Chapter 20 – Her Lovely Smile Fades
May 13, 2024
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20 – Her Lovely Smile Fades
The rain pounds against the bunker. People lie huddled in corners with their lights and screens, trying to block it out. But Jay can’t settle. Just when his ankle has healed and his body has decided it’s time to climb some trees, this fucking storm has shut everything down. He paces through the bunker, weaving between the cells and workstations in endless figure eights.
“Jay.” Flavia’s voice is as cold as the storm. “Please stop walking past my door every fifteen seconds. You are driving me crazy.”
“Sorry, Flavia.” Jay stops. Mandy flashes an irritated glance at him and Amy clucks, shaking her head. Shit. He’s gone and done it again, annoying everyone. It’s hard being a big loud guy sometimes when you’re locked in a little box and you have no ability to turn it down. “Maybe I’ll go do laps in the sub. That’s okay, isn’t it?”
Nobody answers. Nobody has an answer. Most aren’t even listening to him. Finally Triquet calls out, “Go ahead.”
“Thanks, Triq.” Jay heads toward the trap door. “I’ll let you know if I see anything I shouldn’t. Anyone…” He tarries at the stairs heading down. “Hey, you know what I just thought. That NDA we all signed. We can’t say a thing about this whole experience to anyone when we get home, can we?”
Esquibel leans her head out of the clean room and nods. “That is correct. The NDA is completely ironclad. What happens here stays here. Everything.”
“Like Vegas times a thousand. Well well well…” Jay rubs his hands together. “Huh. That’s gotta make things way more interesting here, don’t it? I mean, we could all have like a giant drug orgy every night and nobody would ever know. We could… Huh. Well, the possibilities are endless. I never felt more free.”
And with that innocent observation, he descends the stairs and opens the door to the sub. When it closes, the bunker is silent. Only the wind and the rain fill the space.
Mandy is intent on building her airflow model for the transition zone between the treetops and the cliff face. But Jay’s last words echo in her ears. She looks up at Esquibel, who is studying her with narrowed eyes. Unintentionally, Mandy’s eyes glance sideways at Katrina. She instantly pulls her gaze back to Esquibel, her face growing hot. How could a glance be considered cheating? As if she and Esquibel have made any promises to each other out here anyway. There hasn’t been any point.
But Mandy’s fears are groundless. Esquibel is also looking at Katrina now. The funny thing is that DJ Bubblegum has also stopped working and is herself staring at Triquet with idle fascination. Triquet mutters to themself, shaking their head, as they continue to write out their latest outline, a composite of two earlier outlines that they realize they can now marry since the autopsy. But the breathless pressure of the bunker finally unnerves them. They look up to find all these girls staring at them. “What.”
“I wish we could time it with like a big thunderclap.” Triquet sits with Maahjabeen near the reed door of the bunker. They’ve set up their lights to shine against the walls of the cells in the most theatrical way possible and Katrina is somewhere in back cueing up a slamming house track. “You know, for the first big moment.” The electronic beats start to speed up toward a raucous anthem. “And… action!” Triquet claps their hands together then manually flips the lights off and on in a poor imitation of a strobe.
Amy is first, strutting out of the narrow hall wearing Triquet’s floral housecoat strapped tight around her waist with a wide black sash. Amy’s hair has been tight-braided against her scalp and huge black cat-eyes drawn from the corner of her eyes outward.
She unhooks the sash and winks at them, grinding to the music, then flashes them wearing Miriam’s bodice, which is nearly bursting with middle-aged muscle and cleavage.
Triquet screams like a bobby-soxer and their phone’s flash goes off again and again like paparazzi. Maahjabeen squeals with laughter, unable to applaud, and pulls at Amy’s forearm to get her to cover back up. But Amy, haughty, pulls away and stalks off stage with a steamy glare over her shoulder.
Katrina is next in her rave princess gown of shimmering blue satin, clinging to her. She dances out, showing off the twine sandals she’s made, and busts a move, spanking her own ass. Then she leans over and kisses Triquet, then does the same to Maahjabeen, who only laughs more and pushes her away.
Mandy and Miriam come out together, hand in hand, wearing a collection of scarves wrapped artfully around their bodies. Mandy pulls Miriam into an embrace and begins dancing with her, backs straight, eyes locked. With a brief kiss they dance off-stage.
Then it is Esquibel, her eyes smoked and her lips glossy pink, in a literal wrap she has made of the remaining translucent plastic sheet. It hugs her shadowed clefts and crevices and she moves with sinuous grace. The audience is shocked to see this side of the good doctor, and perhaps there is something in her vulnerability in the way of making amends, but the sight is so stunning all the others can do nothing but goggle. Esquibel’s eyes are closed as she sways lightly to the music, a faraway smile on her face. Then she bumps against Maahjabeen’s legs and her eyes open. She sees how utterly stunned the Muslim woman is and Esquibel laughs, spinning away into Mandy’s embrace.
There is a long pause and the audience begins to grow restless. Finally Pradeep shuffles in, squinting into the light. He wears a safari jacket and white-collar shirt, with an ascot accenting his jaw. But he is painfully uncomfortable as the center of attention, regardless of how dashing he looks. Amy has worked his hair back and it is now a black lacquered helmet pulled back from his high forehead. He puts his hand up over his face. “Can I go now?”
“Oi!” Miriam shouts at him, “we’ll need more quality from you, mate, before we let you sit. Put your hand down.”
“And stop squinting!”
“And start dancing!”
But each command just makes him more and more anxious. He squirms in the light. Finally Maahjabeen rises from her chair and grabs his hands and leads Pradeep back to her seat. “There there. Don’t listen to them. I think you look rather smart.”
Pradeep collapses gratefully into the camp chair, face dark with embarrassment. Then:
From the back, a deep opera baritone sings an improvised line over the house track. Then Flavia and Alonso step into the light.
He is in full drag, wrapped in Triquet’s feather boa with his hair pulled back by an embroidered headband. Blue and yellow eyeshadow stripes his lids and transforms his face like a Kabuki villain. But his lips are red and the gown borrowed from Triquet isn’t even zipped up the back.
Flavia is in a simple black pantsuit with her hair pinned back and a white towel over her forearm. She attends Alonso like a manservant as he careens around the stage in bombastic style.
Alonso sings a mashup of Latin, Italian, and Spanish, rhyming his verses as well as he can, striding back and forth before them blowing kisses and striking poses. The crowd goes wild. It is the best he’s felt in ages.
Amy embraces him. They sway back and forth to the music, unable to keep passé dance moves of the 80s from sneaking in. Soon they are all dancing together, repeating the lyric line that Alonso has invented, “Sueño simplicado…” over and over.
Jay emerges from the trap door and walks through the cells to find the party going full bore. He giggles. “What have I done.”
Ξ
Late at night, a shadow appears at Pradeep’s door. He isn’t asleep. How could he be? They are all dancing the night away. The whole last thirty-six hours has been a nightmare of crashing thunder and close-quarter contact. And now someone wants something from him? Oh dear.
“Do not mind me,” Maahjabeen growls at Pradeep. “I am only here because they have taken over my bed and every other bed. I think they are into Katrina’s drugs now.”
“Ah. Yes. Of course.” Pradeep grips the interior edge of his sleeping bag tight up against his chin, glad that he is still wearing tights and not just boxer briefs as he does some nights. He feels like a spinster aunt caught by the gardener, clutching at his hems.
Maahjabeen enters Pradeep’s cell, head pounding, resentment throbbing in her. She shuffles her feet across the concrete, sure she will find piles of gear there as it is in her own cell. But no, here the floor is austerely clean. Cold. And it will be her bed. She sits.
There is a long silence. Finally Pradeep turns his head and regards her, the silhouette of the woman in his cell backlit by the light outside the cell. “Uh, what are you doing?”
“You don’t have a spare blanket or pillow or anything, do you? I couldn’t rescue any of them.”
“Yes, of course.” Pradeep automatically sits up and offers her his pillow. “I mean… Here. You should go ahead and take my bed. I’m not really using it.”
“No no…”
“I mean, I’m not sleeping. I can’t sleep. I’ll sit up and you sleep.”
“Stop it, Pradeep. La. La. I can’t take your bed.”
“It’s fine. Really.” Pradeep stands. Maahjabeen does too. They face each other in the darkness, a handspan apart. “It’s a warm bag and, uh, you should find that—”
Maahjabeen takes Pradeep’s hand. She kisses him.
He quivers. They separate with a wondering sigh.
“There isn’t, ah… I mean, your family in India…” Maahjabeen’s voice is even huskier than usual. “There isn’t any chance that you come from a Muslim family, is there?”
“Devout Hindu.” Pradeep blinks at Maahjabeen, his dark eyes filled with bewildered concern. “Why did you do that?”
Maahjabeen places her palm against his chest, admiring the flat muscles, amused by the hammering heart beneath. “You are a very beautiful man, Pradeep.”
“Ah. You do know, yes. I was afraid,” he stammers, “that it was a case of mistaken identity and you thought you’d kissed someone else, in which case…”
“Stop.” Maahjabeen pulls him close and kisses him again. There is something of cinnamon to his taste. And salt. She decides he is delicious. With regret, she pulls back. “Are you a practicing, eh, Hindu? Or is there any chance I might someday persuade you to join me in Islam?”
But Pradeep is reeling. Kisses from Maahjabeen are like sips of ambrosia from a holy chalice. “More of an agnostic, really. I’d say. Why are we talking of…? Oh.” His brain catches up, to realize the significance of how she stands, nearly demure, by the side of his bed. “I, uh…” His anxiety is hammering at him, trying to take this night away from him. But he can’t. He won’t let it. He’s stronger now. As a child he had no control of it but now… Now he does. “I don’t know… uh, where my faith or lack of it might lead me. But I really like you, Maahjabeen and, uh… I guess I’m willing to follow wherever you might lead me.”
She draws him back down to the bed.
Ξ
Katrina doesn’t want to disentangle herself from the pile but she really needs to pee. And in this storm doing one’s business has become a major production. So she groans, head pounding, mouth filled with sand, and slides her arms and legs out of the soft embrace of Triquet and Esquibel and Mandy to find Jay passed out, thoroughly crushed beneath them. They literally have been using him as their bed. She giggles despite herself and hauls herself to her feet. A mew of longing escapes Esquibel but she doesn’t even open her eyes.
Katrina careens out of the cell and tries to find her own. But it’s so dark in here and everyone’s in the wrong beds. She finally finds her cell and reaches for her raincoat, bladder near to bursting, and bumps a cot where one isn’t supposed to be. She looks down to see Pradeep and Maahjabeen asleep and naked in each other’s arms.
Katrina gasps in silent shock and shakes her head at the ways of the world. Well well well. Everyone gets lonely after a few weeks. How sweet. She can’t think of two more deserving people. And they would make the most beautiful babies in the entire world.
But where is her bloody cell? She doesn’t have any time to find it. Out of desperation she snares the coat hanging in the corner and hauls it on. Pradeep’s storm coat, still damp and smelling of him, a salty tang. Good. It’s so big it reaches halfway down her thighs. Barefoot. No time to find her shoes.
Katrina hurries for the door. Relieved, she finds her phone in her pocket as she pushes it open. The cold shocks her and she sputters, lighting her way across camp and into the bushes on the far side of Jay’s sodden hammock. This is preposterous. The water is sheeting across the ground. She doesn’t even think she needs to make it all the way to the trenches. They might already be flooded.
With that thought she decides where she stands is as good a place as any and she squats to relieve herself, Pradeep’s giant hood and shell forming a bit of a tent. But she soaked her leggings when she pulled them down and now pulling them back up over her bottom is super unpleasant. She shivers. It’s time to get back to bed.
Then she sees them, a trio of young children from the village above. Lisicans. How long have they been hiding there? They’ve edged out from the shadow of the woods so Katrina can spot them. They wear feather capes smeared with mud, branches sticking out of them. Their eyes are earnest.
Katrina sputters and eventually finds her voice. “G’day, uh, everyone. Your parents somewhere close?” Despite the universal-acceptance vibe that Katrina always has going, this spooks her no end. What if their parents are? How many Lisicans are here? And why? Are there enough to like overwhelm her and carry her away?
The poor dears are drenched, their curly hair plastered against their dark, wide faces. The tallest one points at her with his thumb. It’s a boy, perhaps ten or twelve. He says something to her in his thick impenetrable language. The others echo his words.
She holds an apologetic hand up. “Of course you are always welcome down here. It’s your island, after all. We’re just guests. And we know it. We’ll be gone soon and then…” Katrina shrugs, shivering again. She needs to get back inside and quick. “Then who knows what happens. Life goes on.”
But the cold rain doesn’t seem to affect the children. They regard her solemnly, waiting for her to do something or say something more. Finally the little girl at the boy’s left elbow points at Katrina with her thumb and sing-songs, “Sad…So! So sad… So!”
And with this enchanting warble, Katrina realizes they want her to take her phone out so they can hear Elton John again.
Ξ
When Maahjabeen wakes she is alone in an unfamiliar cot. That must be bad. But a deep languor fills her, making her limbs heavy. She doesn’t want to get up. She likes it here. It is so warm and cozy, and smells like her deepest desires. But where exactly is here?
She rolls her head to the side and sees Pradeep’s clothes hanging from hooks in the reed walls. Ah, yes. Her wild indiscretion. She shakes her head in prim judgment as her eyes roam the walls, studying the one photo he’s hung beside his bed. It is a close-up of insect larvae, a heaped slimy white lump with little black eyes scattered like poppyseeds. Absolutely disgusting. Where others would place a picture of their mother or wife or children, he has these little nightmare slugs. Of course.
Maahjabeen realizes she’s holding her breath. She lets it out in a thin stream, controlling it and forcing herself to be calm. Why is she doing that? Well, obviously, she’s awaiting God’s punishment. Or her own decent self to rise up within her and shame her for her unwed romance. At least when she had sex with Amal she was able to convince herself it was fine because he was a good Muslim boy and they were getting married. But then he met her mother and, well, that’s when it all fell apart. They hated each other on sight and Amal suddenly became controlling and cruel. It hadn’t taken Maahjabeen long to decide that her own freedom had been worth more than the regard of his family or even hers. That had been the beginning of her travels.
She touches herself in the places Pradeep had. Nothing is bruised or hurt. The sex had been more like twisting gently in satin sheets. Lots of sighing. That’s what she remembers most. Pradeep’s long lean body was so delicious, his skin and hair so soft. She could wrap herself in him like a blanket for days.
And, who knows? Maybe the wisdom of the Prophet could cure his anxious mind. And if not the Prophet’s wisdom, perhaps her own. With that thought, she realizes he will never come back to her here in this bed on the morning after. Unless their encounter gave him more heart than she thinks is possible, Pradeep is probably somewhere out there shivering like a PTSD victim. Ha. Is that what she will call her lovers? Her victims? Ha.
Maahjabeen exits Pradeep’s cell to find that Esquibel and Mandy and Triquet and Jay are all in a snoring pile. Alonso and Miriam and Amy are in another, as she can see through the open door of her own cell. They even brought in a second cot so there’d be enough room for all. Even passing out at the end of a party, middle-aged people are so sensible. Maahjabeen aspires to it.
The storm rattles the door. She doesn’t want to go out there and somehow, perhaps because of how abstemious she was last night, she doesn’t need to yet. Is Pradeep out there in the wet and cold? She prays that she didn’t drive him outside with her lust.
Or perhaps he’s down in the sub? Unlikely… but still worth investigating. Maahjabeen crosses the bunker to find it sealed up. Someone has placed heavy bins atop the closed trap door, as if worried about the Lisicans bursting through from below. Odd. She didn’t recall any paranoid passages at the end of the night. But she had fallen asleep long before the others.
She’s just so relieved nobody saw her in Pradeep’s arms.
Then Maahjabeen finds him. He is sitting in Esquibel’s clean room. His hazy brown and black silhouette is seated in the center of the floor, facing the wall. Is he meditating? Then he looks up. No, he is on his phone.
Maahjabeen slips silently within the plastic sheets behind him. She lightly clears her throat and his head twitches to the side. Then Pradeep slowly swivels toward Maahjabeen, eyes unable to hold hers. He quickly looks away.
“Ehh. Good morning. I don’t know what happened last night. If I did anything wrong I am very sorry—”
Maahjabeen steps in and puts a finger against his lips. She leans down and kisses Pradeep. He holds her chin gently, his lips and fingertips trembling. She pulls back and gives him a dimpled smile. “I know you are. But la! Listen to me, Pradeep. You do not get to use me and our night together as more fuel for your panic. Not me. Not last night. That was too nice.”
She releases him. Pradeep blinks at her, his gaze wounded, filled with disbelief. He can only repeat, “Ehh…”
Maahjabeen laughs at him.
“Really?” Pradeep can’t make the next leap. The big one. Of all the scenarios he had concocted about how this morning might unfold, this one had never occurred to him. Maahjabeen still likes him? Even after last night? Madness. He looks up at her with wonder. She is astoundingly beautiful. Her skin is polished bronze, her hair a disordered black river. Her wide-set eyes gaze at him with level affection. This is like when his mum used to get Glamour magazines and he would take them into the bathroom to stare at the models in the perfume ads, amazed that such beauty could exist. And here is a model just for him. Impossible. He has never been attracted to the women most men consider pretty. Usually he is first drawn to a woman’s mind. But in this miraculous case he is being offered both. A brilliant, ferocious mind and the beauty of a goddess. For a moment he believes in reincarnation again. What amazing sacrifices did he make in some past life to earn all this?
Pradeep lifts a hand to touch her incredible face but stops short. She must hate being objectified. He remembers this lesson from his cousin Ashra. Pretty girls grow up different, always under a lens. They become self-conscious and hardened to the attention. The last thing he wants to do is objectify her. He drops his hand.
But Maahjabeen catches it and lifts it to her cheek. She presses it against the side of her face, her cheekbone settling into his hand. This feels so good. She won’t let him retreat back into his hole.
Pradeep can’t handle the unbearable vulnerability in her gaze. He flushes, his eyes welling with tears, and drops them. But she lifts his chin.
Maahjabeen softens her gaze. It is no longer a yearning. Now it is a confident belief in him. In them. She finds herself falling so far so fast now. He better be okay with being Muslim because she’s never felt anything like this before and she can’t imagine ever letting it stop. Wait. Is this what Alonso and Miriam felt, that day on the beach in the rain? It had seemed excessive when it happened but now maybe she understands. Nothing is sweeter than love. It has its own holiness. She covers her mouth with her hand. “And we can even share the water.”
It’s a random, bizarre statement but Pradeep instantly divines what she means. For some reason, this is the signal he needed to truly believe that he really can be loved. Maahjabeen means the ocean. They can paddle together in the places most important to her. The compliment she has just given him rings through him like a bell. How fantastic. The ocean goddess has looked upon him with favor. This is like falling under the spell of a mermaid to live with her for a thousand years under the waves. He is blessed.
Adoration for Maahjabeen rushes through Pradeep. Suddenly he needs to know everything about her. First he will learn her language and eat her food and meet her family and study her religion. Islam? Sure. Anything that will allow him to stay near this miraculous creature. Or is that objectifying too? He really doesn’t want to do that. Perhaps she is the essence of humanity and he is the creature, something weird and malformed outside the realm of normal men. But no. The way Maahjabeen looks at him… For perhaps the first time Pradeep doesn’t feel like he is alone and cold outside, looking in on the laughing crowd. He is the one who is in. This is inside. He is inside the world for once, with her. And it is glorious. Pradeep stands and Maahjabeen steps back.
His eyes are dark and burning, filled with an intention she has never seen. But it is not alarming. There is a compelling masculine allure to his gaze. Maahjabeen melts within it. Pradeep squeezes her hands so hard they hurt. He pulls her close.
They kiss. Maahjabeen collapses against his strength, marveling at it. This is the most romantic moment of her life. She feels like a movie star.
No. Better. She feels like the beloved of a worthy man.
Ξ
Alonso’s eyes snap open. Limbs cross his. His back is cold. Oh no. He is back in the yama. The punishment pit the torturers threw him in when they were done with him. The yama was deep and cold and he was never the only one in there. The bodies were broken. Some had been dead. The smell… He did not think that stench would ever fully wash away. Rats came in the night. Blue bare legs across his chest. Crushed hands, twitching.
He finds a strength he never had in the yama before. He pushes the limbs off him and rises up…
Miriam and Amy fall away. Amy gets pushed straight off the cot onto the platform. They both look stupidly up at Alonso, blinking sleep out of their eyes.
He is naked in the center of the cell, eyes far away, panting like he’s run a marathon. Miriam reaches for him, her voice muzzy with the final stages of a drug trip. “No, Zo. It’s okay. I’m here.”
“Aaah!” His eyes finally clear and he sees what he has done. The relief knifes through him with a delicious thrill and as he stoops down to help Amy back into bed he remembers how they rolled around like children for hours the night before. What joy. The intense swing from terror and despair to luxurious pleasure is almost too much for his heart and brain to encompass.
“Oh my god…” Amy croaks, shaking her head sadly. “Are you okay, Lonzo?”
He registers her words distantly. At first it sounds like just a general question but then she touches the scars on his chest. The brands and punctures. He reflexively jerks away but then realizes he doesn’t need to. He is safe. He closes her hand over them. “Yes, dear one. These wounds, they are closed now.” Brave words. Maybe someday he can make them come true.
But he’s not fooling anyone. He had just thrashed his way out of bed like he was fighting to get out of hell. “Come back,” Miriam pouts, her gaze still clouded with hallucinations. “Let me put my arms around you.”
“Yes.” Alonso smiles down at Amy and Miriam, his eyes still sad. With effort he tells himself, “This is good. This is… love. Health. Happiness. It is like the preamble to our own constitution, no? It guarantees the right to parties and sex and dreams coming true.” He runs his hands along Amy’s body. He still isn’t used to it in moments like this. When they had been together long ago Amy had been a boy and Alonso had adored his little square hardness. But it turned out that Amy had a very clear sense of who she was, and after years and decades of quiet desperation, had realized that the hardness was exactly who she wasn’t. It degraded her like an infection, one she couldn’t get rid of for ages. She told Alonso of the beatings when she wore dresses as a young boy and how she’d never forgotten the shame. But cross-dressing was just so true, the truest thing she’d ever done.
Alonso leans down and kisses Amy before rolling over her onto the bed. He settles with a sigh. Miriam digs her pointy chin into his chest. She takes a sharp breath, to clear her head and engage speech centers like a normal human. “Something I noticed, eh?”
“How good I look naked?”
“Well, of course, love, always. But no, when you jumped up you didn’t react to your feet. Think about it. The whole time you stood. Nary a grimace nor a scowl.”
“I think you’re right.”
“How do they feel now?”
“Pulpy.”
Amy cuddles close. “Mmm. Octopus.”
Alonso laughs. “Yes, basically, I have two octopi at the bottom of my legs today. It is like some of your kinky Japanese porn, Amy.”
“Not my porn, you pervert. I can’t stand hentai. It’s all about controlling women and invading them. Super gross.”
Miriam sighs. “Isn’t everything?” She runs her fingers through Amy’s hair. Her eyes are starting to clear. “I kind of don’t want this to end. Eight weeks seemed a long time at first but now it doesn’t seem long enough. I don’t need to go back to all that shite.”
“If we weren’t gonna run out of ramen packets in the next five weeks, I’d agree.” Amy glories in the warmth of Alonso’s body. It has been far too long since she could just cuddle someone all night long. It restored her in a way she’d forgotten she needed. And what a way to get restored! Alonso was one of the most beautiful boys she had ever seen and being with him had been her every dream come true. Now, he is barrel-chested and smells musty but he is still one of the great loves of her life. So is Miriam. The warmth spreading through Amy turns into contentment. She is home, where she is understood, accepted, and loved.
They begin to drowse again. But it is only moments before movement in another cell prevents them from drifting away.
“AlphaFold.” Flavia’s eager voice is like an alarm. She is already awake, standing in the door of this cell. Her words startle them and Alonso jolts awake. Miriam, in his embrace, stirs but doesn’t open her eyes. Amy rolls over and throws a comforting arm over him. She settles again as Alonso unsticks his eyes and regards Flavia.
“What did you call me?”
Flavia sits on the side of the bed with her laptop and one of the Dyson readers. “I was smoking one of Jay’s mad blunts last night and it hit me. The characteristics of the math in the Dyson interface reminded me of something but I couldn’t remember what. Then I remembered. While I was dancing. What do you know of AlphaFold?”
“Yeah, I know those guys. It’s a distributed software platform, right? It predicts folding proteins. But my knowledge is five years old. They have advanced?”
“So much. Their refinement transformations have revolutionized the field. People are unironically calling it specialized A.I. now. So that’s just what DeepMind and Google are able to do in the public sphere. But these Dyson readers are from the black labs and their science fiction advances that nobody knows. So I started hacking the reader, to integrate it with a bit of Plexity here, and I realized they have gone so much farther. Look.” She turns her laptop to show him columns of numbers. “Here is one of Pradeep’s latest samples. A marine bacterium called Prochlorococcus marinus marinus. Now the channels have already rendered the sample down to the chromosomal level but the proteomic readout it provides is what reminded me of AlphaFold. At their conferences they theorize that with enough computing power they can not only predict the folding of every protein but also take those proteins back in time, tracing the origins of each genetic lineage. Here. You see this work here? It looks like a bizarre simple algorithm, no? Well they must have some super geniuses in those labs because that is the most astounding piece of mathematics I have ever seen. These readers. They must have like a terabyte of memory in them or more. Look, Alonso. We can even turn the visualizations on. That is thanks to Katrina. See? The bacterium goes back in time, only a tiny number of superficial mutations over such a long time. Very stable genome. But here. Now I will show you this blood sample from one of the sea gulls that Amy got. You get down to the proteomic level, and… I mean, it’s a whole story. It’s like taking any organism back to all its earlier versions of itself. Incredible.”
Alonso goggles at the richness of the data revealed to him. His mind whirls with an infinity of possibilities. But the deepest insight is the most thrilling. “Time… Time itself vanishes from our studies. Or becomes an independent variable that we can tune to our liking. Astounding. But I need…”
Flavia shakes the reader in his face. “The most incredible thing I have ever held! Who knew they were working so hard on life sciences? I thought it was all lasers and bombs in those secret labs.”
Alonso grunts. “Such a Devil’s choice. Live in comfort. Every resource is yours. No more grant writing ever again. Just pure research. Or at least that’s how I imagine it. Now that I say it out loud I figure it must be just as deadly as academia, just with bigger budgets and secret oversight. Horrible. But before you say another word, Flavia, you have to get me one of those cups of espresso so I can think like a human being again.”
“Sì. Aspetta un momento.” She disappears and Alonso shakes his head, listening to the rain sheeting against the metal roof. Well things could definitely be worse. They certainly became a family last night. And after such a bitter fight between Esquibel and Miriam… One of his last memories is watching the two of them intertwined on the dance floor, weeping, gripping each other’s hands. Perhaps the Kenyans fight like the Irish do, fiercely but with much forgiveness after.
“Was that important?” Miriam’s voice comes from faraway. “It sounded important.”
“Very. But don’t you worry your pretty little head, my love. You need more sleep after your big day.”
“Mmm.” Miriam settles. “Can’t sleep. Drugs are bad, Zo.”
“They always are the next day, yes.”
“The pictures in my head were so cool for the first few hours but now it’s been all night. I just want them to stop.” Yet her words trail away and soon she is out once more.
“What day is this?” Alonso has lost all track of time. He picks up his phone and consults it. “April second. Twenty-three days. Thirty-five left. That means that yesterday was April Fool’s. Yes. That is definitely what it was. A day for fools. Por supuesto.”
Just as Alonso is about to fall back to sleep he is roused once more. Why won’t Flavia give them just one or two more hours?
But it isn’t Flavia. It’s Esquibel. “Doctor Alonso.”
He grunts, opening his eyes again.
“It is Katrina. She is missing.”
They dress as quickly as they can, forcibly reminded of the dangers the island holds. “Where is Flavia?” Amy asks. “Does she know?”
“She is helping us look.”
“Could Katrina be in the sub?” Amy asks.
“We blocked off the trap door last night. The bins are too heavy for one person to move. And they haven’t been moved.”
“So she’s outside…?” Amy shakes her head, dubious. The rain has been unrelenting for about eighteen hours. Anyone outside would be in danger of getting literally washed away.
Jay returns from his initial sweep of the camp. He went out with no raingear and his base layers are drenched. “No sign. All the shelters are down and empty.” He’s already shivering. Maahjabeen appears with a towel and starts vigorously scrubbing his back.
Triquet is the first one fully suited up. “Okay. I’ll start at the trenches then move my way back toward the waterfall pool. Whoever comes next, start at the pool.”
“Will do.” Amy only needs to find her boots then she’ll be right out after them.
Triquet swings open the door, bracing for the cold.
Katrina stands outside, reaching for the door herself. She is completely soaked and trembling, nearly blue.
Triquet exclaims wordlessly and hauls her inside.
“Towels! More towels!” Amy calls out, hustling for the stove. Hot water is the answer here, and as soon as possible.
Esquibel kneels before Katrina, who only stands silently before them, shaking hard. Mandy wraps her in an embrace and Katrina sags against her. “Someone like boil water!”
“It’s coming!” Amy’s voice calls out.
Esquibel inspects the dear girl’s fingers and toes for signs of hypothermia. But nothing is purple and swollen. Nothing seems painful to the touch. Just exposure. And a dangerously low core temperature. “We should put her in a bath. Hurry.”
“Ha. We have no bath,” says Flavia. “Or I’d be in it every day.”
Maahjabeen says, “A kayak. Waterproof, eh? Can keep water in as well as keep it out. Come, Triquet. Help me.” She pulls on her storm shell and joins Triquet at the door.
Pradeep says, “Are you sure you want to put hot water inside the kayak, Maahjabeen? What if it damages it?”
“First we will save Katrina and then I will worry about that.” Then Maahjabeen ducks out into the storm, Triquet on her heels.
Mandy mothers Katrina, murmuring baby words as she strips the shell and her soaked clothes from her. “Somebody find her something fresh and dry. Where are her bags?”
Miriam roots around in the duffels they brought in and stowed beneath the workstations. “This one’s Katrina’s yeah?” She holds up a bright yellow sack, then unzips it before hearing any answer. She brings it all to Katrina, pulling out a heavyweight thermal top. “Here, love. This one looks warm.”
Pradeep has taken over toweling Katrina’s naked body. She looks like a forlorn waif rescued from the gutters, hair plastered against her head. But he balks at her private parts. Mandy takes over, making sure the icy water is all gone. Then she wraps Katrina up again as Amy appears with the first steaming pot.
Esquibel makes compresses and puts them across the base of Katrina’s neck, the inside of her wrists, and the tops of her thighs. “More water, please. A steady supply.”
“Yes. Of course.” Amy hurries back to the kitchen.
“We just need to get your core warm, darling.” Esquibel puts a hand on Katrina’s face and smiles at her. But Katrina is in shock or otherwise incapable of speech. She only looks urgently outward, at a point just beyond Esquibel’s face.
The door opens and Pradeep holds it wide as Triquet backs in carrying one end of Aziz. “Sorry it took so long. The whole platform is a shambles. Had to pull it out.”
“Not the… Love Palace!” They are Katrina’s first words and everyone cheers. But her teeth chatter too much to add more.
“Not too hot!” Esquibel calls out to Amy. “Gradual increase is better than a sharp shock!”
“Then I might be ready now! Jay! Give me a hand!” There are four pots in the kitchen that are eight liters or larger. Amy has filled them all with lukewarm water. Now they pour one after the other into the kayak, nearly filling it.
Esquibel and Pradeep lift Katrina. Maahjabeen guides her stiff legs into the cockpit until she is sitting within. “Okay,” the doctor says. “Now gradually increase. You can pour boiling water bit by bit. Maybe in this back hatch.”
“Coming up! Jay, fill the pots with me. Rainwater’s fine.”
“I call next bath.” Triquet peels off their rain gear and shivers as well. “That rain is so damn cold.”
Mandy stands behind Katrina, breathing hot breaths onto the base of her neck. The poor sweet dear. How could she do this to herself? Mandy can never forgive herself for letting Katrina slip out of their lovely little dog pile. What had Mandy been thinking?
Katrina spasms and then releases a long-held breath. Her words come in bursts between chattering teeth. “Oh my god. So cold. But they… kept me… out of the rain.”
“Who did?” Flavia pushes herself through the crowd to face Katrina, her face a storm. “Wetchie-ghuy?”
“No. No…” Katrina shakes her head and smiles at the memory. “It was the kids. They missed the music. I played them music when we left… and they wanted to hear more. That’s all.” She leans back as hotter water makes its way to her. “Aaahhh. Thanks, Amy. That’s… uh, that’s better than sex.”
They all laugh. But Katrina’s eyes catch on Pradeep’s. Hers sparkle merrily. His face flushes with heat. Wait. Does she know? How does she know? Uh oh. She was wearing Pradeep’s shell. How had she gotten it? It was hanging right beside his bed. Oh.
“Did they take you back to the village?” Miriam cracks the door open to see if she can spot any villagers out there in the morning rain. But the camp is empty.
“Not the village. They have another cave. One we hadn’t found. So big. Nice and dry too. We just played with my phone and sang songs… all night. It was… it was actually… really nice.”
But Pradeep no longer hears what Katrina is saying. He has to deal with the fact that his huge transgression is public knowledge. Stricken, he looks across the room at Maahjabeen. She is smiling, listening to Katrina’s story. But as she sees the look on Pradeep’s face, her lovely smile fades.
Chapter 17 – It Means Betrayal
April 22, 2024
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17 – It Means Betrayal
Triquet wants a second mug of tea but they’re damned if they’ll let Amy get it for them. So it takes a bit of effort to escape her eagle eye. With a nod to be excused from the meeting, Triquet backs themself away from the long tables before heading to the trenches, the mug carefully hidden in a crook of their arm. Last night’s brief storm littered the sand with branches and clusters of moss, stippling the sand with the imprint of rain. After returning from the trenches they circle around camp into the bunker and to the kettle with hot water. On their return, Amy watches with narrowed eyes.
“Oh.” Triquet plays dumb. “Anyone else need anything? Tea?”
“I’ll take some.” Mandy holds up her mug. With a wink to Amy, Triquet turns right back around and fetches it. “Coming right up! Don’t forget to tip your servers!”
Once they all settle, there is a lull in the discussion that can be neatly filled with Triquet’s concerns. “I’d like to talk more about the Lisicans.” Alonso gives an encouraging nod. “As the only one here with any anthropological training at all, I guess it’s my role to remind people that we should be in as little contact with the native population as possible.”
“Yes,” Miriam leans forward in her camp chair, her half-eaten dinner of lentils and rice perched precariously on her knee, “let’s design an actual policy here, people. If we don’t, these poor blighters won’t know what hit them when the modern world beats down their door. They have no idea what meeting us means. And this whole island will be open for business come summer? Shit idea, that. We know what it always means, don’t we? Disease, loss of culture, loss of traditions…”
Mandy nods, “Loss of language, loss of identity…”
Esquibel adds, “Alcohol and drug dependency will skyrocket, as will suicides. All kinds of mental issues with displaced populations. We have it very bad in Kenya. I have seen so many cases.”
Triquet settles back. “Well good. I was afraid I was going to have to dissuade some pollyanna here who thinks it’s their mission all of a sudden to muck up the Lisicans’ lives and save them.”
“No, not save them…” Amy shrugs, thinking on how charming and suddenly intimate her interactions with the little people have been. “But I don’t see any harm in safe interactions for the purpose of further study. These have to be important moments, right? First contact before we pollute their minds? So I’ve been recording as much of it as I can. I started transcribing the words I can recognize into a spreadsheet. Very few meanings attached to any of them yet. Except for good morning or hello, which is—!”
They all repeat after her in lifeless rote, “Bontiik!” and chuck each other gently under the chin. She’s already taught them all.
“Oh.” Amy’s enthusiasm drops. “Yeah. Well, that’s all I got so far. I’m actually a terrible linguist. Can anyone else…?”
“That sounds like something Katrina might do.” Alonso nods to her at the end of the table, playing a game on her phone. “Eh?”
Feeling their eyes on her, Katrina looks up. “Oh no! What did I miss? Did someone say something sexy? Uh… That’s not the only thing I’d like to lick, mate.”
They all laugh. Mandy says, “No, you silly. Do you have any background in languages or linguistics?”
“Well…” Katrina sits up. “I’m not supposed to talk about it but I did contract with the Singaporean Air Defense when I was really young. And they thought they could use some of the algorithms I’d written to find like who might be a possible threat in the Malay border population using keywords and statistical modeling.”
“Wait. When you were really young?” This is too much for Jay.
“Yeh. Fifteen.” The table erupts in disbelief but Katrina holds up a hand. “They didn’t know I was fifteen. Come on. I forged the security documents. To them I was just another online contractor. But it was too icky. I didn’t like the way they were using my tools to suppress minorities so I started feeding them false data to make them think there were spies in their own ministries. It was a blast.”
“I’m not sure that was an answer,” Alonso rumbles, “but it was a hell of a story. So do you think you might be the best of us to study Lisican speech?”
Katrina shrugs. “I do speak five languages.”
She looks around the table. Alonso says four. Amy and Miriam say two. Esquibel and Maahjabeen say three. Pradeep says three. Triquet adds, “Just Russian and Spanish really. But I don’t know if Klingon counts.” Jay offers, “Donde esta el taco?”
Katrina rolls her eyes. “Fucking Americans, although Aussies are just as bad. Right. So if that’s the metric then I guess it’s me. Okay. When it’s time to rock a funky joint, I’m on point.”
Alonso looks at Jay for help. “Is that a yes?”
“Come on, dude. House of Pain was from the nineties. That was your music. Definitely a reference you should get.”
“My music? The nineties for me was Andrea Bocelli.”
“Am I the only one,” Mandy suddenly stands, frowning, “who thinks we shouldn’t be talking to the Lisicans at all? Like maybe even boarding up the tunnels and waiting for real professionals? Like, aren’t there some primitive tribes who refuse contact with the modern world? And I think they’re better off.”
“Well, we could,” Amy agrees, “if they didn’t have Flavia. That cow is very much already out of the barn. They’re getting all kinds of contact now whether we like it or not and whatever policy or plans we may have had are just…” She shrugs. “Look. I think we should engage as much as needed to gain trust so that we can get Flavia back. Then we can re-visit this subject afterwards. But she needs to be rescued. We can’t forget what’s important here.”
“We absolutely need her return.” Miriam shakes her head in frustration. “But we just can’t ever seem to get past the point in the conversation where they acknowledge they’ve seen her, inform us that she’s gone further inland, but then that’s it! They have nothing more to say. Nobody can lead us there. They can’t even tell us where she is exactly. It’s as if they literally stop understanding what we ask, no matter how we act it out.”
“And we have to remember too,” Triquet is relieved that nobody expects them to take on this anthropological burden. They’re already busy enough with their artifacts. “This isn’t first contact. They showed you an old photo of Maureen Dowerd. Remember Lieutenant DeVry and his fraternizing? I mean it’s been sixty years but I wonder where they got all those blond curls?”
Maahjabeen lifts her hands in helpless curiosity. “And where did they even come from in the first place? Hawai’i? On open boats? Impossible. The currents all lead away from this place. That’s what they told Alonso. So how did anyone ever find this place by boat?”
“You know what I find even more interesting?” Pradeep looks around the table. “Where did the fox come from? And when? Silver foxes are pretty rare on the West Coast.”
“Lisica.” Katrina stands. “Fox Island. I guess we can’t just say the foxes were always here. But nothing was always here. Not even the trees. So, we need answers, do we? Righty-ho. Let’s see if the natives recognize any combination of French, Russian, and Malay. But first… has anyone found a way to get through the tunnels to them without crawling through mud?”
Jay shakes his head no. “Not yet. But it’s a nice mud. Like good for your pores.”
“Yeh, I’ll just pop out on the other side with a mud facial and cucumber slices on my eyes. They’ll think I’m some kind of salad monster.” Katrina giggles. “Well, no time like the present. Come on, Amy. You can introduce me to all your new friends.”
Ξ
“Devonian, I’m pretty sure.” Miriam stares at the cliff face. “But there’s only one way to prove it, ladies.” She hands one canvas bag to Esquibel and another to Maahjabeen. “Stromatoporoid fossils. Let’s see if we can find any. Tiny sea creatures that went extinct after the Hangenberg Event.”
Esquibel only stares at her. “I know nothing about whatever it is you’re talking about. I’m very sorry.”
“Geology, right?” Maahjabeen guesses. “I think I’ve heard of the Devonian. But what is a Hangenberg Event?”
“The Hangenberg Event.” Miriam pushes through the ferns and brush to find that low tunnel she and Amy and Triquet had exited. Esquibel and Maahjabeen haven’t crawled through the brush yet and they hang back.
Esquibel peers suspiciously into the tunnel mouth. “Ehh. Can you guarantee there are no venomous snakes or spiders in there, Doctor Truitt?”
Miriam laughs. “I can guarantee nothing. I only know rocks. But so far you haven’t had to treat any bites, have you?”
“True. But you did not grow up nor practice medicine in East Africa, where there are a million things trying to kill you. It is still very difficult for me to accept that I can safely be outside here, just crashing about in the bushes.”
“Well, I appreciate that you were both able to come. We should all see the tunnels and so far this is the easiest way to get to them. Now, since you asked, the Hangenberg Event was the second largest mass extinction event of the age, second only to the Late Devonian Mass Extinction, which occurred only thirteen million years before. Watch this branch here. It has thorns.”
“How long ago was this?” Maahjabeen follows Esquibel, her shoulders and back still aching but doing much better. Coming along seemed like a good idea and nothing has changed that so far. She needs to do the physical work and she admires Miriam.
“Oh, this was all Panthalassa back then, a gigantic sea that covered nearly the entire Northern hemisphere. But that doesn’t help answer our geologic mysteries, does it? Almost all of the sea floor that existed back then has subducted under newer, more modern tectonic plates. Ah, right. When? Well, the Devonian spanned about 419 to 359 million years ago.”
“Aha.” The numbers mean nothing to Esquibel. She wears two layers of nitrile gloves and the first have already been torn on a hidden leaf. “When my grandma was young.”
“Oh, I dream of popping into a time machine!” Miriam hurries forward, lost in her vision. “To see the planet when it was all lava or all water! To see its bones first developing! It would be like witnessing its birth. All of our births. And the Devonian has nothing on the Ordovician. Absolutely my favorite. Aha. There’s the exit up ahead. I can see the light through the branches. Uh, where is everyone?” Miriam realizes she hurried ahead. She turns back. “Come on, you slugs! I’m twice your age, you know!”
Esquibel appears, replying with a brave smile and nod. She holds up one hand, now that its glove is shredded and useless. But her slow pace is holding up both her and Maahjabeen behind her. She finds a short fat stick she can use as a staff to ward away the twigs. Soon, they’ve re-joined Miriam. She leads them into the light.
“Here. If I remember correctly, we’ll have access to an actual living weathered stone cliff face.”
“But you didn’t finish your story.” Maahjabeen is frustrated to have fallen behind. She pulls herself up beside Miriam. “How did the Hangenberg Event kill everything?”
“Honestly, we don’t know. There’s several theories. Glacial melt could have led to climate change and eutrophic dead zones. Algae blooms. One of the more interesting theories is that fossils dated to the event show chromosomal and genetic damage, meaning there may have been a massive radiation spike. Gamma rays from a nearby supernova or something. Just wiped out nearly all of the life on Earth in a flash. But those studies remain inconclusive.”
She stands, where the tunnel opens up to a tiny trail around the outcrop, to disappear in the folds of vegetation on the far side. “Yes, here!” Miriam croons, reaching up, to brush the dirt clinging to the cliff face. “Here we can dig to it!”
But the bedrock is less accessible than she hoped. Damn organics covering everything on this bloody island! She needs to work in a desert again after this and Japan. She was fighting with plants and soils and clays everywhere she turned there too. Maddening. With a sigh she drops to the ground to see if any loose stones have fallen. Yes. Here’s a shoebox-sized oblong covered in moss. She scrapes the green rind off it. Then she splashes the bare stone with water and rubs it clean. “Yes, a dolomite or I’m a baboon. Look at this.”
Maahjabeen kneels beside Miriam. Esquibel is still too happy to be standing to get right back down on her knees. “What is it?”
“A type of limestone. It’s utterly preposterous to find it out here in the middle of the North Pacific like this but nothing about this island makes sense from a geologic standpoint so who’s to say? I only know dolomite when I see it and, once I give it a proper microcrystal assay under some better lights I can tell you even more than that. You see the green flecks? Feldspar. So this is a metamorphic suspension, igneous-based. But if we can find any of those micro-fossils…” Miriam finds a rock that fits in the palm of her hand. She turns it over and scrapes away the clay with a pick. “And this one is pure sandstone. Well here’s some fossils. But they aren’t ancient enough to tell the secret of the island.” Miriam holds out the rock to Esquibel, who looks at both sides.
“I can confirm it is a rock.”
“Please put it in your sack for me. I’m hoping we can fill up all three before we get back.”
“Just any rock?” Maahjabeen takes it from Esquibel to study the fossils. She frowns and puts the rock in her sack.
“Any rock. I’ve really only found other sandstone examples near, you guessed it, the sand. And I’ve been dying to get some actual samples from the cliff. Here. I think if I brace myself on the far wall I can chimney up into position.”
“Don’t!” Esquibel snares the older woman’s sleeve. “That is not a solid surface, Miriam.”
“You’re right. Fine. I’ll scrape the face clean first.”
Maahjabeen stares at Esquibel, trying to silently communicate how quickly she wants this project to end. But Esquibel doesn’t get the message. “It is true. I am no fun at parties.”
Maahjabeen shakes her head in bemused frustration at Esquibel. “You are so serious all the time. Except when you are with Mandy. If I ever invite you to a party I must make sure she comes too.”
Esquibel can’t tell if that’s an insult. She’s pretty sure it isn’t a compliment. It seems like a bit of a betrayal, having Maahjabeen of all people questioning her reserve. “It’s not like I don’t know how to have fun. It’s just this is a professional environment and I am an active-duty Lieutenant Commander, you know.”
“Well, I was a crossing guard for my primary school but I can still laugh every once in a while.” Maahjabeen says it in a teasing voice but she feels sorry for Esquibel, trapped all day every day in her clean room with no reason to leave. It must be hard to be a doctor. All you see are the results of worst-case scenarios. You never see the million successes, only the few bloody failures. It must frighten you and tilt your perception of every reality.
But Miriam and Esquibel share a surprised glance. Maahjabeen is lecturing anyone on social graces? Hilarious. Miriam can only hope it means the rigid Tunisian woman is finally starting to relax and let them in.
Esquibel puts a hand on Maahjabeen’s shoulder and gives her a mocking acknowledgement. “Thank you for your service.”
“Oh, look!” Miriam gasps, tearing aside a stand of ferns. “Glories and treasures! A whole pile of aggregates and silicates! Dear lord, will wonders never cease?”
Ξ
Under Miriam’s direction, Maahjabeen deposits her full canvas sack beneath the long tables at camp and finally retreats to her tiny cell in the bunker for some privacy. The ladies treated her well and she feels they are all proper friends now, but still. Maahjabeen is just not a people person. She is an ocean person.
So then what is she doing sitting in this concrete box, listening to Mandy tap tap tap on her keyboard? Maahjabeen stands. This isn’t where she belongs. She pulls on her sandals that she has just taken off and grabs her hat and sunglasses. It is now 1300 hours. She has not yet studied Amy’s wave phenomenon at this hour. So far it has only formed long enough for her to transit at low tides below 1.2. And it should be low tide again in another ninety minutes.
She strides through camp with purpose, sparing only a thought of pity for Alonso trapped in his camp chair and a kind of general contempt for everyone else who could be out on the water with her, but instead choose to waste their lives on the small and mean demands of land. The continents are nothing, just slivers of bare rock, basically glorified reefs with bits of life crawling atop. The rest is endless ocean. Panthalassa. Maahjabeen loves that new word. Imagine how it used to be! Sea monsters and volcanoes bubbling up from below. And just endless quiet, endless open skies and rocking liquid silence. She could spend a hundred million years in her boat and never see another soul. Oh, Lord. Why did you put me in this place and time? Chasing vanishing corners of isolation in a crowded world. I am tired of all the people.
With restless exuberance she climbs over the fallen redwood for the first time. Only when she stands atop it can she see the lagoon, and from a higher vantage than she’s used to having. The wave sets really are much clearer from up here. There’s an underwater snag or prominence that tugs on the break to the left. That’s where Amy’s barrier seastack is and its secret path out.
But Maahjabeen remains unconvinced. It cannot be so easy to escape this lagoon. If it had been so easy then why did it take so long to find? She knows that is logically not how such things work but her fatalist view of the world inspires a relentless cynical internal monologue.
At least that’s what I tell myself. La. There is smoke coming from the lean-to Pradeep made for her. Ah! That drug addict! She marches down the length of the trunk to the lean-to and climbs down beside it. “Yala!” She leans in. “This is not your place, Jay. Why do you always think you can just—?” But Jay is not alone.
Pradeep currently has a joint to his lips. He squawks in surprise and pulls it away, shoving it into the sand.
Jay calls out in dismay, “Aw, man… Don’t waste it.”
Maahjabeen is so surprised to see Pradeep in this context that she can only shake her head and drop her gaze. “I mean… Of course you are welcome to… I mean, you built the structure, Pradeep.”
“No. You’re right. I am sorry. I did not think how this would look to you. I only thought of relaxing and watching the waves.”
Until he says it aloud he doesn’t realize how much he desires Maahjabeen’s approval. The anxiety that grips him now is of the claustrophobic social variety, where his thoughtless mistake will humiliate him in front of everyone. “I’ll go.”
But she pushes him back in, growing more irritated. “No no. What kind of hostess would I be if I let you leave like that? Sit down. And smoke your drugs if you must. It is not like the smoke will stay. Not with this crosswind.” The social obligations allow her an easy way out. She’ll just get them situated and then watch the waves from the trunk above. Somewhere upwind.
“Not really sure I can any more.” Pradeep sits again, sheepish and awkward. “I was just trying to relax and now I’m not—”
Maahjabeen throws her hands up. “Oh, please. I do not really care. It’s not like the smoke makes you murderous or lecherous or anything. It just makes you stupid. And I don’t understand why anyone would want to be stupid. So here.” She kneels in the cold sand and excavates the joint, handing it to Jay.
He makes anxious maternal noises as he tries to dry the joint out with the lighter, held at a distance. Finally satisfied, he lights it and puffs it back to life. “Ahh. That’s my baby. Close call.”
Maahjabeen sits back on her heels. “Maybe you can explain it to me. Because I do not understand. Islam requires us to keep our bodies and minds clean. I cannot comprehend why you would ever want to make it dirty.”
“Well, the thing is…” Jay takes another puff and cocks his head at a philosophical angle.
Maahjabeen plucks the joint from his fingers and hands it to Pradeep. “No. I want to hear from Pradeep. I respect his opinion.”
“Well, Jesus. Okay, then.” Jay falls back with an explosive laugh. “Guess I know where I stand.”
Pradeep gingerly takes a hit. He needed this. But he doesn’t think it will help his case with Maahjabeen if she hears that. He knows how she feels. He spent the first year working with Jay in solid disapproval of his stoner ways. But certain cannabis strains relieve Pradeep’s anxiety as well as any pharmaceutical. He shrugs. “I just see it as part of the continuum of life. We are merely animals who have evolved over millions of years, and we have always interacted with our environment, other animals and…” he holds up the burning joint, “…plants. We eat them, we smoke them, we rub them on our bodies and shove them up our bums. And it’s all for the effects. It’s the same as eating a papaya for the digestive enzymes. There’s nothing inherently wrong in the practice.”
“The Prophet said every intoxicant is unlawful.”
“But is that like how all your people feel?” Jay just can’t keep his mouth shut. “Because I once knew this Iranian dude in San Jose. Super chill. He said weed was basically fine in his culture because they didn’t think of it as a drug, just as like a relaxant and appetite stimulant. He said the Middle East basically invented herb.”
“It is true.” Pradeep takes another puff. “Sri Lanka can claim to have cultivated the first cannabis, as the Afghans also do with their Kush. It may have arisen in multiple places. Why did the Prophet hate intoxicants?”
“The people of the city had fallen into vice and could no longer hear the words of Allah. You do not need this. That is what he was trying to tell us. You do not need to burn a plant to find peace. Just listen to the word of God and you will…” Maahjabeen stops, interrupted by an unsettling silence.
Pradeep leans in. “What is it?”
“Hush.” Maahjabeen ducks under the door and steps outside. Why is it so quiet? The wind has died and the gray clouds are suspended above like curtains. The waves. The waves stopped. For one moment she watches in excited discovery as the water pulls back from the mouth of the lagoon, briefly revealing a shallow shelf of stone.
Then she realizes what that means.
“Up. Go. Run.” Her voice is hoarse. The words can’t come out of her mouth fast enough. “Yala. Up! Tsunami!”
That magic word gets the boys tumbling out the door and onto the sand. Maahjabeen is already scrambling up the side of the trunk as the water rushes in, overtopping the barrier rocks on the far side of the lagoon and filling it in an instant. It floods the beach. The water rises and rises…
From atop the trunk, the three of them cling to each other. With a fatalist dread they watch the sea green water rush toward them. It moves faster than they can run. But it is already slowing. By the time the swirling water reaches the trunk it is hardly a meter high. It foams at their feet for a long angry moment before pulling away, taking one of the planks of Maahjabeen’s shelter with it.
Then it is gone.
Maahjabeen shakes herself like a cat. That was close. The utterly terrifying power of the ocean and her own insignificance chop at her roots with stunning force. She’s as weak as this fallen tree.
Jay hops back down, laughing at their brush with death. “That was boss. Look, Prad. It took all the sand from under the trunk.”
“Ah! The poor shelter.” Pradeep scrambles back down to see if he can save it. Now that the sand floor has been pulled away, the twine-secured planks sag sadly against the trunk.
“But check out beneath. So much more is exposed. And see. There’s a big burl down here. This old boy may have been dealing with more infections than we knew.”
The thought that a viral infection might have felled this giant instead of a lightning bolt pleases Pradeep. He leaves the shelter aside. Not much he can do here without more twine. The tsunami, if that’s what it was, still rattles him. He doesn’t know how Jay can be so nonchalant. They were nearly swept away. He looks up at Maahjabeen with a frown. “Was that a true tsunami?”
“I am not sure yet. But sometimes there can be more than one. You should both stay up here with me until the sea settles.”
The wave sets have been obliterated by the tsunami and the green sea is a roiling, rocking mess webbed with foam. Why, she could paddle through that cauldron no problem to reach the open sea. Everything cancels everything else out. But for how long? She laughs like a madwoman, thinking how dangerous it would be.
Pradeep and Jay clamber back up onto the log beside her. They all watch the sea in silence as it slowly reorders itself.
From out of seemingly nowhere, Jay pulls out the still-lit joint and sucks on it, then passes it to Pradeep.
Maahjabeen has trouble categorizing what she just witnessed. “So there are rogue waves and there are tsunamis and they both have very different causes…”
But she isn’t teaching Pradeep and Jay anything they don’t already know. “Yeah, that was either a distant earthquake in the sea bed or, well…” Jay shrugs, “nobody’s really quite sure what causes rogue waves yet, do they?”
“The nonlinear Schrödinger equation!” Maahjabeen and Pradeep recite at the same time. Then they laugh. She continues. “Ah, you know about that? It is one of my favorite theories.”
“Fascinating bit of nonlinear modeling,” Pradeep agrees. “One wave might be able to steal the energy not only of the waves that follow, building itself up, but even from the one before it too.”
“Wait. How?” Jay can’t fathom how a wave racing forward could somehow pull energy from the wave in front of it. That’s why it was in front, wasn’t it? Because the one behind couldn’t reach it. The whole idea contradicts every surfer instinct he possesses.
“Basically little feedback loops can build solitons—” Pradeep begins before Maahjabeen excitedly takes over.
“Hyperbolic secant envelope solitons! They’re self-reinforcing wave packets that can maintain their coherence like halfway across the ocean. But the equations are so…” She throws up her hands. It is the physics of waves where she found the limits of her maths brain. “Like as long as a novel and tangled like a knot.”
“Ohh I love the classical field equations.” Pradeep takes his final hit. His thoughts are starting to collapse and settle within him. “They are so comforting.”
Maahjabeen hasn’t been able to talk about this with anyone in too long. “Alonso told me the island is a computer. Well the ocean is one too, just infinitely more complex. A squid eats a fish off the coast of Indonesia and it butterfly effects the motion into waves and currents that we still feel here. I once heard, though, that in order to model every interaction in the ocean, the computer would have to be the size of the ocean. So, to me, we should just study the ocean itself and learn what its outputs look like instead of building supercomputers to create simplistic artificial versions of it. Like, I don’t think we ever pay enough attention to laminar flow in the water surface layers myself. It is a very powerful interaction.”
“Wind knocking down my waves,” Jay agrees. “Bums me out.”
“But let’s say it was a tsunami…” Maahjabeen estimates where it likely originated, perhaps the Asian east coast. The Pacific and its ring of fire, all the hotspots that encircle the ocean, triggering volcanic eruptions and earthquakes and seaquakes that reshape the world. “Where would you say that is?”
“Uh, Taiwan?” Pradeep sights along her arm. “But I hope not. I mean I hope everyone is okay.”
“Inshallah,” Maahjabeen intones, then drops her arm. “Well. The sea is returning to normal. I will say it is most likely a rogue wave. Tsunamis are faster and more like a general flood.”
Jay is skeptical. “That didn’t feel like a flood to you? There was no crest to that wave. No impact. Rogue wave, they might have heard the crunch back in camp. But nobody heard nothing.”
“Is everybody here an oceanic researcher?” Maahjabeen doesn’t mean for it to come out as petulant as it does, but she is tired of always being corrected. “Rogue waves can also be silent. That is why they can be called sleeper waves.”
“Fair point.” For as combative as Jay is, he gives up an argument as quickly as he starts one. “And I’m not disputing your expertise. Just a lifelong beach bum here. Yeah, they say when my family first had a ranch in Carmel, my like great-great aunt was sunbathing on the beach and got pulled out and drowned by a sleeper wave. They full-on terrify me.”
“So I guess no one will ever be spending the night in the shelter.” Pradeep sighs. “Oh, well. It was a good idea while it lasted.”
“No. Please rebuild it.” Maahjabeen touches Pradeep’s elbow and doesn’t register how electric he considers the contact. “We will be grateful to have it. It is for watching the ocean, yes?”
Pradeep gives her a tight smile. He is glad she appreciates her bungalow. But he really wishes she would lay those long graceful fingers on someone or something else.
Ξ
“This is the last climb here.” Amy calls down to Katrina, waiting for her to make her way past the tree that the Lisicans have placed inside the tunnel, a pale spotlight of indirect daylight illuminating the roughly vertical shaft. These villagers are like these sturdy little industrial shrews of humanity. Amy is reminded of the ancient troglodytes of the limestone caves of France. They lived in them over thousands of years. Some people are just born to dig.
“This is wild.” Katrina finally pulls herself up to Amy, eyes wide. “You should know, for your peace of mind, I’ve long ago stopped trying to think of where the best place to have a rave down here is. I just got really into the idea at first. Rave in a cave. Rave in a cave. It was like a refrain. But there’s just no way. I had no idea how immense it is down here. Just really incredible.”
“Rave in a cave.” Amy snorts. “Not sure how the Lisicans would feel about that.”
“Well. They’re all invited. Have you heard their music yet?”
“No music.” Amy’s breath is coming in short gasps as she climbs toward the last level bit of passage that leads to the village. “But their whole language is like music. You’ll see. Very sing-song.”
They approach the tunnel’s end to see the same man waiting for them as before, the silver fox curled at his feet.
Amy affixes a mask over her mouth and approaches. “Bontiik!” She chucks him under the chin. He does the same to her. The fox sniffs at her toes. Amy spreads her arms inclusively wide and turns to Katrina, who also puts a mask in place. “My friend! Katrina!”
The little man looks at her with shining dark eyes. He has reddish curls, not blond at all, and a calm authoritative air. He gestures with an open palm and says something long and involved in a mush of vowels and soft consonants. At least that’s how it sounds to Katrina. But then a single word sticks out. Ostati. It’s a form of ‘remain’ in Slavic languages. She repeats it aloud. “Ostati? Stay? Remain? Who stays?” Then, slow and simplified, she asks, “Da li govorite russki? Do you speak Russian?”
The man holds up a finger. “Da. Da li.” And then he continues, his words once again disintegrating into mush. But Amy was right. It is a pleasing sing-song mush. She just can’t make any sense of it.
“Are those Slavic words or is it just a coincidence?”
“That a fox is named Lisica in both languages? Impossible. Has to be. I wonder how he always knows we’re coming.” Amy nods and smiles again and again, making notes on her phone.
“What’s his name? Do we know?”
“Feel free to try.” Amy makes an exasperated gesture. She’s all out of ideas how to advance their dialogue.
Katrina pats herself on the chest. “Katrina. Katrina Oksana. Drago mi je… Um… Kako… kako se zoves?” She laughs. “Listen to me. I sound like a Serb. Come on, dude. What’s your name?”
He responds pleasantly, at length, his voice rising and falling. The more she hears of Lisican the more the words start to separate into units. But there’s all kinds of sub-vocalized consonants and glottal stops and fricatives Katrina doesn’t recognize. This will take some study, for sure. She takes out her own phone and starts recording everything he says.
After his speech he slides a dry slender hand across Katrina’s palm and grips it. He leads her from the tunnel.
The fox still sniffs at Amy’s feet. Finally satisfied, it turns and scampers after its human. “Woot. Passed the test.” She steps out and away from the cliff, to find that the village is framed in vibrant color, wreathed in flowers. “Wait. This wasn’t… Wow. Where’d all these flowers come from? This must be the spring bloom. How lovely!” Amy points at the clusters of orange and violet and pink and white flowers in clusters. “Yarrow and angelica and this is chamomile. You could make tea!” She has an audience now, four children and three adults hanging on each word. She holds up a chamomile flower and one of the little girls plucks it from its stem and pops it into her mouth.
The natives look healthy. Apart from their diminutive stature, their dark skin is clear, their bellies are not swollen. The elders don’t appear to be afflicted too badly by arthritis. Their teeth are strong. Amy wonders what their life expectancy is.
The man who greeted them now leads Katrina from house to house, speaking to someone within at each stop. Katrina nods her head and waves, but she can’t see inside the gloom. It feels like a formal tradition so she keeps her mouth shut and follows his lead.
At one house, older and more dilapidated than the others, the man puts a hand across Katrina’s chest to keep her at a distance. He doesn’t seem to realize or care that his forearm is pressed against her breast. He ducks low to send his voice through the low dark doorway and calls out in an aggressive, nearly hostile voice.
An ancient crone peers out, one eye filled with white cataracts. Her hair is white and nearly gone, the curls limp against her dark skull. She lifts a bony hand and speaks. It almost sounds like a curse. This is not a happy moment. He has evidently roused her from a long isolation.
The man takes the crone’s hand and pulls her forward to where Katrina waits. Tottering forward, complaining, her one good eye stares at the ground. The man joins her hand to Katrina’s and she finally looks up, blinking at the young Australian woman’s face.
For a long, trembling moment, everyone in the village watches the crone cup Katrina’s chin. Then with a ragged cry she pushes her away. “Guh-byyye.” She flaps a hand dismissively at Katrina and everyone starts talking all at once, begging the old woman to reconsider. But she only repeats the farewell again and again. “Guh-byyye. Guh-byyye.”
“Well.” Katrina tries not to feel rejected. This has nothing to do with her. But still, somehow, it stings. “They know some English, it seems. Uhh.” She waves at the old woman, who stares at her with hot tears and clenched, shaking fists. “Good-bye?”
The woman groans and spins away. The others all talk at once, some pulling at Katrina to ask further questions and others pulling at those to dissuade them. The man with the fox holds up his hands and defends his decision to bring her here.
Amy watches from the edge of the village, hands full of flowers. “Everything okay over there, Katrina?”
“I haven’t the foggiest.”
A woman emerges from her house bearing an abalone shell filled with smaller tusk shells and feathers. She carefully picks out three shells and a glossy black feather and presses them into Katrina’s hand. By her urging, Katrina offers the gift to the crone.
But the crone will not engage with Katrina. She is back at the door of her house, squatting to go back inside. She still mutters, “Guh-byyye… Guh-byyye…” with unmistakeable grief.
“She won’t take them.” Katrina hands the treasures back to the woman. “Nice try, though. Why doesn’t she like me?”
Now all the women and children and men speak, their words falling over each other, mild arguments springing up on each side. They pull on each other sharply to interrupt, although none of the heated words sound like insults.
Katrina records it all. “Uh… What do you think, Amy? Feel like we’ve out-stayed our welcome. Don’t you?”
“Maybe so.” Amy turns to the closest adults, a woman and man wearing tight headbands of twisted leaf and not much else. “But I still want to find out more about my friend Flavia. Flavia.”
They all fall silent to see if they can divine the meaning of her words. The children try to imitate her. “Flobby-uhh.”
Amy points at the tunnel mouth. “She was the first one out. Remember? And then you said she went up this way?” Amy retraces the path through the village to a tiny overgrown footpath on the far side. She points up it. “Flavia. Remember?”
Now the village falls silent again. Katrina marvels at the change and how quickly it came. Their faces go from animated and wide open to closed and staring at the ground. But this isn’t the same reaction they had with the crone. This is something… darker.
“I don’t like the looks on their faces much, to be honest.” Katrina sidles up to Amy. She doesn’t feel threatened. It’s only that these people are so alien. And she is so far from home. “What did they do to Flavia? Don’t tell me we found cannibals.”
“Uh, that’s racist.” But Amy’s words are hollow. Her mind is calculating, trying to tell if she’d get in any trouble by taking this trail. She holds up her hands, beseeching the villagers. “We have to find her. If she went this way we have to go. She’s our friend.”
Amy parts the fern fronds and takes her first step up the trail. She looks back. A wordless seething resentment sweeps through the villagers. One young boy lifts a hand and yells at her, “jidadaa!” but his mother pulls his arm down and shields him from Amy.
“Okay. Fine. I don’t understand why but I’ll turn back if you don’t want me to go.” Amy lifts her hands in surrender to re-enter the village. But the adults of the village hurry forward, holding their hands up, muttering the words Wetchie-ghuy and koox̱. She is not welcome any more. Amy steps back, not wanting to be pushed. “Oh. Ehh. Shoot. I appear to have made some terrible mistake. Sorry. So sorry. I promise I won’t do it again.”
But still they won’t let her back into the village. The children withdraw into the houses and even the man with the fox won’t look at her. He only holds his hands up to push her out if she tries to come back in.
“Oh no! Katrina! Help! What have I done?”
“You went up the wrong path, I guess. The koox̱ path. Maybe… Maybe you need some of those gifts like the shells and the feathers. Maybe they’ll forgive you then.”
“Fine. Yeah. And how am I supposed to get them from here? I wasn’t doing anything wrong! We need to find Flavia.” Amy can’t believe she lost their love so quickly. Things had been going so well! “Come on, guys! It isn’t like I have a choice!”
“We should get you out of there.” Katrina starts scouting the heavily-wooded edges of the village. “Do you think you can like skirt around back to the tunnel mouth? Get you back to camp and try this again someday?”
“I’m trying…” But Amy can tell the thickets are impassable. The only way back is through the village. “But they won’t let me. I think I might have to go up this trail and look for Flavia myself, Katrina. I mean, it’s the only way left.”
Katrina has no words. Amy is right, but there’s too much inexplicable significance here. These decisions are clearly too weighty to be blundered into. “Okay. Gah. I hate it but you’re right, I guess. Well, good-bye.”
“Good-bye.” Amy turns to leave. But another voice from further up the koox̱ trail stops her.
“Don’t say good-bye.” It is Flavia. “To them it means betrayal.”
Chapter 16 – Again And Again
April 15, 2024
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Book II – Empirical Emotions
16 – Again And Again
Pradeep leads Mandy and Katrina on an expedition to the west edge of Tenure Grove. It’s gotten less attention so far because it is nothing but impenetrable undergrowth. But they’re dressed for it. Katrina wears pinstripe coveralls. Pradeep carries his collection pack. Mandy is in her red storm parka zipped up to her chin.
“You’re going to get holes in it,” Pradeep tells Mandy when they pause at the edge of the brush. “And it will be so hot.”
“Nothing gets through this fabric.” Mandy proudly presents a sleeve the thickness of canvas. “A Norwegian fish boat pilot I met swears by it. He said even their flensing knives can’t go through it. Cost like my entire budget that month. But yeah. It doesn’t breathe at all. So if things get too active in there I’ll definitely start boiling.”
Pradeep turns his attention to the closest shrub. “So this must be a variant of boxwood or myrtle.” He snares a limb, finger-thick, growing nearly straight out of the ground and towering over his head. Its little serrated diamond leaves hang in yellow-green clusters. “Some have berries. But this doesn’t. I think it’s probably an Oregon Boxwood. Here is a quite stout rhododendron. And these are… five-finger ferns? My fern game is sadly very weak.” He pushes through their fronds to a larger, different type. “And this is, ah, Western sword fern? Look at the size of it. I’ve never seen one so big. Now…” Pradeep kneels and pulls its broad fronds aside. “Yes, down here. Look.”
Katrina and Mandy kneel beside him. There is a dark understory beneath the green thicket above, its floor littered with gray and black dead leaves, stretching ahead into impassable stands of bare limbs. Mandy shares an uncertain look with Katrina, who shrugs.
Pradeep is too excited to contain himself. With one of his brilliant smiles and a flourish he declares, “Thank you for coming… to the fantastical world of spiders!”
Mandy pulls away with a little shriek.
Katrina makes a face. “Ah. Aha. Spiders? That’s what we’re doing? I thought you were going to show us something, ehh…”
“Like the twister in the nook!” Mandy crosses her arms. “Dude, you can’t just say who wants to see something and oh yeah bring your burliest clothes, then not tell us it’s to go mess with spiders.”
The enthusiasm fades from Pradeep’s face. “I always forget how people feel about spiders. Uh. That’s fine. You don’t need to stay.”
They’re both touched by how crestfallen he is. Katrina puts a hand on his shoulder. “It’s okay, mate. I’m not frightened of them. It’s just… not what I was expecting.”
With a sigh, Mandy puts the hood of her parka up and cinches it. “You know we still love you, Pradeep. You’re just a weirdo. So what’s the plan? Are we collecting spiders? Do you have gloves?”
“Well, if you don’t want to, maybe you could just stand back and document them with pictures? Unless you aren’t comfortable…”
“No, that’s fine. I can take pictures. Do they bite? I mean, I know spiders bite. But are any here like super aggressive?”
“Well. I’ll do all the collecting. So if any of them attack they will jump at me.” Pradeep crawls in first.
“Well. Glad I wore coveralls.” Katrina kneels and follows. “Are we looking for all spiders? Just the ones on the ground? Or just—? Yeh, there’s a web right there. But I don’t see a spider. Aren’t those called weavers? Such a pretty name.”
“Ah, yes, that’s the classic Araneid bullseye pattern. Fresh too. She is probably hiding on a twig at one of the anchor points. Excuse me. Let me just get in there if I could…”
Katrina retreats from her spot and Pradeep pushes past her, their bodies bumping and scraping in the tight passage. Katrina laughs. “Oo baby. Whatever happened to personal space? Remember that one time I like touched your arm and you freaked? I guess I should have just had a spider to show you.”
Pradeep is intent on the web, unaware that what he presses so roughly against is soft flesh. “Eh? Oh. Yes, I suppose I can get kind of focused when I’m working. Sorry.”
“No worries. Like at all, big boy.” Katrina’s juices are stirring. She hasn’t gone this long without a good shag since she was like fifteen. And now his arm is grazing her nipple and he doesn’t even realize it. She blows Pradeep a kiss and he finally tunes in to her flirtations enough to blush.
Mandy crouches at the edge of the understory, peering in. “And how is this dark hollow filled with spiders and god knows what else not giving you anxiety, Pradeep? I mean, if you don’t mind me asking. There’s all kinds of nightmare fuel in here. Like, what more do you need?”
“Most of my anxieties…” Pradeep speaks absently, shining his phone’s light on the web so he can follow its strands to the spider’s likely hideout, “…are social ones. It’s people who get to me. Flora and fauna aren’t… mean or selfish. They just are.”
“See, I have trouble with unknowns too.” Mandy takes a picture of Pradeep and Katrina with her phone, the flash a brilliant spike in the dark. They both grimace, blinded. “That’s how I got into the study of weather. It’s like the least predictable thing in the whole world and I needed to feel like I understood it so that, well… I mean, really it’s because I’m a control freak.”
“No…” Katrina’s voice drips with disbelief. “Say it ain’t so.”
“What?” Mandy grows self-conscious. “You noticed? Aw shoot. I thought I’d been pretty good out here so far. I haven’t strangled Amy over her placement of the kitchen yet or needed to re-arrange the lab tables five times a day. I’ve been behaving.”
“Esquibel revealed what’s behind that sweet little smile of yours. Told me all about your mastermind plans for world domination.”
“She did? What did she say?” Now Mandy is intrigued. It’s no secret that both she and Esquibel find Katrina hot. Is her lover talking Mandy down so she can make moves on Katrina herself? No, Esquibel would never do that. Would she?
“It was when we thought we’d lost Maahjabeen and she was worried about how upset you were. Esquibel said you were wasting away because you couldn’t control the situation.”
“Hmf.” Mandy doesn’t know how she feels about that. Part of her is touched by the concern. But isn’t this an invasion of privacy? Or perhaps they’re all just becoming better friends, learning more about each other. “Well, you should know Esquibel can be very controlling too. And she always kicks me when we sleep.”
Pradeep and Katrina laugh. He says, “I’ve never met a doctor who isn’t controlling. Absolute career prerequisite, I’m sure.”
“So, I’ll just like be your scout I guess.” Katrina crouches deeper and scuttles ahead, pushing the bare limbs aside. “Oh, here’s a good one! And look at the size of the lad! What a color!”
Pradeep squawks in excitement and pushes right up against Katrina. The spider sitting in the center of is web is bright orange and as big as his littlest fingernail. Its black and white legs hook its web, patiently waiting for a meal. Several former winged insects are bundled within the strands, their juices sucked dry. “That is a lovely Argiope. But the web has no stabilimentum. Curious. Most related species do. This might be a new one.” He smiles at Katrina, only a handspan away. “We can name it after you. You discovered it. Would you prefer Argiope katrina or oksana?”
Mandy has crawled in, up against their feet. She chirps, “I think it has to be Argiope dj bubblegum.”
They all laugh.
Katrina’s attraction to Pradeep is rising to new levels. He is the definition of tall, dark, and handsome. And he is just the sweetest and oddest man. Nobody has ever offered to name a species after her before. She finds herself falling into his dark brown eyes. If she knew it wouldn’t make him squeal like a schoolgirl she’d kiss him. Katrina takes a deep breath before she gets carried away. Oh, well. This randy girl will just have to satisfy herself with Pradeep’s firm body pressed up against hers.
But then in a sudden surprise, Mandy climbs over both of them, flattening them in the dead leaf litter. They collapse with a laugh as she demands, “I want to see!” She rests her chin on Pradeep’s shoulder, her leg over Katrina’s rump. “Oh my god, it’s so pretty!”
“Well, this is the craziest threesome I’ve ever been in.” Katrina turns and kisses Mandy instead, a brief sweet peck. When she pulls back she can tell from the look in Mandy’s eyes the girl is hungry for more. Well well. This is news to Katrina. She’s not sure if that’s a good idea. The last thing she needs is to get Esquibel angry with her. She’s the bloody doctor.
“Can I please get up?” Pradeep’s muffled voice breaks the spell.
Katrina giggles and turns away, wiping the corner of her mouth.
Mandy stares at her with a gimlet smile. More than anything, she is flattered that this gorgeous blonde Australian girl likes her enough to kiss her. All the rest of it can wait.
Katrina scoots forward down a forking opening, scouting further. Mandy rolls off Pradeep into the empty space and takes out her phone. She takes a picture of the spider named after Katrina and makes it a favorite by pressing on the heart.
“Oh, wow!” Katrina calls out. She’s advanced a few meters and they can’t see her. “Check this out!”
Pradeep army crawls toward the sound of Katrina’s voice…
The natives. It must have been the people of Lisica who’d cleared out this hidden chamber under the boxwood, an oval roughly five meters in diameter. Several large trunks act as columns, but the ground has been swept clear of litter and a couple flat redwood bark planks serve as furniture along the far wall.
Pradeep and Mandy crawl in, exclaiming in surprise one after the other. “This is incredible.” Mandy and Katrina can stand but he remains kneeling. “How many hidden spots do they have here?”
“And we thought for two whole weeks we were the only people on Lisica.” Katrina chuckles at the fallacy.
“Yeah. Well.” Mandy sits on one of the planks, unable to focus on this shadowed hollow. She still feels the glow of Katrina’s kiss. But she’s unsure what made the girl pull away and now she’s starting to get worried that she might never get a taste of those sweet lips again. Mandy sighs. “This place is full of mysteries.”
Ξ
Jay swings in his hammock, staring at the intershot network of branches above and the gray clouds. He could be anywhere on the whole west coast from the Sur up to Oregon’s Gold Coast. They couldn’t have found a biome that feels more to him like home.
And now he can’t move. God damn it. Being injured sucks balls. He pushed it way too hard yesterday, and now even though his bladder is nearly bursting the last thing he wants to do is fall out of the snug hammock and crawl his dumb ass down to the jakes.
“Man, that is a hell of a maze down there.” The sound of his voice in the quiet gets him going. With a groan he grabs both edges of the hammock and heaves himself up, his lower back and hips screaming. This is when he usually lifts his legs and swings them over the edge but his obliques and quads are having none of that.
Jay grunts, locked up. He’s used to waking up in a hammock sore and empty. His usual twenty mile days on steep coastal mountains end footsore and delirious. Especially if he’s been smoking mad herb. But yesterday he did like twenty miles on his belly. And as his high school soccer coach taught him, no matter how good of shape you’re in, you’re only in good shape for that activity. A runner can’t just suddenly swim. They’re whole different muscle groups and kinesthetic chains. A runner isn’t even ready to play soccer. Not until they strengthen their lower calves and hip flexors for that stop/start burst. So Jake, who hasn’t been underground in almost a year, is not at all in shape for a marathon caving sesh. And definitely not with a broken hand and dislocated ankle.
He rolls over his right shoulder onto the ground, landing in the sand on his face, which sends a sharp pain through the base of his skull. Oh, great. Now his neck hurts too? Man. Careful there. He had bad tension headaches as a kid. The last thing he needs is for them to return. Maybe he can convince Mandy to work on it. When she isn’t tearing his scar tissue apart, she actually does some pretty great deep massage. Her touch on his skin sure feels nice. Too bad she’s taken. He halts that train of thought and chuckles at himself. Look, chief, she ain’t for you. He doesn’t know if Mandy is gay or bi or monogamous or whatever but he just doesn’t want to get on Esquibel’s bad side. She’s the fucking doctor.
“I’m having… like a competition… with Maahjabeen…” Getting himself to his feet takes a comically long time. “See… who… heals last!” Finally he straightens. Well, kind of. He totters forward barefoot in the cold sand. “And I win! Suck it, ocean girl.”
On his way back from the trenches his limbs start to unwind. It’s clear that a little walk around camp is in order. He’s famished too. If he’s going to get any work done today he’s going to need some fuel. Didn’t someone say there was a carton of powdered eggs that still hadn’t been unpacked? Let’s see what he can make of those.
“Anybody else hungry?” As far as Jay can tell camp is empty but a lone, deep voice calls out, “Me. Por favor.”
“Alonso, my man. Coming right up. How’s a tofu omelet sound? With maybe like… You know what? Amy and me are thinking of harvesting some seaweed. Maybe if we get some edible varieties we can actually get some salad back on the menu. And if it’s too tough I was thinking we could steep it in your red wine for a few days.”
“An omelet would be amazing.”
Jay laughs at the disembodied voice and starts looking at the bins that remain unopened. “Yes sir, leave the seaweed experiments up to me. Good call. Aha! Here we go! Eggs for days! And a whole canister of powdered garlic! I’m in heaven!”
Twenty minutes later, Jay presents Alonso with a steaming plate on a tray with a mug of tea and dried bananas and blueberries as garnish. Alonso sets aside his laptop and accepts it with a grateful smile. Then he sighs hugely and rubs his eyes. He’s been at work now for hours.
“It looks delicioso. But where is yours?”
“Yeah, I ate as I cooked. Already done. Got a little excited and burned myself.” Jay, speaking with more care than normal because of his scalded tongue, sits on the platform at Alonso’s side.
Alonso laughs at him. “My god, you are your own worst enemy. You get hurt every day. Are you like this on every trip or is this one somehow special?”
Jay laughs at himself, carefree. “Yeah, I’m an idiot. You know what I think my trouble is here? Lisica is so familiar that I keep subconsciously like letting my guard down, thinking I’m still on home turf. But it isn’t. This is an island in the middle of the ocean. I forget I got to bring my A game at all times.”
“That is some good insight there, hermano. So tell me. What was it like underground?”
“Well, it’s pretty cool. Triquet told us about this bioluminescent fungus and I spent like twenty minutes trying to take a picture of it. Here’s the best one.” Jay takes out his phone and shows Alonso a dim blue-green fluorescent blob, grainy and out of focus.
Alonso grunts, then carves another slice out of the omelet. “This is so good. How did you make it so fluffy?”
“Had to whip it like a French chef. Yeah…” Jay frowns at his fungus picture. “Can’t really tell anything about it at all. Too bad. This is supposed to be for Prad. Any idea where he is?”
“He went off that way with a couple others.” Alonso points his fork at the west end of the grove. The more of the omelet he eats, the faster he wants to eat it. It really is the tastiest meal he’s had in days. Too soon, the last bite is gone. “Ahh. Thank you very much, Jay. That omelet was fantastic.”
“Sure thing. You can have one every day. Yeah, Miriam did a great job setting lines down there so I never felt lost. It’s just… there’s so much. All this digging must be like their second job or something. Come and haul out another few shovels of dirt like your grandpa did every day of his whole life. We still ain’t done yet.”
“So these are not natural tunnels?”
“I mean, some are. Carved by water. But most are dug. And then there’s the concrete culvert under the beach. I have no idea what the military was thinking. Maybe they were going to run it all the way up to the pool to give themselves a better source of water? The sea cave and its hidden base needed to be supplied? I don’t know. You’re going to have to get down there yourself somehow and check it out.”
“That appears sadly out of the question.” Alonso squeezes his knees. It is not only his feet that were broken. His torturers swung their rods against his shins and knees with equal ferocity. “But I appreciate the report from the front lines. Oh! I cannot work any more. I need to do something, anything. Even if it hurts.”
“Okay, partner.” Jay groans as he pulls himself to his feet. He collects Alonso’s tray with one hand and holds out the other for Alonso to grasp. “Come with me. Let’s go take a look at things.”
It feels like climbing a mountain, getting out of this camp chair. But Alonso lets Jay haul him forward and up and then he totters on those two broken pillars of dull fire again. Their heat will intensify, the longer he stands on them. The clock has already started ticking. “Where are we headed?”
Jay cackles, happy to have gotten Alonso to come with him. “I don’t know. Where haven’t you been yet?”
“Anywhere.” Alonso shrugs. “I was on the beach at first. Then I’ve been in the bunker and…” He shrugs again, realizing how sad it is. “That’s all, I guess.”
“Oh, man. You haven’t even seen the waterfall? Wait. I’ve got an idea. Give me ten seconds to get rid of this.”
Jay hobbles away with the tray. Alonso watches him go, then realizes he should get started moving in that direction. Jay will catch up to him. Ah! There was that one other time he ventured into the bushes here to pee. That’s when he saw the native child. A vision. A vision that has come true. Remember, Alonso. Be careful here. This is where you tripped and cracked your head open last time. By the time he catches his breath, Jay has returned with Triquet, who wears a floral housecoat and a scarf.
Now Jay carries a duffel bag, nearly full. “Hey, Alonso, do you know how to play cribbage?”
“Eh?” Images flicker through Alonso’s mind, of his uncle, Julio, and his nicotine-stained fingers and the nicotine-stained cards he always carried. Cribbage was one of the many games the dapper old Spaniard had taught him. His earliest introduction to number theory, probability, and statistics. “Yes. Why?”
“Because,” Triquet gently links their arm with Alonso’s to provide support, “when Mister Hophead here asked in the bunker if anyone wanted to smoke a doobie and play cribbage by the pool I couldn’t resist.”
“Oh. Is that what we’re doing?” Alonso leans against Triquet, his heart easing. “Ah, Triquet. Thank you. I’d follow you anywhere.”
Jay shows them the contents of the duffel. “Indica for the aches and pains. And you get to sit on the bank and put your feet in the water. Look. I’ve got a blanket.”
He pushes his way through a stand of ferns, the ground covered in clover and luminous moss. They follow, finally fetching up at the edge of the pool. Alonso stares at the falling cascade, struck by its grace and beauty. “I saw it on the drone video. From above. But it is so much bigger than I thought it would be! It is glorious! But wait, Triquet. This is what you tried to dive through?”
Triquet makes a face. “Did I tell you how desperate I was at the time? And that it doesn’t look so dangerous from the other side?”
“You are crazy. I take back all the nice things I just said about you.” Alonso pushes on Triquet’s arm in jest.
“Definitely a baller move.” Jay puts a fleece blanket down over the irregular rock shelf at the pool’s edge. “And you still somehow escaped unscathed. You’ll have to teach me your ways.”
They lower Alonso’s suffering body onto the blanket. Soon, a game of three-handed cribbage is in full swing. They fall to silently arranging their cards and taking drags off the joint. Alonso’s head immediately starts to swim. He has never been much of a smoker but the high is similar enough to wine to be enjoyable.
“But wait. The whole point was to get Alonso’s feet in the water.”
Jay’s voice comes from a long way away. Oh no. Miriam was right. This is powerful shit. His perspective telescopes forward and back like in a Hitchcock movie. He drops his gaze to watch Triquet fuss with his shoes. Those are Alonso’s own feet but they seem so far away. Good. The pain is in the distance.
“Tell me if I’m going too fast.”
Yes, Triquet also sounds far away. Everyone is so far. How sad. It’s just Alonso and the waterfall now.
“Jay.” Triquet snaps their fingers in front of Alonso’s face, trying to get his attention. “I think you broke him.”
“Yeah, I doubt he had much access to weed in a VA hospital. Well, let’s get his feet in the water and see if that helps.”
The cold water against Alonso’s skin is like an electric shock. It jolts through him with an awful stab, jangling his nerves. But he doesn’t pull his feet out. The THC and its related cannabinoids soothe him as the shock turns to crystal cold vitality. There is life in this water. It runs up his legs, recharging him. As the cold eases the ache in his feet, circuits are completed within him for the first time in nearly six years and Alonso rouses himself.
“Fifteen-two, fifteen-four, and a run of three is seven.” Alonso startles them by adding up his score and pushing the cards toward Jay. He suddenly feels great, better than he has in years.
“Well well well.” Triquet nods, happy to see their efforts bearing fruit. Alonso’s face clears and for the very first time here on Lisica, he looks like the man Triquet saw when they first met. It was way back when they were an undergrad and Alonso came to Ann Arbor to lecture. Triquet had gotten an instant crush on the older man. He had been so stylish and accomplished. Not like the victim they’ve been nursing here the last couple weeks.
Triquet takes another light puff. No need to get wasted. This is just a little break in the day before getting back to urgent matters such as locating Flavia in the interior and establishing some kind of relationship with the Lisicans. “I’ve got a double run for eight.”
Jay frowns. “Well you didn’t tell me you were both some kind of goddamn card sharks. I’ve only got a pair. Two points. And the crib… is empty. Great.”
Alonso and Triquet laugh at Jay’s ill fortune.
He glares at them, struck by what oddballs they all are. Alonso is such a character and Triquet is a complete fucking original and Jay knows that he himself is something of a cartoon to most people. Without thinking how it might sound, he blurts, “Do you ever like wonder why normal people don’t come out on projects like this?”
An uncomfortable silence greets his words. Triquet looks at Jay like he just called them a slur. Alonso is embarrassed for him.
“What? I mean, like take my cousins in San Clemente for example. Got normal jobs. Weddings and kids and houses and cars. The whole suburban thing. Why aren’t any of them here?”
“Are you… trying to imply that I am not normal?” Triquet fights the growing knot of sickness in their gut. Not again. Not here.
Jay blinks at both of them, unable to process what the problem is. “Ohh. You think I mean normal in a good way? Nah, not at all. To me normal is an insult. I’ve done all I could my whole life to let my freak flag fly.”
“So… you’re a freak?”
“Hundred percent. Aren’t you?”
Alonso lifts a hand. “Jay.”
Triquet covers Alonso’s hand with their own, very much against needing someone else to speak for them. A deep breath helps dispel the growing impulse to shout at this clueless young man. “I don’t ever like reminding people of their privilege, Jay, but… Normalcy isn’t just like what bands you like or what sports team you follow. Leave it to the white guy to be like, ‘Ew, the normals. How tired is everybody of them?’ Well the rest of us don’t have that luxury. Being normal is whether you belong or are accepted by society at large. It can literally be the difference between life and death.”
“Fucking A, what a great speech.” Jay rocks back, mind blown. “That is some serious wisdom you’re dropping. But. At the same time. I mean. Normal still isn’t great. Can’t we do better? When we were all in high school me and my buddies said we’d never get married. Literally like all of our parents were divorced. What was the point? As an institution it just like curled up and died. Then last year, Glen came out as gay and said he was getting married. And the rest of us were like, Dude. I get it. You become a full legal member of society but this is our chance to build something I don’t know, better than marriage, more meaningful. Or just more accurate for modern relationships. And now suddenly we’re on opposite sides of this issue.”
“Why is that suddenly his responsibility?” Triquet shrugs off the claims made here. “Why does being in the vanguard for one issue mean that we’re all of a sudden responsible to reinvent this whole other thing that straight white dudes ruined? I’m not your savior. Glen isn’t going to clean up your messes. He probably just wants a car and a family in the suburbs, if he’s like most people.”
“Wow, these are all such amazing points.” Jay pounds on his knee. “You are so right. Glen’s totally got enough on his plate. His husband has health problems. They needed the medical coverage. So yeah. I’ll like spend my social capital on revolution and let him and Farrell raise kids and join the PTA. I am so glad you set my head straight about that, doc.” Jay takes another huge hit from the joint and offers it to Alonso, who declines. “So, what about you, Alonso? Would you ever get married?”
“My wife would never let me.”
Jay giggles. He passes the joint to Triquet instead. “And what about you, Triquet?”
Triquet takes a hefty drag then makes a face. “Me? Never. Marriage is for squares.”
Ξ
As morning turns to afternoon, Maahjabeen finds that her body is finally starting to obey her wishes again. She is getting range of motion back in her spine and shoulders. Excitement builds in her, a nervous energy running down her limbs. Her hands make fists, wanting to grasp the paddle again. Her toes flex to steer the rudder. But she isn’t anywhere near the water.
With a brief bark of residual pain she stands from her seat at the long tables inside the bunker, where she’d been collating data from Mandy’s weather station and comparing it to her readings of local currents. Maahjabeen stretches as Esquibel exits the clean room.
“I heard you exclaim.” Esquibel assesses Maahjabeen, watching the young woman raise her hands far over her head. “Ah, that’s some good flexibility, Maahjabeen. How does it feel?”
“It feels like it is time for me to get back on the water. How about you, Doctor Daine? Are you much of a boater?”
Esquibel makes a face and shakes her head no. “I keep my time on the water to steel-hulled ships. You people in your fragile little boats make me so nervous.”
Maahjabeen laughs. “Yes, well you sailors in your big ships make us paddlers nervous. Do you think you can help me get my baby to the beach? I miss the water so much.”
“Are you ready?” But Esquibel can tell Maahjabeen has reached the point in her recovery where she won’t be dissuaded. “This is the critical time right now for re-injury. You need to be careful.”
“Yes. Careful.” Maahjabeen swears to herself she will be. This enforced recovery has been driving her insane. She’ll do anything to make sure she never has to go through that again. Lifting a solemn hand, she swears, “On the graves of my ancestors, I won’t do anything stupid.”
“You mean, like carry a boat all the way around that fallen tree and down to the beach?” Esquibel shakes her head. Humans are so foolish. Especially the young ones. “Let’s find someone else to help me do it. You just keep doing some gentle stretching. And if you feel something twinge, I need you to shut it down, okay?”
“Yes. Shut it down. Ah! Here’s Amy. She’s strong.”
Amy enters the bunker, her smile flickering when she hears this. But she shakes her head and re-asserts her sunny disposition and approaches them. “Hello, everyone. Or, should I say, Bontiik, and then I nudge you under your chin like this.” Amy uses the second knuckle of her index finger to gently chuck Esquibel on the point of her chin. “That is how you greet someone in Lisican.”
Esquibel and Maahjabeen stare at Amy in shock. Things are evidently progressing much faster than they thought. Neither of them have been through the tunnels to the interior. To Esquibel it sounds forbidding, like a medical emergency waiting to happen. Maahjabeen has already had enough of the tunnels after trying to initially pursue Flavia. Also, the interior is too far from the shore, it’s the last place Maahjabeen wants to be.
“Lisican.” Maahjabeen tries the word. “Yes, I suppose… Is that what they call themselves?”
“Yes, well, their silver foxes. Katrina was right. They call them all forms of Lee-zee. Lisicha, Lisipatxo, Lisibaba. It was the word that we both understood and let them know I was ready to learn how to communicate. And then, wow. Once you gain their trust they’re really engaging. Very lively. And it’s funny for once to be the tallest person in the group.” Amy’s irrepressible giggle interrupts her story. “Now what did you need help with?”
“Can you help Esquibel carry my kayak to the beach? I need to be on the water. Just in the lagoon. Nothing ambitious. But I just never spend this much time on land. I am like a beached dolphin. Drying out and dying.”
Amy nods, sympathetic. “Of course. Of course. But only on one condition. No. Two.”
“Two conditions?” Maahjabeen assumes her bargaining face. Market-stall haggling is second nature to her. “What are they?”
“First, learn the greeting. Bontiik.” Amy chucks Maahjabeen under the chin.
Maahjabeen can’t deny that request. “Bontiik.” She reaches out and uncertainly touches Amy on the chin.
“I’m pretty sure the gesture has to be across the chin, like a gentle nudge. They kept correcting me.” Amy does it again.
Maahjabeen chucks Amy under the chin. “And your second condition?”
“That we bring both boats and I go out on the water with you.”
“Ehhh…” To Maahjabeen, the solitude the water brings is half what she needs. But before she can formulate an argument…
“Yes. Good plan.” Esquibel decides for her. “Now let’s get the boats. I can watch from shore. Get me out of my little room for a little while.” She fetches a hat and sunglasses.
Maahjabeen accepts her fate. The lagoon is large. Perhaps they can split up at some point and she can get some time alone.
It takes another ten minutes for everyone to gather their things and pull the boats out from under the big platform. Amy in front, Esquibel in back, they each hold the handle of a boat in both hands to carry them at the same time. They’ve loaded the cockpits and hatches with the few things they need. Amy has brought her own hat and a pair of the Dyson readers.
Maahjabeen hates this new giant fallen redwood trunk across the beach. It prevents her from being able to see as much of the water as she could before from camp and it prevents access. She just wants it gone. But it is just so huge there is no way they will ever be able to move it. Well. God has a plan. Inshallah.
To get around the roots they have to put the blue boat down and carry the yellow one first, then return for the second one to slowly navigate it through the choked passage. Finally they bring the kayaks to the shore and put Maahjabeen in place. They shove her off and she’s free, she’s actually free again once more.
Her shoulders still hurt when she paddles but she doesn’t care. This is the exact movement that originally injured her after all, but these are also the muscles that are strongest in her. Her body knows she must paddle. It is what she is built to do.
Within a dozen strokes she’s across the lagoon and getting swept across the inner face of the barrier rocks in an ebbtide current. With a strong dig in the water, she pivots and dances back out of the current before it brings her to the mouth of the lagoon. She paddles back, surprised to see Amy already in the water, churning out to her with short, powerful strokes that lift the nose of the blue boat above the waterline. Maahjabeen had been about to demand the same proficiency roll as she had of Pradeep, but Amy’s handling is so expert it would be nothing but bad manners. Well. At least she won’t have to worry about Amy drowning out here.
“Ohh this is so nice getting back out on the water again.” Amy leans her head back and sighs. “There was a time I basically lived on the water. Monterey Bay. Do you know it?”
“I have heard of it but I have never been to the United States.”
“Oh, we’ve got some fantastic paddling all over the country. I managed the sea lion populations for a number of years there. About twelve. And summers were up in Resurrection Bay, Alaska running killer whale trips for tourists. Isn’t kayaking the best?”
“God provides,” is all Maahjabeen can manage, suddenly afraid that this blocky old Japanese woman has more experience in the one thing that makes Maahjabeen special and the one valuable skill she can bring to this project. No. But that is not the case. She is still the only marine researcher here, the only one who can tell them what is happening in the wider ocean around them. That is, if she can ever actually access it.
Amy trails her hand in the frigid water. “Oh, look at all this sea grass. If it was any warmer we’d be snorkeling down there daily. But I don’t have a wetsuit for these temperatures. Do you?”
Maahjabeen shakes her head no, remembering how she forbid the use of the lagoon to Katrina. Could she do the same for Amy? She doubted it. The biologist has a clear right to be here, studying the life forms and making whatever collections she wants, despite Maahjabeen’s desire to keep the lagoon pristine.
“How’s the shoulders?” Amy’s maternal concern does make Maahjabeen regret her selfishness and she smiles in gratitude.
“Fine. Better. The more I paddle the better they feel. But look. You will appreciate this.” Maahjabeen navigates her boat to the mouth of the lagoon so they can both study the impassable rollers. “Here is the door to my jail cell. Without an outboard motor or a killer whale’s tail I just can’t get over those wave tops. The only time I could was before the storm.”
“Yes, I’ve been watching the ocean too. Big Japanese past-time, you know. Get the rhythm of the local tides in your blood. And talk to everyone you see about the weather. Basically every Japanese conversation starts and ends with weather. All the natural cycles.”
Maahjabeen only listens, staring at the unending rollers. Great. Amy might be a better oceanographer than her as well. Now what is Maahjabeen good for here? Leading morning prayer?
“It is a puzzle, though, isn’t it?” Amy paddles past the mouth, skipping her boat across the strong current before it can take her. “The thing is, I think if we get down to this angle we might see something.” She continues on toward the barrier rocks right off the eastern point. “Oh, this is a much better vantage point than what I’ve been able to see from the beach. Yes… Watch what happens when this sea stack gets hit by the second wave. The big one.”
Maahjabeen follows and waits. The wave hits the wall of rock with a crump, spraying a massive wall of white foam outward. Then on the return it sucks the surrounding water in.
“Watch here. See how that draw drops the next wave? Just like stops it in its tracks, but just right here.”
Maahjabeen nods, elated. “And the next one too. So the first two waves of the set get canceled here? There might be enough space to pass. But that’s awfully close to the rock.”
“Yeah, it’s a sprint for sure. But if you watch, there’s an epicycle. Every twentieth or twenty-first set is a much bigger wave that cancels out the next five.”
“Five waves of a set? That’s nearly a minute. I could get across that stretch in a minute no problem.”
“Yes, well, the benefits of patience.”
Now Maahjabeen is fairly certain Amy is a better oceanographer than she is. And just a better scientist in general. Her CV must be outrageous. And that collegial manner pays so many dividends. If Maahjabeen had been less reserved and territorial she may have learned these important things earlier. But it was not to be helped. She’d dealt with so much insanity on her previous jobs she needed to learn how to trust people again. Now she is just grateful to be in a position to have things go right. And she might even get out past the rollers after all! “Inshallah!” Oh, God does provide!
“You can say that again!” Amy laughs, wowed by the sudden transformation in Maahjabeen. Good lord but the young lady has the most scintillating smile. And her excitement to face the open ocean is infectious. Amy can’t wait to go herself.
But wait. Mandy is back on the shore, waving them in. Esquibel stands beside her, talking. But Mandy is intent on getting their attention. “Oh, no.” Maahjabeen slumps. “Not again.”
Amy paddles close to shore. “Another storm?”
Mandy nods. “Another storm.”
They take one more long paddle around the lagoon, Maahjabeen intent on getting her body right. Then they haul the boats from the water as the western wind strengthens and that corner of the sky begins to darken. With a sigh, Maahjabeen rests the paddle across her shoulders and supervises Esquibel and Amy’s packing.
“Look.” Mandy touches Maahjabeen’s shoulder. She points behind them. Pradeep is there, at the fallen redwood. He has collected the thick shell pieces of its bark that fell off on impact and he is now building a modest lean-to up against the trunk. When he sees them watching he motions to them.
Mandy and Maahjabeen approach. Pradeep lifts the largest bark pieces above, to serve as a roof. He ties them down with twine. “How do you like it?”
“So cozy!” Mandy ducks within.
Maahjabeen turns and asks loudly enough for Esquibel to hear, “I thought we weren’t supposed to build any structures?”
Esquibel, carrying both kayaks with Amy, looks at the lean-to with a pinched expression. She shrugs. “I can’t imagine it looks like a structure from above.”
“The satellites are fooled!” Pradeep celebrates by placing a lintel over the door. He ties it off then bows formally to Maahjabeen. “Your Highness. May I present you with the keys?”
She laughs, unsure what the joke is.
“Take a look in here!” Mandy pulls Maahjabeen inside, where the wind dies and the light fades to near perfect darkness.
“Very snug.” Now that Maahjabeen is out of the water she is hungry and just wants to get back to camp.
Pradeep appears in the tilted handmade door. “No. I don’t think you get what I’m saying. This is yours, Maahjabeen. I know how hard it’s been for you dealing with all us land-lubbers. So I built this as your own place. A cottage by the sea.”
Maahjabeen claps her hands over her mouth. Oh, dear God. This is hers? It is perfect. There’s a window overlooking the lagoon and everything. And it is so private here on this side of that huge log. It is just her and the sea.
Maahjabeen grabs Pradeep’s hand and squeezes it. “Thank you. Oh, Pradeep, thank you so much. It is perfect.”
“Just a few more tweaks here and there.” His hands won’t stop working on it. “And then we can move you in. Come on, Mandy. Let’s go get her things.”
“Yeah, Maahjabeen,” Mandy blows her a kiss. “You stay here.”
Maahjabeen sits in the doorway watching the lagoon and the rollers beyond. What is this filling her heart, this overwhelming pressure of light and happiness? The word finally comes to her: Abundance. “Inshallah.” God provides again and again.
Chapter 15 – Against Their Will
April 8, 2024
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15 – Against Their Will
Jay follows Pradeep into the undergrowth. This was Jay’s idea and he meant to be the one showing Pradeep, but the damn sprained ankle still slows him down.
Pradeep, on hands and knees, looks over his shoulder. “Left?”
“Yeah, I mean it’s the only way really.” Jay curses himself for not investigating that left tunnel earlier. He focused on the discoveries in the nest to the right, overlooking the pool. If he’d been thorough then, he’d have been the one who discovered the cliff entrance aboveground. And then maybe he could have been the one who found Flavia. Who knows?
Pradeep removes his bulky backpack and pushes it ahead of himself through the dry duff. It quickly grows gloomy and dark. He pulls his headlamp’s band over his forehead and switches it on. The low tunnel through the branches curves away to the left. It is a passage for much smaller people. Pradeep figures he might be the tallest person on this island and his overly-wide shoulders can’t seem to find the proper angle to slip through. So he ends up forcing it in tight spots, bracing the tough leafless limbs with arms and legs as he wrestles his way through.
“How’s it going up there, partner?” Jay’s cheery voice is right behind him. The wiry Californian moves like a weasel in the woods. He once told Pradeep that from the ages of nine to twelve he slept inside a house only eighteen times. All his other nights were spent in a tent or under the stars. Pradeep, who grew up in highrise apartments in Hyderabad and Pondicherry, can’t imagine a childhood without violent weather and immense crowds and buzzing insects. While Pradeep was nearly drowned but also often sustained by the ocean of life in which he spent the first seventeen years of his life, Jay had experienced something very much like Lisica, just with more sunshine. Lucky devil.
But was he really crushed and drowned by life on the flanks of the Eastern Ghats? His father Rajiv was a postmaster general for a large division of Hyderabad. His Tamil wife Nanditha stayed at home with Anisha and Pradeep, distrustful of the community she had married into. His mother had made their home a fortress and filled her children with anxieties about cleanliness and crime and dishonor, to the point that she had a breakdown when Pradeep was twelve, followed by his sister’s utter neurotic collapse in a parking garage downtown two months later, caught on video and shared on social media and everything. She’d even been institutionalized for a time. Ah, yes, the golden years… Pradeep trudges through the bracken, sharp branches and thorns snagging at him, hands stinging with their bite, his forebrain absently listing off Latin names for all the species around him while his hindbrain is filled with old memories.
“So my uncle grew some of the fattest sativa crops of the nineties in Big Sur.” Jay doesn’t mind the slow going. He’s able to better protect his bum hand. But as he crawls that elbow on his shirt gets all torn up instead, bearing his weight. When Pradeep stops once again Jay pulls a synthetic neck gaiter from his pocket and winds it five times around his sleeve, then pushes it up into position. That should help for a bit. “He had a secret approach like this through the scrub that the Feds never found. It started as a game trail and he just widened it in certain spots that couldn’t be seen from planes or satellites. Man, I remember the first time he took me there. So fucking cool. It was like stepping into magic land.”
Pradeep stops in a small junction big enough for him to sit up in. “You mean an illegal grow operation? Wasn’t that very dangerous for a child?”
“Oh totally. He had a big ol’ revolver on one hip and a big ol’ blade on the other. Said he’d fought off a bunch of Mexican Mafia back in the day. And then boom! We came out onto this field that was just so amazing. Immense and perfectly hidden. He’d hung camo parachutes under the trees like we did here. Like over three thousand plants, the tallest were over seven meters. See, I didn’t understand at that age how fully destructive an outdoor grow was. The diverted streams and the fertilizer runoff and the booby traps in the woods. I just thought he was a genius.” Jay peers down the two paths ahead. “He eventually spent ten years in Mule Creek Penitentiary and today he’s a bitter ex-con with a foot they had to amputate from diabetes. Now, which way to the cliffs? And where does this other one lead?”
Pradeep shakes his head briskly to clear it of Jay’s wild story. Then he orients himself. “Cliffs must still be to the right, yes? We are constrained on that side by the pool. So there can’t be another path there. It would lead right into the water. The path to the left? I don’t know.” By all rights Pradeep should be heaving now with claustrophobic panic. And it does flutter like a white moth against the window of his mind but he will not let the panic in. He has taken tremendous steps here on Lisica, as the crises have mounted and the unknowns have increased. Yet his rational mind keeps reminding him that despite all the dangers he remains relatively unscathed. The immense dreadful possibilities that normally grip him by the throat have less power here. Perhaps there are just fewer factors and the unknowns come in manageable sizes, unlike the urban hell of Hyderabad or even the bustle of Pittsburgh or Houston where he’s spent so much of his academic life. Perhaps he is just finally growing up. But he never thought he would willingly crawl through a bank of vegetation to wedge himself inside a cliff. Yet even the most wildly dangerous unknown can in time become a safe known. That is his new mantra.
And besides, Jay told him Triquet brought back news of a colony of bioluminescent fungi in a rocky chamber near the exit. Pradeep could ask for nothing more.
“You are correct. Look. Their tracks come from the right.” Jay leads now, up the right tunnel to the cliff face. At a small skirt of fallen black stone, the manzanita suddenly stops and a few tracks through the mud lead to a fold in the vegetation ahead. Rounding into a hidden cut, Jay ducks into the mouth of the tunnel that leads into the cliff. He giggles. “Oh, man. This is fucking wild. It was right here all along.” The way everyone had been describing the cave tunnels he thought they would be the tightest mud chutes. But he can stand straight in here. And only half of it is earth. The other half is solid stone. This is a legit cave. He could like live in here. There’s even a nice flat platform near the back, dry and clear, for a bed. And then there’s another path in the rear leading further in. He ducks into it.
Aha. This must be what they meant. Jay turns his headlamp on. Yeah… that’s pretty dire. The rocky ceiling lowers to a height he can’t see from this angle. But he can see the tracks Miriam and Triquet and Amy made in the mud. They obviously came crawling out from this hole yesterday. Jay kneels and prepares to squirm his way forward. Then he realizes Pradeep isn’t yet with him. He pauses. “How’s it going back there, partner?”
“Oh.” Pradeep’s voice in the chamber behind him is muffled and a bit surprised. “I didn’t realize you were moving on. Didn’t you see this? I want to study it first.”
Jay frowns, temperamentally incapable of slowing down, and reluctantly retraces his steps to Pradeep’s side. His taller partner is still at the mouth of the chamber, staring up at its ceiling.
Jay sighs in wonder. “Ah, wow…!” It is the night sky, drawn in ash sticks, hanging over their heads like the dome of a planetarium. Countless stars, made of some bright white bits they can’t identify, sparkle down at them. The moon is a pale orb made of mother of pearl. “Oh, shit. Look at the moon. I think it’s an abalone shell. Oh my fucking god, if there are abalone here we will eat like kings. I haven’t seen any yet but… Have you ever had any?”
“Abalone?” Pradeep shakes his head no. “Isn’t that like a large scallop? No.”
“So much more than a large scallop, my man. Best seafood on the planet bar none. And I will fight anyone who disagrees.”
“Hm. Better than uni?”
“Dude, this is like a steak. Better than any lobster or crab or fish or anything. But you need like a crowbar to get them off the rocks. They’re so mighty. And their shells are beautiful. But you got to tenderize them or they’re like leather. Beat them into submission then fry them in butter… Bro. Jesus, I’m like drooling, having a serious Pavlovian response just thinking about it.”
“We don’t have butter.”
“Yeah, definitely a major oversight.”
“You know what else is a major oversight?” Pradeep still studies the artwork. The ash is drawn in varying shades, the Milky Way a lighter band through the center. This is advanced art, with a distinct style. “We neglected to bring an actual anthropologist skilled in first contact. None of us know what to do with these discoveries. We aren’t trained.”
Finally Pradeep drops his gaze to see Jay waiting for him at the low mouth of the next tunnel. “Yeah,” Jay agrees. “I mean, we know not to compromise the natives with disease or exploit their asses, right? That’d be fucking perfect, wouldn’t it? They drop off eleven scientists on March twenty-second and pick up eleven slave masters on May nineteenth.”
Pradeep mutters something he regrets as soon as it passes his lips.
Jay has already dropped down into position. He pauses and looks back over his shoulder. “What’s that?”
Pradeep grimaces and drops to his knees behind Jay. The white moth beats more frantically against the glass. “They dropped off eleven, but unless we can find Flavia they’re only picking up ten.”
Ξ
Katrina misses nothing about modern life. Well, nothing she didn’t bring with her, that is. Don’t be taking her music and drugs away. And sure, losing the internet is a huge bummer but she’s managing just fine. It turns out that after a couple weeks in the middle of nowhere she doesn’t care about the Marvel Universe after all and the wise and wonderful social media personalities she follows seem far less knowledgeable about the world. Their insights sound false and shrill in her head now, the ambitious political bravery they espouse only fit for the unhealthy world they inhabit. It doesn’t matter that we / the people / can never be divided if there simply aren’t any people. Or, more properly, they won’t get divided in the first place if none of the handful of people on this isolated speck of land are sociopaths. That’s the thing, innit? Without the sociopaths we don’t need rules and laws and police and prisons. It’s always those few sly ones trying to find the loopholes and advantages for themselves who ruin it for everyone else. But if all the members of the village are just willing to work together like normal humans, then they can just carry on with their projects and daily lives, understanding that it’s to everyone’s benefit that they just treat each other bloody decently. How hard is that?
She makes her own exploration of Tenure Grove this morning. It is uncharacteristically humid and the air is heavy, with idle birds cheeping in the trees and stillness all about. It’s a bit spooky, if Katrina is being honest with herself. But Mandy told her about the nook that makes twisters and she’s still never visited Maureen’s grave. There’s all kinds of wonders out here.
Just the trees themselves are outrageous. Katrina stands at the base of one of the elder giants, its red bark gone black over the millennia, rilled deeply and striped with nearly fluorescent lichen. She presses her hand against the tough fibrous bark, trying to make contact with the living being within. But the bark is a thick shell she can’t penetrate. Then she looks up. The trunk shoots straight upward for nearly a hundred meters before it even thinks about spreading its branches. She actually can’t see much here at the base. The trunk is so big it dominates her view. Katrina steps back, and fights her way through the brush to encircle it. This one tree is just too big for her to see all at once. It’s a single living organism and it’s broader than her house. There are twenty story buildings downtown that are shorter. And it’s just a tree. Crazy.
Maybe she can count them. Get an inventory. The bio team seems pretty overwhelmed with all the collecting they have to do. She could definitely give them a hand. Perhaps she should start at the edge to her left and systematically go through from one side to the other. Yes, that would be best.
And then her mind starts to wander, as it regularly does. What if she plotted the redwoods on a map? Wouldn’t that make everyone happy? More data and all that. Then maybe she could take it to Mandy and get more into this transpiration jazz she won’t shut up about. Trees call the rain to them. How cool is that? Well okay, atmospheric scientist. You want to play this game? Let’s break it down tree by tree, how much moisture they’re exhaling, and build a flow dynamic with your weather data. See if we can model this whole bad boy: the ocean currents; the weather; the cyclones in the nooks; and even the trees calling rain. We can create visualizations of gases rising from the island in clusters and how they interact with the air currents sweeping in.
Hmm. Depending on how many nodes she put into the model, the complexity of it could easily exceed the computing power of the machines on the island, but she will deal with that eventuality when she comes to it. They are all getting into much more data-intensive work and the CPUs of Lisica are about to suffer. Anyway, she’s got ideas about optimizing their FLOPS. But that’s for later.
So wait. What qualifies as a tree? Are these little green saplings like redwood babies or are they some other kind of pine? And will the saplings have any affect on the humidity? Nominal amounts? Also, there appear to be some pretty tall pine and fir trees here that aren’t redwoods. Do they transpire at the same rate? Uh oh. Looks like she’ll need to brush up on North American dendrology before she anoints herself any kind of field biologist. She should probably talk to Amy about how to best go about it before just throwing herself in.
Katrina makes a face. But that is not her way. And besides, Amy is out of camp, as are Jay and Pradeep. Here. She’ll just take a picture of every tree in the grove and annotate where it is. Then if she doesn’t recognize it she can identify and categorize it later. How many trees can there be? Like, what, a thousand at most?
No, there’s nothing she misses about modern life. She misses her dad and Pavel, no doubt, but she also doesn’t mind this break from them. Life is intense back in Sydney with all their cares and woes. God, if she could just bring Pavel here. He would heal so fast. She can already see a transformation starting in Alonso, an easing of the pain. Her brother always loved big trees. And a good mystery. This place would accelerate his rehabilitation.
She has three hundred-eighty pictures in her new album when she realizes she’s only moved through a tiny fraction of the grove. Ah feck. There are a lot more trees in a grove than she thought, and the grove is bigger than it looks when you really start to study it. Maybe she’ll just stick with the large trees, the real giants who often grow in these tight rings. She can just take pictures of each of them, or as much as she can fit in a single frame. And maybe the cut-off will be if the trunk is wider than a meter. That should bring her targets down to a manageable amount, shouldn’t it?
Katrina finds herself inside one of the redwood fairy rings staring at Maureen Dowerd’s grave. Right. The mystery. A bird trills in a shrubby tree beside her. She listens, then hears the distant crash of the surf. Suddenly she is unbearably lonely, the immense isolation of Lisica bearing down on her with full force. It’s inescapably true, this infinitesimal chip of land floating in the forbidding ocean is an existentialist crisis for the taking whenever she wants. But she’s always put on a brave face about confronting the howling void so far. No reason to let it get to her now.
Had the ennui gotten to Maureen here? Did she kill herself? It seemed to fit the facts they knew. Could it have driven her over the edge and kept her body from being returned? Wasn’t there much more of a taboo in postwar America about suicide? Or wouldn’t they have come up with a harmless euphemism? Died in her sleep or some such. Maybe she blew her brains out and it was impossible to mask the hole in the skull or something. Maybe they had to hide the body here.
Katrina takes a step back and her foot sinks in the duff. It’s so spongy and soft. She studies the wood and concrete grave marker with a frown. Something isn’t right. The marker stands barely above the level of the collected detritus. How has it not been totally covered over the years? Triquet said Maureen must have died like over six decades ago, way more than enough time for her remains to be buried here forever. So how had Jay found it still sticking out into the air like this? It’s almost like someone’s been watching over the grave, tending it…
In a dizzying instant, Katrina’s existential anxiety flips. She doesn’t feel alone at all any more. As a matter of fact she has the distinct impression she is being watched. The hairs on the back of her neck prickle. An unbearable impulse to bolt fills her.
Nothing has changed. The air remains still. The bird still hops in the bushy tree beside her. But she can’t stay here a moment longer.
Katrina scrambles from the fairy ring, the middle of her back itching, anticipating the blow of an indigenous arrow or spear. Because that’s who it has to be, right? Lurking in the brush nearby or something, watching her with dark eyes.
The island is inhabited. The island is inhabited.
These words echo in her mind over and over as she retreats to the safety and loud bustle of camp.
Ξ
A yelp of pain from the bunker breaks Alonso’s concentration. He looks up with a frown. Another sharp yelp and a gasp follow. Ah. Maahjabeen. Poor girl. The good doctor and Mandy must be working on her shoulders and back.
Now. Where was he? Right. He’s back at Plexity, working at the widest frame of reference that can be useful, placing the bounds of the data set at several kilometers from the physical boundaries of the island, both in the water surrounding it and the air above. Beyond those boundaries, it can be justified that Lisica ceases to be a unique geographic locale per se. Outside influences begin to matter as much as local ones and the surrounding open ocean becomes a transition zone. But where exactly does that occur?
Ai mi. How will he ever translate this to larger biomes? This is the question that forces him to work at such a scale this morning. In the future, when he tries to apply Plexity to the Colombian Cordillera or the American Midwest there will be no clear simple boundaries like Lisica has. There isn’t an undifferentiated ocean around them, there are nodes and clusters of life all over, in every direction. Every interaction just leads to other interactions further afield. And yet, isolating one from another means shearing it clean of the very entanglements he needs to study. He knows deep in his bones that the biological interactivity of Plexity is his life’s work and that precious insights into the nature of the universe await him. If he can only find the proper way to actually represent it in ways computers and their coders can understand. That is the challenge.
Where is Flavia? She can help untangle… Ah. He chuckles at himself. There’s an old man moment if he’s ever had one. She is still gone, maybe for good. Another black mark against him. Or maybe his forgetfulness of her crisis isn’t due to age but instead his torture. Maybe he just can’t keep dark realities in his head any more. It is a coping mechanism, the way he was able to ignore what they were doing to his body in the gulag by fixating on the abstract details of Plexity.
Well, then, Katrina. Where is she? He needs someone who can understand his predicament and offer an original viewpoint. Ah. She is walking into camp right now. He opens his mouth to say her name just as she calls out to Pradeep, who is emerging from the underbrush covered in mud, his eyes wide.
“I couldn’t—I couldn’t…” The poor boy is hyperventilating, holding his hands to his face.
Katrina grabs him, consoling him. “I’ve got you, Pradeep. You’re safe. You’re perfectly safe here. We can take care of you.”
“Jay…” Pradeep shivers. “He wouldn’t stop. Miriam said we have to have two underground at all times and I tried to stay but when I told him I had to go he insisted…” He shivers again.
“Can’t believe you went down there. What a brave boy.” She hugs him, fouling her clothes with his mud.
The condescension and pity do him in. He drops his shoulders, unable to return the hug. He groans. “Oh, god. Don’t talk to me like a child. Please, Katrina. I do have some dignity left.”
She steps back, befuddled. Okay, he wants help but he doesn’t want help. Or maybe he just needs someone to push against.
But he isn’t comfortable under her gaze. “I should go wash up. Has anyone seen Amy?” Pradeep doesn’t wait for an answer. He disappears in the bunker, escaping her.
Well. That was awkward. “Katrina.” She turns to find Alonso sitting in his camp chair on his platform. He watches her like some brooding lumpy golem worrying over the unfairness of life. She supposes that’s how she would feel too if someone made it their part-time job to break every bone in her feet. Remembering how carefully she’d learned to approach Pavel these last few months, she finds a smile for Alonso and walks over to where he sits.
“Do you know where Amy is? Pradeep and I are both looking.”
“She is underground with Miriam and Triquet. I hope they get back for lunch. It would be good to have another full meeting.”
“Well. Full if they bring Flavia back.”
“That is the thing.” He gestures at his laptop like it is a brilliant but wayward child. “I need to talk with her about Plexity. She chose the exact wrong time to disappear.” Then he lapses, realizing how peevish that sounds. “I was wondering if you could maybe hash out some of these concepts with me. It’s too much to keep in my brain all at once.”
“Sure thing. I love hash.” Katrina sits beside Alonso hugging her knees as he collects his thoughts, scrolling through his disordered notes of bullet points and logic trees. She loves how his mind works and she’s glad to be here just witnessing the living legend gather all his abstract evanescences into clarified concepts.
Finally, Alonso says, “The island is a computer.”
Katrina blinks. “Okay. Like an information processing… entity.”
“Precisely. Based on biological and geophysical principles. Every interaction of sun and insect and leaf that it processes lead to further complexities. The issue is, and always has been, where does the computer end? I thought an island in the middle of the ocean, hidden from the sun and with every current heading away from it, would be the ultimate test bed for Plexity, inoculated from all outside effects. But now that I actually have to define in certain terms precisely where Lisica is and where it is not… Eh. I find that I can’t do it yet. Because every interaction is still colored by universal constants of diffuse sunlight and, who knows, zephyrs in the upper atmosphere that carry pollution from China. And sure, I might be able to eventually build models that exclude the pollution but then it wouldn’t be Plexity. This is all the butterfly problem over and over again. Everything on Earth is connected.”
“And you can’t even study Earth itself as an isolated test bed.” Katrina scales her perspective upward, finding it doesn’t help. “The planet is bombarded by gamma rays and solar wind and, what is it, something like fifty tons of meteors that shower the surface every day? Everything influences everything, even at galactic scales.”
“Yes, exactly. But please. You are the young fresh genius. You are supposed to be the one who tells me how I am thinking about this all wrong and how you can solve this incalculable problem.”
“Oh. Okay.” Katrina nods once, decisively, and declares, “Got it. You’re thinking about this all wrong. I can solve this…”
Alonso laughs, finishing the sentence, “…incalculable problem.”
“Oh, no, it’s calculable. It just…” She cocks her head, ideas rushing through it. “Huh. You’ve really got me thinking about this in a new way. Hold on a sec.” Katrina falls silent for a moment. “Yeh, the thing is, I’m not sure you’ll end up with a system that functions the way you want or gives you the results you want, but yeh. It’s really a matter of switching your frame of reference.”
“I knew I was getting old and behind the times.” Alonso sighs, realizing the truth of his words. There is a fluidity to these kids who were raised in a sea of digital data. They can manipulate it without a thought, sculpt it like artists. Where for him and everyone his age, data will always remain an aggregate—granular and discrete and somewhat brittle. No matter how brilliant he is with it, he was not born to it. “So how do I switch such a thing?”
“Your problem, Alonso, is that you can’t escape your Cartesian perspective. With your little camp here and your Dyson readers and your trained collectors and agents, you’ve fixed yourself in this place and time and made it a subjective experience.”
“Of course I have. That is the whole point.”
“Well that’s what I’m saying. You’re limited by it and you find it frustrating to the point of defeat. But the only way you can fully accept this deep interconnectedness is by completely abandoning any subjective lens. You can’t be stuck on this island. Then you’re like an astronomer trying to learn the age and size of the universe from a single viewpoint on Earth, which is what they’ve tried to do for six hundred years and it’s literally impossible. What you need to do is liberate your viewpoint to be location-agnostic—”
“Yes yes.” Alonso waves an impatient hand. “But that is what the post-collection data analysis will do. It allows the end user to make whatever use they will of it, including silencing actual geographic locations. Look. Here. I have this function I’m building here. You can check a box and mute each element of the data set to filter…”
She sits back, unimpressed. “Yeh, I guess I’m talking about it on a much wider scale though. Like philosophical or cosmological. Either you accept a kind of Buddhist everywhere-and-nowhere-at-once omniscience or at some point you have to draw an edge to your map and accept the limitations and distortions it brings. You can’t have both.”
“But how can I have omniscience?” Alonso throws up his hands. “I am not a god looking down at anything. I am just a man. A fallible man crawling around near-sighted on the ground. I don’t have an Olympian view. Hell, I can hardly stand up. Look at Pradeep. He only studies the smallest of the small. But it will be his patient collecting of all these wildly disparate elements that will make Plexity sing. Yet only if I can give him a proper concert hall. So. Where would you put its walls?”
Katrina stares compassionately at him, not as a scientist but as a wounded old man. These are fallacies… but how much of this can he hear right now? How much does he need to finally let go of his preconceptions and how much of it is him holding onto what got him through the gulag? Before she can calculate an answer, among all the hard factors and the soft, they are interrupted by the approach of Maahjabeen and Mandy.
“Eh? Yes?” Alonso is annoyed by their arrival. He had just gotten Katrina to where she might actually give him a useful answer. Her sophomore-level philosophy was starting to get on his nerves. Of course all science is connected to the world around it. And of course all science must wall itself off to get any proper results. Except Plexity. That is the whole dream.
“What if Flavia is right about harmonics?” Katrina mutters as Mandy follows Maahjabeen up the big platform’s ramp.
Alonso stares at Katrina’s back, realizing there is a deep clue in what she says. But he can’t figure out where it fits in his notes. And before he can follow her line of reasoning any further, Maahjabeen demands his attention.
“Alonso, I have been talking this morning with Mandy here and Doctor Daine. We have a proposal for you.”
Alonso sighs, forcing himself to pivot, recognizing that he needs to take off his research hat and put on his managerial hat for a moment. “I see. Well, what is it, Miss Charrad. How can I help?”
Maahjabeen and Mandy share a tight-lipped apprehensive glance long enough for Alonso to grow puzzled. “You should let Mandy work on your feet.”
Alonso looks at the two of them, something hot and poisonous sliding beneath his skin, a sensation he hoped to never feel again.
“Ah. No. Thank you. I should focus on my work. And maybe worry about some more reconstructive surgery when I get back to the mainland. I will wait for the experts to…”
“It’s a good idea.” Katrina says this in the same low refractory tone she mentioned Flavia and harmonics. It stops Alonso.
He shares a nervous laugh and pushes on Katrina’s arm with a poor attempt at humor. “I don’t need you ganging up on me.”
“Why not?” The challenge comes from Maahjabeen. “Katrina is an expert, after all. She’s trained in dealing with torture survivors, has she not? And Mandy is also an expert. Her adjustments are saving my shoulders and back. And I am an expert because it is my body and I can feel the improvements she is making.”
Alonso becomes overwhelmingly sad. He hangs his head down and closes his laptop. Experts, are they? And what does that make him? An expert in self-destruction? “I will think about this. How is that? Is that enough? It is not something… I can…” And then he shuts down entirely. The three young women just watch as his mind drains of thought. He only stares back, unable to form words. His head sinks deeper on his chest. Maybe they will just go away.
Katrina puts a hand on his shoulder. She recognizes the pit into which he has fallen. “That’s a good plan. There’s no hurry for—”
But before she can finish, there is a commotion from the bunker. Triquet bursts out of its door, slamming it back with a crack. They hurry through with a cackle, clapping their hands, covered in mud like some mad prophet, and head for the big platform across camp to share the good news.“We found Flavia!”
Alonso’s head jerks up. The young women cry out in relief and Mandy starts clapping as well. His eyes clear. Of course. There is someone in even more desperate straits than himself. Put it away, Alonso. Focus on everyone else. “Where?” his voice is rough, coming from the deepest place. “Where was she?”
“Well,” Triquet is breathless, fetching up against the side of the platform. “We still don’t actually have her yet. It’s the natives. They took her. Or she went with them. We’re still figuring it out. There’s more than one group of them. See, we found a tunnel all the way through the cliffs to the interior valleys of the island—”
And then everyone starts talking and exclaiming at once.
Ξ
Flavia doesn’t know much about how a situation like this is supposed to happen but she knows that the first danger is that they might give each other diseases. So since she emerged from the tunnel in pursuit of the crying child she has worn her scarf across her face like a breathing mask. At first it spooked the Lisicans, which she has started calling them. She needed to remove the scarf to prove to them she wasn’t like some scary underground ghost returning from the dead. She didn’t understand a word of their shrieking alarms and urgent warnings when she emerged from the cave mouth. Who knows what they thought of her except that she must be some kind of monster? Most of the villagers scattered.
One bold youngster kept trying to touch her arm but she avoided him, explaining loudly about diseases. And then before they could make their minds up about her she’d heard the child cry out in the distance again demanded their help. But they’d only shrunk back even more. So she went on without them.
That child’s cry was so sad and piteous. It wrung at her heart and she couldn’t do a thing but drop everything and pursue it. What a… hormonal response. It shocked her. Flavia didn’t think she’d ever be a mother. When she was younger she always dreamed of a big family on a big farm but then with the way the world ended up, she settled for a big dog in a small apartment instead. But Flavia still has the maternal instincts and they dragged her forward into the darkness last night, through the village and up a narrow rocky trail deep into the heart of the island.
Now she sits on a stone platform an hour after dawn overlooking a deep valley. The shawl that was draped over her shoulders when she arrived here keeps her warm. It is some animal’s hide, gray patches stitched together. She slept in it here the night before. Poor sleep. Tossing and turning on the cold stone floor in the hut behind her. And the only food they’ve offered her is some horrible dried bird and fish with some parboiled tubers. If she wasn’t so hungry it would be nearly impossible to choke it down.
She had still never found the child. Its kidnapper had always remained maddeningly out of reach somewhere ahead of her. As she struggled to overtake them, the most terrible visions went through her head of the cruel torments the poor thing suffered. It tore at her heart.
She climbed the trails for hours yesterday, winding through these narrow valleys beside rushing streams. At one point she became very thirsty and overcame her reluctance to drink the cold water. If it made her sick, so be it. She was in too deep now.
Always the child cried out ahead, like someone was dragging them by the hair. That was the image Flavia kept seeing in her head, again and again. At one point, the sun broke through the cloud cover and startled her from her dogged pursuit. She looked around herself to find she scaled a narrow ridge that fell away into shadow on both sides. The child ahead screamed and sobbed but Flavia had to stop and catch her breath, legs shaking, wondering at the slanted depths that dropped the bottoms of the canyons into darkness.
She climbed as the shadows tilted. Then the sun disappeared and the light slowly faded. Then she heard the child with less and less frequency, and the cries sounded more hopeless. As night fell, the child abandoned her completely.
Flavia had finally come back to herself once the cries no longer jangled her nerves every thirty seconds. She stood lost in darkness. What was she supposed to do now? Whatever track she’d been following had faded, and she didn’t even know how she could get back to where she’d started. She would need to find a place to sleep. Maybe food? How had she lost her head so completely? This was so unlike her.
And where had Triquet and Maahjabeen gone? When had they stopped following her? Early on? Or were they somewhere nearby?
A shadow had approached her out of the darkness then, a small old man in a cape and pointed hat. He’d murmured words to her and she had answered, her voice shaking. He didn’t understand English so she switched to Italian. Easier for her anyway, and certainly more expressive to someone who didn’t speak it. She’d give the man more clues with her gestures and expressions than she could in English. But his face was a wrinkled mask and his words were mostly a monotone. She couldn’t see him well in the gloom. He led her to a hut and the sleeping platform within before all light faded from the sky. He had placed the fur shawl over her as she had fallen asleep, her last thought that it all smelled so bad.
Flavia had woken to find the food in a small pile on a large green leaf with a clay cup. The water tasted better than the food did. But when she emerged from the hut to find a whole little clan of them waiting for her, she smiled her gratitude and acknowledged them all with a nod. There were four Lisicans here. They all looked alike, small with long dark curls. Constant chatter surrounded her.
After her meal they had left her to her own devices and she had remained on the platform, looking down at the valley below. This was some kind of vista point up here. Perhaps it had some spiritual significance. That’s how it felt. Like these were the hermits who lived on the peaks to collect visions. But usually hermits didn’t have families. Well. Someone would someday learn their gabble and get the whole story. But that person would not be Flavia.
“I’m a mathematician.” She tried to explain herself in Italian to a sturdy dour woman perhaps her own age, but a head shorter. “A researcher. I am not what you call a people person. You would have better luck with… well, almost anyone else.”
The woman spoke, telling Flavia something of significance. She held up a finger to make a point and Flavia tried to divine any meaning she could. Then a recognizable word flew past. “Ingless? English? Yes, I already tried speaking English to you.” She switches languages but the woman shows no understanding. The man reappears, drinking from his own clay cup. His face is still a mask. She can’t tell if he is glad he saved her last night or not.
The woman speaks more, telling a long tale. She says Ingless a few times more and each time Flavia says, “Yes, English,” with diminishing hope. Maybe it is just the only English word she knows. Flavia begins to feel more and more unhappy with her predicament. She isn’t a captive here, and she won’t starve or die from exposure, but she’d very much prefer to go back to the beach with her colleagues, and (as soon as possible) off this island entirely.
Finally the woman finishes, grabbing Flavia’s hand and pressing their two palms together. Flavia resists the urge to pull away, only saying once they pull apart that the woman should wash her hand before doing anything else.
The woman nods and retreats to the man’s shoulder.
His turn. He steps forward and offers Flavia his clay cup. She smiles but shakes her head no. She mimes coughing and feeling sick, passing her hand across her forehead. They only stare at her. Do they not fall ill on this island? It wouldn’t surprise Flavia. Who would ever come by to spread their germs?
The man sets aside the cup and holds up a piece of sinew or hide he has twisted into a loop. He holds it out for Flavia and utters the word, “Koox̱.” She tries to take the cuff but he pulls it away. He offers it to her again and she tries to take it again but once more he pulls the loop away and repeats the word koox̱. They stare at each other. Finally the woman beside him holds her own hand up and the man drops the loop over it, cinching it at her wrist. Then he undoes the loop and offers it once more to Flavia.
The woman holds her hand up, beckoning for Flavia to do the same. “You want my hand?” But Flavia doesn’t like the sense of ownership the loop around the wrist appeared to give the man over the woman. She wants no part of that. “No. No, thank you…”
With a bow and a smile she steps back.
The man only watches her. He sets the loop aside and speaks to the woman. She responds with a long string of suggestions. He finally waves her away and approaches Flavia once more. He says something that sounds like he’s swearing an oath and then he reaches into his mouth. With a twist and a tug he removes one of his own teeth. Flavia can’t help but exclaim. The yellow enamel narrows to a dark root. This isn’t a living tooth. But he carried it in his mouth regardless? Disgusting. He holds it out to Flavia.
She shrinks back. “Oh, now what am I supposed to do? This is horrible.” All Flavia wants is to get away from these bizarre people. She realizes it’s now or never. If she waits too long it will get dark and she will get lost. But if she can only retrace her steps she should be fine. “Well…” She sticks with English. Italian had gotten her nowhere. “It has been very nice to meet you. And thank you for taking in a stranger who was lost and cold. But it is time for me to go back to my own people now. How do you say goodbye…?” She shrugs, the language barrier insurmountable, and turns away to locate the path to the south.
As Flavia does so she hears the child crying behind her again. She whirls back, her heart strings tugged just as strongly as before.
It is the man. The plaintive wails issue from his mouth. He looks at Flavia with sly expectation as the dreadful truth dawns on her. It was him all along, leading her here. His uncanny imitation of a crying child sounds exactly like a toddler who is being dragged cruelly away, against their will.
Chapter 1 – Hug Like Sisters
January 1, 2024
Two years ago, I realized that I didn’t want to write any more dark or scary content. There’s already too much in the world. And there’s a massive shortage of beauty. We spend so much time in our dystopias we hardly know what a utopia would look like any more.
Well this is mine. LISICA is a fictional island ~1600 km off the coast at the California/Oregon border. It is a mysterious and isolated secret, hidden from the world for the last hundred years. Now, a team of 11 researchers have been given 8 weeks to categorize all life on the island before the wrappers come off and Lisica is introduced to the wider world.
I’ve already written all 60 episodes, all 426,000 words of it. I’m currently recording and producing the audio episodes. Each weekly episode will be published in text and audio formats on my website https://dwdraff.in for free without ads. Come escape with us over the next 60 weeks to this fogbound island of daring adventure and passionate love…!

Audio for this chapter:
Foreword
In 2001 I flew from San Francisco to Tokyo in a window seat. It was one of the first flights that displayed the plane’s location in realtime. Our flightpath followed a high arc over the North Pacific a thousand kilometers south of the Aleutian chain. I stared for hours at the unbroken ocean, filled with dark floating masses of seaweed and patches of green then blue then gray.
Suddenly: an island. An island where no island is recorded to be. We flew right over it, a long double spine of ridges hiding deep valleys. For more than half an hour I was able to study it, shocked to find such a large landmass here. It was four or five kilometers in length, curved like a kidney, its canyons filled with vegetation.
The plane’s position put us over 1600 kilometers north of Hawaii and about 900 kilometers northeast of Midway. On any map you can find, this vast region is blue water and nothing else. But how could an island possibly exist here? And if it did, how had it remained a secret so long?
Lisica is the fiction I’ve written about this very real island.
—DWD
1 – Hug Like Sisters
The endless gray sea remains unbroken in every direction…
…except for a single island, a column of dark rock that interrupts the emptiness like a comma on a blank sheet. The isle’s sheer cliffs rise hundreds of meters from a fringe of white surf on its rugged coasts. Crowned by deep green forest above, its canopy is wreathed in dense fog.
Only in the southeast corner of the isle does a waterfall overtop the cliffs. It spills into a great black pool ringed by an apron beach. A rocky lagoon with jagged black breakers stretches into the ocean from its dark sand, providing an open water shelter for coral and sea grass. Sea lions sleep on the rocks, watched over by guillemots and cormorants. Gulls and terns wheel above in thick profusion, crying out, their nests in the cliffs. It is spring and the hatchlings peek out like balls of cotton, crying to be fed.
Far above, atop the ridge that not even the pelagic birds reach, a child’s bare brown arm pulls aside an obscuring branch that overlooks the ocean. It reveals the gray horizon, unbroken to the south. A dull shell of maritime-layer clouds covers the island and lowers the sky to the tops of the trees. The cries of the birds and barking of the sea lions and roar of the surf fill the air.
After a long moment the sea lions fall silent, blinking at the south horizon. They roll into the water without a sound. Soon after they disappear, a US Navy research ship sails into view.
The ship, white above with a dark blue hull, drops anchor outside the lagoon and a Zodiac is lowered to the rocking sea, where it is loaded with lifejacket-swaddled passengers and gear. The pilot zooms through the breakwaters, smashing through ranks of waves from behind, and navigates through a gap in the barrier rocks into the lagoon. He runs the Zodiac up onto the beach.
Whoever it is watching them from the island’s ridgeline above withdraws from view and slips back under the cover of the trees.
Amy Kubota steps onto the beach, a huge smile on her round face. Silver streaks highlight her unruly black mass of hair. Before her feet touch the sand she is already cataloguing the extensive birdlife above her. But it’s business first. She claps her hands. “Start with the big ones, Jay. Let’s get the Zodiac back on the water as soon—”
“Aye aye, Amy!” Jay Darmer, her grad student, answers a bit too loud. He unfolds himself with expert balance and throws his rangy athletic body at the containers. “This one, Prad. But careful. Don’t capsize the—”
Pradeep Chakrabarti, Amy’s other grad student, stands with a wobble and lifts his end of a giant plastic bin. He is tall and slender with an aristocratic air. The Zodiac shifts as the surf runs up the beach and Pradeep almost drops the bin. He grunts with the effort and flashes a brilliant smile as he splashes ashore. “Baptism, Jay. It’s called a baptism.”
The Zodiac rocks with their departure and Flavia Donaceti squeals, sitting precariously in the center of the craft with her prized possessions. She throws her arms wide with a loud wail as a splash of seawater comes over the side and spatters her round eyeglasses. “Don’t! You boys! Ai! You make me wet!”
A throaty giggle from behind Flavia adds, “Yeh, boys. You can’t just make a girl wet. You gotta at least buy her a drink first.” Katrina Oksana’s Australian accent contrasts with Flavia’s Italian. Their laughs mix together as Katrina heaves herself out.
She leaps lightly onto land, backpack in hand. Katrina looks like a pony-tailed student taking a gap year. With a deep breath she inhales the fresh air. “Ahh. Home sweet home.”
Amy pulls on Flavia. “Come on, Flavia. It’s time.”
Flavia holds several laptops in their bags, as well as a giant black hard case. Her short legs have trouble clearing the width of the Zodiac’s sidewall. She can’t manage it all at once and she stumbles onto the sand, cursing the island in her native tongue and soaking her slip-on sneakers.
The pilot, a midshipman named Curt, hops out and grabs the nose of the craft. He drags it a few paces up the beach and begins unloading duffel bags into a pile. “Sounds like the Captain’s made contact, ma’am!” He shouts in a voice made hoarse from a life on the sea, and lifts the two-way radio clipped to his vest that still buzzes with news. “Your folks will be here soon!”
Amy just stares at him, head full of logistical details, unsure what he means. Then it clicks. “Oh! You mean the other ship! That’s great. Great news, Curt. I had no idea they were already so close.”
Katrina takes a bag from Amy’s hands and hustles it up the beach. The older woman first protests, then sighs and watches as the youngsters churn through the sand at a pace she can’t sustain. So she supervises instead.
Curt calls out, “I’ll be back with the next load. You all get these piles up to the structure there before the waves come in.”
Flavia groans in relief. “There is a structure? Oh, thank god. I was afraid we’d be in tents this whole time. Civilization at last. I get first shower.”
Pradeep crosses the crescent beach at a diagonal toward an old concrete bunker hidden among ferns and buckthorn. He calls out over his shoulder, “Yes, you’ll recall that the notes mentioned a kind of facility. No details about it, though.” He stands in front of it, regarding the concrete walls stained from decades of exposure to the ocean. “Ah. Well. This must be why.” It is a ruin.
A moment later, Jay steps into its empty doorway wielding a carbon fiber hiking pole like a sword. “Hello?” He edges his way in, squinting at the gloom. Columns of gray light stream through holes in the corrugated steel roof. “Here snakey snakey…”
From outside, Amy squawks. “Snakes? What kind? Let me see!” She pokes her head through the nearest window, eagerness adding wrinkles to the corners of her eyes.
“No, haven’t seen any yet.” Jay pokes at piles of debris. “It’s just that we used to play in an old abandoned bunker like this down in Big Sur and man did it always get jammed full of snakes.”
Amy frowns, the field biologist unable to square certain details. “At this latitude, though? And so close to the ocean? I don’t—” A sharp sound interrupts her. Something catlike twitches in the far corner and bounds up, darting through a back window before Amy can track it. “Whoa! Jay! What was that? I couldn’t tell! Some kind of mustelid?”
“Fuck. I didn’t see.”
“Me neither.”
“What’s a mustelid?” Katrina asks. “Sounds like a clam.”
Amy laughs. “The weasel family. Ferrets and such.”
Jay crosses the bunker to peer out the window it escaped. “Was it unique? Any details at all? Aw, man. Hope it’s a new species. Can you imagine? We’ll name her Mustela kubota.”
Amy laughs, waving a self-deprecating hand. “Oh, Jay, you’re so sweet. But we’ll see. How about we name it after whoever it bites first, eh?” She steps inside. “So… Safe in there?”
Katrina’s hand grabs Amy’s sleeve. “Spiders. In Australia any abandoned building like this would be absolutely stuffed with spiders. Watch it in there, mate.”
Jay cackles. “If only Katrina knew about our arachnid obsession! Prad! The specimen jars!”
“Not yet, Jay.” Amy sweeps a corner of the building clear of litter with her boot. “We need to get the bags above the tide line first. Curt was right. It’s rising.”
Pradeep’s head appears in the window. “Do we really know that? I’ve got a global tide chart here but this island isn’t on it.”
Flavia adds, “And I lost signal like six hours ago. I mean, where even are we? My map software isn’t working out here. It’s crazy, there’s no record of an island anywhere near here.”
Out of habit, Amy fishes out her phone and looks at it. No signal, of course. “I mean, so this is just a hypothesis, but let’s say Midway is the closest landmass. If this island mostly shares tide and weather pattern characteristics with its closest neighbor then—”
In the back corner, Jay pokes a pile of dried ferns that hide a nest of giant crabs. They charge, claws larger than his hands, and he falls back with a shriek, clacking the pole against their carapaces. “Back! Back!” But they surge past him toward the light of the door. “Okay, well, forward then! Look out!”
The crabs run for the door and they all shriek.
Pradeep shouts out, “Don’t let them pinch you!”
The crabs scramble outside and the chaos settles with the dust. They all gather at the door, giggling like school children. But Amy is already making notes on her phone. “Like a… variant of coconut crab! Amazing! Definitely genus Birgus. But so dark!”
Katrina shivers. “Careful. Those claws can go right through your leg. I swear. I’ve seen videos. Strong as shit.”
Flavia declares, “I am not sleeping in there. No way. Tents sound good now. Real good. Maybe up on platforms?”
Pradeep nods, pensive. “Yeah. Good plan. Tall platforms. Some kind of barrier on the legs. Got to keep it clear up above. Yeah.”
Ξ
As the others continue to unpack, Amy and Jay step quietly through a grove of mature redwoods, awed by the scale. Their trunks are up to five meters in diameter, rising a hundred meters above their heads. Amy carries a green frond, fallen from its canopy, studying it.
“For all intents and purposes this is…” she shrugs, shaking her head in wonder, “I mean, superficially is all I can say for certain,” she stops and peers upward, “but all these trees appear to be identical to Sequoia sempervirens, California Coast Redwoods.”
Jay snorts. “Untouched. Undiscovered. Holy smokes. This is crazy, Amy. I mean, when has this ever happened? Ever? I don’t think so. Sure, there’s like the Dawn redwoods in China but no way, this isn’t even what that is. This is an actual sequoia grove. They’ve never been found outside of California. This is—” He makes a garbled, incoherent sound. Amy grabs his hand and they share a sacred moment. “Shit, boss. We could spend the rest of our careers on this right here. This grove alone.”
“We can call it Tenure Grove.”
They giggle together in the gloom.
Jay urges them forward, deeper into the grove. The understory is sparse, the hillocks they climb covered in redwood duff and clover. He waves away a cloud of flies and presses on, only getting about a dozen trees deep before coming up against the base of the cliffs. Thick banks of ferns climb upward, eventually giving way to manzanita clinging to the vertical wall of rock and dirt.
He ranges at the base like a foxhound on the scent, looking for a way to ascend. “Crap. Too crumbly to climb. Is this volcanic? I mean, it’s gotta be, right? What’s the bedrock gonna be here, doc?”
Amy just shakes her head, watching the white gulls and terns wheeling far above. “The geologist is on her way. A damn fine one, too. Yeah, nobody’s climbing this cliff here.”
But Jay can’t be contained. “Maybe we can climb the waterfall instead. Here. This way.” He pushes through the foliage to their right, toward the east. “Oh. Watch out. That may be poison oak. Or… Maybe not. I think it’s actually an analogue.”
They force their way through a bank of flowering shrubs they don’t recognize, crowing about their likely provenance, and finally break through to the edge of the waterfall’s dark pool. Amy edges outward onto an outcropping of slick worn basalt and regards the falling plume. It isn’t the mightiest waterfall in the world but its heavy unbroken stream falls from on high, scattering mist and droplets across the grove, crashing loudly into the pool with foam.
After a long moment Jay returns to her, face streaked in mud, branches in his hair. “What happened to you?” Amy asks.
“Fell off.”
“You fell off the cliff? Are you hurt?”
“No. I mean, no like closed head injuries. Well, not any more, at least.” He peers upward. “Damn. Not a chance. I mean, we sailed around the whole island and those cliffs look like they ring the whole thing. This may be the only entry point. I was hoping there’d at least be a game trail or something here.”
“It is so cold. We’re basically at southern Oregon latitude as far as I can tell. This is a true temperate island. A major island with a temperate coastal cloud forest in the North Pacific. Unbelievable. We’re like, what, a thousand kilometers from land?”
“Yeah, that’s what I was trying to triangulate on the plane from our last landmarks and the sun. After a few hours it turned into a really fucking long and narrow isosceles triangle, that’s for sure. We are waaaaay out here. Over a thousand klicks is my bet. And we’re still super far north of Hawai’i. Amy, there isn’t any island of any size on any map in the world at this location. But nobody seemed to want to pipe up about it in front of the Navy dudes so I left it…”
“Yeah, this whole thing still has that weird military vibe, for sure. It hasn’t gone away at all. But look, Jay. They’ve treated us really first class so far and I’ve definitely joined sketchier expeditions. Or at least I did when I was your age. But don’t worry. Alonso is one of my oldest friends. I trust him 100% and if he says he’ll take care of us then he’ll absolutely take care of us. And we already made the dendrological find of the century!”
Jay holds his dirty hands up. “Hey, no regrets here. Work with a living legend, newly returned from the dead, and chill out on mystery island for eight weeks? Fuck yeah. Living the dream here. Come on, Amy. Uhh… we can try to get back to camp this way. Or not. Wow. So overgrown. Not even any game trails leading to the water. Why not?”
“No large ruminants here? Or at least none who can make it down the cliff to the beach? Maybe there’s populations above in the interior. But also, no ticks yet. Another sign there’s a chance no large mammals live here. Oh my god this place is a pristine genetic reservoir. Come on. We have to tell Prad.”
They backtrack the way they came.
Ξ
Pradeep and Katrina are busy building their third platform of fallen branches at the edge of a cluster of trees. He wields a foldable handsaw and she cuts notches in them with a huge bowie knife. They’ve stacked nearly a hundred logs.
“God these smell so nice!” Katrina crushes up the leaves under Pradeep’s nose. “Smell.”
“Yes, bay leaves. Fantastic. Well. Our cooking will taste good at least. How’s this? Sturdy?” The logs lay on frames held together by twine. They look rough but mostly even.
“Let me see.” Flavia pushes past them and spreads a black tarp over the branches. Then she shoves her hard case onto it. “Solid so far.” Flavia puts her laptop bags on the platform and lifts herself onto it. It only sinks a bit in the sand. “Not bad. But what about my shower, eh? What am I supposed to do, just wait for rain?”
Katrina, unimpressed with Flavia’s complaints, gestures to the east. “I mean, the waterfall’s right there, love.”
“Ha. You mean the one that’s ten degrees? No, grazie.” Flavia takes out a laptop and boots it up. She attempts to pair it with her phone. “So of course there is no reception out here until I set up the node. What was the last signal anyone got?”
“Well…” Pradeep consults his phone. “At 2:36am PST I got my last text. A friendly reminder that it’s time to renew my car’s warranty before it’s too late.”
“So… that’s about nine hours, assuming we moved across two time zones.” Flavia tries to calculate. “I don’t know how fast that helicopter flew, but it must have been over two hours. What is a nautical mile again? Let’s say we were moving twenty knots after we transferred to the ship. Then we sailed for seven hours?”
Katrina pulls a fistful of hard candies out of her pocket and offers one to Pradeep and one to Flavia. “My guess is way over a thousand kilometers from the mainland. And, um, I heard we weren’t gonna have any internet out here at all.”
Flavia laughs, cracking the candy with her teeth. “Impossible. Why would Doctor Alonso bring a research mathematician out to the middle of nowhere if she can’t access her online resources? That’s why I brought a sat phone—” she proudly lifts the chunky unit “—and a platinum tier prescription paid by a special EU research fund at Torino.”
“Oh, thank god,” Katrina sighs. “I was afraid I’d lose track of the Marvel Universe out here for eight weeks with no—” She stops, registering a voice shouting at them from the beach. Katrina turns, shading her eyes, and spots a woman running at them from another Zodiac that has just landed on the sand.
Pradeep waves and calls out to her, but the tall woman is in no mood for introductions. She nears them, gasping, and reaches for the sat phone. “No! You CAN’T!” This is Esquibel Daine, a medical doctor in her early thirties, and her face is filled with fury.
Flavia screams as Esquibel pulls it from her grasp. She shouts in a mix of outraged Italian and English: “No! Chi sei? What are you doing—? Quello è il mio telefono! You can’t—!”
Esquibel lectures her in an East African accent. “The rules were NO INTERNET. We made it quite explicit. They will KICK US OFF the island if we give away our location.”
“Whoa. Damn. Okay, okay.” Katrina tries to play peacekeeper. “Just slow down, little Miss intensity. Who is they?”
“Rules?” Flavia waves the word away like it’s an annoying gnat. “I mean, it really read just as a suggestion…”
Esquibel ignores Flavia’s protests, frantically studying the sat phone. “Is this on? Are you transmitting?”
“Che pazzia!” Flavia throws her hands up, irate. “You can’t just take my phone from me! If I’d known this would be some kind of police state I wouldn’t have come!”
Pradeep assures Esquibel, “No. She’d just taken it out of its case. Nothing happened. Nothing is on. No signals have been sent. Everything is fine. Now. Who are you?”
“It isn’t?” Esquibel drops her hands in relief. “Oh, thank god.” She calls out to the two others still getting out of the Zodiac at the surf line. “Still secure! It isn’t on!” She glares at Flavia one last time, then jogs back to the others with the confiscated sat phone.
Amy and Jay appear, drawn by the raised voices. Jay watches the argument with concern but Amy only has eyes for one of the other figures at the water’s edge. He is older, a bearish man supporting his weight in the sand with an aluminum cane.
“Alonso…? Alonso!”
Amy rushes to him.
Ξ
By sunset, the last of the Zodiac deliveries are being dragged up the beach by the younger members of the team. The wind whips fog and whitecaps across the surface of the dark waves.
Sitting in a camp chair, Alonso watches in helpless frustration. He wishes he could help but he can’t. So he just grips his cane and tries to accept that others must do the little things for him.
Triquet, a field archaeologist dressed in a pink satin vest and comically-large work boots, swoons at Alonso’s feet. Triquet has green hair and multiple piercings, their slender non-binary body tattooed with ancient Olmec and Toltec symbols. “Heavens to Murgatroyd I’m tired.”
“I’m tired just watching you.”
Amy appears at Alonso’s shoulder with a steaming mug. “The magic of hot liquids.” She places the mug in Alonso’s grateful hands. Then her gaze falls upon the prostrate Triquet. “Oh, you poor thing. Would you like a cup too…?”
Alonso gestures at Triquet. “Doctor Amy Kubota, this is Doctor Triquet. Triq, Amy is one of my oldest friends.”
Amy curtsies and gives Triquet a dimpled smile. “I can already tell we’ll be great friends. Green tea?”
Triquet rolls onto their back and gasps. “Tea? You’re a goddess.”
Amy amends herself. “Best friends!”
Alonso says proudly, “Triquet just landed a full research position in field Archeology at Pitt. Real rising star here, Ames.”
“Oh, great,” Amy complains. “Way to make me feel old. I was an adjunct til I was almost forty!” With a rueful smile she shuffles over to her platform to fetch another mug. In the gathering gloom the others claim platforms and start unpacking their bags atop them. Jay strings a hammock between two bay trees.
Flavia watches him, a little resentful of the hammock’s crab-proof clearance. But his system looks more complicated than she cares to track and when he isn’t done until he clips in a bugnet layer, she waves a hand in front of her face and sighs. “You know, the bugs aren’t even that bad here. When I heard Pacific island I thought… Non lo so. It will be a tropical jungle like Borneo.”
Esquibel has added a couple layers now that the evening chill is setting in. She drags her duffel bag to a spot in the sand beside Pradeep’s platform, an apologetic smile on her face. “Excuse me.”
Pradeep crouches atop his platform, fastening the corners of his pyramid tent to the platform’s logs. He finds a warm smile for Esquibel. “Ah. She’s back. And we still haven’t been introduced. I’m Pradeep. From Amy’s lab.”
“Yes. Hello. I am Doctor Esquibel Daine. Forgive me for before. I was concerned about our operational security—”
“Understood.”
“—and then Doctor Alonso himself. I had to get back to him to make sure he could… well, it turns out he had no trouble, really… getting out.”
“Nice to meet you. I look forward to eight weeks of working quite closely and happily together. All of us.”
She takes his hint with a stiff nod. “Yes. Well. I appreciate your words, Pradeep. Thank you. I do too. Now.”
“Fantastic. How can I help you?”
“These platforms can move, right?”
“Move?”
She sighs in frustration. “I don’t understand why you spent the day building platforms in the first place. We can’t build structures here. Very important. And these are against the rules.” Esquibel points at Flavia’s platform and his own. “Hers and yours are visible to satellites. We need to at least get them under the trees.”
“Aha. I see. And that’s important, is it?”
Esquibel raises her hands in the air in appeal. “Did nobody read the documents? You signed them.”
“I did. I did, Doctor Daine. But they were heavily redacted by the time they got to us. One entire page was black lines except the word FACILITY. We really have very little idea of what we’re doing here. If there’s any chance—”
“Yes. Of course. All in due course. But could you help me get the platforms under the trees first? Right up against the ferns.”
Pradeep decides with a smile and a nod to cooperate. They approach Flavia’s platform to explain what they are doing. But she is having none of it.
“What, are you crazy? The ferns are where the crabs are.”
“What crabs?” Esquibel tries to lift one of the platform’s corners. “Could you please get off for a moment?”
“Not if you’re taking my platform to the ferns. Aren’t you listening? The crabs are the whole reason we built the platforms.”
“Crabs? What are these crabs?”
Pradeep leans in and quietly describes the crabs to Esquibel, his hands spreading wide to encompass their size.
Esquibel recoils in horror. Without a word she picks up her gear and places it on the last unclaimed platform. Then she helps Flavia and Pradeep drag their platforms as far away from the ferns as they can get, to the far side of the beach where the platforms of Katrina, Triquet, Alonso, and Amy cluster beside the bunker.
Amy overheard their argument over the quiet surf and wind. Solicitous, she calls out, “You know, Esquibel, the distribution of coconut crabs reaches the Indian Ocean. They might be familiar. Have you ever seen any on Kenyan beaches?”
Esquibel pulls her platform grimly along the beach. “How would I know? I’m from Nairobi. Have they attacked anyone yet?”
Jay, the only one left on the west side of the camp, swings in his hammock and calls out, “As far as we can tell they’re afraid of us. They scuttled into these ferns and haven’t been seen since.”
Alonso watches them labor, silhouetted by the orange of the sunset. Their voices soothe him and the jaggedness inside him eases, giving him respite. After a moment, another figure steps in front of the sunset, facing him. He smiles. “Ah. Katrina Oksana.”
“Señor Alonso.” In the fading light the young woman is like some mythical naiad emerging from the surf. She searches his face. “Mucho gusto. Amazing to meet you in the flesh.”
He laughs. “Ai, Dios mío, you have an Aussie accent. Of course. I never knew. All the times I thought I heard your voice in my head. It was completely wrong. And you’re just so, ehh…”
She laughs and swings her ponytail of straight auburn hair. “I know. I look sixteen. But don’t worry. I’ll be twenty-three this summer. I can take care of myself out here. I promise. Thank you so much for this. For everything.”
“No, it is I who must thank you. From the bottom of my heart. You were my only light for far too long in the darkness. You must tell me. How is Pavel? It was Gerasim’s last question.”
“Getting better. Every day. He still doesn’t really leave the house but now he has our mom to take care of him. She just retired and gave me a break so I can do this. With Pavel, it’s just day to day.”
“Yes. Yes, I know it is.”
Katrina seizes his hand. They share hot, bitter tears.
Amy has returned with Triquet’s mug. She watches Alonso’s encounter with Katrina, her face troubled. “Alonso, I’m sure you’re tired after the long haul but if there’s any chance we can get just a few answers tonight I know my whole team—and, well, everybody here—is just burning up with—”
“Of course. Of course.” Alonso wipes his eyes and faces them. “You all deserve to know everything. Well. At least everything I know. Which isn’t all that much. But I chose these teams for this research project because I knew you could all handle this situation the right way. Professionally, with ethics and rigor. But also with humanity.” His prelude silences the camp. They all hang on his words. “So what are your questions?”
“Um, where’s the fucking hotel bar, Alonso?” Flavia demands. “I mean, what am I supposed to spend my per diem on here?”
Everyone laughs and the tension eases. Alonso answers, “Well, the closest one is probably about 1900 kilometers east. In Crescent City, California, I figure.”
“Where are we?” Pradeep asks. “What is this island?”
Alonso says, “Its name is Lisica.”
Katrina claps. “Ha. Fox.”
Amy asks, “Lisica means fox?”
“In some Slavic languages, yeh.”
“Huh.” Amy calls out in the darkness. “Hey, Jay. Maybe that wasn’t a mustelid in the bunker this morning.”
“Aw, shit,” his voice emerges from the gloom. “Yeah that could have been a small Vulpes. I wish I’d seen its tail.”
“Fox Island,” Katrina declares.
“The foxiest of isles,” Triquet purrs. “That’s hot. So why doesn’t it show up on any maps, boss man? What’s the big secret here?”
“And why,” Flavia interjects, “did we all have to sign such a restrictive NDA, Alonso? I mean, a lot of those clauses are barely legal. And totally unenforceable. I’d like to see you try to—”
Esquibel turns on Flavia. “Could you please stop trying to break the rules every five minutes? There aren’t very many and they’re very important and this is a unique and important oppor—”
Pradeep interrupts her. “Yes, Doctor Daine. But whose rules?”
Esquibel sighs and makes a vague gesture. “Our bosses. Who are also our funding sources. Who are also our clients. Well, mostly. Anyway, who do you think is in charge?”
“That’s right, mi amigos,” Alonso says quietly. “We are at the very tail end of a decades-long classified U.S. Air Force program. That concrete shoebox there must have been some kind of listening post. Who knows? It’s all they built here in nearly seventy years. Lisica is a hidden place. The prevailing currents and winds all lead away from here. It’s almost always under this fogbank. It wasn’t even discovered until the twentieth century. But now there’s a new global satellite agreement about to go into effect and they can’t keep it a secret any longer. So a couple Air Force scientists met me at my debriefing and pitched this project to me. Eight weeks on a pristine island to categorize as much of it as we can before the wrappers come off and the whole world learns of Lisica.”
A moment of silence, then Flavia laughs. “That is such bullshit! Impossible. Impossible. A secret island? No. In this day and age? One hundred percent impossible!”
Alonso nods in agreement. “That’s what I said. But Colonel Baitgie, he’s the commanding officer in charge of the Lisica mission, said this isn’t even the only one. There is an unspoken agreement among the governments and corporations of the world who own and operate satellites to keep places like this one secret. Who knows how many corners of the world remain hidden. Nice guy. A trifle too religious for my tastes but he did take good care of me once they got me stateside.”
“Debriefing?” Pradeep is only twenty-four, but his gravity is that of an older man. “Doctor Alonso, we’ve all heard mention now of… well, something. Some ordeal you underwent? But nobody—”
“I was tortured.” Alonso’s voice is a rasp. “In a gulag.”
Pradeep gasps and drops his eyes. “Ah. I see. I’m very sorry.”
Amy steps behind Alonso and puts a hand on his shoulder. “Oh, god, was it really that bad? Alonso and his partner Charles Wu were on a Central Asian paleogenomics field assay when we lost touch with them five years ago near the Kyrgyzstan border. We still haven’t heard any details…”
“One day we were at the dig, just me and a few local guides and laborers,” Alonso recounts in a rough voice. “Next thing we know we’re surrounded by gunmen. No insignia. Speaking one of the Turkic languages. That’s all I know about them. They said there was a fight back at basecamp. Charlie died, Amy. Charlie and Nadya both. I couldn’t get back in time. Charlie died in my arms.”
“Oh, Alonso, no…”
“Baitgie swore.” Alonso’s eyes swim with tears. “He swore he’d take care of Minnie and Sarah. Said Charlie would get a pension. The whole deal. You have to help me hold him to it.”
“Yes. I will. Minnie had another baby, you know. Like six months after Charlie left. A little boy.”
Alonso’s face finally crumples in grief. “Oh… He never knew…”
Ξ
In the gray light of the minutes before dawn, Flavia’s screams split the still air. Birds wing away from trees. Someone in a tent grunts. Jay’s head is the first to emerge from his hammock. Esquibel is the first to get her boots on and stumble toward the waterfall.
She gets to the edge of the wide dark pool moments later, reaching into a black satchel on her hip. But Jay and Katrina are right behind her so she removes her hand from it.
Flavia screams again and they all look in fear at the source of the sound. Then their faces split into relieved smiles.
Flavia is naked, turned away, standing on a rocky outcrop near the base of the waterfall. Every time a blast of cold water shocks her she screams again.
Jay laughs. “Signorina got her shower after all!”
In the luminous dawn, Flavia’s marbled pale skin and dark curls at the base of the falls transforms her into a Raphael masterpiece. She turns and with a wave beckons them to join her.
Ξ
As the camp wakes up, Triquet brings a tray piled with energy bars to Amy’s platform. Amy hands them a steaming mug in exchange. The pair eat their bars and share the silence, looking out at the beach and the lagoon beyond.
Alonso sits out there in his camp chair, at the surf’s edge, staring at the horizon. Triquet points at him. “I had a border collie used to do that.”
“He hasn’t seen her in five years.”
Triquet shakes their head, puzzled. “I once saw Miriam Truitt give a presentation on the dating of Eocene ultramafic lavas. She somehow made the subject fascinating. What a communicator. But I just can’t see it. They must be the oddest of couples.”
Amy only smiles. “He and I were lovers in grad school. Did Alonso ever tell you?” She looks sidelong at Triquet who plays along with a cartoonish shocked face. “We were so happy. Taking blood samples from wild horses in Nevada. But then Miriam showed up. And it was over.” Triquet makes a sympathetic face. “No no. Not in a bad way. We all became the best of friends. But they just fit together so well. Better than any two people ever should. And they’re both such giants in their fields. We could tell, even then, that they were on a whole different level of awareness. It was like a, like being in the middle of some implausible Hollywood storyline. When you ever hear the phrase ‘they were made for each other,’ it was coined for Miriam and Alonso.”
“And now he’s waiting for her.”
Amy smiles, her face full of tenderness. “That’s Alonso.”
Ξ
The hours pass but the sun never breaks through the low maritime layer. The sea is green. The gulls and terns cry on the thermals and the sea lions return, watching the humans ashore as they float with their glassy black eyes just breaking the surface of the water.
Everyone but Alonso is busy at the camp, building long lab tables under the trees from more logs and repurposed plastic containers.
Esquibel curses at the medical station she is building and holds up her hands in surrender. “I have no idea how to create sanitary conditions here until I can get a roof over my head.”
“Oh, we got a few tricks on archaeology digs,” Triquet tells her. “Not like clean rooms, but they should be sufficient. And it looks like fresh water shouldn’t be an issue here.”
Esquibel makes a face. “I’d like to get it tested first. But until we can do that, we have to boil or filter everything. Right, everyone? The water is suspect until further notice. I don’t want to have to treat any of you for giardiasis or, God forbid, lepto.”
Flavia points at the bunker and swears, “I am not going in there. Until it has been like cleansed with fire. All the crabs and snakes and spiders. Nuke it from orbit. Then maybe. We’ll see.”
Amy tut-tuts her. “Well that’s not very good guest behavior. And Jay wouldn’t get his specimens. Give us just a few days to catalog what we can and then we’ll be able to clean it out and move in.”
Pradeep holds up a cupped hand and stares at the sky. “Is it starting to rain? We should rig tarps. Can I get a hand?”
Instead, Katrina points at the horizon. “Look, a ship.”
At the water’s edge, Alonso stands leaning on his cane.
A sleek gray catamaran-style research vessel flying a Japanese flag pulls up at the mouth of the lagoon and drops anchor. Another Zodiac is lowered and eventually it arrows toward them.
Miriam Truitt stands in the prow, auburn hair streaming back. She strains toward Alonso. The rain starts to fall more heavily. When the craft beaches she leaps out and runs, as fast as she’s ever run, through the surf and deep sand to him. He hobbles toward her and a gasp of grief escapes her as she sees how damaged he is. When she reaches him she wraps him carefully in her arms and kisses his face, again and again, in benediction and worship. “I will never… ever… let you go… ever again.”
“Ah, Novia,” Alonso finally allows himself to groan, the pain so long buried finally rising to the surface. “They hurt me so bad.”
She hugs him possessively. “Never again. Mi niño is back.”
But he casts his head down and shakes it no. “No. The boy is gone. And—and I’m not sure how much of me is left.”
“Don’t say that.” She grips him fiercely again. “We get to grow old together. You promised.”
The rain mixes with their tears. They shiver, holding each other. Finally Alonso sags against her and allows himself to be loved.
Two others get out of the Zodiac. Maahjabeen Charrad is a stern-faced oceanographer in a teal headscarf who is preoccupied with corralling the two single-seat sea kayaks they tow. When she finally gets them both above the tideline she straightens and frowns at the island and its occupants like someone who is beginning a prison sentence.
The other, Mandy Hsu, is a coltish young woman who fights to disentangle herself from piles of cords and straps at the bottom of the boat. She waves at someone in the camp and bounces forward, eager and happy. “Esquibel! Esquibel! It’s me! Mandy!”
At the camp, all the others turn to Esquibel in surprise. At first she frowns to hear her name called out, but when Esquibel hears the name Mandy her stern face splits into the most beautiful grin, a sight none of them have yet seen, and she runs toward the girl with a cry of joy. “Mandy! I can’t believe it! Why didn’t anyone tell me you were coming? Oh, it’s Mandy! My Mandy girl!”
They hug like sisters.
6 responses to “Chapter 1 – Hug Like Sisters”
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Woah guy. I wonder at times but not often (I don’t reach out to my closest friends and fam often or at all and realize it’d be betta if did-lives in it’s own littleman’s-type-world in 3D). What is this man-a royal gem a loyal organism, a kindest, honest feller, hard adventuralist/journeysman who walks the goodlandz of God, the creative spectacular of SF-a grand friend there even and !now! What has this man been workin on these past times, couple years, 2020 and to date. I expect it be somethin profound-it always is. Playwrites, books, audio tracks and such. Always obtain the drive, focus and action followin through with such projects-pretty neet. I’ll read er realsoon. It looks like a grand read.
I be cumn out there soon. and this time I won’t skip SF, residn direct to the mtns of Skitown delight, and then to El Sal for a tropical adventuremans’ specialty. Haven’t been out there much at all since the plandemi as I was prior-every couple months workn for my best gardening clients in town, visitin the buds of CA. I’ve been continuing pursuing the annual ski trips there and stayed/remained in Sac where Vonz now resides besides the Mtn Club Kirkwood place. Interstin times these last couple years in these parts. I’d lost my mind again and probably mistakn the rememberences I’ve found er just yet.
Oh yeah I have to finish the plane tok purchase I’ll look see if have time now:I’m thinkin Feb 21st to March 10th abouts for the CA. Feb 21st to March 1st perhaps for SF, prior to skiin/Sac visits, and El Sal again.
We catch up soon. Sushiis nmore-the Sunset Snackups-Fam and Littleman-like 20 years back when I was just a boy. Perhaps a couch still emits the odor of my oily body, and mites-markn my sleepman’s zone enough for a near future health, REM-inducin Sleeps acceptance. a couple eves around this time. ? Let em know.
-Neet- and -Kwel-.
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Awesome!What a treat to revive this from you. Best of luck and happy new year.
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Hi Walker,
Great to hear from you and congratulations on your newest (or at least newish) project!! I look forward to pursuing this once we get our kiddo back in school and I have a millisecond to myself. ð¤ Big hugs to all of you and hope we can connect this year. â¤ï¸
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WOW! Quite a project! Congratulations on the result. I’m listening to the podcast… What’s the strategy to make money from your investment?
Patrick

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