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23 – The Island

Splash. Katrina is back in the water again. Finally she gets to put her mask and snorkel and fins to use! And the dark water is so refreshing! Maybe a degree or two warmer than the first time she swam in it. But that makes sense. It’s April now. Still bloody cold, though. The shortie wetsuit remains too thin.

Katrina doesn’t know how to do field collections but it doesn’t matter. She’s just a camera platform now. They’ve rigged a GoPro to her mask and whatever she sees gets recorded, to be analyzed and identified later. Jay had been so frustrated to find her mask wouldn’t fit him. Otherwise it would be him down here doing the survey, wouldn’t it? And she’d be deprived of all these wonders.

She’s never seen such a vibrant coral reef. The ones in Australia are nearly all dead. But this one dazzles with color, even in the diffracted gray light of a Lisican morning. Katrina remembers how she was able to warm herself before with deep breaths. She takes several near the surface, bobbing up every few moments to draw it in. Yes, her tingling extremities are starting to function again.

Oh my god, a turtle. A giant honest-to-god sea turtle coasting beneath her feet. Like really giant. She’s had dining room tables that were smaller. And it comes to a rest between two columns of coral, obscured by waving pink nudibranches. It sees her. Its yellow eye tracks her progress. What an amazing sight.

Turtles don’t attack, do they?

Maahjabeen had warned her away from the far side of the lagoon where the densest kelp forest house the otters, who could very well be territorial. She’ll take her chances over here on the reef with moray eels and reef sharks. Not that she’d seen any yet, but she won’t be sticking her hands in any holes.

She makes sure she gets a good view of the turtle before returning to the surface and kicking herself a few meters further along. When she drops back down her breath expels in a sudden gasp. She’s looking down into a bowl ringed by pastel coral and pale seaweed, containing a huge swirling chiaroscuro of neon-bright fish. She can’t believe it. Such a rich sight, unlike any she’s ever had in the water. And they’re every shape and color. Katrina can’t make sense of what she’s seeing. So many species, all floating together. They aren’t even congregating in groups. Just swimming placidly along, nobody eating anyone else. Maybe this is some kind of nursery for all the non-carnivorous fish of the area, where they can grow up in peace. Like some kind of miraculous fish utopia. Skates and rays hover an inch above the sandy floor. Incredible.

She’ll have to tell them not to fish here. It would be a tragedy.

Katrina swims over the far edge of the bowl to deeper waters in the lagoon. She lifts her head to see how far she is from the mouth of it. She’d hate to get sucked out into the surf and die. Yeah. That would not be her favorite thing. But she’s hardly progressed at all. The lagoon is huge, now that she’s swimming in it. She could spend every day of the remaining five weeks exploring it and it would barely be enough time. Well, put that on the list of things she will do every morning, right after retrieving Mandy’s weather station with the drone.

Mandy… Eek. Her romantic attention is really flattering. Katrina has always had a thing for island girls. But there’s something a bit too intense about Mandy’s energy for her, like she’s already scripted out a bunch of scenes and now is having trouble changing them to fit reality. Their flirting isn’t serious. It can’t be. Nothing like a dalliance, right? Hopefully she’ll be able to convince Mandy of that ephemeral truth. If not, well… She can always ghost her. Katrina has probably had to withdraw from more ardent admirers in her life than have them transform into solid friendships. People get so intense, and some boys and girls really get crazy about her raver fairy style. She just loves beauty. But she’s learned you have to cup it lightly like a fledgling in your hand. Otherwise you crush it and it never flies. That’s what so many people don’t get.

She leaves the coral behind and follows a broad floor of sand only sparsely covered with seaweed. She inspects their floating tendrils closely, making sure the camera can see the parasites and brown spots on the broad leaves. That’s for Pradeep. The secret lover boy. Hooray for Maahjabeen healing his fractured soul. Good lord but that would be a sandwich she could happily get between. Those two are so ridiculously beautiful. Sex with gods.

That has been Katrina’s refrain for a long time now. In her rave scene there’s been a long discussion about what could be the best possible drug experience. Like reverse-engineering the whole thing. For millennia we’ve just been consuming what nature gives us, and preparing close analogues. But what if we could start from the other direction? Determine which effect we want and then work toward it with different compounds and tests?

Her friend Karl had always maintained that no drug trip could beat the ability to stop time, or move forward and backward in it like a video editor. He said that must be the ultimate pinnacle of human experience, to see it all. But he was such a techno nerd. His brain was entirely clockwork. Like his friend Hong who said the ultimate drug would be perfect VR, a Star Trek holodeck without limitations. Morgan said it would be alcohol without a hangover and Sadie said it would be talking to ancestor ghosts.

But to Katrina, nothing has ever beaten the prospect of sex with gods. I mean, come on. And not like Zeus raping a swan. No no no. The good stuff. Where the gods love you and take care of you and know just how to please you.

Katrina rises to the surface and blows out her snorkel. She rolls onto her back and looks at the sky, taking the mouthpiece out. Aloud, she declares, “Tell me of anything better than that. And those two are just about as close as we can get to gods.”

“Who are?”

Katrina screams and convulses in the water, her hands flying up to protect her head. She twists around to find Amy beside her in the yellow kayak, having silently glided up to her while she swam.

“Oh my god you gave me a heart attack.”

“Sorry, Katrina! Maahjabeen asked me to come out and keep an eye on you. I thought you’d seen me. And were talking to me. What did you mean? Who are gods?”

“Uhh…” Katrina’s mind races. Her first impulse is to tell her about the secret, share the love! But no. Both Maahjabeen and Pradeep are so private. And Amy is Pradeep’s boss. This isn’t just a friendship thing. So in that case it isn’t hers to tell. Maybe she should lie and say she saw two turtles. Two turtle gods. But lying like that is not her way. Instead, with an open smile, she says, “Bit of a secret, love. But I’ll let you know when I can.”

“Got a crush, do you?” Amy’s voice is mild. “A double crush?”

Katrina laughs, partially in relief at Amy’s bad aim and partially because she hit the target anyway. “More than a couple. I mean, look at—well, like, look at you! I’ve got the hugest crush on you, Doctor Kubota. You’re just so damn cute.”

Amy playfully splashes Katrina with her paddle. “That’s very sweet. But you’re changing the subject. No, I won’t pry. You kids deserve all the secrets you can get. And all the love.”

“We all do!” Katrina spits a stream of water into the air, watching gulls swooping above, white against the gray cloud roof. “Seriously, girlfriend. You’re welcome in my tent any night.”

“Thanks, darling. I’ll save it for a cold one. No, I know what you mean, Katrina. Like when Miriam stole my boyfriend away. I had every reason in the world to be hurt. But I couldn’t. They were two gods and it was such a magical moment, and they never rejected me in the least. I was included in the whole romance. It just had a purity and intensity that took our breaths away. And we all knew it. None of us will ever see anything like that again.”

“Aww. I love love.” Katrina blows Amy a kiss.

Amy attempts to mimic Miriam’s Irish brogue. “I love love too, love. And I’m really glad you’re here.” Amy blows a kiss back to Katrina just as she’s slipping beneath the water, swimming down to the sand floor below. Amy admires her long dirty-blonde hair streaming behind her like a banner. The wind has calmed and the water is clear now. How glorious it is down there. Amy will have to see if the mask fits her. She’d love to snorkel too.

And then a shadow swoops forward from the east, torpedoing toward Katrina. It bumps her with its nose before she even sees it and she explodes in bubbles, losing her air in shock. She claws for the surface as the brown and black mottled body spins past her.

When Katrina surfaces, she’s screaming and gasping.

But Amy is beside herself with glee. “Seal! Northern fur seal I think! Callorhinus! Unbelievable! This must be the furthest south any have been seen in generations!”

“Oh my god, what’s it doing?” Katrina swims frantically toward Amy. The seal has doubled back and bumps against her legs.

“Eh, I don’t know. Hopefully just playing.”

“Playing? Oh my god. It’s huge. You got to help—”

“Oh, yeah, you should definitely get out of the water. Here. Just grab the paddle. We can get you up on the hull.”

“Playing? Seriously?” Katrina doesn’t want to upset the kayak’s balance and roll Amy out so she just clutches the side of the boat. “They don’t let the dogs on Curl Curl Beach play with the sea lions because sometimes they drag them under and drown them, thinking the dogs can hold their breaths as long as sea lions can.”

“Yeah, don’t let him do that.”

“Him? You can tell it’s a him?” Katrina grips the hull of the kayak, her hair plastered sideways over the lifted mask and across her face. To Amy, she looks twelve.

“Well the males are so much bigger. And this one’s pretty big. No, I just think he fancies you, Katrina. Let’s get you back to the beach here…” Amy has to sit leaning away from Katrina to stay upright and she needs to dig to maneuver the boat back to the beach. It’s all she can do not to paddle in a circle.

“Please don’t bite. Please don’t bite. Aaah! He’s nudging me again! Hurry, Amy!”

“Hold your legs up along the hull.” Amy pushes her pace and gets the kayak gliding a bit. Within moments they’re on the grade of soft sand leading to the surf. Katrina stumbles when she finds her footing and charges as well as she can to the beach.

Once she gets to safety she expels a high-pitched “Wow!” to release the remaining panic and turns to haul the nose of the kayak out of the water. Amy pulls herself out and joins her at the verge. Looking across the water, Katrina spots the round head of the seal. “There he is. Hey, mate. Said it before and I’ll say it again. Gotta buy a girl a drink first.”

The seal just blinks at them, his black eyes shining. After a long moment he ducks down and vanishes.

Katrina removes her mask and scans the beach. “I’d like to see just what kind of romantic standards a Northern fur seal has. Hey, Jay! I think it’s your turn next.”

Ξ

There are always so many new projects on the island but Amy won’t forget her beloved birds ever again. The more she studies them, the more there is to study. She has counted twenty-three species as of this morning, six that haven’t been seen at this latitude for a hundred years or more and two species that may be new to science. It’s those two who get most of her attention.

Amy scans the cliffs with her binoculars, searching for the particular silhouettes and tailfeather colors that she first saw three days before. “But how, you may ask, can any pelagic migratory birds remain undiscovered in this day and age?” When she had first seen the long trailing feathers of the tropicbird she had assumed they were red-tailed, as were almost all those in the region. But these are different. Golden yellow tail streamers, unmistakable in direct sunlight yesterday, sent her scurrying for a field guide. To her immense satisfaction, no record of golden-tailed tropicbirds existed. These might be the only ones in the whole world. Phaeton Lisica. Her very own discovery. Tropicbirds look like terns, with the same gleaming white plumage, but these possess marvelous golden tail streamers twice as long as their bodies.

The other new species is something she’s only caught a glimpse of at a distance. It is dusky brown, the size of a robin, with white spots across its back and wings. And they’re fairly numerous. They flit like flakes of dirt among the pristine white and black birds. She focuses on one now, unable to make sense of its behavior among all the other species congregated on the cliffs until she realizes it’s stealing eggs from other nests. The gulls and petrels and murres all take turns chasing it off. That’s how she’ll spot one, by focusing on the squawking of the nesting birds.

It happens again. This is spring and the nesting season is in full swing. Many eggs to steal! A jaeger far above screeches and jabs at its own nest. The dun-colored invader falls away, spinning on a pinned wing. No, it’s holding an egg. Now the egg falls, tumbling down the side of the black cliff, where it lands with a messy detonation of yolk and shell against the rocks below.

She follows the egg-thief as it spins lazily downward, away from the outrage of the jaeger above. There is something off about the bird’s shape. If Amy could only resolve her focus better as it drops. But she can’t get a good look at it until it lands beside the mess of the egg and begins feeding on the bright orange remains.

It has a tiny owl’s head.

At first it looks so preposterous she can’t quite believe it’s real. This is like one of those Frankenstein pranks where a taxidermist has put the wrong head on a random body. There is no way this creature exists. Then she remembers the California pygmy variant of the Northern Spotted Owl, the birds whose imminent extinction stopped logging in redwood forests a generation ago. Their rarity is the stuff of legends.

And on Lisica they are common enough to be a pest. Ha.

Bemused, Amy watches the owl peck away at the egg’s remnants. Then her glasses travel back up the face of the cliff to see how the jaeger is dealing with the loss of the egg. But she overshoots the nest and gets lost near the top of the cliff. The outline of a straight board catches her attention and she takes the glasses from her eyes. Squinting at the spot, she can’t see the timber at this distance. Only by looking again through the binoculars… Yes. There it is, with perhaps a couple other boards there as well. What is that up there? Some kind of derelict viewing platform?

Amy suddenly recalls her time spent in the tunnels searching for Flavia. There had been that one dead-end passage that led to a limb-choked chimney climbing straight to the top. She’d thought daylight might be shining through from way up above…

“Hey, Jay…?” Amy hadn’t even realized she’d left her viewing spot on the beach to re-enter the camp. She’s in a daze, her mind tracing the chimney’s route up the cliff face.

“Yeah, boss?” Jay appears before her, studying her. “You okay? Look like you been smoking some of my stash.”

“No. Fine.” Amy shakes her head to clear it. “Okay. Uh. Guess what? Got a super dangerous adventure for you.”

“Right on!”

“It’s in the tunnels.”

“Even better!”

Ξ

Pradeep hurries into camp, eyes alight, holding a clump of dirt in both hands. It is shot through with white fungus. He holds it like it’s a priceless artifact, eager to share what he’s learned.

Everyone is busy with their own projects. But he isn’t looking to share his news with just anybody. It’s Alonso who will understand. Now where is he?

The big platform has been rebuilt and once again holds the Love Palace. But it is empty. No Alonso. And he isn’t at the tables. That means he must be in the bunker. Pradeep wishes he had a better hold on this clump of dirt. One bump and it will disintegrate in his hands. “Door!” he calls out to Amy as he approaches, and after a quick glance she opens it for him. “Alonso in here?”

She is busy with a washbin. “Don’t know where he is, actually…”

Pradeep looks into each of the cells. They are all empty. The clean room is also empty. Only Flavia works at the long tables on her laptop. Where is everyone? “Flavia, have you seen Alonso?”

She doesn’t look up from her screen. “The sub.”

That stops Pradeep. He has avoided the sub for a good long time now and he doesn’t relish the idea of confronting his anxiety again. “Really?” He balks, wondering if he can store this handful of soil somewhere and wait for Alonso to come back up. But his burning desire to share what he’s learned overrides his hesitancy. “Gah. Fuck this. Fine. Okay. Fine.”

Flavia finally registers this uncharacteristic outburst and turns to regard Pradeep. But he is already gone, marching with purpose toward the trap door and the steps leading down.

She shakes her head in disapproval. They won’t catch her going down there any more. Not as long as Wetchie-ghuy lives.

Pradeep ducks through the hatch connecting the first two rooms of the sub. It’s… different. Triquet has really turned this into a pristine museum, with black and white photos of the base adorning the walls, a few even in frames with glass. A brass lamp stands in a corner and a tattered multi-colored rug hangs from the concave wall. So much warmer and more inviting than it had been. He relaxes a bit. This no longer looks like an opening level from Half Life 2. And there are no monsters here. Just mischievous locals.

“Hello?” His voice still echoes in an eerie way he dislikes. But he can hear murmured voices further in. He ducks through another hatch and finds himself in the claustrophobically narrow passage. The first room is empty but the Captain’s quarters are quite crowded. Pradeep stands in the door and regards them.

Esquibel is in the chair nearest the door. Alonso sits up in the bed. Katrina is perched at its side and Mandy kneels at Alonso’s feet, holding his ankles.

Pradeep has no idea what to make of this scene.

Esquibel holds up a hand to forestall any objections Pradeep may have. “Triquet told us we could.”

Pradeep only nods. Katrina flashes him a brilliant smile. Mandy focuses on Alonso’s feet. But Alonso is happy to see him.

“There…! See, ladies? We cannot move along with all this quite yet. Pradeep has something to share, doesn’t he?”

“Not now, Pradeep.” Esquibel wards him away. “We’re trying to allow Alonso some space to achieve a different…”

“No. This is important. I can tell.” Alonso beckons Pradeep in. “You want to show us something.”

“Just this mychorrizae…” Now he is shy, feeling very much like he’s intruding on a deep intimacy. Pradeep holds it up, soil leaking from his fingers. “But I don’t want to—”

“No, I am very happy you are here.”

Now Esquibel admonishes him. “Alonso, if this is going to work, you need to sit back and not fight what is about to happen.”

“Just let yourself, you know, like stop working for once.” Mandy takes another deep breath.

“Ah. See. That is where you mistake me. About my relationship to work. I am a very lucky man. My work has always been my passion and I cannot divorce the two. Nothing makes me happier to see a young researcher eager to share their discovery. What is it, young researcher? A new type?”

“No. A change. In signaling compounds. Just in the last forty-eight hours. I’ve got proof! They’re talking to each other, Alonso. The trees and the roots and the soil. They’re really talking.” He thrusts his handful of soil under Alonso’s nose. “Roots fixed this photosynthate, right? So the way it works is the mycelium forages nutrients and water from the soil and exchanges them with trees and plants. Now it’s already been established in the literature that these interspecies networks resemble scale-free neural networks with functions akin to memory, recall, cooperative problem-solving, and…”

“Wait.” Esquibel has her hand up again. “Are you telling me that you think the trees are talking to each other?”

Pradeep nods. “Not just me. This theory is pretty well-accepted in the forestry sciences these days. The only real debate is to what extent there may be any meta-cognitive function and how much we should anthropomorphize them. These fungus filaments aren’t really neurons or memory circuits, in certain situations they just act somewhat like them. See, after the last storm, there was a major shift of groundwater resources on the eastern side of the grove. And the mycelium networks from one edge, where there was no water, increased their signaling chemicals and the mycorrhizae at the other edge somehow knew where to find the water, and grew toward it, without knowing themselves where that resource would be! They must have communicated! And I just witnessed it happening here in realtime!”

“Meaning…?” Alonso gropes for the essence of Pradeep’s excitement. He has lost track somewhere along the way…

“Meaning…” Katrina cocks her head to the side, “we can hack the signal network and start singing to the trees?”

This idea strikes Pradeep dumb. He hadn’t even considered interfering in the process. But the notion makes Alonso giggle. He sees himself as a conductor before an entire grove of trees, arms high, inspired by their chorus. He giggles again. What a crazy idea. “A forest of chorus. A chorus forest. Who thought of this…?”

The others look at Alonso with patient indulgence. But Pradeep is a bit crestfallen. He thought this would really galvanize Alonso and prompt him to share even deeper insights into Plexity. Instead he finds him… doing what, exactly? “Uh, I thought of this. But like I said, it’s well-supported in the literature. I’m just the first, I think, to observe it in this type of North American arboreal—”

“No, Pradeep, what you don’t understand,” Esquibel says more gently than she usually does, “is that Alonso has already begun his MDMA-assisted therapy. He took two pills…” She checks her phone. “Fourteen minutes ago. And I think he is starting to feel effects. Are you, Alonso?”

But Alonso can hardly hear her over the unbridled joy suddenly radiating from him. He feels like a child again. Hunching his shoulders, he squeezes his face into a grimace of joy. “Yaaaay!”

Katrina chuckles drily. “I think he feels something, yeh.”

“His feet are finally relaxing, that’s for sure.” Mandy shakes them a trifle, trying to get him to release them further.

Pradeep stands in the middle of the room with his handfuls of dirt, quite sure he’s messed up yet again. His anxiety plucks at his face, narrowing his eyes. He has to retreat. Now. All the way back to the surface. Before he does anything else he’ll regret.

But Esquibel delays him with a soft touch on his wrist. “It’s fine, Pradeep. Everything is fine. It appears Alonso won’t even recall seeing you. I told you, Katrina. Two is too many.”

“He definitely gets the double tap. Lad weighs a hundred kilos. One wouldn’t have done anything. And then he’d tell us it just doesn’t work for him and he wouldn’t ever try it again.”

“Wait.” Alonso sits up. “I took the drugs, didn’t I?”

Katrina nods. “That you did, boss. You’re safe now. Nothing can harm you. That’s what Molly’s got to tell you. You can relax.”

“Really?” At first he doesn’t believe it, but then it is as if a facade on the front of Alonso begins to crumble and fall away. He lifts trembling fingers to his face. Making contact with his own skin instantly changes his emotional state. “Oh, I am so glad I shaved. It feels so much better. Oh. Katrina.”

“Yes, Alonso?”

“You are so beautiful. Would you believe me if I told you I used to be very handsome?”

The room fills with laughter. For a moment Alonso thinks they are laughing at how preposterous that is. He swells himself up to defend the statement but Katrina catches his hand up in hers and kisses it. “Oh, Doctor Alonso. I have no trouble seeing that at all. I mean, you are still so handsome…”

But she obviously doesn’t understand. “No. No no. Not if you think this—this ruin I am now is handsome. It makes me seriously question your standards and taste. Ask Miriam. Ask Amy. She knew me first. Ask them how I used to look. Walking into a room, it would alter… everything. I miss that. Having that power. Such an easy power and I took it for granted.” He looks at Katrina. “You know, Katrina. You know what it is like to have that power. How people look at you with that extra bit of attention? Because you are so beautiful.”

“Aw, shucks…” Katrina just plays along, navigating these ardent emotional streams with ease. But Alonso isn’t done.

“And you, Esquibel. You are so proud and… regal. You know what it is like to—And Mandy… And Pradeep. Ha. We are all a bunch of good-looking motherfuckers in here, aren’t we?”

This makes them all laugh again. Even Pradeep loses his fears about Alonso’s condition. He was preparing to get embarrassed on Alonso’s behalf but the older man is so open and sincere Pradeep can’t bring himself to do it.

“It is a spell we can cast. But after our youth is spent we lose it. We are no longer shiny. We are broken.” But there is no pain in Alonso’s words. It is only an observation.

“How do your feet feel, Alonso?” Mandy ventures to hold them a trifle more firmly.

A single tear rolls down Alonso’s cheek but he doesn’t register it. “They are in agony, thank you.” His brow is otherwise clear. “Oh, I love drugs. Where is Miriam? I need her to kiss me.”

“Remember how we decided she might be more of a distraction? How she thought it would be better for you to find this on your own? Remember?”

But Alonso doesn’t remember. He is caught in the present moment with no memory, no context. “Remember what?” Now the MDMA hits him hard, like a heavy velvet carpet unrolling along his body, weighing him down. A sexual thrill shoots through his loins and he squeezes Katrina’s hand, finding this bare skin contact as intimate as any he’s ever had.

“Isn’t this when you start guiding?” Esquibel still has reservations about this therapy and considers it just a step above witchcraft in the best settings. Trying one of these sessions in a buried sub with an untrained Katrina can’t be the best settings. Oh, well. Esquibel is pretty sure this will be a failure and after a bit she can give up and go back to useful projects for the day.

“Soon,” Katrina says. “This is about a three hour pace we’re on here. No hurry. We want him to wash out everything he might be holding at this level before we can settle and drop down another level. It’s like flushing impurities from a pipe.”

“I love opera.” Alonso informs them of this as if he never has. He begins a rolling baritone introduction to one of his favorite solos, but then interrupts himself. “Ha! Things are getting sweaty in here. I need to… Someone help…” Alonso tears at the snaps on his shirt.

Katrina gently helps him get his shirt off.

Alonso sighs, bitter. “See? Women’s eyes used to light up when they saw this.” He flexes his pecs. “But now… I am just a sad old man. They said I looked like a young Raúl Julia. But ehh… You don’t even know who that is. Yes, I am old.” But as he speaks the bitterness fades and he merely utters them as statements of fact. “Pradeep. You are gorgeous. If I was single, you would probably be the one I chased the most. I love that you love dirt and fungus. You are a crazy freak like me.”

Pradeep smiles his widest and most glassy smile. He is very far from his comfort zone now. Esquibel gives him a dimpled smile. He looks away to Mandy. She is chuckling at him. “Well…” he ventures, “this is excruciating.”

Now they all laugh at Pradeep. He suppresses another urge to flee. He doesn’t want to cause a scene. They do want him here…

“Come. Sit. Tell me more about your fungus in that lovely voice. It is so soothing.”

“Is that what we should be discussing here?” Esquibel didn’t like hearing this might last three hours. This hard wooden chair isn’t nearly comfortable enough for that span.

Katrina smiles. “We should discuss whatever we want to discuss, right, Alonso? Just let the conversation go where it wants to—”

“Yes.” Alonso sits up and draws his legs under him, Mandy withdrawing her hands and sitting back. But he doesn’t even see her. “And I am very interested in you, Pradeep. Your mind. The way it works. The way you see the interconnections. The web of life.” Alonso reaches out and grabs Pradeep’s hand, inadvertently knocking most of the dirt onto the bed. But he doesn’t register that either. He is only looking deeply into Pradeep’s liquid black eyes…

Pradeep is fixated by this gaze. Alonso’s eyes hold such power, such wisdom and tragedy. And also an unapologetic attraction that Pradeep finds strangely comforting. He has never been too hung up on gender roles—he always thought that side of Indian culture was very retrograde—but the romantic regard of another man is new territory to him. Coming from a hero of his makes him feel wanted, as though he belongs. Perhaps this has been the key to his anxiety all along. His conviction that wherever he is, he really isn’t wanted there. Well he is wanted here. He does all he can not to tear his gaze away.

“What a man.” Alonso shakes his head in admiration and breaks his magnetic gaze. “Well. You were going to tell me more about your soil but—oh, no! You spilled it!”

Ξ

Flavia can’t ignore her bladder any longer. It had gotten so bad she had to stop working around 10pm and she’s just been playing solitaire on her laptop for the last ninety minutes. Everyone else is asleep. Yet she can’t abide the thought of going outside in the dark alone. She was hoping her body would just kind of shut down and let her be til morning. It was the after-dinner espresso, she is sure of it, a strong diuretic purging her body of moisture.

Ahhh! She can’t handle it any more. With shallow breaths she closes the laptop’s lid, slips on her camp shoes, and casts about quickly for some kind of weapon. She sees nothing. Well. Maybe there is a stick or something out there.

It is at the forefront of Flavia’s mind as she crosses the bunker to the door that the last time somebody went out alone, as far as she knows, it was Katrina and she was hijacked by those kids for hours.

Wouldn’t Esquibel tell Flavia that she needs to bring someone with her? Well, if it was Esquibel’s idea then Flavia will wake her up. Make her walk the walk, literally. But where is she?

Flavia shines the pale wash of her phone’s screen into each cell. There’s Esquibel, wrapped cozily up with Mandy, both gently snoring and at peace. She realizes this won’t work. It will take Esquibel too long to wake up. Flavia needs to go now.

With a vicious curse under her breath, she spins back to the door. Wetchie-ghuy, I will kick you to death if you are out there. Flavia isn’t religious but still intuitively superstitious. The cold night air, the quiet, and the ground fog are omens. She hurries across the camp.

Halfway to the trenches she sees that a light is on in Jay’s cocoon of a hammock and it gently swings back and forth. Flavia calls out, “Jay. Are you awake?”

The hammock, enclosed by bug netting and covered partially by a diamond-shaped blue tarp, changes shape. Jay sits up. “Flavia? What’s up? What are you doing out here in the wee—?”

“Please, will you come with me to the trenches? I am very scared. I can’t be alone but I can’t wait any more. Per favore.”

“Yeah. Sure. Of course.” Jay unzips his cocoon and hops out barefoot and wearing black boxer briefs and a tank top.

Flavia pauses only for a moment before realizing he isn’t making any other preparations. He just stands there expectant, ready to follow. Such a little boy. He doesn’t even think about shoes…

She wastes no more time getting to the trenches. Jay stands at a respectful distance, turned away, softly singing Bob Marley: “Don’t worry, ‘bout a thing. Cause every little thing’s gonna be alright.”

When Flavia is done she re-joins him, far better composed. She puts a hand on his arm. “Thank you so much. Now we can go back and you can go to sleep.”

“Well now I need a turn first.” And before Flavia can make any protest, Jay steps into the darkness obscuring the trenches. She can hear him, but she suddenly feels very alone. Unwillingly she glances around her. And that’s when she sees the woman watching her. It is Wetchie-ghuy’s woman, the one who showed her how to wear the loop around her wrist. Flavia gasps, stumbling back. Is that another figure behind her in shadow?

A hand spreads across her back and she shrieks. But it is Jay. “Whoa. Careful. Don’t fall into the… Hey, who’s that?”

The woman and the shadow behind her, limned by starlight, haven’t moved.

“Lisicans! Right on! Hey, I hear you like music!” He ambles toward them with a kind of demonstrative bow-legged easy-going manner. “Three little birds,” he sings, “pitch by my doorstep…!”

“Jay. Jay, don’t.” But he is out of reach and she won’t take another step toward them. “Jay!”

He turns, a wide smile on his face. Why Flavia gotta be so harsh? What will the Lisicans think?

Flavia urgently beckons Jay to return. “That is Wetchie-ghuy and his wife. The man who tried to steal me. Come back here.”

“Uhh. Serious?” Jay peers more closely at the shadowed couple. “Huh. They don’t look dangerous.”

This isn’t what she needs to hear. Flavia fills with a black rage. Now she really wants a weapon. Something, anything to brain these people with. And maybe knock some sense into Jay’s head. She points at the cliffs and barks at the Lisicans. “Go. Go away. Bad. Nák. Wetchie-ghuy chán.”

But the figures remain impassive, just watching her.

Jay turns back to her. “Hey, I got an idea.” Impulsively, he grabs Flavia and kisses her, long and passionate. Her eyes go wide. Jay releases her and turns back to the figures in the gloom. “She’s mine. You hear? You can’t have her, dude. We’ve been married for like, uh, two years.” He holds her hands and faces her like they’re being betrothed right now.

Flavia regains her bearings after this unexpected gesture. A part of her wants to think Jay is taking advantage of her during this crisis but what she has seen of him so far, he isn’t like most men. It’s clear to see he really didn’t kiss her for his own pleasure. The earnest expression on his face almost convinces her they’ve actually had a long intimate relationship. She smiles widely and squeezes his hands, then kisses him back, needing to go on tiptoes to reach him. Despite the sham nature of it, it still feels nice. Flavia can’t remember the last time she kissed someone like he was her boyfriend. She places a hand alongside his cheek and leans in, demonstrating her ardor. Jay gives her a soft smile, for once appearing older than his age. Ai me. When he settles down he is actually quite nice to look at, isn’t he?

After a long moment, the tender spell breaks and she looks away. The two Lisicans have vanished. They are alone here in the dark. She leans into Jay, shivering, the chill starting to penetrate her bones. “Take me back to bed, darling,” she says loudly.

“Sure thing, princess.” Then Jay giggles, realizing he just called Flavia of all people a princess. He restrains the impulse to pat her bottom, like he used to do with his college girlfriend Carine. She used to like it. He wasn’t sure if Flavia would. Actually, he’s pretty damn sure she wouldn’t. They pass by the spot the two Lisicans had stood. Definitely empty. “Man. If you weren’t with me, Flavia, I’d think that was some kind of hallucination.”

“And if you weren’t with me, Jay, I don’t know if I’d still be here.” She shivers again, dragging his left arm over her shoulders. The big ox is warm, that’s for sure. And she likes his chances if it comes to a fight. Also, he is a good cook. She looks up at his face. This is a quality individual here. He just put himself in danger for her, without a single thought of himself. Flavia hadn’t thought much of Jay until this moment. In fact, they probably hadn’t spoken more than a handful of words to each other over the last three weeks. But now she can tell she had dismissed him unfairly.

They pass by his hammock. “Guess I’ll walk you to your door. Hell of a date, Flavia. Maybe next time I take you out bowling?”

She giggles, clutching at him again. Now Flavia is warming up and the fear that spiked her insides is melting like an icicle. “The crazy thing about you, Jay, is nobody here is such an American. But in a good way.”

“Ehh… I think of myself more of a Californian, actually. We have less to be ashamed of. I mean, yeah we exterminated all our natives too and set up a capitalist techno-state along the coast. But we still got that surfer vibe, bra. Awesome food. Killer weed.”

The more he talks, the less she likes him. They stand at the door of the bunker and Flavia hushes him with a finger against his lips. They peer into the darkness, still holding hands.

“They might need to see,” he reasons, “a good night kiss.”

But Flavia shakes her head no. “This is stupid. Wives and their husbands don’t say good night to each other at doors like this. They go inside together.” Flavia thinks this through. Lisicans have been in the bunker. Wetchie-ghuy and his wife could also get in. They could find her alone in her cell, sleeping in that cot. She clutches at Jay. “Would it be too much to ask, Jay…?”

But he has come to a different conclusion. The camp is clear. He can say good night to Flavia and get back to the fantasy novel he was reading on his phone. Druss, Captain of the Ax, was just about to do something epic. “Ask what?”

“For you to spend the night with me?”

Jay looks at Flavia with surprise. “For real? Me? In your bed?”

“In my bed. So I can feel safe. And sleep. So if they come in, they can see that I am still with my husband.”

“Yeah. Sure.” Jay shakes his head and grimaces though. “But I gotta confess, as a feminist, I’m not really into this, though.”

His preposterous statement catches Flavia opening the door and she can’t help but laugh, too loud in the quiet bunker. “Wait wait wait. A… feminist? You?” she whispers, needing very much to hear the rest of this train of thought.

“Yeah. I’m all about my sisters, yo,” Jay whispers in reply, following Flavia to her cell. “And I’m happy to keep you safe tonight but it can’t be the longterm answer, you know what I’m saying? The power has to rest in the woman’s hands.”

Flavia shakes her head, bemused. She leads him into her cell and rearranges the sleeping bag on the cot. “I never hear a man talking like this. Who even raised you?”

“Hippies.”

“Ah. I did not have them growing up, I guess.”

“Yeah, once I called my brother a bitch and my Mom whooped me for like half an hour. Said keep that misogynistic shit out of your mouth. Learned the lesson young.”

“Good for your mother. Do you mind being against the wall?”

“Don’t care.” Jay stretches out on the cot. “Sleep like a dog. It’s getting late, isn’t it? Well. Good night.”

He folds his arms under his head and closes his eyes. Flavia looks at him, nearly two meters in length and no more than eighty kilos. He is all long lean muscle and no fat. And his face carries not a care in the world. It causes resentment in her, that a shining golden boy like this can live such a carefree life, untroubled by all the issues mere mortals like her contend with.

She lies down beside him, his shoulder her pillow. Yes, he is quite warm. Almost as comfortable as Boris her big Alsatian. And just about as complicated.

Flavia sleeps better than she has since she got to the island.

Lisica Chapters

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Book II – Empirical Emotions

16 – Again And Again

Pradeep leads Mandy and Katrina on an expedition to the west edge of Tenure Grove. It’s gotten less attention so far because it is nothing but impenetrable undergrowth. But they’re dressed for it. Katrina wears pinstripe coveralls. Pradeep carries his collection pack. Mandy is in her red storm parka zipped up to her chin.

“You’re going to get holes in it,” Pradeep tells Mandy when they pause at the edge of the brush. “And it will be so hot.”

“Nothing gets through this fabric.” Mandy proudly presents a sleeve the thickness of canvas. “A Norwegian fish boat pilot I met swears by it. He said even their flensing knives can’t go through it. Cost like my entire budget that month. But yeah. It doesn’t breathe at all. So if things get too active in there I’ll definitely start boiling.”

Pradeep turns his attention to the closest shrub. “So this must be a variant of boxwood or myrtle.” He snares a limb, finger-thick, growing nearly straight out of the ground and towering over his head. Its little serrated diamond leaves hang in yellow-green clusters. “Some have berries. But this doesn’t. I think it’s probably an Oregon Boxwood. Here is a quite stout rhododendron. And these are… five-finger ferns? My fern game is sadly very weak.” He pushes through their fronds to a larger, different type. “And this is, ah, Western sword fern? Look at the size of it. I’ve never seen one so big. Now…” Pradeep kneels and pulls its broad fronds aside. “Yes, down here. Look.”

Katrina and Mandy kneel beside him. There is a dark understory beneath the green thicket above, its floor littered with gray and black dead leaves, stretching ahead into impassable stands of bare limbs. Mandy shares an uncertain look with Katrina, who shrugs.

Pradeep is too excited to contain himself. With one of his brilliant smiles and a flourish he declares, “Thank you for coming… to the fantastical world of spiders!”

Mandy pulls away with a little shriek.

Katrina makes a face. “Ah. Aha. Spiders? That’s what we’re doing? I thought you were going to show us something, ehh…”

“Like the twister in the nook!” Mandy crosses her arms. “Dude, you can’t just say who wants to see something and oh yeah bring your burliest clothes, then not tell us it’s to go mess with spiders.”

The enthusiasm fades from Pradeep’s face. “I always forget how people feel about spiders. Uh. That’s fine. You don’t need to stay.”

They’re both touched by how crestfallen he is. Katrina puts a hand on his shoulder. “It’s okay, mate. I’m not frightened of them. It’s just… not what I was expecting.”

With a sigh, Mandy puts the hood of her parka up and cinches it. “You know we still love you, Pradeep. You’re just a weirdo. So what’s the plan? Are we collecting spiders? Do you have gloves?”

“Well, if you don’t want to, maybe you could just stand back and document them with pictures? Unless you aren’t comfortable…”

“No, that’s fine. I can take pictures. Do they bite? I mean, I know spiders bite. But are any here like super aggressive?”

“Well. I’ll do all the collecting. So if any of them attack they will jump at me.” Pradeep crawls in first.

“Well. Glad I wore coveralls.” Katrina kneels and follows. “Are we looking for all spiders? Just the ones on the ground? Or just—? Yeh, there’s a web right there. But I don’t see a spider. Aren’t those called weavers? Such a pretty name.”

“Ah, yes, that’s the classic Araneid bullseye pattern. Fresh too. She is probably hiding on a twig at one of the anchor points. Excuse me. Let me just get in there if I could…”

Katrina retreats from her spot and Pradeep pushes past her, their bodies bumping and scraping in the tight passage. Katrina laughs. “Oo baby. Whatever happened to personal space? Remember that one time I like touched your arm and you freaked? I guess I should have just had a spider to show you.”

Pradeep is intent on the web, unaware that what he presses so roughly against is soft flesh. “Eh? Oh. Yes, I suppose I can get kind of focused when I’m working. Sorry.”

“No worries. Like at all, big boy.” Katrina’s juices are stirring. She hasn’t gone this long without a good shag since she was like fifteen. And now his arm is grazing her nipple and he doesn’t even realize it. She blows Pradeep a kiss and he finally tunes in to her flirtations enough to blush.

Mandy crouches at the edge of the understory, peering in. “And how is this dark hollow filled with spiders and god knows what else not giving you anxiety, Pradeep? I mean, if you don’t mind me asking. There’s all kinds of nightmare fuel in here. Like, what more do you need?”

“Most of my anxieties…” Pradeep speaks absently, shining his phone’s light on the web so he can follow its strands to the spider’s likely hideout, “…are social ones. It’s people who get to me. Flora and fauna aren’t… mean or selfish. They just are.”

“See, I have trouble with unknowns too.” Mandy takes a picture of Pradeep and Katrina with her phone, the flash a brilliant spike in the dark. They both grimace, blinded. “That’s how I got into the study of weather. It’s like the least predictable thing in the whole world and I needed to feel like I understood it so that, well… I mean, really it’s because I’m a control freak.”

“No…” Katrina’s voice drips with disbelief. “Say it ain’t so.”

“What?” Mandy grows self-conscious. “You noticed? Aw shoot. I thought I’d been pretty good out here so far. I haven’t strangled Amy over her placement of the kitchen yet or needed to re-arrange the lab tables five times a day. I’ve been behaving.”

“Esquibel revealed what’s behind that sweet little smile of yours. Told me all about your mastermind plans for world domination.”

“She did? What did she say?” Now Mandy is intrigued. It’s no secret that both she and Esquibel find Katrina hot. Is her lover talking Mandy down so she can make moves on Katrina herself? No, Esquibel would never do that. Would she?

“It was when we thought we’d lost Maahjabeen and she was worried about how upset you were. Esquibel said you were wasting away because you couldn’t control the situation.”

“Hmf.” Mandy doesn’t know how she feels about that. Part of her is touched by the concern. But isn’t this an invasion of privacy? Or perhaps they’re all just becoming better friends, learning more about each other. “Well, you should know Esquibel can be very controlling too. And she always kicks me when we sleep.”

Pradeep and Katrina laugh. He says, “I’ve never met a doctor who isn’t controlling. Absolute career prerequisite, I’m sure.”

“So, I’ll just like be your scout I guess.” Katrina crouches deeper and scuttles ahead, pushing the bare limbs aside. “Oh, here’s a good one! And look at the size of the lad! What a color!”

Pradeep squawks in excitement and pushes right up against Katrina. The spider sitting in the center of is web is bright orange and as big as his littlest fingernail. Its black and white legs hook its web, patiently waiting for a meal. Several former winged insects are bundled within the strands, their juices sucked dry. “That is a lovely Argiope. But the web has no stabilimentum. Curious. Most related species do. This might be a new one.” He smiles at Katrina, only a handspan away. “We can name it after you. You discovered it. Would you prefer Argiope katrina or oksana?”

Mandy has crawled in, up against their feet. She chirps, “I think it has to be Argiope dj bubblegum.”

They all laugh.

Katrina’s attraction to Pradeep is rising to new levels. He is the definition of tall, dark, and handsome. And he is just the sweetest and oddest man. Nobody has ever offered to name a species after her before. She finds herself falling into his dark brown eyes. If she knew it wouldn’t make him squeal like a schoolgirl she’d kiss him. Katrina takes a deep breath before she gets carried away. Oh, well. This randy girl will just have to satisfy herself with Pradeep’s firm body pressed up against hers.

But then in a sudden surprise, Mandy climbs over both of them, flattening them in the dead leaf litter. They collapse with a laugh as she demands, “I want to see!” She rests her chin on Pradeep’s shoulder, her leg over Katrina’s rump. “Oh my god, it’s so pretty!”

“Well, this is the craziest threesome I’ve ever been in.” Katrina turns and kisses Mandy instead, a brief sweet peck. When she pulls back she can tell from the look in Mandy’s eyes the girl is hungry for more. Well well. This is news to Katrina. She’s not sure if that’s a good idea. The last thing she needs is to get Esquibel angry with her. She’s the bloody doctor.

“Can I please get up?” Pradeep’s muffled voice breaks the spell.

Katrina giggles and turns away, wiping the corner of her mouth.

Mandy stares at her with a gimlet smile. More than anything, she is flattered that this gorgeous blonde Australian girl likes her enough to kiss her. All the rest of it can wait.

Katrina scoots forward down a forking opening, scouting further. Mandy rolls off Pradeep into the empty space and takes out her phone. She takes a picture of the spider named after Katrina and makes it a favorite by pressing on the heart.

“Oh, wow!” Katrina calls out. She’s advanced a few meters and they can’t see her. “Check this out!”

Pradeep army crawls toward the sound of Katrina’s voice…

The natives. It must have been the people of Lisica who’d cleared out this hidden chamber under the boxwood, an oval roughly five meters in diameter. Several large trunks act as columns, but the ground has been swept clear of litter and a couple flat redwood bark planks serve as furniture along the far wall.

Pradeep and Mandy crawl in, exclaiming in surprise one after the other. “This is incredible.” Mandy and Katrina can stand but he remains kneeling. “How many hidden spots do they have here?”

“And we thought for two whole weeks we were the only people on Lisica.” Katrina chuckles at the fallacy.

“Yeah. Well.” Mandy sits on one of the planks, unable to focus on this shadowed hollow. She still feels the glow of Katrina’s kiss. But she’s unsure what made the girl pull away and now she’s starting to get worried that she might never get a taste of those sweet lips again. Mandy sighs. “This place is full of mysteries.”

Ξ

Jay swings in his hammock, staring at the intershot network of branches above and the gray clouds. He could be anywhere on the whole west coast from the Sur up to Oregon’s Gold Coast. They couldn’t have found a biome that feels more to him like home.

And now he can’t move. God damn it. Being injured sucks balls. He pushed it way too hard yesterday, and now even though his bladder is nearly bursting the last thing he wants to do is fall out of the snug hammock and crawl his dumb ass down to the jakes.

“Man, that is a hell of a maze down there.” The sound of his voice in the quiet gets him going. With a groan he grabs both edges of the hammock and heaves himself up, his lower back and hips screaming. This is when he usually lifts his legs and swings them over the edge but his obliques and quads are having none of that.

Jay grunts, locked up. He’s used to waking up in a hammock sore and empty. His usual twenty mile days on steep coastal mountains end footsore and delirious. Especially if he’s been smoking mad herb. But yesterday he did like twenty miles on his belly. And as his high school soccer coach taught him, no matter how good of shape you’re in, you’re only in good shape for that activity. A runner can’t just suddenly swim. They’re whole different muscle groups and kinesthetic chains. A runner isn’t even ready to play soccer. Not until they strengthen their lower calves and hip flexors for that stop/start burst. So Jake, who hasn’t been underground in almost a year, is not at all in shape for a marathon caving sesh. And definitely not with a broken hand and dislocated ankle.

He rolls over his right shoulder onto the ground, landing in the sand on his face, which sends a sharp pain through the base of his skull. Oh, great. Now his neck hurts too? Man. Careful there. He had bad tension headaches as a kid. The last thing he needs is for them to return. Maybe he can convince Mandy to work on it. When she isn’t tearing his scar tissue apart, she actually does some pretty great deep massage. Her touch on his skin sure feels nice. Too bad she’s taken. He halts that train of thought and chuckles at himself. Look, chief, she ain’t for you. He doesn’t know if Mandy is gay or bi or monogamous or whatever but he just doesn’t want to get on Esquibel’s bad side. She’s the fucking doctor.

“I’m having… like a competition… with Maahjabeen…” Getting himself to his feet takes a comically long time. “See… who… heals last!” Finally he straightens. Well, kind of. He totters forward barefoot in the cold sand. “And I win! Suck it, ocean girl.”

On his way back from the trenches his limbs start to unwind. It’s clear that a little walk around camp is in order. He’s famished too. If he’s going to get any work done today he’s going to need some fuel. Didn’t someone say there was a carton of powdered eggs that still hadn’t been unpacked? Let’s see what he can make of those.

“Anybody else hungry?” As far as Jay can tell camp is empty but a lone, deep voice calls out, “Me. Por favor.”

“Alonso, my man. Coming right up. How’s a tofu omelet sound? With maybe like… You know what? Amy and me are thinking of harvesting some seaweed. Maybe if we get some edible varieties we can actually get some salad back on the menu. And if it’s too tough I was thinking we could steep it in your red wine for a few days.”

“An omelet would be amazing.”

Jay laughs at the disembodied voice and starts looking at the bins that remain unopened. “Yes sir, leave the seaweed experiments up to me. Good call. Aha! Here we go! Eggs for days! And a whole canister of powdered garlic! I’m in heaven!”

Twenty minutes later, Jay presents Alonso with a steaming plate on a tray with a mug of tea and dried bananas and blueberries as garnish. Alonso sets aside his laptop and accepts it with a grateful smile. Then he sighs hugely and rubs his eyes. He’s been at work now for hours.

“It looks delicioso. But where is yours?”

“Yeah, I ate as I cooked. Already done. Got a little excited and burned myself.” Jay, speaking with more care than normal because of his scalded tongue, sits on the platform at Alonso’s side.

Alonso laughs at him. “My god, you are your own worst enemy. You get hurt every day. Are you like this on every trip or is this one somehow special?”

Jay laughs at himself, carefree. “Yeah, I’m an idiot. You know what I think my trouble is here? Lisica is so familiar that I keep subconsciously like letting my guard down, thinking I’m still on home turf. But it isn’t. This is an island in the middle of the ocean. I forget I got to bring my A game at all times.”

“That is some good insight there, hermano. So tell me. What was it like underground?”

“Well, it’s pretty cool. Triquet told us about this bioluminescent fungus and I spent like twenty minutes trying to take a picture of it. Here’s the best one.” Jay takes out his phone and shows Alonso a dim blue-green fluorescent blob, grainy and out of focus.

Alonso grunts, then carves another slice out of the omelet. “This is so good. How did you make it so fluffy?”

“Had to whip it like a French chef. Yeah…” Jay frowns at his fungus picture. “Can’t really tell anything about it at all. Too bad. This is supposed to be for Prad. Any idea where he is?”

“He went off that way with a couple others.” Alonso points his fork at the west end of the grove. The more of the omelet he eats, the faster he wants to eat it. It really is the tastiest meal he’s had in days. Too soon, the last bite is gone. “Ahh. Thank you very much, Jay. That omelet was fantastic.”

“Sure thing. You can have one every day. Yeah, Miriam did a great job setting lines down there so I never felt lost. It’s just… there’s so much. All this digging must be like their second job or something. Come and haul out another few shovels of dirt like your grandpa did every day of his whole life. We still ain’t done yet.”

“So these are not natural tunnels?”

“I mean, some are. Carved by water. But most are dug. And then there’s the concrete culvert under the beach. I have no idea what the military was thinking. Maybe they were going to run it all the way up to the pool to give themselves a better source of water? The sea cave and its hidden base needed to be supplied? I don’t know. You’re going to have to get down there yourself somehow and check it out.”

“That appears sadly out of the question.” Alonso squeezes his knees. It is not only his feet that were broken. His torturers swung their rods against his shins and knees with equal ferocity. “But I appreciate the report from the front lines. Oh! I cannot work any more. I need to do something, anything. Even if it hurts.”

“Okay, partner.” Jay groans as he pulls himself to his feet. He collects Alonso’s tray with one hand and holds out the other for Alonso to grasp. “Come with me. Let’s go take a look at things.”

It feels like climbing a mountain, getting out of this camp chair. But Alonso lets Jay haul him forward and up and then he totters on those two broken pillars of dull fire again. Their heat will intensify, the longer he stands on them. The clock has already started ticking. “Where are we headed?”

Jay cackles, happy to have gotten Alonso to come with him. “I don’t know. Where haven’t you been yet?”

“Anywhere.” Alonso shrugs. “I was on the beach at first. Then I’ve been in the bunker and…” He shrugs again, realizing how sad it is. “That’s all, I guess.”

“Oh, man. You haven’t even seen the waterfall? Wait. I’ve got an idea. Give me ten seconds to get rid of this.”

Jay hobbles away with the tray. Alonso watches him go, then realizes he should get started moving in that direction. Jay will catch up to him. Ah! There was that one other time he ventured into the bushes here to pee. That’s when he saw the native child. A vision. A vision that has come true. Remember, Alonso. Be careful here. This is where you tripped and cracked your head open last time. By the time he catches his breath, Jay has returned with Triquet, who wears a floral housecoat and a scarf.

Now Jay carries a duffel bag, nearly full. “Hey, Alonso, do you know how to play cribbage?”

“Eh?” Images flicker through Alonso’s mind, of his uncle, Julio, and his nicotine-stained fingers and the nicotine-stained cards he always carried. Cribbage was one of the many games the dapper old Spaniard had taught him. His earliest introduction to number theory, probability, and statistics. “Yes. Why?”

“Because,” Triquet gently links their arm with Alonso’s to provide support, “when Mister Hophead here asked in the bunker if anyone wanted to smoke a doobie and play cribbage by the pool I couldn’t resist.”

“Oh. Is that what we’re doing?” Alonso leans against Triquet, his heart easing. “Ah, Triquet. Thank you. I’d follow you anywhere.”

Jay shows them the contents of the duffel. “Indica for the aches and pains. And you get to sit on the bank and put your feet in the water. Look. I’ve got a blanket.”

He pushes his way through a stand of ferns, the ground covered in clover and luminous moss. They follow, finally fetching up at the edge of the pool. Alonso stares at the falling cascade, struck by its grace and beauty. “I saw it on the drone video. From above. But it is so much bigger than I thought it would be! It is glorious! But wait, Triquet. This is what you tried to dive through?”

Triquet makes a face. “Did I tell you how desperate I was at the time? And that it doesn’t look so dangerous from the other side?”

“You are crazy. I take back all the nice things I just said about you.” Alonso pushes on Triquet’s arm in jest.

“Definitely a baller move.” Jay puts a fleece blanket down over the irregular rock shelf at the pool’s edge. “And you still somehow escaped unscathed. You’ll have to teach me your ways.”

They lower Alonso’s suffering body onto the blanket. Soon, a game of three-handed cribbage is in full swing. They fall to silently arranging their cards and taking drags off the joint. Alonso’s head immediately starts to swim. He has never been much of a smoker but the high is similar enough to wine to be enjoyable.

“But wait. The whole point was to get Alonso’s feet in the water.”

Jay’s voice comes from a long way away. Oh no. Miriam was right. This is powerful shit. His perspective telescopes forward and back like in a Hitchcock movie. He drops his gaze to watch Triquet fuss with his shoes. Those are Alonso’s own feet but they seem so far away. Good. The pain is in the distance.

“Tell me if I’m going too fast.”

Yes, Triquet also sounds far away. Everyone is so far. How sad. It’s just Alonso and the waterfall now.

“Jay.” Triquet snaps their fingers in front of Alonso’s face, trying to get his attention. “I think you broke him.”

“Yeah, I doubt he had much access to weed in a VA hospital. Well, let’s get his feet in the water and see if that helps.”

The cold water against Alonso’s skin is like an electric shock. It jolts through him with an awful stab, jangling his nerves. But he doesn’t pull his feet out. The THC and its related cannabinoids soothe him as the shock turns to crystal cold vitality. There is life in this water. It runs up his legs, recharging him. As the cold eases the ache in his feet, circuits are completed within him for the first time in nearly six years and Alonso rouses himself.

“Fifteen-two, fifteen-four, and a run of three is seven.” Alonso startles them by adding up his score and pushing the cards toward Jay. He suddenly feels great, better than he has in years.

“Well well well.” Triquet nods, happy to see their efforts bearing fruit. Alonso’s face clears and for the very first time here on Lisica, he looks like the man Triquet saw when they first met. It was way back when they were an undergrad and Alonso came to Ann Arbor to lecture. Triquet had gotten an instant crush on the older man. He had been so stylish and accomplished. Not like the victim they’ve been nursing here the last couple weeks.

Triquet takes another light puff. No need to get wasted. This is just a little break in the day before getting back to urgent matters such as locating Flavia in the interior and establishing some kind of relationship with the Lisicans. “I’ve got a double run for eight.”

Jay frowns. “Well you didn’t tell me you were both some kind of goddamn card sharks. I’ve only got a pair. Two points. And the crib… is empty. Great.”

Alonso and Triquet laugh at Jay’s ill fortune.

He glares at them, struck by what oddballs they all are. Alonso is such a character and Triquet is a complete fucking original and Jay knows that he himself is something of a cartoon to most people. Without thinking how it might sound, he blurts, “Do you ever like wonder why normal people don’t come out on projects like this?”

An uncomfortable silence greets his words. Triquet looks at Jay like he just called them a slur. Alonso is embarrassed for him.

“What? I mean, like take my cousins in San Clemente for example. Got normal jobs. Weddings and kids and houses and cars. The whole suburban thing. Why aren’t any of them here?”

“Are you… trying to imply that I am not normal?” Triquet fights the growing knot of sickness in their gut. Not again. Not here.

Jay blinks at both of them, unable to process what the problem is. “Ohh. You think I mean normal in a good way? Nah, not at all. To me normal is an insult. I’ve done all I could my whole life to let my freak flag fly.”

“So… you’re a freak?”

“Hundred percent. Aren’t you?”

Alonso lifts a hand. “Jay.”

Triquet covers Alonso’s hand with their own, very much against needing someone else to speak for them. A deep breath helps dispel the growing impulse to shout at this clueless young man. “I don’t ever like reminding people of their privilege, Jay, but… Normalcy isn’t just like what bands you like or what sports team you follow. Leave it to the white guy to be like, ‘Ew, the normals. How tired is everybody of them?’ Well the rest of us don’t have that luxury. Being normal is whether you belong or are accepted by society at large. It can literally be the difference between life and death.”

“Fucking A, what a great speech.” Jay rocks back, mind blown. “That is some serious wisdom you’re dropping. But. At the same time. I mean. Normal still isn’t great. Can’t we do better? When we were all in high school me and my buddies said we’d never get married. Literally like all of our parents were divorced. What was the point? As an institution it just like curled up and died. Then last year, Glen came out as gay and said he was getting married. And the rest of us were like, Dude. I get it. You become a full legal member of society but this is our chance to build something I don’t know, better than marriage, more meaningful. Or just more accurate for modern relationships. And now suddenly we’re on opposite sides of this issue.”

“Why is that suddenly his responsibility?” Triquet shrugs off the claims made here. “Why does being in the vanguard for one issue mean that we’re all of a sudden responsible to reinvent this whole other thing that straight white dudes ruined? I’m not your savior. Glen isn’t going to clean up your messes. He probably just wants a car and a family in the suburbs, if he’s like most people.”

“Wow, these are all such amazing points.” Jay pounds on his knee. “You are so right. Glen’s totally got enough on his plate. His husband has health problems. They needed the medical coverage. So yeah. I’ll like spend my social capital on revolution and let him and Farrell raise kids and join the PTA. I am so glad you set my head straight about that, doc.” Jay takes another huge hit from the joint and offers it to Alonso, who declines. “So, what about you, Alonso? Would you ever get married?”

“My wife would never let me.”

Jay giggles. He passes the joint to Triquet instead. “And what about you, Triquet?”

Triquet takes a hefty drag then makes a face. “Me? Never. Marriage is for squares.”

Ξ

As morning turns to afternoon, Maahjabeen finds that her body is finally starting to obey her wishes again. She is getting range of motion back in her spine and shoulders. Excitement builds in her, a nervous energy running down her limbs. Her hands make fists, wanting to grasp the paddle again. Her toes flex to steer the rudder. But she isn’t anywhere near the water.

With a brief bark of residual pain she stands from her seat at the long tables inside the bunker, where she’d been collating data from Mandy’s weather station and comparing it to her readings of local currents. Maahjabeen stretches as Esquibel exits the clean room.

“I heard you exclaim.” Esquibel assesses Maahjabeen, watching the young woman raise her hands far over her head. “Ah, that’s some good flexibility, Maahjabeen. How does it feel?”

“It feels like it is time for me to get back on the water. How about you, Doctor Daine? Are you much of a boater?”

Esquibel makes a face and shakes her head no. “I keep my time on the water to steel-hulled ships. You people in your fragile little boats make me so nervous.”

Maahjabeen laughs. “Yes, well you sailors in your big ships make us paddlers nervous. Do you think you can help me get my baby to the beach? I miss the water so much.”

“Are you ready?” But Esquibel can tell Maahjabeen has reached the point in her recovery where she won’t be dissuaded. “This is the critical time right now for re-injury. You need to be careful.”

“Yes. Careful.” Maahjabeen swears to herself she will be. This enforced recovery has been driving her insane. She’ll do anything to make sure she never has to go through that again. Lifting a solemn hand, she swears, “On the graves of my ancestors, I won’t do anything stupid.”

“You mean, like carry a boat all the way around that fallen tree and down to the beach?” Esquibel shakes her head. Humans are so foolish. Especially the young ones. “Let’s find someone else to help me do it. You just keep doing some gentle stretching. And if you feel something twinge, I need you to shut it down, okay?”

“Yes. Shut it down. Ah! Here’s Amy. She’s strong.”

Amy enters the bunker, her smile flickering when she hears this. But she shakes her head and re-asserts her sunny disposition and approaches them. “Hello, everyone. Or, should I say, Bontiik, and then I nudge you under your chin like this.” Amy uses the second knuckle of her index finger to gently chuck Esquibel on the point of her chin. “That is how you greet someone in Lisican.”

Esquibel and Maahjabeen stare at Amy in shock. Things are evidently progressing much faster than they thought. Neither of them have been through the tunnels to the interior. To Esquibel it sounds forbidding, like a medical emergency waiting to happen. Maahjabeen has already had enough of the tunnels after trying to initially pursue Flavia. Also, the interior is too far from the shore, it’s the last place Maahjabeen wants to be.

“Lisican.” Maahjabeen tries the word. “Yes, I suppose… Is that what they call themselves?”

“Yes, well, their silver foxes. Katrina was right. They call them all forms of Lee-zee. Lisicha, Lisipatxo, Lisibaba. It was the word that we both understood and let them know I was ready to learn how to communicate. And then, wow. Once you gain their trust they’re really engaging. Very lively. And it’s funny for once to be the tallest person in the group.” Amy’s irrepressible giggle interrupts her story. “Now what did you need help with?”

“Can you help Esquibel carry my kayak to the beach? I need to be on the water. Just in the lagoon. Nothing ambitious. But I just never spend this much time on land. I am like a beached dolphin. Drying out and dying.”

Amy nods, sympathetic. “Of course. Of course. But only on one condition. No. Two.”

“Two conditions?” Maahjabeen assumes her bargaining face. Market-stall haggling is second nature to her. “What are they?”

“First, learn the greeting. Bontiik.” Amy chucks Maahjabeen under the chin.

Maahjabeen can’t deny that request. “Bontiik.” She reaches out and uncertainly touches Amy on the chin.

“I’m pretty sure the gesture has to be across the chin, like a gentle nudge. They kept correcting me.” Amy does it again.

Maahjabeen chucks Amy under the chin. “And your second condition?”

“That we bring both boats and I go out on the water with you.”

“Ehhh…” To Maahjabeen, the solitude the water brings is half what she needs. But before she can formulate an argument…

“Yes. Good plan.” Esquibel decides for her. “Now let’s get the boats. I can watch from shore. Get me out of my little room for a little while.” She fetches a hat and sunglasses.

Maahjabeen accepts her fate. The lagoon is large. Perhaps they can split up at some point and she can get some time alone.

It takes another ten minutes for everyone to gather their things and pull the boats out from under the big platform. Amy in front, Esquibel in back, they each hold the handle of a boat in both hands to carry them at the same time. They’ve loaded the cockpits and hatches with the few things they need. Amy has brought her own hat and a pair of the Dyson readers.

Maahjabeen hates this new giant fallen redwood trunk across the beach. It prevents her from being able to see as much of the water as she could before from camp and it prevents access. She just wants it gone. But it is just so huge there is no way they will ever be able to move it. Well. God has a plan. Inshallah.

To get around the roots they have to put the blue boat down and carry the yellow one first, then return for the second one to slowly navigate it through the choked passage. Finally they bring the kayaks to the shore and put Maahjabeen in place. They shove her off and she’s free, she’s actually free again once more.

Her shoulders still hurt when she paddles but she doesn’t care. This is the exact movement that originally injured her after all, but these are also the muscles that are strongest in her. Her body knows she must paddle. It is what she is built to do.

Within a dozen strokes she’s across the lagoon and getting swept across the inner face of the barrier rocks in an ebbtide current. With a strong dig in the water, she pivots and dances back out of the current before it brings her to the mouth of the lagoon. She paddles back, surprised to see Amy already in the water, churning out to her with short, powerful strokes that lift the nose of the blue boat above the waterline. Maahjabeen had been about to demand the same proficiency roll as she had of Pradeep, but Amy’s handling is so expert it would be nothing but bad manners. Well. At least she won’t have to worry about Amy drowning out here.

“Ohh this is so nice getting back out on the water again.” Amy leans her head back and sighs. “There was a time I basically lived on the water. Monterey Bay. Do you know it?”

“I have heard of it but I have never been to the United States.”

“Oh, we’ve got some fantastic paddling all over the country. I managed the sea lion populations for a number of years there. About twelve. And summers were up in Resurrection Bay, Alaska running killer whale trips for tourists. Isn’t kayaking the best?”

“God provides,” is all Maahjabeen can manage, suddenly afraid that this blocky old Japanese woman has more experience in the one thing that makes Maahjabeen special and the one valuable skill she can bring to this project. No. But that is not the case. She is still the only marine researcher here, the only one who can tell them what is happening in the wider ocean around them. That is, if she can ever actually access it.

Amy trails her hand in the frigid water. “Oh, look at all this sea grass. If it was any warmer we’d be snorkeling down there daily. But I don’t have a wetsuit for these temperatures. Do you?”

Maahjabeen shakes her head no, remembering how she forbid the use of the lagoon to Katrina. Could she do the same for Amy? She doubted it. The biologist has a clear right to be here, studying the life forms and making whatever collections she wants, despite Maahjabeen’s desire to keep the lagoon pristine.

“How’s the shoulders?” Amy’s maternal concern does make Maahjabeen regret her selfishness and she smiles in gratitude.

“Fine. Better. The more I paddle the better they feel. But look. You will appreciate this.” Maahjabeen navigates her boat to the mouth of the lagoon so they can both study the impassable rollers. “Here is the door to my jail cell. Without an outboard motor or a killer whale’s tail I just can’t get over those wave tops. The only time I could was before the storm.”

“Yes, I’ve been watching the ocean too. Big Japanese past-time, you know. Get the rhythm of the local tides in your blood. And talk to everyone you see about the weather. Basically every Japanese conversation starts and ends with weather. All the natural cycles.”

Maahjabeen only listens, staring at the unending rollers. Great. Amy might be a better oceanographer than her as well. Now what is Maahjabeen good for here? Leading morning prayer?

“It is a puzzle, though, isn’t it?” Amy paddles past the mouth, skipping her boat across the strong current before it can take her. “The thing is, I think if we get down to this angle we might see something.” She continues on toward the barrier rocks right off the eastern point. “Oh, this is a much better vantage point than what I’ve been able to see from the beach. Yes… Watch what happens when this sea stack gets hit by the second wave. The big one.”

Maahjabeen follows and waits. The wave hits the wall of rock with a crump, spraying a massive wall of white foam outward. Then on the return it sucks the surrounding water in.

“Watch here. See how that draw drops the next wave? Just like stops it in its tracks, but just right here.”

Maahjabeen nods, elated. “And the next one too. So the first two waves of the set get canceled here? There might be enough space to pass. But that’s awfully close to the rock.”

“Yeah, it’s a sprint for sure. But if you watch, there’s an epicycle. Every twentieth or twenty-first set is a much bigger wave that cancels out the next five.”

“Five waves of a set? That’s nearly a minute. I could get across that stretch in a minute no problem.”

“Yes, well, the benefits of patience.”

Now Maahjabeen is fairly certain Amy is a better oceanographer than she is. And just a better scientist in general. Her CV must be outrageous. And that collegial manner pays so many dividends. If Maahjabeen had been less reserved and territorial she may have learned these important things earlier. But it was not to be helped. She’d dealt with so much insanity on her previous jobs she needed to learn how to trust people again. Now she is just grateful to be in a position to have things go right. And she might even get out past the rollers after all! “Inshallah!” Oh, God does provide!

“You can say that again!” Amy laughs, wowed by the sudden transformation in Maahjabeen. Good lord but the young lady has the most scintillating smile. And her excitement to face the open ocean is infectious. Amy can’t wait to go herself.

But wait. Mandy is back on the shore, waving them in. Esquibel stands beside her, talking. But Mandy is intent on getting their attention. “Oh, no.” Maahjabeen slumps. “Not again.”

Amy paddles close to shore. “Another storm?”

Mandy nods. “Another storm.”

They take one more long paddle around the lagoon, Maahjabeen intent on getting her body right. Then they haul the boats from the water as the western wind strengthens and that corner of the sky begins to darken. With a sigh, Maahjabeen rests the paddle across her shoulders and supervises Esquibel and Amy’s packing.

“Look.” Mandy touches Maahjabeen’s shoulder. She points behind them. Pradeep is there, at the fallen redwood. He has collected the thick shell pieces of its bark that fell off on impact and he is now building a modest lean-to up against the trunk. When he sees them watching he motions to them.

Mandy and Maahjabeen approach. Pradeep lifts the largest bark pieces above, to serve as a roof. He ties them down with twine. “How do you like it?”

“So cozy!” Mandy ducks within.

Maahjabeen turns and asks loudly enough for Esquibel to hear, “I thought we weren’t supposed to build any structures?”

Esquibel, carrying both kayaks with Amy, looks at the lean-to with a pinched expression. She shrugs. “I can’t imagine it looks like a structure from above.”

“The satellites are fooled!” Pradeep celebrates by placing a lintel over the door. He ties it off then bows formally to Maahjabeen. “Your Highness. May I present you with the keys?”

She laughs, unsure what the joke is.

“Take a look in here!” Mandy pulls Maahjabeen inside, where the wind dies and the light fades to near perfect darkness.

“Very snug.” Now that Maahjabeen is out of the water she is hungry and just wants to get back to camp.

Pradeep appears in the tilted handmade door. “No. I don’t think you get what I’m saying. This is yours, Maahjabeen. I know how hard it’s been for you dealing with all us land-lubbers. So I built this as your own place. A cottage by the sea.”

Maahjabeen claps her hands over her mouth. Oh, dear God. This is hers? It is perfect. There’s a window overlooking the lagoon and everything. And it is so private here on this side of that huge log. It is just her and the sea.

Maahjabeen grabs Pradeep’s hand and squeezes it. “Thank you. Oh, Pradeep, thank you so much. It is perfect.”

“Just a few more tweaks here and there.” His hands won’t stop working on it. “And then we can move you in. Come on, Mandy. Let’s go get her things.”

“Yeah, Maahjabeen,” Mandy blows her a kiss. “You stay here.”

Maahjabeen sits in the doorway watching the lagoon and the rollers beyond. What is this filling her heart, this overwhelming pressure of light and happiness? The word finally comes to her: Abundance. “Inshallah.” God provides again and again.