescribed medication or…?” But the answer is apparent and he feels a fool for even asking.
Pradeep pinches Maahjabeen’s mouth open and Jidadaa makes a spout of the bag’s corner to pour a trickle of brown and black liquid past her lips.
Maahjabeen gags, expelling it.
“Shit!” Pradeep hisses, warding the bag away. “Shit! No! Stop! You’re choking her.”
Maahjabeen quickly settles. It was only a few droplets. Mandy’s voice comes from the far side of the bunker. “Everything okay in there, Pradeep?”
“Yes! Fine!” Pradeep’s eyes dart back and forth across the ceiling. What does one say in this situation? “Uh… No worries in here. Just past it now. All is well. Back to Do Not Disturb please.”
Mandy giggles. “This hotel maid hears and obeys.”
Jidadaa straddles Maahjabeen, pushing on her belly, kneading upward with strong fingers. Then she leans on her patient’s ribs, as if she’s squeezing the last of the toothpaste out. Finally, she gets off and rolls Maahjabeen over, so her face is off the cot’s edge pointed at the ground. Then she pushes on her back.
Gray goo dribbles from Maahjabeen’s mouth. Pradeep watches in mute horror, knowing he must have expelled the same mucous. Lumps drop out, like little owl pellets or dried clumps of gray oatmeal. Jidadaa keeps pushing. More and more emerges, landing with disgusting wet smacks on the plastic. Soon there is a pile on the floor like a cat’s foul vomit that needs to be cleaned.
Then Jidadaa rolls her back face-up. She pulls a juicy fingerful of black leaves from her plastic bag and pushes it into Maahjabeen’s empty mouth. Then she sits back and wipes a strand of hair away.
Pradeep quivers, fully anticipating another choking episode. But his darling dearest seems to tolerate the leaves fine this time. Her breathing steadies, if anything, and she slips into a deeper sleep. “I think that’s good. Is that good?”
Jidadaa shrugs, the movement awkward to her. She holds up her fingers stained with gray mucous and black juice. “The argument. See? Here it is. Gray on black.”
Pradeep makes a face. “Ugh. Let’s get your hands clean. There’s no way that’s sanitary.”
“First I clean the…” Jidadaa gestures at the gray pile Maahjabeen expelled. She uses an empty tissues box and some wipes. Then she cleans her own hands, although the perfume on the wipes makes Jidadaa blanch. “Ew. Need water.”
“Yeah, the creek’s your best bet to get all the smells…” Pradeep begins but her head twitches sideways no. “Ah. Okay. Not the creek. Are you hiding…? From the Doctor?”
“From golden childs. They are bad sign.”
“Ah. Yes. I see. I think. Well I won’t tell anyone you’re here. The golden childs. Are they… on our side or…? I mean, what are they doing here anyway?”
“Protect. All many want to stop Jidadaa. People in village. Sky people. Underground people. Golden childs. They think they can. But Lisica ends now.” Maahjabeen shudders and her body heaves forward. Pradeep throws his arms around her. “Listen to the bird,” Jidadaa demands.
Pradeep hears the familiar peal of an outraged eagle. The bird flies far above, winging its way home. “The osprey. But why is the bird screaming this time…?” His attention is split between its sudden appearance and Maahjabeen’s convulsions.
“He knows. I take his slave away.” Jidadaa lifts Maahjabeen’s twitching hand. She places it in Pradeep’s grasp. With her other hand she passes him the plastic bag filled with leaves. “Give to her, every bit. She will be strong. Give it all. Do not leave camp. Ever. Keep here with golden childs.”
“Wait. Where are you going?”
Jidadaa whispers over her shoulder, “Kula. She is my mother.” Then she slips out the clean room to the left and hurries silently to the steps leading down to the sub.
“Mahbub…” Maahjabeen’s weak hand reaches for his face.
“Oh! Babi.” He kisses her trembling fingertips.
“Where…?” Her eyelids unstick and her pupils slowly dilate.
“You’re here with me. Safe. Nothing will ever harm you again.”
“The taste… in my mouth…”
“Yeah. Must be pretty bad. Not the last of that I’m afraid. But I think we finally found you some medicine that works.”
“Good. I was trapped…” She falls heavily against his embrace, her eyelids fluttering, “in quicksand.”
“I know.” He kisses her brow. “But you’re safe now.”
“Tell me a story. Let me…” Maahjabeen trembles again. “Let me hear your voice. It… helps.”
“Yes. Of course. I remember. Your voice was the only thing that kept me alive. Your touch.” Pradeep opens his mouth and then closes it again. “But what shall I say? I mean… I could talk about, well, anything. What sounds interesting? Tunicates? Spongiform encephalopathies? Uh, pinniped eye parasites?”
She waves his jargon away. “Tell me… of yourself.”
“Oh. Right. Well that is far more difficult.” But he shifts, making himself comfortable, reviewing all his memories. This is something he doesn’t often do. There is little to be gained from the practice. “You know, I have always thought of my life in two parts. The first part was India, with all the good and bad. Then I turned 18 and got into University of Houston and moved to Texas. And that was the second part. Two years there. Two years in Indiana. Then grad school with Amy in Monterey. Almost six years in the second part. But now…” He sighs, thinking of all those lonely days and nights in sterile buildings with neither friends nor family. “I think now… Meeting you, my life is in a third part, the part where I am not lonely anymore. You see, moving to Houston was the most difficult thing I’ve ever done. You know me. How hard change is for me, how fragile I am. Well imagine me as a 17 year-old grappling with the fact that I was going to move to the big bad United States all by myself to go to college. It is so hard for Indian students. We are used to a very different culture. And then, after a couple long plane flights you are suddenly taken to a place where nobody is your friend, there are no parties you are invited to, nobody reaches out to you. There is racism. I mean, I shut down. For like the first whole year, I was just like sleepwalking through my time in the dorms and in my classes. I made no friends. I only thought about going back home. Desperately. I missed the rich food, the loud streets, the laughing people. I mean, Houston has some of that, but mostly only for its own community and it is very different. And yes, there are all kinds of Indian student clubs and things that I should have joined but I just couldn’t find anyone… Especially those Indian students who adored it there. They fell in love with the fast cars and the shiny buildings and the American football. So I made no friends there. And frankly it never got any better. Not at Purdue or CSUMB. America is a wonderful place in a lot of ways but in so many other ways it is so, so lonely.”
A figure appears in the door. It is Doctor Daine.
Pradeep leans down and kisses Maahjabeen’s soft cheek. “But then I found you, my little babi girl,” he whispers into her seashell ear. “And the third part of my life started. Now I will never be lonely again.”
Ξ
“Oh… Just look. It’s so beautiful.” Mandy leans back from the workstation screen at the long tables in the bunker and claps her hands with joy. Then she stretches. She’s been sitting here a long damn time.
Amy leans over her shoulder, eager to share the enthusiasm. But all she can see are graphs and charts she doesn’t recognize. “Great job, Mandy! Uh, what am I looking at here?”
“My first official data-driven forecast for the next ten days!”
“Oh! Really? What does it say? Is that X axis temperature or…?”
“Well, no, that one’s actually a humidity reading. Sorry. I haven’t properly labeled anything yet. I’m just so happy! Finally!” she groans, collapsing against the keyboard.
Amy is happy to see Mandy feel productive for the first time. “Hooray for you! So should I schedule a beach party or…?”
“No. God, no. Here, it’s this one. Look. Precipitation. Huge storm coming. In like eighteen hours? I mean, this is still just a single weather station with no satellite or network help. So I can’t get any more exact than that. Should be a cold one too.”
Amy nods. “You know, frankly, I’ve been surprised how dry we’ve generally been here. I mean, have you ever spent a spring in Oregon? Especially on the coast. It like never stops raining.”
“Yeah, I’ve been thinking about that too…” Mandy’s fingers fly fast on the keyboard. “Look. Some figures we have here offline. Lisica is only at about 65% precipitation of Tillamook, Oregon over the last five weeks, although I figure we’re pretty much around the same latitude.”
“Oh, I thought we were a bit further south. More like Brookings or somewhere around there. But it just pours there, on like a daily basis, until summer. And even then.”
“Yeah, the biggest storms in North America are generated out here. The thing, look, here’s a satellite gif of a storm developing in the Bay of Alaska. Watch how it spirals outward. I think Lisica might just be too far from the coast. See how ragged the bands get by the time they’re this far south? All the main moisture patterns are usually drawn to the east, toward North America. And then these others kind of wither away over the open ocean. It’s like the main cells propagate on either side of us but rarely right here.”
“San Francisco is like this. The whole town is just stuck out on a peninsula facing the ocean but somehow it magically gets way less rain than the coast to the north and to the south. They just get the howling fog.”
“Well, we’ve certainly had plenty of howling fog here.” Mandy doesn’t want to correct all the inaccuracies in Amy’s comparison so she just changes the subject by bringing up another page of data. “Here are the locations of all the permanent oceanic buoys that NASA and NOAA manage. I figure one or two should be close. Actually, look. They didn’t drop a single buoy within a thousand kilometers of here. This is a really under-studied spot in the ocean, kind of a transition zone between the storm nursery in the Bay of Alaska and the open ocean of the North Pacific. Now that I’m actually getting some readings of my own, I’m seeing a possible paper analyzing this area in my future. Maybe many papers.”
“Publish, by all means!” Amy rubs Mandy’s back, excited for her. “That is, if the Air Force will let you. You know, I wonder if that’s part of the reason this spot remains under-studied. I bet the Navy and Air Force turned whole generations of researchers away from focusing on this area.”
“Well, not any more! Ooh, hear that?” Mandy pops up, cocking her head. “A gust front coming! Wind already in the trees!” She hurries outside, followed by Amy. The gusts are bitter and dry. “Yep, it’s pretty cold. I wish I could see the northern horizon. It must be getting active.”
Amy takes a deep breath. It’s nearly twenty-hundred hours, a bit after dinner. What she can see of the sky is purple, banded with gray clouds. A few stars peek through. “Look. Is that Venus? That must be like only the third time I’ve seen it since we got here. Good thing we didn’t bring an astronomer along. This would be like their least favorite place on the planet. Can you even think of a place that gets more cloud cover than Lisica?”
“There’s a spot in the North Sea north of Iceland, and another at the edge of Antarctica. But yeah. This area is like top five for sure. I wrote a paper on global cloud concentrations as an undergrad. I remember the least cloudy regions were Arizona and North Africa. By like a lot.”
They walk out of camp toward the beach and scale the fallen redwood trunk. Mandy takes a deep breath. “Oh, I love my new superpower though! I hope I don’t ever forget how to taste the air! I thought I understood weather before but I really only did through my computer screen. Now I get to combine both!”
Amy nods, the old sage. “This is why people do fieldwork.” She turns back to the cliffs behind them but they are lost in darkness. One of the golden childs stand in the whipping wind facing them, guarding Amy and Mandy from unseen threats. “Oh, hello. Nice night.” The golden child only presents its blank face to her, like a giant insect’s eye. At a loss for words, she turns back to Mandy. “So what do you think a big storm might do to the whole war between Sherman the shaman and Wetchie-ghuy?”
“Something Jidadaa said a couple nights ago…” Mandy jumps back down, shivering in the wind, and retreats to camp with Amy at her side. “It’s really stuck with me. She said that Wetchie-ghuy gets his power from people’s fear. Shadows and deceit. But Sherman is a sorcerer of the sky. That’s where they get their magic. So I figure a big storm will, uh, definitely favor one or the other.”
“Sky magic.” Amy shakes her head. “Really? That’s where we are here? Because what does that even mean? They call the sun and moon? Make them do their bidding? I don’t think so. They both rise and set the right times every day. I mean, as a scientist, I fail to grasp exactly what sky magic entails.”
Mandy nods in agreement. “Jidadaa said Sherman controls the fog. I was like, uh, actually the convective cycle controls the fog but go ahead girl. You do you.”
“Yeah and I’d say Sherman’s more into poison anyway with all the shit they’ve pulled on Triquet and Maahjabeen and Pradeep.”
“Exactly! Thanks but no thanks, dude. We got enough poison in the sky where we come from. That’s why we came here. Cause it’s supposed to be clear and pure out here.”
Amy stops, cocking her head. “Well, isn’t that a thing.”
Mandy stops as well, at the edge of camp. “What?”
Amy shakes her head, bemused. “As a professor I often say my biggest job is to point out blind spots in my students’ perceptions so that data-gathering and data-interpretation can be done free of bias. So. What you just said. I think it’s a bias that we still consider Lisica pristine. Know what I mean? We keep finding examples that contradict that assumption. Again and again. But so far we only see them as disconnected data points instead of a wider pattern. The fault is in us. We want Lisica to be undisturbed by the modern world but it really isn’t.”
“What are you saying?” Mandy sniffs the air. “That Lisica is like a toxic dump site? That poison is in the air? I don’t really get…”
“No. It must be less direct than that. I mean, actually, you’re right. I wouldn’t be surprised if it was a toxic dump. Ruining land is what militaries do best. But no, these shamans aren’t like slipping radioactive isotopes into our drinking water. At least I don’t think they are. Biases are less visible than that. This is us not seeing what is right in front of our own faces because we’ve convinced ourselves it doesn’t exist. And what I’m saying is this is a developed island.”
Mandy blinks. She isn’t sure what that insight gets them. But she’s also pretty sure the lack of understanding is on her part, not in Amy’s explanation. She flounders, hoping to think of something useful to add. “Remember when we scanned the sub with our radon sensors? We thought it worked at the time, right?”
“God, that seems like six months ago now. But it was clean. No, I think it’s actually safe here on Lisica. It’s just that we can’t keep operating on the false supposition that this is some Garden of Eden and we’re the first ever explorers. But so far we’re only like, ‘Okay, well sure there’s mysteries and secret graves and hidden villages and weird natives, but we’re still these great explorers in a virgin land.’ It’s a fallacy and I think our frustration is just our inability to see what is actually here.”
“So what is actually here?”
“I’ve got a feeling that this place is far more advanced than we know. I mean, like politically. We’re getting plots and sub-plots as deep as these tunnels. But for some reason we just can’t accept it. You know, I think there’s just a real need for a lot of us to feel that we are the very first ones somewhere. It like removes a whole layer of moral ambiguity and guilt. If we aren’t taking Lisica away from anyone, if in fact it’s our own island and nobody lives here, then we get to be the heroes in our own story. But it’s almost never like that. In fact, it probably hasn’t been like that for anyone anywhere since like a million BCE. We’re always kicking someone out or committing genocide or, well, being the villains instead of the heroes. We’re always destroying a local habitat, no matter how careful or high-minded we think we are. I guess that’s what the villagers probably mean by Jidadaa. They knew we’d eventually come. And when we did, that the old ways would all end. They’re right. Jay is the leed-ass or whatever they call him. We all are. Harbingers of doom.”
Ξ
Maahjabeen wakes with a clear head. She is present again. Rested. Whole. Oh, praise Allah! She fiercely squeezes Pradeep’s hand in gratitude and love.
“Ow.” Alonso gently extricates his hand. “I mean, what a grip!”
“Oh! Doctor Alonso! Forgive…! I thought you were…!”
“No no. I’m sure. But Pradeep is busy. He made me promise to hold your hand until he gets back. In just another bit.” He glances upward, where several people crawl on the roof fixing the tarps in preparation for the storm.
“Ehh. What time is it?”
“About four o’clock in the morning. More rain coming. Mandy made us get up early to fix what the wind has broken and make final preparations. But I was already…” Alonso shrugs. Another night of horrors. He’d been more than happy to be roused.
“Another storm? But I want to get in my boat.”
“To hear Mandy talk you will not need to move. The deluge will come and everything will all wash away. This cot will float, no?”
Despite herself, Maahjabeen giggles. This life she is returning to is so good, better than she has ever known. Pradeep is the sun. He is the brightest and purest thing she has ever known. Before him her life was in shadow. It always was. Even her happiest memories from before held darkness. Yelling. Anger. Guilt. Her family is a very contentious lot. And she was always nursing some resentment or other over the insult of the day. It is how she became so fierce, in proud opposition to their challenges. And not just from her family, it was also her sexist professors and the unhappy students that made up her whole life. They would all throw their pitiful and infuriating self-inflicted issues in her face. And that was why she always escaped to the utter serenity of the ocean.
But then Pradeep arrived. And he is bearing gifts. His love is so pure she cannot doubt it, even for a moment. So the dark thoughts she has always had about herself just sound indulgent and paranoid in her own ears now. And the ferocity. She can lay that aside as well. She can laugh. She can dance. As long as he is with her, she is complete. She doesn’t ever need this to end and she has no need of Heaven. Eternal bliss is already hers.
She blinks at the apostasy. That is the very first time such a thought has ever entered her head. And she doesn’t like it.
“What?” Alonso studies her worn face. “A shadow passed over you. What is it?”
“Oh. Nothing. ” Maahjabeen has to very carefully not fall back into her familiar hectoring resentment. She sighs to release the tension and seeks out Alonso’s hand again. For once, she is happy to have him interrupt her wayward thoughts. “Thank you, Doctor Alonso,” she squeezes his big rough hand, “for watching over me. I am not sure I have had too many bosses who would do that.”
“You are very welcome. It is my…” Pleasure is the wrong word here. So is duty. Alonso pats their joined hands with his other. “I am very glad we get to be friends, Miss Charrad.”
“Please. Maahjabeen.”
“Of course. I just always wanted to respect your professionalism.”
“Yes. Thank you, Doctor Alonso.”
“I think we are both people who yell. And when we met…” He releases her hand so he can make an explosion between his own. “Boom. You know?”
She chuckles, and in her depths she can feel how depleted she is. She tries to sit up but finds it to be a struggle. Ah. Not a full return to health yet after all.
Alonso helps her. “Pradeep said there is a tincture I am supposed to feed you if things go bad. Some herbal concoction of his from India, I gather?”
“Ugh. That stuff tastes so bad.”
“So you don’t think you need it?”
Maahjabeen tries to recall the circumstances around that black liquid. Hadn’t there been leaves in it the first five or six doses? And where had it come from? All she knows is that it is a component of her recovery. So she blanches and beckons silently to him. “The last bit. Come on. Let nobody say that I don’t finish my medicine.”
He tilts the little container into her mouth and she gags. It is so alkaline it feels like it strips the cells from the surface of her throat. But she feels it as a clean heat in her belly, killing off whatever that pit of mud was in there. How horrible.
Now, after a brief struggle, she is able to sit up. But her back is immediately cold. She wraps her arms around her knees, fragile and vulnerable in the night air.
Alonso drapes a blanket over her shoulders when he sees her shiver. Then he looks away. Even in her distress she is achingly beautiful. And this from a man who still considers himself gay! But Alonso has always worshipped beauty wherever he finds it. It is how Miriam stole his heart. It is how he learned that he is properly bisexual, or pansexual, or whatever the kids are calling it these days. He loves love. He flies to it like a moth to flame.
“I seem…” Maahjabeen’s teeth chatter, “to be in recovery here on this island as often as I am standing on my own two feet. I am sorry. My work is suffering. I am falling behind.”
“No no. It is I who must apologize for putting you unwittingly in such danger. I have been thinking about… Well. Everything. This whole venture. The naïve idea that I could trust the military about anything is… I mean, I guess I was desperate and only heard what I wanted to hear. But I should have known that there would be this entire other reality here, one that did not want us on its shores. And then I forced the issue, until the villagers had to push back. And now we are in this mess. And it is all because of me. Do you know the English word hubris? My dangerous pride?”
“Yes, it has been used by supervisors about me on their reports. But you could not know, Doctor Alonso. This is the Americans. If they can use you they will and there is nothing you can do about it. You are good. It did not occur to you how bad others can be.”
But an entire montage of dark episodes flickers through his head. He was not a good man in the gulag. He was a beast, a rat among other rats. His goodness had been altogether lost.
Now she registers his distress. Maahjabeen recalls how wounded he is. No matter what she has gone through, it is nothing compared to what he endured the last five years. Compassion wells up in her, a nearly unfamiliar sensation. She cups his face. “You are… very strong. Amazing.” The halting words seem insufficient but they prompt a tear to slide down his cheek.
Alonso ducks his head. “Yes, I am so happy we get to be friends, Miss… Maahjabeen.”
“Ooo, I like that. Yes. Miss Maahjabeen from now on.”
They both laugh, listening to the white noise of rain approaching from over the water. Others tumble inside, chatting and shaking their clothes dry. Life fills the bunker.
Pradeep is the first one back in the clean room. “Ah! You’re up!” He throws himself at Maahjabeen, only holding back at the last instant so he doesn’t tackle her. He holds her gently in his arms, kissing her face again and again.
Maahjabeen laughs, pushing at him, reveling in his passion. “I am. I think it is gone now, Mahbub.”
Alonso informs him, “She is just waking. And her strength is back. She nearly broke my hand.”
They all laugh more. Pradeep is flooded with relief and joy. Oh, paradise is not lost. He gets to return to it after all.
“Ehh, what is going on in here?” Esquibel backs into the clean room holding a stack of dripping tubs. She turns and sees her patient sitting up, bracketed by the two smiling men.
“She is back!” Alonso feels the little room is crowded now so he stands with effort, his knees balking and his feet groaning with pain. He hides a grimace and moves aside, edging toward the door slit. “And that medicine may just be why.”
“What medicine?”
Pradeep’s smile goes glassy. He supposes there’s no harm in telling the Doctor now. “I am sorry, Doctor. Jidadaa was here. About, uh, sixteen hours ago? And she gave me some leaves and stuff, like an herbal recipe, for me to give Maahjabeen. And it immediately improved her. Now, she is doing so well—”
But Esquibel can’t hear another word. “And you didn’t tell me? You didn’t think the doctor should maybe test this ‘medicine’ of hers? Do the words contra-indicated mean anything to you? Oh, my god. You could have killed her.”
Alonso reaches out. “Now now.”
But Pradeep flares. “She was dying anyway. And you had given up. She wasn’t on any other drugs to contra-indicate, Doctor.” When someone attacks Pradeep he normally shuts down but this is Maahjabeen she is talking about. The ferocity that he puts into her title startles all of them, including him.
“You do not know if I would have started administering drugs. It could have been very fast, during an emergency. You have to tell your doctor when you want to try a new—”
“And you wouldn’t have given the herbs to her! You would have taken them away for your bloody stupid tests while she drowned in her own…” Pradeep gestures vaguely, the remembered sensation of cold bubbling mud robbing him of his words. “She needed it immediately. And Jidadaa swore me to silence.”
Esquibel pushes Pradeep out of the way. “Give me room. Tell me. How do you feel, Maahjabeen?”
“Okay. Like I have run a marathon or two. But getting better. Don’t be angry with Pradeep. He did what—”
“Yes, I know. He is your own true love and this is all so special. You are some of the worst patients I have ever had, I swear! So insubordinate. It is ridiculous trying to keep you healthy under these conditions.” Esquibel takes the woman’s pulse and prompts her to open her mouth and stick out her tongue. It is still a bit gray.
“We appreciate everything you do, Doctor Daine.”
“And don’t you try that political bullshit with me, Doctor Alonso. You knew about this too? Was I the only one kept from…?”
“No no. It is the first I’ve heard. If I’d known you hadn’t ordered it I would have never given her the final dose.”
“You gave her some too? Ai! Please. This is appalling.” Esquibel finds her stethoscope and starts listening to Maahjabeen’s thoracic cavity. Still congested. Things still seem a bit turgid. But far better than they had been. Esquibel could hardly detect her breath the last time she listened in. “And what if it is coincidence? Or what if these herbs have side effects that do not show up for six years? You cannot just eat any plant in the forest. That is how people die of toxic shock and renal failure. Does that sound like fun?”
Maahjabeen only silently regards Esquibel. What a powerful figure the Doctor is. But sometimes she is tiresome. Can’t she see that Pradeep made the right choice? He saved her life. “It is only your pride talking now, Doctor Daine.”
“No it is not!” Esquibel slams her hand against one of the tubs and pulls a tablet free of the same pile that held her stethoscope. “You think we just operate without any medical procedures? No best practices developed over the last one hundred bloody years of modern medicine? Why can’t people just shut up and do what they are told for once? There is a very disturbing trend in the world these days. Nobody trusts an expert any more. There is a growing amount of foolishness here in this camp, where trained scientists are beginning to believe in some very silly things. But you don’t know. None of you do. This is how the bush people are. They have no power of their own so they must magnify it through voodoo and superstition. Only if you believe in it, can it harm you.”
“We didn’t believe in anything, Doctor.” Pradeep wishes she would just leave them alone. “But we still ended up with the faces of foxes on our tailbones and pits of muds inside.”
“Yes.” Maahjabeen clutches him. “That is exactly how it felt.”
“Poison, as I have said. Most likely injected by a pad of needles in the pattern of a fox face. Perhaps for some ritual reason. Ask Doctor Triquet. No. Listen. You allowed an untrained village girl to give you a folk remedy for a deadly condition. Why do you not understand how dangerous that is?”
“What would you have me do, when she is dying? What were you doing, eh? What big plans did you have to save her?”
“I was monitoring her.”
“Monitoring…” Pradeep lifts his hands and lets them fall. “Great. Thanks. So much. For all your efforts. You had no plan. Doctors never understand. If you were able to heal us we’d be happy to stay in your care. But when you run out of ideas we are forced to take greater risks, to trust those we wouldn’t otherwise trust. Without this medicine, Maahjabeen would have died. I am sure of it.”
“What makes you sure?” Esquibel pinches Maahjabeen’s toes. “You didn’t need any medicine, Pradeep. And you survived. You came back even more rapidly than she did. So what healed you?”
They all look at Pradeep. A sudden image of Wetchie-ghuy fills his vision. He recalls for the first time who really saved him, in the twilight space between life and death, and at what cost. A sob bursts from Pradeep and he covers his mouth with his hand.
“What is it, love?” Maahjabeen kisses his hand.
He looks up, eyes drained of hope. “I… I, uh…” He finds himself incapable of putting it all into words. “I’ve been… claimed.”
Esquibel breaks the silence with a snort. “Yes, this is the exact kind of nonsense I mean.”