Chapter 28 – Just Getting Started
July 8, 2024
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28 – Just Getting Started
A tiny pocket beach of soft gray sand holds two figures intertwined on a blanket. The morning is warm. The wind is nonexistent. The sea murmurs instead of roars.
Maahjabeen kisses Pradeep’s hairline from one side to the other, little soft benedictions meant to quiet the unhappy buzzing in his skull. His latest extended outburst appears to be over and now he lies trembling in her arms, as spent as if he’d orgasmed.
Maahjabeen finally understands the reason for this quivering tension in him. Pradeep had been holding it close since the day before, when he had grown so withdrawn yesterday evening. She had almost bought, along with everyone else, his complaint after dinner that he was exhausted when he withdrew into his silent little pyramid, but she’d known something was bothering him. She’d assumed it was a touch of anxiety about their changing situation but this is much more than a touch. It is a storm, a flood of panic that has no basis in reality.
The idea that other hidden people live on this island—modern people with secret agendas—had been an idea he couldn’t dismiss. It had shocked him yesterday, it turns out, that everyone else hadn’t become as paranoid, as if they’d all rise up and beat the rushes from one end of the island to the next looking for spies or something. Now he thinks they’re all being wildly reckless because they were able to… what, change the subject? Realize there’s more than one thing to worry about out here? Celebrate Jay’s delicious catch and thank the Lisicans? All that should just be shelved until the mystery of the villagers who won’t get sick is solved?
“This is why you need God, dear one.” She nestles his face maternally in the holy space between a woman’s jaw, shoulder, and breast. She is cooing to him, watching the sea birds sailing above, petting his face. Satisfied with how his trembling is fading away, Maahjabeen is encouraged to continue. “It is too easy for you to fall into your own personal view of things. Your own reality. But when you know there is a single divine eye watching down on you, witnessing and judging every moment of the world around you…”
Pradeep lifts his head. His smile is tight and his laugh is staccato. “Ah hahaha. Maybe you don’t tell the guy with anxiety that there’s an all-seeing eye that sees everything he does, always judging him.”
“No, but He loves you!” Maahjabeen caresses Pradeep again. “It all comes from a place of love. Can’t you see that? It is where my love comes from. And you like my love, don’t you?”
Pradeep stares at her with helpless ardor. “I love your love.”
“It is the same love. That is all I am saying. And judgment is good. It keeps us living healthy, righteous lives. Lives with meaning. The scriptures contain all the wisdom one needs in life. It is like a guide book, a rule book our holy ancestors wrote down…”
She continues instructing him in the details of her faith. But he had stopped following after she had said it is the same love. Wait. Her idea of god’s love is the same as this incomprehensible and glorious love that she is showering on him? Well then, blimey. Sign him up. Maybe he’s ready for religion after all. He could never worship nearly anything he has ever discovered in this universe, except for this. This tapestry of honey in woman’s form. This love, as pure and infinite as the ocean. Yes, he will happily worship this. He buries his face deeper into her soft skin, this holy temple, letting the words soothe him, until he is dozing in her embrace.
Maahjabeen listens to the tide, her voice fading. Good. The more she talks the further she drifts from the essential core of her faith. Ultimately, she isn’t much of a religious scholar. She is not actually excited by the textual details of her religion. It is the culture that it provides and the mystical insights it unlocks within her, especially out here in the middle of nowhere. Oh, they couldn’t be more alone if they tried, just her and the man she loves. Who would ever need more than this? They could fish from their boats and build a driftwood hut up against the cliffs and live happily here forever, or at least until a storm wiped them all away…
Eh, what was that? Maahjabeen realizes her eyes have also closed and she starts back awake, Pradeep heavy in her arms. What did she hear? Feel? Sense somehow? What was it? The beach is empty. The kayaks, blue and yellow, still rest safely above the tideline. The sea remains calm. Out at sea, she glimpses a sheen of wide black skin rolling, just breaking the surface, on the far side of the waves. Ah, is that her orca spirit animal watching over her?
Yet her spine still itches of being watched. She needs to see up behind her on the cliff before she can settle. But that will mean dislodging Pradeep. “So sorry, love.” She slips out from under his embrace and is surprised that he doesn’t wake.
Sitting up, she turns. There is nothing but the bleak cliff behind her. Maahjabeen studies the bare walls of it until she is satisfied that whatever may have regarded her is now gone. Perhaps it was the orca, watching over her. Or warning her…
Something uncanny fills Maahjabeen when she turns away from the cliffs. She swears she caught a glimpse, just before she turned, of a native person, of indeterminate age and gender, just a fat little golem of a person with graying ringlets and a multitude of fetishes hanging from their dark cloak in the shadows at the base of the cliff. But when she looks at the spot again she sees no one.
Maahjabeen frowns, reality fraying at the edges. She has always been happy to have a deep mystical connection to the great and grand forces of the universe but this witchy nonsense is creeping her out. Is it real or is it a figment of her imagination? Why would her brain ever do this to itself? She had been so happy, content, with Pradeep in her arms.
But what if it’s real…?
Maahjabeen turns away from the spot again, and once again catches the briefest glimpse of the same person, standing hunched at the base of the cliff where they hadn’t been a moment before. She snaps her gaze back, but no. Nothing.
Now Maahjabeen can’t tear her eyes from the spot. “Pradeep.” She nudges him. “Uhh. Baby? Can you give me a hand?” But for some reason, once again, he doesn’t wake up. She pokes him even harder. “Pradeep. Hey. I need you.”
A chill descends from the cliff, tendrils of fog whispering down from the sky. What is going on? Why can’t she wake Pradeep up? Something malevolent is looming over her from the cliffs above. It is that shaman, someone she’s never before seen. There must be another one of those horrible tunnels that connects to the interior and now this creature is here, raining curses down on them.
It is the power of the sky that the shaman invokes. Maahjabeen knows this intuitively, the cold forbidding sky. And she knows as well that she is not without her own power. She is a dedicated maiden of the sea. And the sea is right here. In fact, her protector lies just offshore!
Without another thought, Maahjabeen stands and runs barefoot, clad only in her panties and bra, to the edge of the water. The sand is dark and the air is cold against her back. She isn’t looking at the cliff but she can distinctly see in her mind’s eye the shaman lifting a staff from which hang more fetishes, ready to call on powers dark and dreadful to keep her from reaching the water. All she needs to do is touch mother ocean, and she will find shelter from the sky under her cold dark waves.
Then yes! Another sheen of black from the water and this time a white eyepatch! It is her orca! Her mighty orca! And no clever monkey of the land, regardless of their spells and tokens, can fight an orca and win! “Oh, thank you, God, for sending me an angel!”
Maahjabeen touches the ebbing tide. It is even colder than she recalled, and forcefully reminds her that it is no sanctuary for her. She needs the air to breathe. The cold will steal her life. As much as she might wish she is a mermaid, she is a human woman after all and she is destined to live and die on land. So she turns back, filled with the strength of her conviction that this edge of two worlds—no, three—between the land and the water and the sky, is where she belongs. And no shaman’s curses can dislodge her from it.
The water splashes her, again, running up her side. This is a big wave. She needs to drag Pradeep and the boats clear. Aziz and… and… what did Amy name her other boat?
The water runs up against her once more, covering her face and nostrils… She sputters, sitting up. Oh, no! They’re swamped!
She startles awake. It had been a dream. A horrible dream and now she’s really here on the beach. She’d fallen asleep on the blanket with Pradeep and the tide had come in. It had been the tide hitting her three? four times? before she’d finally woken up.
Dizzy, she pulls Pradeep to his feet. He is still groggy, in a stupor. The blanket twists in the flowing current around their feet. The water is so cold. Then the leading edge of the wave touches the cliff face and pulls back, dragging the kayaks toward the sea…
“No! La! La!” Maahjabeen squeals, pushing Pradeep toward the blue kayak, which founders on rocks near where she left it. But Firewater (of course that’s its name!) is racing out to sea on the top of the tide. She churns after it, unable to let the sea take her boat.
Maahjabeen stumbles in the retreating surf and it soaks her, shocking her with its frigidity. But the yellow kayak meets the next wave rushing in and it is pushed sideways, then pressed against the sand below as the water overtops the hatch and pours in.
“No!” Maahjabeen screams again, reaching the kayak and dragging on it before it is swamped entirely. The wave crashes around her, nearly knocking her from her feet. But she regains her footing and stubbornly hauls the kayak from the water.
Shivering, spent, she rejoins Pradeep, who is fully awake now and waiting for her with a dry towel. He scrubs her, murmuring tender words, and prepares both of them for a quick retreat back to camp.
The shock of the water and nearly losing her boat forces all other thoughts from her head. It is a long time before Maahjabeen ever thinks of her nightmare again.
Ξ
“Living my best life, yo.” Jay climbed this bay tree last night and a wide nook separating one of its primary limbs from the trunk was enough of a spot for him to curl up in and survive the cold. Yet somehow he’d slept well. Must have been all the wine and weed. His emergency bivy sure helped too. Now he rolls it up and stows it away, studying the soft gray dawn light through the trees.
He is fully stocked and prepared for once. His injuries no longer hamper him. He wears his best gear and carries a full pack. Now it’s time to finally take the measure of this fucking island.
Jay drops to the ground, his legs not quite working yet. He falls sideways with a laugh into the duff. Well, at least it’s a soft landing. He picks himself up to find a pair of children waiting patiently for him at the base of the tree. “Oh! Hey! What’s up?” Jay fishes for his mask as he stumbles back to a safe distance. They watch him impassively. The kids here have such fine, impish features that he can’t tell if they’re boys or girls or… or foxes. They both look like little kits, with yellowish eyes and pointed muzzles.
Jay pulls off his pack and finds a bag of dried banana chips. He chews a few, easing his hunger, and holds out the ziploc bag to the kids. They don’t reach for it, though. They just watch him. “Pretty tasty. You don’t know what you’re missing… No? Okay. More for me.” He puts the chips back in his pack, takes a long drink of water from a steel bottle, and swings his pack back on. “Okay now. Let’s get cracking. I’ve been waiting to do this for weeks!”
Jay steps out from under the low-hanging canopy of the tree to scout the gentle hillside. He and the kids are in the interior valley downslope from the village, with the stream and wider river at the bottom of this vale, unseen down below. It had been an excellent camping spot last night, quiet and safe. The boys he’d partied with, Ahkhaachooix and Tlél wugoot, had eventually gone to bed in the village at the end of the festivities and he’d wandered down here for some shuteye.
None of the other researchers know he is gone. They’d all been asleep when Jay and his new buddies had closed down the party at camp and retreated back through the tunnels to the village, where they’d found an even larger party celebrating the harvest the rest of the troop had brought from the sea.
The villagers had all been so happy and welcoming, feeding him from their own plates and everything. Jay was pretty sure his chill surfer zen vibe was what they needed, not more chattering scientist nerds and all their pet theories.
By the end of the night, Jay had realized this was the Tuzhit festival they’d been talking about. And that Tuzhit was a name. It was like an ancestor’s birthday or something. There had been tons of speeches and formal chants and things, but still no music.
“Yeah, I left them,” Jay confesses, turning back to the kids. “I mean, if I’d told the others I was coming they wouldn’t have let me, or they would have made me bring someone else, someone who doesn’t want to do everything I got to do out here. See, I’m like a shepherd. You know dogs? Woof woof? Like the fox. But a working dog, herding sheep. My buddy Nate had a shepherd mix, real cutie named Stewart, all black and white. And whenever we went on a hike with Stewart he’d disappear for like a full hour. And Nate would just shrug and say, he’ll be back, he’s just getting the lay of the land. And that’s how I am. I got to get the lay of the land. That dog would scour every inch of whatever hill or valley until he knew it as well as his backyard. Only then would he settle down and hike right next to us. That dude was legit.”
The kids are still only watching him.
Jay laughs at his wasted breath. “Uh. Good talk. So off I go. Don’t, uh… don’t stick beans up your nose or nothing.”
Jay cinches the waist belt on his pack. It’s got a good twelve kilos in here. He’ll feel it after a while for sure. Now off he goes to the bottom of the valley! He’d thought about checking in with the village before he set out, especially if there was any of that yummy mussels and aromatic leaf dish left over from last night. But he was afraid they’d try to talk him out of his walkabout too so it’s for the best that he just head out. He’ll take three days tops to really scout the canyons and perimeter before returning home. Then he’ll take whatever punishment Esquibel and Alonso and Amy come up with. But they’ll all gain the benefit of his discoveries.
He reaches the creekside where the villagers get their water. He could fill up here but his bottles are still full. Aw, shit. Those kids are following him. They’re like forty meters back up the trail, their golden curls speckled with dew. That’s the last thing he needs, a pair of kids to worry about. He flashes a shaka. “Hang loose, little buddies. But I got to do this on my own, you dig?”
They apparently do not dig. When he starts walking they follow again, trailing behind at a safe distance.
“Well, let’s see what you do at the crossing.” Jay enters the wide bowl of the river valley. Blossoms cover the grasses with fields of yellow, white, and purple. “Beauty. Spring has sprung for sure.” Jay walks through the meadow, hands trailing along the tops of flowers. Soon his palms are coated in golden pollen. He turns back to the kids to show them his hands. “I am the King of Hayfever!”
But still they only watch.
“Quite the day. Pretty warm inland.” Jay takes off his pack at the riverbank and strips off a sweater. He studies the crossing as he stows the sweater and puts his pack back on. The river is blue-black, as wide as a four-lane road, with steep banks on both sides. He knows from his previous exploration that there’s no easy way across. He’ll just have to use his ingenuity.
“Well… I could drop a couple trees and use them as a bridge. But somehow, I doubt your folks would be happy about that. I could, let’s see… I’ve got an inflatable pillow here. Maybe I can use it like a floaty.” He scrambles down the muddy bank to the water, where he dips a hand in it. Super cold. Much colder than expected. He pulls back with a hiss. “Yeah, homie ain’t swimming across that, no sir. And it looks like there’s a deep current in there.” He scrambles back up to the top of the bank to pull a buck knife from his pack.
The meadow behind him is now empty. “Well at least the kids are gone.” He sighs, knowing it was his interaction with this taboo river that got them to take off. This couldn’t be a wise thing, to mess with the DMZ between two warring villages. But Jay has never been too wise. He needs to see what is on the far side. It’s like a biological compulsion driving him.
He retreats to the woods and takes down a good forty fir saplings, all of them about as wide as a pool cue and as tall as his body. He trims their branches off and bundles them with twine into a heavy raft, two layers thick. Then he notches the saplings so he can lay crosspieces for more support. The work is arduous and soon he’s sweating. He takes off his windshirt and another layer. Now he’s barechested in the humid morning, just a man and his knife. Collecting the trimmed branches, he ties them atop it as a thick green deck. Finally, after an hour or more, he drags the completed vessel to the edge of the bank. One last sapling, a long pole, will be his only steering device. All he has to do is cross no more than thirty meters of river to get to the far side…
He puts on his pack and pushes the raft mostly into the river. The unseen current pulls at it and Jay has to hold it and dig his pole into the mud at the same time to keep the raft from being carried away. He crawls out onto it as the current pulls it free from shore. With a mighty shove from his pole he attempts to get the raft out toward the center of the river.
Jay gathers the pole and pushes it down below him. But he can’t find the bottom. It is already over two meters deep here. Now he just waves the pole ineffectually about as the raft starts to spin. “Uh oh. This is the… I guess this is why you don’t cross rivers solo…”
He can’t get the raft to cross any more of the river. It takes him downstream at an increasing clip, a good five meters from the shore he left, pushing him past the bare bank on the far side down to where it’s far more overgrown. Jay keeps trying with the pole, hoping to find anything to push down there. But it’s deep, even deeper than this nearly three meters of sapling and his extended arm up to the elbow. He lies down, reaches his furthest into the black water with it, pulls it back, nearly topples as the raft rocks, and accidentally drops the pole. It floats away out of reach.
“Aaagggh.” Now he has no way to steer. With his frozen hands he paddles, trying to make of the raft a giant surfboard. Face down on the wet boughs, Jay paddles with his deepest, strongest stroke, first on one side, then the other. In this way, he is able to push the raft across the river as it carries him even further downstream. Now he is in the trees where they overhang the far bank.
Scrambling to his knees, Jay snares a drooping branch. It looks like some kid of willow variant. He’ll have to study it more closely after he saves himself. He slowly draws the raft toward the far bank, afraid the branch will snap, but it doesn’t. He pulls up to a mess of bracken that prevents the raft from reaching solid ground.
Jay tests the bracken. It is storm-wrack, decaying logs and branches dragged downriver to rest here against the bank, until the next storm dislodges it and pushes it further down. He can’t stand on it. It sinks beneath his weight. And the bank is still out of reach. “This is how you get tangled and pulled under and drowned, homeslice.” He can’t get out here. It’s impossible. Giving up on this exit point, he liberates a splintered limb that is wide enough to have its broken end serve as an oar.
Jay pushes away from the willow and its false bank and paddles madly for another spot further downriver. Finally, he reaches it, tumbling off the raft onto the muddy slope and nearly falling back in. Only pushing himself from the water with the oar saves him. But the raft is lost, spinning away in the current out of view.
Sodden, frozen, and a bit scared, Jay crawls up the far bank. The fir needles are fragrant and their points prick his palms. There’s no going back now. At least, not for a while. The thought of building another raft and putting himself through that ordeal again is enough to nearly make him give up on life.
“But first… the rest of the fucking island.” Standing, he brushes the needles from his wet pantlegs and exits the dark woods. He wants to get back to the meadow on this side and all its flowers.
The ground here beneath the brown needles is crumbled and hollow, as if it’s a home for a warren of ground squirrels or gophers. Mushrooms, pale yellow and golden, peek out from where they lift the topsoil above them. Some could be chanterelles. Maybe Cantharellus pallens. Jay stops to inspect them. Yes! A big chunk of a fresh one, as big as his fist, he levers out of the ground with his knife. Oh, what he would do for a stick of butter and a head of garlic. Well. He’ll just have to build a fire and roast this bad boy all by itself. Maybe with some bay leaves… He wishes he’d known what the fragrant leaves were he ate with the mussels last night but he only saw them after they’d been cooked and mashed.
Ha. Those nerds are sure going to miss his cooking. Watch, he’s going to return with like a buck slung over his shoulder, shouting, “We feast!” Jay cries it aloud as he steps out into the meadow.
He sees movement among the waving blossoms. “Whoa. No way.” There are people out there. Three, no, four. Small and slender, their faces are covered in featureless masks of golden pollen, standing among the flowers, waving their dark arms in slow imitation of tree limbs in the wind.
His words echo across the silent meadow and draw their faces toward him. Their faces are blank, smooth, entirely covered in pollen. “What the…? Okay, I was wrong. You motherfuckers are the kings of the hayfever. Those masks are sick. How the hell are y’all even breathing?”
He’s never seen humans stand like this, nor move their limbs in such odd unjointed ways. Jay looks back at the woods, thinking it may be his refuge. Maybe not. He turns back to the pollen people.
“So they say struck dumb, like that’s a thing, you know? But the thing is I’m already dumb and I can’t seem to shut up so I don’t know what to call that.” Jay realizes he’s blithering. But he can’t stop. “You all, uh, I mean, we’re all carbon-based life forms here, right? I mean, right? We’re all mammals? Or are some of us, I don’t know, like actually plant-based or…?”
One of them sways toward him, its movements more like those of a sapling’s stalk than an animal’s muscles.
“Okay. Now that is creeping me out. No way, dude. No way. I can’t accept that this is real. There aren’t like—”
A bird’s sharp trill, from further in up away from the river, gets the four golden figures to suddenly turn and dash, totally human, and race downriver past him, one giggling and tearing her wood mask from her face as she goes.
Now Jay quivers with astonishment. They are people after all. I mean, of course they are. Golden plant people don’t exist. Pollen faced people… He shivers. But he can’t ignore the fact that they’re fleeing from someone. Someone is coming. Jay should himself follow them. He hurries back into the woods.
A trio of hunters, two young men and a woman, glide into the meadow. They hold short two-prong spears and carry javelins on their backs. Dressed in hide tunics and leggings that have been blackened and softened by grease, they make no noise as they study the tracks of the pollen people through the trampled flowers.
Now they are coming this way. Jay hides behind the wide trunk of a redwood. This is stupid. They’re going to find him. And if they’re surprised then they might be more dangerous. There’s only one way to play this. He steps out, arms up, and faces them.
The three hunters stop, frozen mid-stride. They are low to the ground, like wolves on a kill.
Jay laughs nervously. “H-h-hey. I mean, hi there. It’s just me. Dancing in the flowers. Nobody else. Remember me? From before? With the smoke and the fire?”
They make a silent decision and arrow toward him again. The two behind split off to the left and right to flank Jay. Their faces are closed, their eyes dark and sharp as fangs.
“Hey now.” Jay has been in more than his share of scrapes and can tell where this is heading. He puts his back to the redwood and stands tall, which is much taller than them. Hands up, he swings his pack off. “Let’s not do this, folks. Nobody needs to get hurt.”
But they obviously disagree. The three hunters move in a coordinated rhythm to within ten paces of him.
They’ve fought men before. Jay realizes this as he cracks a knuckle against the hardness of his phone in the front pocket of his pants. Fumbling at his hip, he might need to whip out his buck knife here. But he has a better idea instead.
Jay pulls out his phone and holds it up. “Oh, you want some of this? You want to try me and my badass twenty-first century wizardry? Then smile.”
He takes a photo with a flash. The three hunters yelp, like dogs in a thunderstorm, and freeze again, hunching lower.
“Oh, you like that? Yeah. That’s right, dude. I’m stealing your fucking soul.” He takes another flash photo and another, one for each. “Sorry. That was racist. Lots of, uh, assumptions in that one. But check it out! I hold the power of lightning and thunder!”
Jay turns the volume of his phone up high as the opening chords of Cerebral Bore’s Maniacal Miscreation begin. Banging his head, he advances on them, howling, “Carve a path unto obsidian – insane creation of an abscessed mind…! Maniacal Miscreation!” But these last two words are shouted at their retreating backs. They broke and ran when the guitar went full heavy metal. In the quiet meadow the phone is startlingly loud. Now the hunters must be racing back to tell all their friends and relations about the giant pale magic man and the power he holds in his hand.
Jay turns off the music. His hands are shaking. “Well so much for the fucking prime directive. Couldn’t have interfered more. Uhh. Now what do I do?” His imagination goes wild, afraid the entire countryside will rise up against him, to hunt him down and make an example of his trespass, his head on a pike for all to see.
But if he returns now, will the hunters follow him back across the river and start a war with the village he knows? And with all the talk of spies and geopolitics his mind tolls like a bell, as big as the whole globe. Are the good Lisicans like the American village and these psychos are like the Russian village? Would they start a fight here that spirals outward to engulf everyone else? Did Jay just start World War Three?
“Okay. Okay, get a grip, dude.” Jay fishes in his pack for his smoke kit. He pulls out a joint, one of his nighttime indica sleep sticks. But he needs to calm the fuck down. Lighting it, he takes a deep drag and releases a billow of smoke. “Can’t go back. Can’t go on…” Cause, like, what would he even do here? Let’s say, him and his brass balls are able to spook these straight killers for a while with his light and music show, then what? He’d have to like take over the whole tribe to keep them from eventually attacking him. And that’d be that whole Kipling morality tale all over again. No thank you. It always ends badly for the man who would be king.
Then Jay recalls the pollen people, laughing with abandon even as they passed him, fleeing from the hunters. Who are they? “Well, bro,” Jay tells himself, “looks like it’s time to find out.”
Ξ
“Tuzhit is a name!” Katrina runs through the camp in the middle of the day, calling out in triumph. “It’s like an ancestral proper name and they were planning a Tuzhit festival! That’s what they were telling us! The clouds and the wind needed to be all…” She stops in the center of the camp as heads begin to peek out of tents. Katrina searches for the word. “Uh… Propitious! Auspicious! Delicious! They were waiting for all the factors to be right and our fire nearly ruined that.”
“Okay. And who is Tuzhit?” Alonso has decided this will be his gossip, his guilty pleasure. He will be as excited about the Lisicans as people get about celebrities. But it isn’t as easy to care as he thought it would be. These damn villagers would ruin Plexity yet.
“Not Eyat, that’s for sure. Not a single Tuzhit in any Eyat list I can find. Nothing even close, except for, uh, ‘adon kadushidán, which means we like to go hunting (and we go frequently).’ But check it out. In Slavic languages, tuzhit means to mourn or grieve. So maybe it wasn’t their actual name when they were alive, the ancestor they’re celebrating, maybe it was who they were to these people. And they mourn for them. So it’s a sad day, I guess.”
“Squid salad for lunch!” Mandy arrives with platters. The baby squid the Lisicans had caught for them have stored just fine in cold water over the last twelve hours. Now they are little dollops of chewy and crunchy protein atop three types of seaweed with a balsamic dressing.
“I recorded that long speech the Mayor gave us. Remember?” Katrina appeals to Triquet, who nods. “It was super long and dense and I’ve been pulling it apart. But the verb tenses are just appalling. They’re so complex. And this is some like basic knock-off version of Eyat. Not even the full intricacies. But putting sentences together is like chasing your tail. They all sound like, ‘Of the low-status man who approached you yesterday, the question shall be asked to you in the morning, who are an older woman of a higher-status inland community, who is in the habit of hearing from your clan…’ And by then I forget it’s a question. Just crazy stuff like that. But I’m definitely getting strong impressions. You know what I mean? Patterns.”
“And where are these patterns leading us?” Alonso swore to himself he’d be less crabby about this subject but now that it is here again he can’t help himself. “Their oral histories will fill every moment of our time here if we are not careful. I’ve heard how much they talk.”
“No idea where it’s headed, frankly.” Katrina’s assessment is sober and a bit worried. “But you’re right. An entire university department of anthropologists and ethno-linguists could spend their whole careers studying the Lisicans. This is definitely tip of the iceberg stuff. It’s just… I think we need to know as much about them as we can, just to learn if we are safe.”
“I agree.” Esquibel has been listening from the door of the bunker and now she enters the camp. “Learning a bit about their language and culture is a good step in that direction. I don’t see how you can argue against that.”
But Alonso, despite their reasonable pleas, becomes irritable. “Fucking human intervention, everywhere I turn. You must understand how this is for me. My dream… my visions of Plexity were the only thing keeping me alive. For years. I mean, I would be locked in a concrete box for days, so small I couldn’t even sit up. Face down. Cold like you’ve never known. In my delirium I built Plexity, the greatest experiment in modern life sciences. But it requires an isolated, stable, and natural setting. Just for its first iteration. Then it can be adapted for use everywhere.”
Katrina spreads her hands. “I don’t know what to tell you. All indications point to the Lisicans being here way before we were even born. Like they’re pretty much neolithic. They don’t have any modern items except for a couple old photos. They’re as much a part of this island as… I don’t know… the foxes.”’
“And what do you mean by ‘natural,’ Doctor Alonso?” Esquibel frowns. “Your use of the term seems more emotional than rational, if I may be so blunt.”
“Of course it is!” Alonso fights down sudden tears. “I told you I was face down in a pit fighting for my life for five years, did I not?”
Quietly, Amy answers for him. “This is an old argument between Sergio Alonso and me, Doctor Daine. In Japan we are taught that there is no division between the world of forests and animals and the world of humans. It’s all the same world. Or, more properly from a Shinto point of view, it’s all Japan. The skyscrapers are as much an expression of natural processes as, I don’t know, termite mounds or volcanoes. The division of humans from the world around them is pretty much a post-industrial Western idea. A lot of the Romantics in the 18th and 19th centuries, you know, with their fables of the dark haunted woods and people fleeing sweatshops and industrialization to find their spirit in idealized Nature. Yeah, that’s a very Snow White way of looking at the world.”
Alonso has regained his equilibrium during her long speech. “That is all very well and good, Ames. But you don’t know how much an inclusion of the human parameters into Plexity will, I mean, it’s multiplying every single factor by at least two orders of magnitude. It will break the model.”
Amy shrugs, knowing that all she can do is present the facts. “The model’s already broken, Lonzo. We just saw them carry away like fifty kilos of sea life and all those bushels of bay and wild onion. The broad leaf they harvested is unknown. I think the lily family. But the point is they’re gardening here. They’re hunting and fishing on a regular basis. This automatically changes all the readings we get. If our focus is the interconnected model, then, yeah. If they aren’t included then you’re just modeling a… fantasy.”
Alonso’s eye twitches. These are deep roots in him, fibers of conviction intertwined with his own sinews and bones about how this must be. He obsessed for far too long and Plexity became far too important for him to get this close to realizing it and having it slip away. But he knows how he looks. He just can’t seem to muster the leader’s trait of giving a shit about these Lisicans. Instead, blind in his own misery, he flings an arm back to where he know his wife sits behind him. “Mirrie. What am I supposed to do?”
“You silly sod.” She swats him. “Look around you. Brilliant minds everywhere. You don’t need to do anything. You’ve already assembled the team. Now you get to sit back and watch them solve this problem. It’s your vision, yes. But now it’s all of ours, too. It’s our daily lives, Zo. And it’s why we’re here.”
“Yes…” Flavia stands, lifting her laptop. “I am already writing a few notes about ways I think we can scale human factors without looking at a logarithmic expansion of computation. It is the same type of problem as the circadian rhythm cycle we were able to detect in the data, then nearly automate. Training the model with the new variables will be the hard part, then getting it up and running should be, well, still pretty hard, but doable.”
“I disagree.” Katrina holds up an index finger. “I think the hard part will be defining terms and variables of the Lisicans to begin with. I mean, I assume you’re going to start with things like calorie requirements and daily subsistence impacts on their ecosystems, but, I mean, we don’t even understand who these people are yet, or why they do nearly anything they do. They just had this festival, which was a major impact on their environment, and we don’t even know a thing about it. As far as we know it might be the season of festivals and it’s all night every night now til winter.”
“It’s a shame Pradeep isn’t here.” Amy tries to recall his words. “He and I had an interesting talk about this once and he said that if aliens were up above looking down on us in spaceships, they wouldn’t need to know our pop culture references and historical traditions to understand us. He believes all the internal narrative stuff and even a lot of scientific defense of cultural expression are overblown. He said it could all be measured by caloric output, all the wars and the famines and the building of cities, and the culture could be inferred with mathematical modeling. The reasons behind all our activity are only discernible at this huge macro scale.”
“I was just thinking the same thing!” Flavia turns to the lagoon, pointing at it. “Where is Jay? He was right. We are nothing but our structures! We are coral reefs! Our lives are too short to see it!”
Triquet crows, “Yipee! History wins again!”
Alonso laughs, rueful. “Thank you, my friends, for helping me lift my spirits. I do not mean to be so… It may be true that I began the leadership of this mission a few months or years earlier than I should have. But the opportunity presented itself and here we are.”
Esquibel opens a bin and takes out a tray filled with a variety of pills. “Here. Just a few supplements. Electrolytes and a B-complex. I think that MDMA therapy you did is still making you miserable. Your lows are much lower these last couple days.” She hands the pills to him and he dutifully swallows them dry as she monitors his pulse. “I cannot say it was a successful experiment.”
“What, the drug trip? The… the molly?” Alonso says the word with such innocence that Katrina snickers. “No. I think it was very helpful. It was like Mandy’s hands on my feet. Very scary at first but now I can see the utility. Maybe we do it again soon, yes?”
Katrina and Mandy share a surprised sidelong glance. “Uhh… yeh, sure thing. All of it? The double dose and the, oh, what’s it called, Mandy?”
“The massage?” Mandy flexes her fingers. “Tui na.”
“Yes,” Alonso points at her, “that.”
“Huh.” Katrina giggles. “That was a quick turnaround.”
“Well, that is what we are saying, is it not?” Now Alonso feels like there is a path of virtue ahead and he is damned if he will let it slip away. “We all recognize now that I am failing as a leader and you are both offering means for me to heal. It terrifies me, to be honest. You have no idea. But if your therapies mean I can still effectively run this mission then I will do anything. Anything.”
Now Katrina can’t help but spoil his dramatic words with a suppressed snort of laughter. “La, if me mates could see me now. The brave middle-aged bloke willing to do anything, include rolling on molly like a rave kid at a candy store. Uh, most of us don’t even need an excuse to roll like every weekend?”
Now they all laugh, in a minor key that suggests they appreciate the joke without really understanding what a fiend Katrina is, and what an unmitigated delight her many trips have been, showering herself with light and love in a thousand ways, which has changed her forever into a much better person, tiny lines of white powder stitching her heart like ritual scarification.
“Ultimately,” Katrina lifts Alonso’s hand and kisses it, “we can all agree that we just need more study, across the board. Fungus and plant and animal. Wind and sun and sea. You’ve given us this brilliant tool to work on it. Nobody thought we’d actually be able to finish it, whatever that means, by the time we left.”
“I just want a functioning prototype. Flavia’s bootstrap method is automating more and more processes so I believe if we are able to finally get a critical mass—”
“But what is that?” Miriam pounces a bit too quickly, but she has to get a word in before he skips ahead. “Slow down. Give the team numbers, Zo. Like in terms of samples. How many are we aiming for and how many do we already have? We’re nearly halfway through our time here, although we’ve only been seriously collecting for, what, ten days? So what are those numbers?”
“Ehh, let’s see.” He accesses the administrative dashboard for Plexity on his laptop and finds the appropriate values. “We have collected 8157 inputs of all types, including secondary readings and observations. 4338 samples from the Dyson readers. And it has been eleven days since the first samples were logged.”
“And how many do you need for your critical mass?”
“The data scientist in me has always believed Plexity will finally start to resolve into a clear and useful model at 100,000.”
“A hundred thousand samples? Oy vey.” Amy swoons. “That’s like a hundred times more than I’ve ever done, even in the widest assays. Good thing I brought Jay. He’s picking up like another thousand as we speak.”
“A hundred… thousand?” Miriam shakes her head. It is such a tremendous amount of work the idea of it makes her ill. “You can’t be serious, Zo. There’s not a single conceivable way…”
“Sure there is, Mirrie.” Alonso waves his cane in the air like a general marshaling his troops. “We are already four percent of the way there! And we are just getting started!”
Chapter 15 – Against Their Will
April 8, 2024
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15 – Against Their Will
Jay follows Pradeep into the undergrowth. This was Jay’s idea and he meant to be the one showing Pradeep, but the damn sprained ankle still slows him down.
Pradeep, on hands and knees, looks over his shoulder. “Left?”
“Yeah, I mean it’s the only way really.” Jay curses himself for not investigating that left tunnel earlier. He focused on the discoveries in the nest to the right, overlooking the pool. If he’d been thorough then, he’d have been the one who discovered the cliff entrance aboveground. And then maybe he could have been the one who found Flavia. Who knows?
Pradeep removes his bulky backpack and pushes it ahead of himself through the dry duff. It quickly grows gloomy and dark. He pulls his headlamp’s band over his forehead and switches it on. The low tunnel through the branches curves away to the left. It is a passage for much smaller people. Pradeep figures he might be the tallest person on this island and his overly-wide shoulders can’t seem to find the proper angle to slip through. So he ends up forcing it in tight spots, bracing the tough leafless limbs with arms and legs as he wrestles his way through.
“How’s it going up there, partner?” Jay’s cheery voice is right behind him. The wiry Californian moves like a weasel in the woods. He once told Pradeep that from the ages of nine to twelve he slept inside a house only eighteen times. All his other nights were spent in a tent or under the stars. Pradeep, who grew up in highrise apartments in Hyderabad and Pondicherry, can’t imagine a childhood without violent weather and immense crowds and buzzing insects. While Pradeep was nearly drowned but also often sustained by the ocean of life in which he spent the first seventeen years of his life, Jay had experienced something very much like Lisica, just with more sunshine. Lucky devil.
But was he really crushed and drowned by life on the flanks of the Eastern Ghats? His father Rajiv was a postmaster general for a large division of Hyderabad. His Tamil wife Nanditha stayed at home with Anisha and Pradeep, distrustful of the community she had married into. His mother had made their home a fortress and filled her children with anxieties about cleanliness and crime and dishonor, to the point that she had a breakdown when Pradeep was twelve, followed by his sister’s utter neurotic collapse in a parking garage downtown two months later, caught on video and shared on social media and everything. She’d even been institutionalized for a time. Ah, yes, the golden years… Pradeep trudges through the bracken, sharp branches and thorns snagging at him, hands stinging with their bite, his forebrain absently listing off Latin names for all the species around him while his hindbrain is filled with old memories.
“So my uncle grew some of the fattest sativa crops of the nineties in Big Sur.” Jay doesn’t mind the slow going. He’s able to better protect his bum hand. But as he crawls that elbow on his shirt gets all torn up instead, bearing his weight. When Pradeep stops once again Jay pulls a synthetic neck gaiter from his pocket and winds it five times around his sleeve, then pushes it up into position. That should help for a bit. “He had a secret approach like this through the scrub that the Feds never found. It started as a game trail and he just widened it in certain spots that couldn’t be seen from planes or satellites. Man, I remember the first time he took me there. So fucking cool. It was like stepping into magic land.”
Pradeep stops in a small junction big enough for him to sit up in. “You mean an illegal grow operation? Wasn’t that very dangerous for a child?”
“Oh totally. He had a big ol’ revolver on one hip and a big ol’ blade on the other. Said he’d fought off a bunch of Mexican Mafia back in the day. And then boom! We came out onto this field that was just so amazing. Immense and perfectly hidden. He’d hung camo parachutes under the trees like we did here. Like over three thousand plants, the tallest were over seven meters. See, I didn’t understand at that age how fully destructive an outdoor grow was. The diverted streams and the fertilizer runoff and the booby traps in the woods. I just thought he was a genius.” Jay peers down the two paths ahead. “He eventually spent ten years in Mule Creek Penitentiary and today he’s a bitter ex-con with a foot they had to amputate from diabetes. Now, which way to the cliffs? And where does this other one lead?”
Pradeep shakes his head briskly to clear it of Jay’s wild story. Then he orients himself. “Cliffs must still be to the right, yes? We are constrained on that side by the pool. So there can’t be another path there. It would lead right into the water. The path to the left? I don’t know.” By all rights Pradeep should be heaving now with claustrophobic panic. And it does flutter like a white moth against the window of his mind but he will not let the panic in. He has taken tremendous steps here on Lisica, as the crises have mounted and the unknowns have increased. Yet his rational mind keeps reminding him that despite all the dangers he remains relatively unscathed. The immense dreadful possibilities that normally grip him by the throat have less power here. Perhaps there are just fewer factors and the unknowns come in manageable sizes, unlike the urban hell of Hyderabad or even the bustle of Pittsburgh or Houston where he’s spent so much of his academic life. Perhaps he is just finally growing up. But he never thought he would willingly crawl through a bank of vegetation to wedge himself inside a cliff. Yet even the most wildly dangerous unknown can in time become a safe known. That is his new mantra.
And besides, Jay told him Triquet brought back news of a colony of bioluminescent fungi in a rocky chamber near the exit. Pradeep could ask for nothing more.
“You are correct. Look. Their tracks come from the right.” Jay leads now, up the right tunnel to the cliff face. At a small skirt of fallen black stone, the manzanita suddenly stops and a few tracks through the mud lead to a fold in the vegetation ahead. Rounding into a hidden cut, Jay ducks into the mouth of the tunnel that leads into the cliff. He giggles. “Oh, man. This is fucking wild. It was right here all along.” The way everyone had been describing the cave tunnels he thought they would be the tightest mud chutes. But he can stand straight in here. And only half of it is earth. The other half is solid stone. This is a legit cave. He could like live in here. There’s even a nice flat platform near the back, dry and clear, for a bed. And then there’s another path in the rear leading further in. He ducks into it.
Aha. This must be what they meant. Jay turns his headlamp on. Yeah… that’s pretty dire. The rocky ceiling lowers to a height he can’t see from this angle. But he can see the tracks Miriam and Triquet and Amy made in the mud. They obviously came crawling out from this hole yesterday. Jay kneels and prepares to squirm his way forward. Then he realizes Pradeep isn’t yet with him. He pauses. “How’s it going back there, partner?”
“Oh.” Pradeep’s voice in the chamber behind him is muffled and a bit surprised. “I didn’t realize you were moving on. Didn’t you see this? I want to study it first.”
Jay frowns, temperamentally incapable of slowing down, and reluctantly retraces his steps to Pradeep’s side. His taller partner is still at the mouth of the chamber, staring up at its ceiling.
Jay sighs in wonder. “Ah, wow…!” It is the night sky, drawn in ash sticks, hanging over their heads like the dome of a planetarium. Countless stars, made of some bright white bits they can’t identify, sparkle down at them. The moon is a pale orb made of mother of pearl. “Oh, shit. Look at the moon. I think it’s an abalone shell. Oh my fucking god, if there are abalone here we will eat like kings. I haven’t seen any yet but… Have you ever had any?”
“Abalone?” Pradeep shakes his head no. “Isn’t that like a large scallop? No.”
“So much more than a large scallop, my man. Best seafood on the planet bar none. And I will fight anyone who disagrees.”
“Hm. Better than uni?”
“Dude, this is like a steak. Better than any lobster or crab or fish or anything. But you need like a crowbar to get them off the rocks. They’re so mighty. And their shells are beautiful. But you got to tenderize them or they’re like leather. Beat them into submission then fry them in butter… Bro. Jesus, I’m like drooling, having a serious Pavlovian response just thinking about it.”
“We don’t have butter.”
“Yeah, definitely a major oversight.”
“You know what else is a major oversight?” Pradeep still studies the artwork. The ash is drawn in varying shades, the Milky Way a lighter band through the center. This is advanced art, with a distinct style. “We neglected to bring an actual anthropologist skilled in first contact. None of us know what to do with these discoveries. We aren’t trained.”
Finally Pradeep drops his gaze to see Jay waiting for him at the low mouth of the next tunnel. “Yeah,” Jay agrees. “I mean, we know not to compromise the natives with disease or exploit their asses, right? That’d be fucking perfect, wouldn’t it? They drop off eleven scientists on March twenty-second and pick up eleven slave masters on May nineteenth.”
Pradeep mutters something he regrets as soon as it passes his lips.
Jay has already dropped down into position. He pauses and looks back over his shoulder. “What’s that?”
Pradeep grimaces and drops to his knees behind Jay. The white moth beats more frantically against the glass. “They dropped off eleven, but unless we can find Flavia they’re only picking up ten.”
Ξ
Katrina misses nothing about modern life. Well, nothing she didn’t bring with her, that is. Don’t be taking her music and drugs away. And sure, losing the internet is a huge bummer but she’s managing just fine. It turns out that after a couple weeks in the middle of nowhere she doesn’t care about the Marvel Universe after all and the wise and wonderful social media personalities she follows seem far less knowledgeable about the world. Their insights sound false and shrill in her head now, the ambitious political bravery they espouse only fit for the unhealthy world they inhabit. It doesn’t matter that we / the people / can never be divided if there simply aren’t any people. Or, more properly, they won’t get divided in the first place if none of the handful of people on this isolated speck of land are sociopaths. That’s the thing, innit? Without the sociopaths we don’t need rules and laws and police and prisons. It’s always those few sly ones trying to find the loopholes and advantages for themselves who ruin it for everyone else. But if all the members of the village are just willing to work together like normal humans, then they can just carry on with their projects and daily lives, understanding that it’s to everyone’s benefit that they just treat each other bloody decently. How hard is that?
She makes her own exploration of Tenure Grove this morning. It is uncharacteristically humid and the air is heavy, with idle birds cheeping in the trees and stillness all about. It’s a bit spooky, if Katrina is being honest with herself. But Mandy told her about the nook that makes twisters and she’s still never visited Maureen’s grave. There’s all kinds of wonders out here.
Just the trees themselves are outrageous. Katrina stands at the base of one of the elder giants, its red bark gone black over the millennia, rilled deeply and striped with nearly fluorescent lichen. She presses her hand against the tough fibrous bark, trying to make contact with the living being within. But the bark is a thick shell she can’t penetrate. Then she looks up. The trunk shoots straight upward for nearly a hundred meters before it even thinks about spreading its branches. She actually can’t see much here at the base. The trunk is so big it dominates her view. Katrina steps back, and fights her way through the brush to encircle it. This one tree is just too big for her to see all at once. It’s a single living organism and it’s broader than her house. There are twenty story buildings downtown that are shorter. And it’s just a tree. Crazy.
Maybe she can count them. Get an inventory. The bio team seems pretty overwhelmed with all the collecting they have to do. She could definitely give them a hand. Perhaps she should start at the edge to her left and systematically go through from one side to the other. Yes, that would be best.
And then her mind starts to wander, as it regularly does. What if she plotted the redwoods on a map? Wouldn’t that make everyone happy? More data and all that. Then maybe she could take it to Mandy and get more into this transpiration jazz she won’t shut up about. Trees call the rain to them. How cool is that? Well okay, atmospheric scientist. You want to play this game? Let’s break it down tree by tree, how much moisture they’re exhaling, and build a flow dynamic with your weather data. See if we can model this whole bad boy: the ocean currents; the weather; the cyclones in the nooks; and even the trees calling rain. We can create visualizations of gases rising from the island in clusters and how they interact with the air currents sweeping in.
Hmm. Depending on how many nodes she put into the model, the complexity of it could easily exceed the computing power of the machines on the island, but she will deal with that eventuality when she comes to it. They are all getting into much more data-intensive work and the CPUs of Lisica are about to suffer. Anyway, she’s got ideas about optimizing their FLOPS. But that’s for later.
So wait. What qualifies as a tree? Are these little green saplings like redwood babies or are they some other kind of pine? And will the saplings have any affect on the humidity? Nominal amounts? Also, there appear to be some pretty tall pine and fir trees here that aren’t redwoods. Do they transpire at the same rate? Uh oh. Looks like she’ll need to brush up on North American dendrology before she anoints herself any kind of field biologist. She should probably talk to Amy about how to best go about it before just throwing herself in.
Katrina makes a face. But that is not her way. And besides, Amy is out of camp, as are Jay and Pradeep. Here. She’ll just take a picture of every tree in the grove and annotate where it is. Then if she doesn’t recognize it she can identify and categorize it later. How many trees can there be? Like, what, a thousand at most?
No, there’s nothing she misses about modern life. She misses her dad and Pavel, no doubt, but she also doesn’t mind this break from them. Life is intense back in Sydney with all their cares and woes. God, if she could just bring Pavel here. He would heal so fast. She can already see a transformation starting in Alonso, an easing of the pain. Her brother always loved big trees. And a good mystery. This place would accelerate his rehabilitation.
She has three hundred-eighty pictures in her new album when she realizes she’s only moved through a tiny fraction of the grove. Ah feck. There are a lot more trees in a grove than she thought, and the grove is bigger than it looks when you really start to study it. Maybe she’ll just stick with the large trees, the real giants who often grow in these tight rings. She can just take pictures of each of them, or as much as she can fit in a single frame. And maybe the cut-off will be if the trunk is wider than a meter. That should bring her targets down to a manageable amount, shouldn’t it?
Katrina finds herself inside one of the redwood fairy rings staring at Maureen Dowerd’s grave. Right. The mystery. A bird trills in a shrubby tree beside her. She listens, then hears the distant crash of the surf. Suddenly she is unbearably lonely, the immense isolation of Lisica bearing down on her with full force. It’s inescapably true, this infinitesimal chip of land floating in the forbidding ocean is an existentialist crisis for the taking whenever she wants. But she’s always put on a brave face about confronting the howling void so far. No reason to let it get to her now.
Had the ennui gotten to Maureen here? Did she kill herself? It seemed to fit the facts they knew. Could it have driven her over the edge and kept her body from being returned? Wasn’t there much more of a taboo in postwar America about suicide? Or wouldn’t they have come up with a harmless euphemism? Died in her sleep or some such. Maybe she blew her brains out and it was impossible to mask the hole in the skull or something. Maybe they had to hide the body here.
Katrina takes a step back and her foot sinks in the duff. It’s so spongy and soft. She studies the wood and concrete grave marker with a frown. Something isn’t right. The marker stands barely above the level of the collected detritus. How has it not been totally covered over the years? Triquet said Maureen must have died like over six decades ago, way more than enough time for her remains to be buried here forever. So how had Jay found it still sticking out into the air like this? It’s almost like someone’s been watching over the grave, tending it…
In a dizzying instant, Katrina’s existential anxiety flips. She doesn’t feel alone at all any more. As a matter of fact she has the distinct impression she is being watched. The hairs on the back of her neck prickle. An unbearable impulse to bolt fills her.
Nothing has changed. The air remains still. The bird still hops in the bushy tree beside her. But she can’t stay here a moment longer.
Katrina scrambles from the fairy ring, the middle of her back itching, anticipating the blow of an indigenous arrow or spear. Because that’s who it has to be, right? Lurking in the brush nearby or something, watching her with dark eyes.
The island is inhabited. The island is inhabited.
These words echo in her mind over and over as she retreats to the safety and loud bustle of camp.
Ξ
A yelp of pain from the bunker breaks Alonso’s concentration. He looks up with a frown. Another sharp yelp and a gasp follow. Ah. Maahjabeen. Poor girl. The good doctor and Mandy must be working on her shoulders and back.
Now. Where was he? Right. He’s back at Plexity, working at the widest frame of reference that can be useful, placing the bounds of the data set at several kilometers from the physical boundaries of the island, both in the water surrounding it and the air above. Beyond those boundaries, it can be justified that Lisica ceases to be a unique geographic locale per se. Outside influences begin to matter as much as local ones and the surrounding open ocean becomes a transition zone. But where exactly does that occur?
Ai mi. How will he ever translate this to larger biomes? This is the question that forces him to work at such a scale this morning. In the future, when he tries to apply Plexity to the Colombian Cordillera or the American Midwest there will be no clear simple boundaries like Lisica has. There isn’t an undifferentiated ocean around them, there are nodes and clusters of life all over, in every direction. Every interaction just leads to other interactions further afield. And yet, isolating one from another means shearing it clean of the very entanglements he needs to study. He knows deep in his bones that the biological interactivity of Plexity is his life’s work and that precious insights into the nature of the universe await him. If he can only find the proper way to actually represent it in ways computers and their coders can understand. That is the challenge.
Where is Flavia? She can help untangle… Ah. He chuckles at himself. There’s an old man moment if he’s ever had one. She is still gone, maybe for good. Another black mark against him. Or maybe his forgetfulness of her crisis isn’t due to age but instead his torture. Maybe he just can’t keep dark realities in his head any more. It is a coping mechanism, the way he was able to ignore what they were doing to his body in the gulag by fixating on the abstract details of Plexity.
Well, then, Katrina. Where is she? He needs someone who can understand his predicament and offer an original viewpoint. Ah. She is walking into camp right now. He opens his mouth to say her name just as she calls out to Pradeep, who is emerging from the underbrush covered in mud, his eyes wide.
“I couldn’t—I couldn’t…” The poor boy is hyperventilating, holding his hands to his face.
Katrina grabs him, consoling him. “I’ve got you, Pradeep. You’re safe. You’re perfectly safe here. We can take care of you.”
“Jay…” Pradeep shivers. “He wouldn’t stop. Miriam said we have to have two underground at all times and I tried to stay but when I told him I had to go he insisted…” He shivers again.
“Can’t believe you went down there. What a brave boy.” She hugs him, fouling her clothes with his mud.
The condescension and pity do him in. He drops his shoulders, unable to return the hug. He groans. “Oh, god. Don’t talk to me like a child. Please, Katrina. I do have some dignity left.”
She steps back, befuddled. Okay, he wants help but he doesn’t want help. Or maybe he just needs someone to push against.
But he isn’t comfortable under her gaze. “I should go wash up. Has anyone seen Amy?” Pradeep doesn’t wait for an answer. He disappears in the bunker, escaping her.
Well. That was awkward. “Katrina.” She turns to find Alonso sitting in his camp chair on his platform. He watches her like some brooding lumpy golem worrying over the unfairness of life. She supposes that’s how she would feel too if someone made it their part-time job to break every bone in her feet. Remembering how carefully she’d learned to approach Pavel these last few months, she finds a smile for Alonso and walks over to where he sits.
“Do you know where Amy is? Pradeep and I are both looking.”
“She is underground with Miriam and Triquet. I hope they get back for lunch. It would be good to have another full meeting.”
“Well. Full if they bring Flavia back.”
“That is the thing.” He gestures at his laptop like it is a brilliant but wayward child. “I need to talk with her about Plexity. She chose the exact wrong time to disappear.” Then he lapses, realizing how peevish that sounds. “I was wondering if you could maybe hash out some of these concepts with me. It’s too much to keep in my brain all at once.”
“Sure thing. I love hash.” Katrina sits beside Alonso hugging her knees as he collects his thoughts, scrolling through his disordered notes of bullet points and logic trees. She loves how his mind works and she’s glad to be here just witnessing the living legend gather all his abstract evanescences into clarified concepts.
Finally, Alonso says, “The island is a computer.”
Katrina blinks. “Okay. Like an information processing… entity.”
“Precisely. Based on biological and geophysical principles. Every interaction of sun and insect and leaf that it processes lead to further complexities. The issue is, and always has been, where does the computer end? I thought an island in the middle of the ocean, hidden from the sun and with every current heading away from it, would be the ultimate test bed for Plexity, inoculated from all outside effects. But now that I actually have to define in certain terms precisely where Lisica is and where it is not… Eh. I find that I can’t do it yet. Because every interaction is still colored by universal constants of diffuse sunlight and, who knows, zephyrs in the upper atmosphere that carry pollution from China. And sure, I might be able to eventually build models that exclude the pollution but then it wouldn’t be Plexity. This is all the butterfly problem over and over again. Everything on Earth is connected.”
“And you can’t even study Earth itself as an isolated test bed.” Katrina scales her perspective upward, finding it doesn’t help. “The planet is bombarded by gamma rays and solar wind and, what is it, something like fifty tons of meteors that shower the surface every day? Everything influences everything, even at galactic scales.”
“Yes, exactly. But please. You are the young fresh genius. You are supposed to be the one who tells me how I am thinking about this all wrong and how you can solve this incalculable problem.”
“Oh. Okay.” Katrina nods once, decisively, and declares, “Got it. You’re thinking about this all wrong. I can solve this…”
Alonso laughs, finishing the sentence, “…incalculable problem.”
“Oh, no, it’s calculable. It just…” She cocks her head, ideas rushing through it. “Huh. You’ve really got me thinking about this in a new way. Hold on a sec.” Katrina falls silent for a moment. “Yeh, the thing is, I’m not sure you’ll end up with a system that functions the way you want or gives you the results you want, but yeh. It’s really a matter of switching your frame of reference.”
“I knew I was getting old and behind the times.” Alonso sighs, realizing the truth of his words. There is a fluidity to these kids who were raised in a sea of digital data. They can manipulate it without a thought, sculpt it like artists. Where for him and everyone his age, data will always remain an aggregate—granular and discrete and somewhat brittle. No matter how brilliant he is with it, he was not born to it. “So how do I switch such a thing?”
“Your problem, Alonso, is that you can’t escape your Cartesian perspective. With your little camp here and your Dyson readers and your trained collectors and agents, you’ve fixed yourself in this place and time and made it a subjective experience.”
“Of course I have. That is the whole point.”
“Well that’s what I’m saying. You’re limited by it and you find it frustrating to the point of defeat. But the only way you can fully accept this deep interconnectedness is by completely abandoning any subjective lens. You can’t be stuck on this island. Then you’re like an astronomer trying to learn the age and size of the universe from a single viewpoint on Earth, which is what they’ve tried to do for six hundred years and it’s literally impossible. What you need to do is liberate your viewpoint to be location-agnostic—”
“Yes yes.” Alonso waves an impatient hand. “But that is what the post-collection data analysis will do. It allows the end user to make whatever use they will of it, including silencing actual geographic locations. Look. Here. I have this function I’m building here. You can check a box and mute each element of the data set to filter…”
She sits back, unimpressed. “Yeh, I guess I’m talking about it on a much wider scale though. Like philosophical or cosmological. Either you accept a kind of Buddhist everywhere-and-nowhere-at-once omniscience or at some point you have to draw an edge to your map and accept the limitations and distortions it brings. You can’t have both.”
“But how can I have omniscience?” Alonso throws up his hands. “I am not a god looking down at anything. I am just a man. A fallible man crawling around near-sighted on the ground. I don’t have an Olympian view. Hell, I can hardly stand up. Look at Pradeep. He only studies the smallest of the small. But it will be his patient collecting of all these wildly disparate elements that will make Plexity sing. Yet only if I can give him a proper concert hall. So. Where would you put its walls?”
Katrina stares compassionately at him, not as a scientist but as a wounded old man. These are fallacies… but how much of this can he hear right now? How much does he need to finally let go of his preconceptions and how much of it is him holding onto what got him through the gulag? Before she can calculate an answer, among all the hard factors and the soft, they are interrupted by the approach of Maahjabeen and Mandy.
“Eh? Yes?” Alonso is annoyed by their arrival. He had just gotten Katrina to where she might actually give him a useful answer. Her sophomore-level philosophy was starting to get on his nerves. Of course all science is connected to the world around it. And of course all science must wall itself off to get any proper results. Except Plexity. That is the whole dream.
“What if Flavia is right about harmonics?” Katrina mutters as Mandy follows Maahjabeen up the big platform’s ramp.
Alonso stares at Katrina’s back, realizing there is a deep clue in what she says. But he can’t figure out where it fits in his notes. And before he can follow her line of reasoning any further, Maahjabeen demands his attention.
“Alonso, I have been talking this morning with Mandy here and Doctor Daine. We have a proposal for you.”
Alonso sighs, forcing himself to pivot, recognizing that he needs to take off his research hat and put on his managerial hat for a moment. “I see. Well, what is it, Miss Charrad. How can I help?”
Maahjabeen and Mandy share a tight-lipped apprehensive glance long enough for Alonso to grow puzzled. “You should let Mandy work on your feet.”
Alonso looks at the two of them, something hot and poisonous sliding beneath his skin, a sensation he hoped to never feel again.
“Ah. No. Thank you. I should focus on my work. And maybe worry about some more reconstructive surgery when I get back to the mainland. I will wait for the experts to…”
“It’s a good idea.” Katrina says this in the same low refractory tone she mentioned Flavia and harmonics. It stops Alonso.
He shares a nervous laugh and pushes on Katrina’s arm with a poor attempt at humor. “I don’t need you ganging up on me.”
“Why not?” The challenge comes from Maahjabeen. “Katrina is an expert, after all. She’s trained in dealing with torture survivors, has she not? And Mandy is also an expert. Her adjustments are saving my shoulders and back. And I am an expert because it is my body and I can feel the improvements she is making.”
Alonso becomes overwhelmingly sad. He hangs his head down and closes his laptop. Experts, are they? And what does that make him? An expert in self-destruction? “I will think about this. How is that? Is that enough? It is not something… I can…” And then he shuts down entirely. The three young women just watch as his mind drains of thought. He only stares back, unable to form words. His head sinks deeper on his chest. Maybe they will just go away.
Katrina puts a hand on his shoulder. She recognizes the pit into which he has fallen. “That’s a good plan. There’s no hurry for—”
But before she can finish, there is a commotion from the bunker. Triquet bursts out of its door, slamming it back with a crack. They hurry through with a cackle, clapping their hands, covered in mud like some mad prophet, and head for the big platform across camp to share the good news.“We found Flavia!”
Alonso’s head jerks up. The young women cry out in relief and Mandy starts clapping as well. His eyes clear. Of course. There is someone in even more desperate straits than himself. Put it away, Alonso. Focus on everyone else. “Where?” his voice is rough, coming from the deepest place. “Where was she?”
“Well,” Triquet is breathless, fetching up against the side of the platform. “We still don’t actually have her yet. It’s the natives. They took her. Or she went with them. We’re still figuring it out. There’s more than one group of them. See, we found a tunnel all the way through the cliffs to the interior valleys of the island—”
And then everyone starts talking and exclaiming at once.
Ξ
Flavia doesn’t know much about how a situation like this is supposed to happen but she knows that the first danger is that they might give each other diseases. So since she emerged from the tunnel in pursuit of the crying child she has worn her scarf across her face like a breathing mask. At first it spooked the Lisicans, which she has started calling them. She needed to remove the scarf to prove to them she wasn’t like some scary underground ghost returning from the dead. She didn’t understand a word of their shrieking alarms and urgent warnings when she emerged from the cave mouth. Who knows what they thought of her except that she must be some kind of monster? Most of the villagers scattered.
One bold youngster kept trying to touch her arm but she avoided him, explaining loudly about diseases. And then before they could make their minds up about her she’d heard the child cry out in the distance again demanded their help. But they’d only shrunk back even more. So she went on without them.
That child’s cry was so sad and piteous. It wrung at her heart and she couldn’t do a thing but drop everything and pursue it. What a… hormonal response. It shocked her. Flavia didn’t think she’d ever be a mother. When she was younger she always dreamed of a big family on a big farm but then with the way the world ended up, she settled for a big dog in a small apartment instead. But Flavia still has the maternal instincts and they dragged her forward into the darkness last night, through the village and up a narrow rocky trail deep into the heart of the island.
Now she sits on a stone platform an hour after dawn overlooking a deep valley. The shawl that was draped over her shoulders when she arrived here keeps her warm. It is some animal’s hide, gray patches stitched together. She slept in it here the night before. Poor sleep. Tossing and turning on the cold stone floor in the hut behind her. And the only food they’ve offered her is some horrible dried bird and fish with some parboiled tubers. If she wasn’t so hungry it would be nearly impossible to choke it down.
She had still never found the child. Its kidnapper had always remained maddeningly out of reach somewhere ahead of her. As she struggled to overtake them, the most terrible visions went through her head of the cruel torments the poor thing suffered. It tore at her heart.
She climbed the trails for hours yesterday, winding through these narrow valleys beside rushing streams. At one point she became very thirsty and overcame her reluctance to drink the cold water. If it made her sick, so be it. She was in too deep now.
Always the child cried out ahead, like someone was dragging them by the hair. That was the image Flavia kept seeing in her head, again and again. At one point, the sun broke through the cloud cover and startled her from her dogged pursuit. She looked around herself to find she scaled a narrow ridge that fell away into shadow on both sides. The child ahead screamed and sobbed but Flavia had to stop and catch her breath, legs shaking, wondering at the slanted depths that dropped the bottoms of the canyons into darkness.
She climbed as the shadows tilted. Then the sun disappeared and the light slowly faded. Then she heard the child with less and less frequency, and the cries sounded more hopeless. As night fell, the child abandoned her completely.
Flavia had finally come back to herself once the cries no longer jangled her nerves every thirty seconds. She stood lost in darkness. What was she supposed to do now? Whatever track she’d been following had faded, and she didn’t even know how she could get back to where she’d started. She would need to find a place to sleep. Maybe food? How had she lost her head so completely? This was so unlike her.
And where had Triquet and Maahjabeen gone? When had they stopped following her? Early on? Or were they somewhere nearby?
A shadow had approached her out of the darkness then, a small old man in a cape and pointed hat. He’d murmured words to her and she had answered, her voice shaking. He didn’t understand English so she switched to Italian. Easier for her anyway, and certainly more expressive to someone who didn’t speak it. She’d give the man more clues with her gestures and expressions than she could in English. But his face was a wrinkled mask and his words were mostly a monotone. She couldn’t see him well in the gloom. He led her to a hut and the sleeping platform within before all light faded from the sky. He had placed the fur shawl over her as she had fallen asleep, her last thought that it all smelled so bad.
Flavia had woken to find the food in a small pile on a large green leaf with a clay cup. The water tasted better than the food did. But when she emerged from the hut to find a whole little clan of them waiting for her, she smiled her gratitude and acknowledged them all with a nod. There were four Lisicans here. They all looked alike, small with long dark curls. Constant chatter surrounded her.
After her meal they had left her to her own devices and she had remained on the platform, looking down at the valley below. This was some kind of vista point up here. Perhaps it had some spiritual significance. That’s how it felt. Like these were the hermits who lived on the peaks to collect visions. But usually hermits didn’t have families. Well. Someone would someday learn their gabble and get the whole story. But that person would not be Flavia.
“I’m a mathematician.” She tried to explain herself in Italian to a sturdy dour woman perhaps her own age, but a head shorter. “A researcher. I am not what you call a people person. You would have better luck with… well, almost anyone else.”
The woman spoke, telling Flavia something of significance. She held up a finger to make a point and Flavia tried to divine any meaning she could. Then a recognizable word flew past. “Ingless? English? Yes, I already tried speaking English to you.” She switches languages but the woman shows no understanding. The man reappears, drinking from his own clay cup. His face is still a mask. She can’t tell if he is glad he saved her last night or not.
The woman speaks more, telling a long tale. She says Ingless a few times more and each time Flavia says, “Yes, English,” with diminishing hope. Maybe it is just the only English word she knows. Flavia begins to feel more and more unhappy with her predicament. She isn’t a captive here, and she won’t starve or die from exposure, but she’d very much prefer to go back to the beach with her colleagues, and (as soon as possible) off this island entirely.
Finally the woman finishes, grabbing Flavia’s hand and pressing their two palms together. Flavia resists the urge to pull away, only saying once they pull apart that the woman should wash her hand before doing anything else.
The woman nods and retreats to the man’s shoulder.
His turn. He steps forward and offers Flavia his clay cup. She smiles but shakes her head no. She mimes coughing and feeling sick, passing her hand across her forehead. They only stare at her. Do they not fall ill on this island? It wouldn’t surprise Flavia. Who would ever come by to spread their germs?
The man sets aside the cup and holds up a piece of sinew or hide he has twisted into a loop. He holds it out for Flavia and utters the word, “Koox̱.” She tries to take the cuff but he pulls it away. He offers it to her again and she tries to take it again but once more he pulls the loop away and repeats the word koox̱. They stare at each other. Finally the woman beside him holds her own hand up and the man drops the loop over it, cinching it at her wrist. Then he undoes the loop and offers it once more to Flavia.
The woman holds her hand up, beckoning for Flavia to do the same. “You want my hand?” But Flavia doesn’t like the sense of ownership the loop around the wrist appeared to give the man over the woman. She wants no part of that. “No. No, thank you…”
With a bow and a smile she steps back.
The man only watches her. He sets the loop aside and speaks to the woman. She responds with a long string of suggestions. He finally waves her away and approaches Flavia once more. He says something that sounds like he’s swearing an oath and then he reaches into his mouth. With a twist and a tug he removes one of his own teeth. Flavia can’t help but exclaim. The yellow enamel narrows to a dark root. This isn’t a living tooth. But he carried it in his mouth regardless? Disgusting. He holds it out to Flavia.
She shrinks back. “Oh, now what am I supposed to do? This is horrible.” All Flavia wants is to get away from these bizarre people. She realizes it’s now or never. If she waits too long it will get dark and she will get lost. But if she can only retrace her steps she should be fine. “Well…” She sticks with English. Italian had gotten her nowhere. “It has been very nice to meet you. And thank you for taking in a stranger who was lost and cold. But it is time for me to go back to my own people now. How do you say goodbye…?” She shrugs, the language barrier insurmountable, and turns away to locate the path to the south.
As Flavia does so she hears the child crying behind her again. She whirls back, her heart strings tugged just as strongly as before.
It is the man. The plaintive wails issue from his mouth. He looks at Flavia with sly expectation as the dreadful truth dawns on her. It was him all along, leading her here. His uncanny imitation of a crying child sounds exactly like a toddler who is being dragged cruelly away, against their will.