Chapter 60 – Coming Home
February 17, 2025
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60 – Coming Home
“Look,” Mandy calls out. “The clouds are breaking up.”
Amy had been about to give up. Her eyes are dazzled and she doesn’t trust herself on the heights up here at the top of the island. She turns back to Mandy, shielding her eyes from the blanket of brilliant clouds below them with an upraised palm. “They are? How can you tell?”
“I can see water. Let’s just give it another few minutes.”
The sky is a perfect dome of clear blue above, the morning sun blazing on the eastern horizon. “I forgot after all these weeks…” Amy shakes her head, carefully skirting the open pit of the shaft and making her way back to the crown of the ridge, “how strong the sun could be. We can’t even look at the clouds it shines on!”
“I grew up in Hawai’i.” Mandy smiles in memory of her sun-drenched childhood. “I can’t ever forget how hot it gets. Or how bright. Or how humid. But I’ve never seen… this.”
Only three peaks pierce the white blanket, theirs and two to the northwest and northeast, a triangle of perfect isolation. Apart from these tiny slivers of dark rock, the whole rest of the world is white below and blue above.
“This is too much.” Amy still can’t process the overwhelming sensation. “How can we expect to see anyone from up here?”
Mandy squints and looks back over the clouds on the ocean. “Hold on. Maybe the clouds over the southern shore will vanish so we can catch sight of a ship.” She rubs her wounded shoulder, bothered by the pain. “I do hope we only see a nice comfy research vessel or something. Or maybe one of those cruisers that launch the Navy helicopters. Get us home quick.”
“We’re probably on a slow boat home. For like a week or more. At least, that’s what I’m preparing myself for… It’s going to be hard to go from all this wonderful life here to a cold little metal box.”
Mandy peeks over the edge of the cliff again. The fogbank is indeed breaking up, shredding into long banners of white and gray. “And right on cue.” Mandy points a finger down, at a small dark gray ship cruising in from the island’s west coast. “There they are.”
“Oh my god. No way.” Amy squints at it. The ship is a destroyer from several generations before. Diesel smoke coughs from a stack of vertical pipes. Her heart sinks. “Russian. Got to be. Hardly looks seaworthy. Well, now we’ve got to warn the others. Come on.”
Yet Mandy delays, wanting confirmation. “I don’t see any flag.”
Amy grimaces. “Maybe they took it down. Maybe they’re not supposed to be here and they know it.”
“Yeah. We have to tell the others.” But Amy is already ahead of her on the trail back to the village. Mandy has to hurry to keep up, but her wound only slows her down.
They descend as fast as they safely can, Amy’s unnamed fox kit squirming in her pocket from all the activity. She is starting to get claws like needles, and they’re starting to poke through every layer of cloth, including her sports bra.
Amy drops the final length of nearly vertical trail back into the village. Her plan is just to dart through the square and enter the tunnel, but the way is currently blocked. A crowd of angry villagers surround someone in the square, yelling at them.
The person they have trapped tries to escape. The figure heaves against their held up arms and Amy recognizes Daadaxáats from the descriptions. The shaman is an ageless, sexless creature with a wide face set in a fierce grimace and bone fetishes hanging from their gray curls. In one hand they clutch a kit fox, in their other they ward the villagers away with a stick and feather totem. The people fall back from it, none daring to challenge the shaman.
It is clear to Amy that Daadaxáats has somehow stolen one of the village’s kits and is now trying to escape with it. Fury boiling over, she charges in and snatches the totem from their grip. “You evil… horrible…” Amy has no words for the hatred in her heart.
It is such an unexpected act that the shaman stops, dumbstruck, as do all the villagers. They all look at Amy with outrage and fear.
“Go on. Get the baby back,” Amy orders them while tearing the feathers from the cross-sticks of the totem. “Daadaxáats can’t hurt you any more. Yeah, I said your name. You didn’t like that, did you?” Amy’s voice curls into scorn. “Daadaxáats. Daadaxáats.”
But the villagers aren’t listening to her any more. Amy is just adding her voice to their growing clamor. Dozens of them fully encircle Daadaxáats, arguing about the criminal’s fate. There is no escape for the shaman.
They reach a consensus and the Mayor calls out a declaration from her place in the crowd. Then they all regard Daadaxáats.
Without a word, the shaman surrenders the mewing kit. Gentle hands take it back.
“Oh, thank god.” Mandy stands at the base of the cliff path at the edge of the village, watching the scene appalled. “Amy,” she calls out, rubbing her shoulder again. “Come on. We should go.”
But two new sounds suddenly echo from different points in the village. The first is a rustle of dried leaves behind the huts to the north. It is the fox mama and papa on their daily rounds, here to feed the kits of the village. The second is the snap of a small branch underfoot on the trail leading down to the creek. It is the Chinese spy, face smeared with dirt, crouched at the trailhead.
He sees the foxes. The foxes see him. Faster than an eyeblink the foxes turn and vanish under the fern. The spy lunges forward, still collared and leashed like a dog. The exiled Lady Boss holds the other end of several meters of rope. Her fast feet have no trouble keeping his pace. They dive together into the underbrush.
With collective cries of outrage the villagers chase the exiles into the bushes, some running wide to encircle and intercept them.
In a gap between thickets, the Lady Boss stands. She calls out something fearsome and waves the Chinese spy’s gun. She fires it at a random angle toward the clifftops. The noise and recoil startles her and she nearly drops it. But she recovers, sneering at them.
Spooked by the gunshot, the villagers all go still once more. The only remaining movement in the thickets is most likely the foxes, hurrying away. The Lady Boss drops back down into the ferns to chase them.
Crack. Another gunshot. “No,” Amy groans. “Not the foxes…”
After a long moment the Chinese spy drags himself clear from the edge of the ferns, blood streaking his face. He still wears the collar and leash but nobody holds the other end any more. A free man again, he brandishes his pistol, pointing it at all the glaring eyes hidden in the undergrowth. He warns the villagers off in his own language, stumbling back, and then once he’s assured there is no threat he slowly limps upslope, toward the northwest, only looking back twice.
A strangled sound rises from within the bushes. The villagers converge on it, carrying out Lady Boss, who has been shot in the jaw. The lower half of her face is a bloody mess and several teeth skew wetly from the gore. But her eyes are open; she still lives.
“Oh my god. Oh my god,” Mandy repeats. “I should go get Esquibel. They don’t know gunshots…”
Amy nods at the villagers. “No, but for my money, the Mayor is the best healer here. Ask Alonso.”
Preparing her front porch to receive the woman, the Mayor sends Xeik’w off to collect the necessary tools and supplies. Amy and Mandy can only stand in silence as the Mayor treats the wound of her old nemesis. Lady Boss cries out when her jaw is touched, and it shocks Mandy back into her urgent mission. “I have to go. We have to…” Mandy can see that Amy is far more invested in this drama of the foxes than she is. “Uh. Kay. How about you stay? And make sure it all gets put right, I guess.”
Amy nods. “Oh, shit. Right. That destroyer. Yeah, you go. But I just need to make sure… Ah, there.” Movement at the edge of the village is the two foxes stealing between the huts. The four kits are brought to where the mama sets up on Yesiniy’s porch. Amy brings her own. All five kits suckle at once, wriggling closer.
A rough hand closes on Amy’s shoulder. She turns. But Mandy is gone. It is Morska Vidra, watching the nursing kits with luminous eyes. He looks different, much younger than she’s ever seen him and for once Amy thinks they might be the same age. He says something to her, mimicking the gunshots, and how he ran to the village once he heard them. Then he indicates the foxes with his thumb tip, trying to communicate something profound. Lisica this and Lisica that. All she can do is nod and try to commit certain repeated words to memory. But her mind isn’t working right.
Only now does the adrenaline finally drain from her blood and tremors rattle in the emptiness. Amy’s teeth chatter and for a moment she wonders if she is about to go into shock. Morska Vidra frowns and drapes an arm across her shoulder, drawing her close.
Even as Amy’s empty head rings like a bell she still knows how profound this gesture is. It is what she has been seeking this entire time. Acceptance from the Lisicans. Belonging.
The Mayor prepares some of the broad leaves with paste. Xeik’w is doing what oral surgery they can, to the cries of their patient and the murmuring advice of the villagers on the porch.
Amy turns back to the suckling kits. “The babies are getting so fat. You know?” She mimes herself as fat. “Plump as pigs. They look so healthy!” Morska Vidra laughs. He is like the proud grandfather, the patron of this entire fox clan. Contentment radiates from him like stones in the sun.
Ξ
Triquet fights the wheel of the hatch that divides the sub from the stairs leading up to the bunker. They swab it with another dollop of rancid motor oil and try again. Just by shifting the wheel back and forth a tiny bit, the oil gets deeper in the gears and… Movement! Easier than they feared it would be. Now they can close the hatch and spin the wheel shut so this bulkhead will be waterproof, unsinkable, and impassable to the coming Russians.
But Triquet needs an extra hand. “Jay. Are you down here?”
“Radio room, boss!” Jay’s voice emerges faintly from further within the sub. “Just sealing up the last cracks!”
“So is that everyone? Nobody is up top any more?”
“Yeah.” Jay emerges at the far end of the dimly lit ward room. “Pradeep and Maahjabeen are in the sea cave. Amy’s still in the village. We got everyone else. Even Jidadaa.”
“Good.” Triquet closes the hatch and spins the wheel. Then they disassemble the nearest bunkbed and prop its cross-strut under the hatch wheel’s spoke, preventing anyone from turning it. They pat the hatch in satisfaction. “Like six centimeters of solid steel. There’s nothing gets through that. Whew. So relieved.”
Triquet and Jay pass through the hatch behind them, finding Esquibel, Miriam, and Katrina lounging in the second ward room. They enter the narrow hall and Jay shows off the work he’s done to block the tunnel in the radio room with large pieces of steel furniture. In the captain’s cabin, Alonso and Flavia sit side by side on the bed, working on their laptops. Triquet and Jay nod and smile before continuing past.
Esquibel follows them, peeking her head into the captain’s cabin. “What? No Mandy? I thought she… Ehh… Where is she now?”
“Oh!” Esquibel hears Mandy’s voice from ahead. “It’s Xaanach! The young shaman! We’ve been looking for you!”
Entering the control room, Esquibel finds a small crowd. Mandy and Jidadaa are here, facing the open bulkhead that leads to the tunnels the boys got lost in. Xaanach has silently emerged from this darkness. The frail girl stands in the slanting shadows, staring at Triquet and Jay, Mandy and Jidadaa.
As Jay works to seal this tunnel, Jidadaa instantly pelts her with a litany of questions and statements. Xaanach just glowers. There is something of a shaman gaze on this island and she has perfected it, a brooding, lowered-brow hoarding of power. A tiny kit picks its way around her neck through her ratty hair. She answers Jidadaa as best she can, but with little warmth. There is no sisterhood between these outcasts.
Finally, Jidadaa steps back and begs Xaanach for patience. She translates what she has learned: “Yes, Xaanach got baby ten. And baby eleven went to Kula.”
“Your own mom?” Mandy cries. “Oh, that’s great.”
“What she needs. Someone to live for, yeah?” Jay asks.
Jidadaa nods. “Now she is one of the people again.” But her face is a mask. Whatever joy they expect to light her face is not there.
Mandy asks her friends, “It’s great, right?” She makes a cringing face, afraid she said the wrong thing about Kula.
Jidadaa turns to Jay. “Lidass bring change. Change for everyone. And now lidass leaves. His job is done.”
Jay frowns. “Aw, does this mean I don’t get to come back? Or maybe I can come back some day, but in like a different season? Like the golden childs?”
She ignores the question and tells them instead, “Xaanach say she bring ke’w’wits for the pain.”
Hearing the word, Xaanach opens a pighide sack and carefully removes what looks like a bird’s mud nest, hardened into a rough sphere with a dark hole at the top. From cracks it leaks a clear sticky fluid, running down her forearms. She laughs, drizzling the fluid into Jidadaa’s cupped hands, who laps at it. “Honey. So good.” She holds out her hands under Jay’s face and he gamely licks the honey from her palms. It is so light, and not very sweet. But somehow revivifying, like he just pounded a whole Gatorade.
“Yum. Aw, man. She’s making a mess. Does anyone have like a container? It’s getting everywhere.”
“Oh, my gosh, that’s so good!” Mandy rubs a sticky dollop of honey from her chin. “I’ve never had honey taste like that.”
“Ke’w’wits,” Jidadaa explains, catching more of the spilling honey in her hands and lapping at it. “Good medicine.”
“Got to be like some local bees,” Jay explains, “and their local pollinators. Every honey is different, depending on its flowers.”
They prevail on Triquet and Esquibel to try it. They all have sticky faces now. Good medicine indeed. They collectively feel its effects and their cares slough from them with sighs and laughter.
Jidadaa picks at Mandy’s collar. “Your shoulder.”
Mandy stops laughing. “Oh, like, slap some directly on it?”
Esquibel nods. “There is reasoning for this. Honey has been used as an antibacterial when nothing else is available. I’d want to test it first, but all my gear is packed. Maybe I can test it on the ship and we can apply it if it is clean. Will that work, Jidadaa?”
But Jidadaa ignores Esquibel. “Take shirt off.”
Esquibel reaches out and snares Jidadaa’s hand. “Excuse me. Weren’t you listening? I need to test it first.”
“You have pain too?” Jidadaa asks Esquibel. “Somewhere?”
“Don’t we all. Scraped my elbow just following you lot in here.” Esquibel holds it up, showing the abrasion, and before she can pull it away, Jidadaa has smeared it with honey. “Oi! I told you! Bloody hell. Now you’re going to get it infected. All because you couldn’t wait for—!” Then she stops, trying to inspect her own elbow. “It’s stopped hurting. Almost entirely. My god. Such strong anaesthetic properties. So quick.”
“Really?” Mandy pulls at her shirt. “Cause I could sure use a break from all this pain. It works? It’s okay?”
“No. Not all honey is antibiotic. And we don’t even know if that is what this is. We haven’t seen if they’re bees or—or earthworms.” Mandy picks at the medical tape to peel back the bandage even as Esquibel tries to prevent Jidadaa from applying the honey.
Jidadaa slips through Esquibel’s grasp and claps a gob of honey directly onto the wound. Mandy gasps. Esquibel shouts in outrage, pulling Jidadaa back. But her hand still clamps Mandy’s shoulder.
After a long moment, Mandy sighs, a long shuddering exhalation that carries away much that has been held. She lifts her head. Jidadaa does too. “Thank you,” Mandy mutters, grasping Jidadaa’s hand at her shoulder. “Wow. Thank you so much.”
Jidadaa carefully peels away her hand. The wound is a dark red scab surrounded by inflamed skin. She says something of concern to Xaanach, who takes her own turn peering at it. Then she makes a decision, kneeling with the mud hive at Mandy’s feet.
Xaanach croons into the dark opening of the hive. She cajoles the creatures within, begging favors.
“What is she doing now?” Esquibel demands. “Jidadaa?”
“What even is that in there?” Jay asks, leaning over the child. He can detect movement, but can’t tell what it is. “Something larval maybe? Like I can catch sight of something… wriggling?”
“Ew,” Mandy gags. “Not bees? Oh, no. What did we just eat?”
“What is she saying to it?” Esquibel demands of Jidadaa.
“Beg ke’w’wits to heal Mandy.”
“And is ke’w’wits like… insects, or…?” Jay leans in even closer.
“Whoa.” Esquibel pulls on him. “Get back, Jay. Now.”
“It’s smoking?” Triquet is shocked. This is the last thing they expected. “Why is it smoking? Is it going to blow up?”
The hive now emits a thin stream of brown smoke, sickly sweet and herbal. Xaanach leans over it in primeval ceremony, hair hanging lank in the shadows. She cackles at the hive and lifts it. The mud ball now trails a thicker, darker fluid from its cracks.
“How…?” Triquet goggles. “How did that…?”
“How did she do that?” Esquibel demands again. “Xaanach? How did you make it burn?”
Jidadaa nods sagely. “Ke’w’wits agree. Heal Mandy.”
Xaanach collects a gob of this darker resin onto a little dried leaf. She mimes touching it, then pulling her hand back as if from a fire.
“Burns,” Jidadaa agrees. “Don’t touch. Healing burn.”
Esquibel steps between Xaanach and Mandy. “Stop right there. If you think I’m letting you put what is clearly a contaminated substance on Mandy’s open wound, then you’ve got—”
“Esquibel. Please.” Mandy palpates her own shoulder. “It’s already feeling better. Please let her.”
“You can’t put folk remedies on a gunshot wound and expect…”
“Esquibel.” Something in Triquet’s tone quiets her. They roll up their sleeve, revealing their osprey bite. “Remember?” Their scar is almost entirely gone. Now there is just a faint line where the skin indents along the incision. “The burny sticky stuff. Now we know where it comes from.”
“Do we?” Esquibel is so tired. She can’t find the anger to defend the rational world one more time. All this woolly-headed thinking. She gestures at the hive. “Do we really know anything? We know what that… thing is now? And what Xaanach will be putting on her? Mandy, this is like a nine year-old girl. And it is your health and well-being. Nothing is more precious.”
“If you’re worried,” Mandy shrugs, “I can take some antibiotics. But can you please get out of the way now so we can try this?”
With deep misgivings, Esquibel steps back. Ultimately, there is only so much a doctor can make a patient do.
Xaanach smears the tarry substance on Mandy’s wound. “Ooo!” she calls out. “Yes, it sure does burn. Triquet, did yours burn?”
“Yes, doll.” Triquet squeezes her hand. “But I don’t remember this part. I was out for the first hour or…”
“Wow. This really really burns.” Mandy clasps her shoulder and falls back against Jidadaa. “Like, a lot. Ow.”
“Let’s get her on a bed.” With Jay and Triquet’s help Esquibel carries Mandy back to the captain’s cabin in concerned silence.
Ξ
Paddling on the open water together, perhaps for the last time, Maahjabeen is filled with contentment. Here she is doubly home, floating in the embrace of the ocean with her own true love. She promises herself to savor each moment, etch every sensation and emotion upon her heart, so that when she is old she can think back on this day and remember paradise.
Esquibel had found them in the sea cave, and asked them to go out and scout the southern coast of the island before reporting back. They had been more than happy to oblige. Any reason to get back out onto the rolling swells of the gray ocean.
Pradeep turns and smiles at her, his teeth so brilliant, his eyes so kind. “Pull up here, babi. Let’s not come flying around the point.”
But it is hard to stay in place among all these cross-currents. Firewater and Aziz float too close to the cliff and when the waves pummel its base, the water is sent back with an echo of its force, catching the edge of the wider westerly ocean current, which tears into momentary gyres and riptides and whirlpools.
They back-paddle furiously to stay hidden from any ships that might be anchored outside the lagoon, and eventually tune their boats to the water’s chaos, easing forward a bit until they do see the dark gray hull of the Russian destroyer anchored three hundred meters from the lagoon’s outer breaks. It is so close they can see the apron of rust that leaks from its bow. Sailors in dark jumpsuits lounge on the deck. None have seen them. Yet.
“Back!” Pradeep hisses. But as he maneuvers he spots another ship here. White atop with a Navy blue hull, anchored even closer to the mouth of the lagoon. Its broad bow and suites of instruments indicate it is a large research vessel, perhaps for the Arctic. Pradeep stops struggling and lets Firewater coast into view. No point in trying to hide now. This ship flies the American flag.
“Ahoy, kayaks,” a flat voice broadcasts over its loudspeaker. “Paddle away from the surfline. Your lives are in danger.”
Maahjabeen scowls. “They don’t think we haven’t been out here in these same conditions for eight weeks? Ha!” To prove her point she lunges forward into the worst of it, the deadly maze of upswells and surf sets that wind between the seastacks. They finally release her and she darts across the last of the open water to join the American ship. Maahjabeen peers up at it from a safe distance. After a moment a silhouetted head appears.
“Damn, you people are crazy!” The familiar hoarse voice of a sailor who spends his life shouting at sea fills Maahjabeen with a kind of tender regret. It really is happening. Their ride back home is here. “Gave you an order to stand off the cliffs, ma’am. I expect you to follow it. If you’re going to get on my ship…”
“Yes, yes.” She waves his threat away. “When I am on your ship I will follow your orders, captain. But I am not yet on your ship.”
Pradeep glides up beside her, giving a brilliant smile of apology to the captain. “Ah! Thank you for the very thoughtful warning, sir. We have just… been practicing. No harm done, yes? But I must ask… How do we know that the Russians there are, uh, safe?”
In response, the captain’s head disappears from over the rail.
For a full minute or more they wait for him to re-emerge but he never does. “Eh. I am getting cold,” Maahjabeen complains. “And he is not inviting us aboard so… we paddle into the lagoon?”
“Surely, my love. Should be easier from this direction. Just surf the tops on in. Be like an orca, yes?”
Maahjabeen shares a dark smile with him, realizing in a flash that studying the orcas will be her life’s work, living among them and charting their paths through the sea. From the Alaska coast to California she will track them like the lineage of her family tree.
The waves roll them through the mouth of the lagoon onto the sand. There are already three beached zodiacs here, one Russian and two American. Pradeep shakes his head in worry. “Well, now it’s going to be much harder to get back to the cave to report back. And what will we even say? What in the world are we supposed to make of this… truce? Why are they both here? Does this make the Russians trustworthy or the Americans fully untrustworthy?”
“The Americans were already fully untrustworthy. Especially Baitgie, yes?” Maahjabeen lifts herself from Aziz’s hatch. She drags the blue hull clear of the lagoon’s small waves.
Pradeep nods unhappily at Maahjabeen, pulling Firewater clear and following her to the redwood trunk that bisects the beach and faces the site of their former camp. From atop the log they can see that the clearing is now filled with Russian marines in tactical gear and American specialists in light blue jumpsuits.
“Sir!” One of the specialists spots Maahjabeen and Pradeep atop the trunk. “Two targets!” The marines turn and glare at the couple but make no further moves. It is the Americans who hurry toward them, carrying tablets and medical kits.
“Targets…?” Maahjabeen calls out. “I don’t like being called a target, thank you very much! And we are not used to—!”
“Apologies. My apologies.” An American Navy officer hurries ahead of the others. “Just our military terminology. No, you are not targets. Let me assure you. We’re just happy to find you.” He is a small, wiry man in his fifties. His smile seems genuine. “Hello. I’m Kit Sidler. Commander Sidler. I’m in charge of this mission.”
With a squeeze of Pradeep’s hand, Maahjabeen gives her lover a smile filled with bravado. “Come on, Mahbub. It is time. Let us meet this new adventure together.”
Ξ
“Banging. And scraping. I hear banging and scraping.” Triquet ducks through the hatch leading into the first ward room. Where they had braced the hatch shut, a continuing series of metal-on-metal impacts can be heard. “Great. Well I guess we have our answer. The Russians are definitely here.”
Flavia lies on the bunk, playing solitaire on her computer. She takes her earbuds out. “Eh? You said something, dear Triquet?” Then she frowns. “What is that banging? Are the bad guys trying to bash their way in?”
“Wait. Listen. It’s very deliberate.” The bangs are regularly spaced, followed by a quicker trio, ending with a long scrape.
“Ehh, I know this. This is morse code.” Flavia opens a new window on her laptop, suddenly excited. “I love morse code. Let me just open a dictionary here and… now… What do you hear?”
“What is that banging?” Miriam ducks through the hatch with Mandy and Esquibel in tow. Alonso limps in after with Katrina. They all ask the same question and the room fills with noise.
“It is just that we need it to be quiet!” Flavia shouts over them. “Because this is morse code. Now. What do we hear, Triquet?”
“Dot, dot, dot scrape scrape dot, dot dot scrape…”
“E… e… p… i… t…” Flavia writes down.
“Dot scrape scrape dot, dot scrape dot, dot scrape, scrape dot dot.”
“P… r… a… d…”
“Prad!” Jay starts. “Eepitsprad! Pradeepits! Its Pradeep!” he babbles, reaching for the strut that braces the hatch closed.
Esquibel cautions him. “Or what if it’s a trap? There are ways to force a hostile to tell you their name, you know.”
Alonso shrugs, “We don’t really have much of a choice, do we? They know we are here. It is only a matter of time now. What can we do? Retreat to the interior? Live on the run? No. This is when we open the door, my friends, and face what is coming to us.”
Miriam casts a wondering glance at Alonso. He has more to lose than any of them if it is the Russians. But he has achieved a kind of serenity in these final hours. She is thrilled at his transformation. He is vital again, eyes sharp. His aspect is august and grand, like a bronze bust in a university library. She has never loved him more.
Esquibel steps away from the door with a sigh. Jay yanks out the strut, spins the wheel open, and hauls the hatch wide. “Yes!” He claps forearms with someone and pulls them through. It is indeed Pradeep, with Maahjabeen right behind. Jay embraces them both. “Fucking brilliant thought, dude, with the morse code.”
“It was her idea.” Pradeep defers to Maahjabeen.
She shrugs. “But we knew it was easier to spell out his name.”
The laughter that fills the room is the release of tension.
“So it is safe? We can come out?” Esquibel tries to peer past them up the dark stairs.
“Well…” Pradeep frowns, unhappy. “Uhh…”
“Yes or no?” Esquibel snaps. “Are the Americans here?”
“Well, yes.”
“And the Russians? Any sign of them?”
Pradeep and Maahjabeen only look at Esquibel sidelong.
“What is happening?” Alonso wonders. “Why are we not getting any straight answers from you two?”
“Maahjabeen?” Esquibel repeats in irritation, “Please. Any sign of the Russians? Or any threats?”
“You must forgive us,” Maahjabeen answers drily. “It is a habit we just picked up, not giving answers about the Russians. Seems to be how everyone handles the situation here.”
“What situation? What are you talking about?” Miriam asks.
Pradeep laughs bitterly. “Okay. Sorry. I’ll stop wasting time and just jump a few steps forward, here. See if my new theory here has any weight. Esquibel, why did you want us off the beach?”
Pradeep’s new tack is such a sudden turn that the ward room hushes. Esquibel frowns. “Well, at first it is because you were building your platforms outside the treeline and the satellites could see. But once you corrected the plan for the camp, I had no other issue with—”
“No, not then,” Pradeep interrupts her. “I mean weeks later when the golden man told us the Russians were on their way. You didn’t want us to meet them. You didn’t want them to meet us. You wanted us to fear them and hide from them. Why?”
“I… I…” Esquibel can’t handle how Pradeep’s brain works, coming at her from all these random angles at once. “I mean, it just made more sense for us to be underground when threats appeared. Safer. We’ve had these arguments over and over…”
“But they aren’t a threat. They are partners with the Americans and the Canadians and the Japanese and a few others, aren’t they? Commander Sidler confirmed all the others but not the Russians. Nobody will say a word about them. Why is that?”
“Pradeep… It’s classified…” Esquibel groans, dropping her face into her hands. “Part of our final briefing. I can’t… under penalty of court-martial… say anything more about this. Please!” Esquibel begs the ward room but she has lost them all once again.
“Che cazzo!” Flavia has no words for how despicable she finds Esquibel. “You knew this? You made me terrified of the Russians. I have not slept for two weeks! And it was all some lie? Why? Why would you do such a thing?”
“That is what I can’t share. I am so sorry.” Esquibel can’t stand the waves of hostility pouring from all of them. She has become too close. They really are family now. Tears spill down her face.
“You’ve just been manipulating all of us, this whole time… Lying to us…” Miriam scowls at Esquibel. “I knew we could never trust the military. I knew it!”
“No, no… It is just the requirement Russia had for them to be part of the mission. They insisted that their part in the operation be stricken from the record. Nobody knows why. It is Russia’s—!”
“Lieutenant Commander.” At the base of the stairs outside the hatch is the shadow of Commander Sidler. His voice is cold steel. “You are not sharing privileged mission data with civilians, are you?” At his shoulder is his Russian equivalent, an older Marine officer with a silver buzzcut and a purple nose.
“I’m sorry, sir. I’m very sorry.” Esquibel grips her own hands, squeezing them together. The tears are so hot, streaming from her burning eyes. She lifts her clasped hands in supplication. “But I can’t… I can’t do this any more. I can’t sustain the…”
“Lieutenant Commander Daine!” Sidler stands straight and raps out her title. “You will shut it down. All the way down. Or you will find yourself in the brig for the trip home. Am I clear?”
“I am just…” Esquibel’s mouth works silently. “Very sorry. This has been so… see, my own dear Mandy has been shot…”
“Shot? Someone got shot? Reyna. Get a medic in here.” Sidler studies the researchers with their dirty faces and wild eyes and torn clothes. “What the hell happened to you people?”
A young medic with tightly braided hair enters in her sky-blue jumpsuit, carrying a pack. “Who got shot, Commander?”
“Doctor Daine?”
“It is Mandy. But she is fine.” Esquibel indicates her, wiping away tears. “She has been in my care from the first and I am…”
“Let me just take a look, ma’am.” The medic kneels beside Mandy and helps her with her shirt. Then she peels back the bandage and regards the tarry patch covering the wound. “Uhh, what is that, Doctor Daine?”
“A local treatment. A poultice. It is fine!”
The medic frowns at this lack of protocol and picks at the edge of the black resin. “Doc, you know as well as I do that there are a whole host of reasons why…” The black bits fall away in her hand.
Mandy gasps in wonder. Beneath the poultice, her skin is whole.
“Okay. Where’s this bullet hole?” The medic looks at Esquibel as if she might be mad.
It is that look that does it for Esquibel. This is the same look she has been giving Maahjabeen and all the other mystics. And now it is her turn. She is one of them. She saw Xaanach beg the mud nest to combust. She saw the ichor that it excreted. And now she has seen the miracle it has accomplished. Twice. In a wound she had cleaned herself. How impossible. But yet, the impossible exists after all. “Commander Sidler.” Esquibel is filled with a sudden certainty and clarity that she hasn’t felt in years. She stands at attention. “You shall be the first to hear. I am resigning my commission. Effective immediately. I will stay for your debriefing or whatever, but I am no longer an associate member of the U.S. Navy or a Lieutenant Commander in the Kenyan Navy. I am done.”
Sidler listens to her decree with a kind of flat contempt. When she is done he lifts an irritated hand and shoos Esquibel away. “Resignation not accepted. Damn. Can’t wait to make some sense from this nonsense. Okay first, we need to count heads and get check-ups. We’ll sort out all the drama later. Just happy to find you. Y’all been hiding out pretty good these last few weeks.”
“Oh!” Katrina suddenly cries out. “It’s true! We aren’t all here! Still missing one! I’ll be right back. Give me… an hour.”
Ξ
They all cluster on the beach, coordinating the removal of their gear. Alonso has tried to give the half-empty wine barrel to a number of sailors but it is the Russian commander who takes him up on the offer, recognizing Chateau Ausone with a wide smile.
Pradeep helps Maahjabeen prepare the kayaks for transport. Jay stuffs a last wad of dirty clothes in his backpack then takes himself for a walk so he can smoke a final joint in peace. Flavia hovers over the specialists who carry her gear, reminding them how expensive and fragile everything is. She is eager to get going. Her dog Boris awaits, as do her many other projects. Miriam has learned that Commander Sidler has a layman’s interest in geology and she is giving him a brief overview of the island, pointing animatedly at the cliffs and listing silicates.
Triquet stands outside the crowd, wearing a shimmering sequin gown, lurid facepaint, a feather boa, and workboots. They are back to their outsider status, although they notice that one of the butch medics is giving them friendlier smiles than the others get. Well well well. There may be an ally here on the long journey home.
Mandy helps Esquibel with her crates and bins of medical gear. Her arm is functional again, with just a faded soreness to indicate it was ever injured. Esquibel thinks less of her resigned commission than the promise of this honey treatment. Oh, yes, she will be back. And she will have Xaanach teach her, to tease out the mystery of this miracle cure. If Esquibel can isolate the active compounds in the dark resin she’ll change the world. She’ll be rich, she’ll win the Nobel Prize. Her future will be secure. If she can only come back.
“Alonso.” Katrina calls out from atop the log. It takes several tries before he hears her over the clamor of the move.
With newly-powerful strides he crosses the beach to her. “Ah! Katrina. There you are. It is time to load your things.”
“Amy needs a chat first. She’s in the bunker.” Katrina jumps from the log, calling out, “Hey! Careful there, mate! That laptop is the only one I have!”
Alonso finds Amy in the shadowed bunker, nuzzling her kit. “Ah, there she is. How’d it go, Ames? Did you say all your goodbyes?”
But Amy’s eyes are bright, filled with tears.
Alonso pulls her into a bear hug. “Oh, it’s alright. You did well. Finally got back on their good side in the end. Proud of you…” But his smile fades. A growing disquiet fills him.
“Oh, Lonzo.” She kisses him. “You can tell, can’t you? I’m not going back. I’m staying here. On Lisica. I’m so sorry.”
Alonso blinks. “But the ships are leaving. I don’t understand.”
“With Morska Vidra. He and I… It turns out we’re both kind of outcasts and we… Well… We’re going to raise the foxes together. Just him and me in his little hut. We’ll be so happy.”
“Oh, no… Amy… This isn’t the proper time to make that kind…”
“I’m sorry, Alonso. But there is no proper time. It’s now. Or never. We are only guessing that they’ll let us come back but I… I can’t leave. This is all I ever wanted from my life. Here on Lisica. Please. Tell them not to look for me. I’m already gone.”
“But Amy—!” Now Alonso bursts into tears, hugging her again with fierce possession. “I can’t! I’m responsible for you and I…!”
Yet she is already extricating herself from his embrace, a smile of great peace on her face. “I hope it doesn’t get you in trouble but… I have to go now. I do. Please visit again soon!” Amy steps back and retreats to the trap door and the stairs leading down.
Alonso is in shock. Amy is gone? But leaving her is impossible. He can’t. He’s responsible for her. And what will he tell the Commander? They will just start some stupid search for her and none of them will get to leave for a week.
But Amy is really gone. The bunker is empty. And they are already calling for Alonso again on the beach. Like a sleepwalker he returns to them, his face haggard and eyes lost.
Miriam hurries to him. “What is it, Zo? Where’s Amy?”
All he can do is shake his head, helpless.
“Doctor Alonso?” Commander Sidler calls out. “Time to get in the boats. Still missing one, I think? A…” He consults his tablet. “Let’s see… A Doctor Amy Kubota?”
“Here I am!” They all turn to the fallen log. Jidadaa has jumped atop it. She holds a pigskin satchel and wears a new t-shirt from Kula’s collection. Her face is excited, her smile wide and brave. “I am here! Yes, I am the Amy.”
“Good.” Sidler turns away. “Well that’s everyone then. Let’s get a move on, folks. Civilization awaits.”
“Wait… no… but…” Katrina stammers. A specialist takes her bag from her slack grasp. “I mean, where is…?” She looks at Alonso, who silences her with a stern glare. All the others watch this tense exchange, their faces filled with confusion.
But they all decide not to say a word. They file dutifully aboard the American zodiacs, Aziz and Firewater towed behind. None of them speak. They are each too disturbed by the loss of Amy and the addition of Jidadaa. They take their seats in the boats as the outboard motors rev, their propellers cutting through the green waters of the lagoon.
“Look,” Jay points at the cliffs, where a giant bird sails across the face, its black wings spread wide. “Laysan Albatross. Phoebastria immutabilis. We haven’t seen any since we got here. This must be its summer nesting site. Amy would…” He falls silent. Then his face crumples into tears and he sobs.
Esquibel wraps an arm around Jay and pulls him close. She kisses his forehead. “There there, little brother. I’ve got you. Everything will be alright. Just like Amy and those big birds up there, Jay, we are all coming home.”
Chapter 59 – All The Love But None Of The Attention
February 10, 2025
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59 – All The Love But None Of The Attention
Triquet climbs the narrow stairs through the open trapdoor up into the bunker. The structure is forlorn in the shadows, showing no sign of the life it held for so many weeks. They emerge into a gray morning. Their second to last here. The camp where they had so many parties and arguments is now covered with new detritus. The stump that cradled the barrel of wine is just a stump again.
They cross to the beach and survey the length of it. Such a tiny little world they inhabited. But it had everything they needed. Ennui fills them. Oh, great. They’re going to bawl like a baby when this is over, aren’t they? How odd. They’ve never had such a reaction to a field trip ending. Usually it was some measure of relief and excitement to get back to the lab so they could analyze their finds. And there is some of that here as well. Excellent finds. But this has been one of the most special and significant episodes of their whole life and they will never forget any of these people.
Ah. There they are. At the edge of Tenure Grove. Arguing, as always. Triquet approaches, holding their treasure up like a bible.
“But what we’re saying is that this isn’t going to have any kind of island-wide effect.” Jay, for once, has a dispute with Pradeep. “Bro, there’s like no conceivable network that connects these trees to the trees in the interior, which is the whole—”
“And I am saying the same thing,” Pradeep interrupts with impatience. “That is why we do it here first. To see if there is any effect on the grove before we unleash it on the entire island.”
“But what we are also saying,” Amy adds, “is that we don’t have enough time to meaningfully monitor our effects. We will be gone by the time this forest can express any kind of reaction. So this is a waste of time here. We can’t tilt the conversation of the island in the time we have left, and certainly not from here. I appreciate your desire to be methodical, but either we do this or we don’t.”
“Then I say we don’t,” Pradeep declares. “It is too dangerous. The communication networks of forests are hardly understood. We might be doing grave damage and we would never even know.”
“It’s a bloody good idea, though,” Katrina sighs. “You got to admit. Once we learn the languages of plants and forests we’ll be able to talk to them no problem. Oh, what a world that will be! ‘What kind of apples are you growing here, mate? You mind if I climb up and sit in your branches?’ Anyway, I wrote a bit of a, well, a piano concerto. I tweaked it so it has overtones in the ultrasonic range, well as much as my shitty phone speaker can emit, to see if I can get close to what the trees hear. Jay said that’s their range. I was going to play as you did your work on the trees.”
“That is very sweet,” Pradeep allows, “but I’m afraid the study showed the trees only make the noise when they are under stress. The more noise, the more stress. So we need to make sure your music doesn’t sound like alarm bells to them.”
“Yeh. Right.” Katrina quirks her mouth in thought. “I’ll just have to play it like super soothing, I guess. Legato. Legato.”
“Maybe this is not a terrible idea.” Alonso places a hand against the spongy bark of the redwood which towers over him. “Maybe we cannot change the, the tenor of the whole island, but at least this grove, our special grove where only we lived, can get our blessing. And who knows? Maybe some of us will come back some day and see the results of our work. Ehh. Then we will tell the others. How would those results manifest, Amy?”
“Just Tenure Grove…?” Amy steps a couple more paces into its shadows. “Yes. That’s a lovely idea, Alonso. Let’s just leave the best of us here in this beautiful spot. Who knows? Maybe things will grow more lush, more inter-related. I think of it as harmony…”
To illustrate, Katrina plays the opening chord on her phone’s piano app. It is like glass breaking, in a bittersweet, minor key.
Amy nods. “Yes, exactly. Those five days with the vixen… I could feel it. I can still feel it, what that level of connection to the living world is like. I hope I never lose it. It’s like speaking to god…”
“Yes,” Maahjabeen agrees. “For as the Prophet said to his companions, ‘If the Hour of Resurrection is about to come, and one of you is holding a palm shoot, let him take advantage of even one second before the Hour has come to plant it.’ In Islam we love trees and respect our environment.”
“So how do we do this?” Alonso asks. “Maahjabeen will pray. Katrina will play her very nice music. What can the rest of us do?”
Pradeep lifts a tray filled with open dishes of cloudy liquids and a cartoonishly-large syringe. “These are mostly alkaloids for the mycorrhizae, for their signaling channels. There’s some salts as well. I just drew on what I know about them so far. It’s all about increasing signal strength. I don’t want to tell them what to say, I only want to increase their ability to say… whatever they want.”
“Right on.” Jay pats his shoulder. “Mister free speech over here. I was thinking of a couple things, myself. You know, trees talk with pheromones through the air so I was trying to think of ways to share mine. You know, like, if I’m thinking beautiful thoughts. Get into those alpha waves. Then once I have a good groove going, release some stank, talk to my brothers and sisters here. But I want to shoot it right into their veins and this outer bark is so thick I don’t know how to reach the cambium. I mean… I was just going to like hug big fella here, but… then I thought… maybe I should like dig a shallow pit and crouch down in it. You know, let the feelers of its roots pick up my vibe.” He lifts a foldable spade.
“No no no,” Pradeep answers. “No digging. That will invariably cause stress, don’t you think?”
“Yeah…” Jay’s face falls. “Probably right. Maybe I can get up in the canopy and sing like a bird.”
Esquibel cannot help herself. She bursts out laughing. Flavia does too. Even Miriam joins them. “I’m sorry,” she gasps. “It’s just the idea of Jay dressed as a songbird, crouched on a branch up there, whistling…” Esquibel laughs again, until nearly all of them are.
“Nah, dude. I was going to rap.” But that just makes them laugh even harder. Jay’s earnestness dissolves before all this mirth.
“It’s just all so silly…” Esquibel finally manages. “I was trying to be respectful, but we have strayed so far from established science with this claptrap that I couldn’t…”
“I am so glad you did,” Flavia tells her. “Because I was about to. There is a difference between experimentalism and—and voodoo.”
“Yes, yes. The unbelievers have had their say.” Pradeep smiles modestly, readying his syringe. “Cynicism is easy. Of course there is only a tiny chance that these efforts have any affect at all. But we don’t actually know. Like Alonso said, I want us all to promise that if any of us come back here, we must do every possible test on this tree and this grove to see if our work has done anything at all.”
He shoves the cylinder of the syringe into the earth and pushes its plunger. Katrina plays more of her shattering, ear-piercing piano concerto. Jay yelps in alarm, realizing it’s happening now, and embraces the tree. His face is muffled so they can’t make out his words, only that they follow a beat.
Esquibel and Flavia laugh again. Alonso peers upward, fighting the stiffness in his back and neck, trying to see a hundred meters to the top. The trunk vanishes into the dark green canopy, and wind flutters its limbs. “I would like to think,” he says, placing a hand against the wall of bark, “that we will leave this place as friends.”
“And I’d like to offer,” Triquet finally says, having waited for the proper moment, “the words of Lieutenant DeVry, who left a bit of a journal I just found. Remember him? He was the delinquent one always fraternizing with the locals? We thought he was like chasing skirts but it turns out he was actually quite the sensitive soul. He was fascinated by the Lisicans. But he never really understood them. ‘They remain closed to me and won’t ever speak directly to me. But they have finally become animated in my presence. The parents are very tender and warm toward their children and they love a good squabble. What led their ancestors to this godforsaken rock I have no idea. But since it has been peopled, at least we are lucky that they are a gentle folk. Suspicious, but gentle.’ At the end of his journal, he complains several times about being prevented from seeing them any more. He says, ‘by the end of my time here I enjoy the company of the natives more than my own race, even though they still don’t speak with me! Perhaps it is because they don’t speak with me. Ha ha. I’ve never been comfortable as the center of attention. I like to stand aside and observe. The villagers let me. Boren never does.’ That’s the Staff Sergeant. Doesn’t sound like old Clifton DeVry got along very well with him.”
Katrina concludes her concerto and Jay releases the redwood. Amy brushes a spider from his hair.
Mandy looks up at the waving tops of the tree, thinking how Jay first proposed to turn it into a tower for her weather station. She’d thought he was a real meathead then. Now she has much more tender thoughts for him. He smiles at her, abashed. But she reaches out and snares his hand to squeeze it. “That was so sweet. Now don’t forget. You and I aren’t done. We’ve still got more scar tissue to pull apart when we get back home. You promised to visit.”
He beams, squeezing her hand back. “No doubt, sister.”
“And now,” Esquibel declares, “ceremony complete, let us get back underground, or at least away from where approaching ships might spy us. Remember. The American boats aren’t the only ones who promised to come back tomorrow.”
Ξ
Alonso rests a hand on the wine barrel and tilts it. “About halfway empty. We drank perhaps one hundred fifty bottles. In eight weeks. Fifty-six days. That is nearly three bottles per day, a good amount. I am proud of us. Our appetites. But now, my liver needs a bit of a break.” He peers at Amy, who is putting the last of her things in her duffel. They are in the sub’s ward room that is closest to the surface, where they have removed all the furniture so they have enough room to organize and pack all their gear. “Perhaps the rest of it, we can leave with the sailors who are coming. Or maybe someone else wants it. But I will never drink a Château Ausone again without thinking of this place. And all you lovely people.”
He shares his smile with Amy and Mandy, the only other person in here. She is struggling to pack with one good arm. Amy finally notices her difficulties. “Oh, dear. Let me help you.”
“Thanks.” Mandy steps back with a sigh, clutching her shoulder. “All this movement. Starting to hurt.”
Amy nods, sympathetic. “Sorry. I should have realized… Just got caught up in my own mess and didn’t look up for…” She falls silent as she works on folding Mandy’s t-shirts.
“Where is Esquibel?” Alonso wonders. “Perhaps she can help?”
Mandy and Amy both glower at Alonso.
“Ah.” He recalls the status of their relationship. “My apologies. It is too sad that things have ended as they have. I remember when we first got here and how happy you made each other. Now, we haven’t heard the good doctor laugh like that in too long.”
“Alonso. Mandy doesn’t want to hear…”
Mandy sighs. “No, it’s fine. It’s actually like good to talk about it. I haven’t had anyone… She doesn’t have anyone to… I mean, break ups can be so lonely. And I don’t even know if that’s what this is. I mean…” She shrugs, helpless. “I don’t know where we stand. I can’t blame her for—I mean… I can’t look at anything Esquibel did and say she should have done something different. She had her orders.”
“And she followed them as well as she could.” Alonso agrees. “We always like to have a dream, this fantasy that there exists a place somewhere that is truly cut off from the troubles of the rest of the world. But such a place does not exist. Even here. We are all one planet, and no matter how far we travel we bring the sins and crimes of the world wherever we go.”
“The sisters pushed the father of their children into the sea.” Amy doesn’t know if she necessarily agrees, but this is what his words made her think. “And yet they didn’t consider it a sin.”
“I don’t know.” Mandy sits back against a bin, shoulders slumped in defeat. “Getting shot… It’s like it knocked the wind out of me and the wind never came back. Maybe it will with time. I just thought, I mean, even a few days ago I still thought that we’d go back and I’d be in Topanga and every once in a while Esquibel would come to port in Long Beach or San Diego or whatever and we could have a lovely weekend or week, but now I don’t know. Now I think that we…”
“We are just too different.” Esquibel slips through the hatch between ward rooms, her hands full of folded sheets. “My path is far too dangerous for a wonderful, beautiful person such as you, Mandy.” She says it factually, her voice flat, her eyes downcast. “I love you too much to put you through that.”
Mandy eyes Esquibel speculatively. “Oh, you do? You’ve made that choice, have you? You know, I think that might be my biggest trouble with our relationship after all. Esquibel, you never once let me decide. You never told me about your secret life, and then when you did you said you could never change and that I can’t be near you. Now you’re breaking up with me before I even get to say whether that’s what I want or not. And that’s fucked up.”
Esquibel looks at Mandy with astonishment. “Meaning… what? You don’t want to break up with me?”
“I don’t know.” Mandy flails her good arm outward. “All I’m saying is that the real problem isn’t that you’re a spy, or that I’m in danger, the real problem is that you never let me decide for myself! Okay? We have to make this decision together, or there really is no hope for us.”
Esquibel smiles, shy. “So you think there might still be hope? Oh, Mandy! Yes. You are right. I am a control freak. Just like you. But even worse. And I am so sorry. I thought if I just kept you safe and comfortable you could ask for nothing more. But I never made sure that is actually what you wanted. I just… I just came here with things inside me that I thought could never be negotiated. Like, upon pain of death. And that—that hardness in me, it has only pushed you away from me. Now I don’t deserve you.”
“Stop. You’re doing it again. Why don’t you let me make that decision?” Mandy asks. “You know I love you. I know you love me. Let’s work together to see if we can find a way through this?”
“My god, Mandy,” Amy murmurs in admiration, “listen to you. Who taught you to be so wise?”
Mandy shrugs, then winces. “I guess that Chinese spy. And his gun. I learned from them that life is short. And it can be so easily stolen. That’s what I now know. So there’s no more time for regrets. Come here, Skeebee.”
With a sob of relief, Esquibel kneels and puts her head in Mandy’s lap. Hot tears flow from her tightly-squeezed eyes. A sound she’s never made comes from deep in her throat.
Mandy pets Esquibel as she quivers and gasps, watching in silent wonder as her lover finally unlocks. How long has it been since she has let her guard down and unclenched these held muscles? Has she ever? Esquibel trembles in her lap, clutching Mandy’s legs like she’s drowning. What has it been like for her, working on ships year in and year out, tending the wounded sailors of a different nation? How solitary has her life been?
“What’s that sound? Is there trouble?” Triquet appears in the hatch, then Miriam and Maahjabeen.
“No trouble,” Alonso reassures them. “Just forgiveness.” He wipes his own tears away. “And sometimes it can be messy.”
Ξ
Their last dinner is cold, the remains of torn sheets of seaweed and dried banana chips. This would have been an unpalatable dish when they first arrived but their tastes have been forcibly changed by the environment. Now it satisfies them.
They sit on and lie against their stacks of gear, silent in the dim ward room. All of them are present, drowsing after a full day of effort. Jay chews the nori like gum, studying Katrina across from him. She has aged dramatically in the eight weeks here. Not just in the weathering of her fair skin but the look in her eye, her poise. Nobody would mistake her for a sixteen year-old any more. “Yo, dude. We should have one last concert. Don’t you think?”
Katrina shrugs, flips a hand. “All packed up. And I ain’t…”
“No no no, you’re right,” Jay agrees.
“But that doesn’t mean we can’t have a concert.” Alonso closes his eyes and tilts his head back. In a moody baritone, he sings the melody of Dvořák’s Serenade for Strings. His voice echoes in the metal chamber. Eyes closed, they all absorb the waves of sound washing over them.
A metallic clunk interrupts him, from deeper within the sub. Eyes open. The room waits in quivering silence.
“Got damn Chinese spy still out here.” Jay rises, looking for a weapon. “And he’s still got his orders. Just cause he’s somebody’s slave doesn’t mean…”
Esquibel has already fetched her satchel. She waves an urgent hand at the room. “Turn off the lights, Triquet. Everybody back against the walls.”
In a quiet rush, they all comply with her orders.
A slender figure steps into the hatch. “No more music…?” It is Jidadaa. She blinks into the darkness of the ward room.
“Oh, sweet!” Katrina cries out. “It’s Jidadaa! Aww. Wasn’t sure we got to see you again, love. Come here!”
“But the music?” Jidadaa asks. “Where is it?”
“Ah. You mean some of this?” Alonso laughs, self-deprecating, and begins again. This time Bach’s first Cello Suite. He waves his hand back and forth in the air like a fish’s fin in the water as the notes rise from him. Jidadaa kneels down on the deck, entranced. “Yes, lovely, is it not? Ahh. Just imagine hearing Bach for the first time. I envy you, young lady. Everything we have been talking about here, about the rhythm of nature and Her harmonies, has already been fully given voice by Johann Sebastian Bach. From hundreds of years ago. What do you think, Jidadaa? Eh?”
“More.”
“Yes, it sounds of the truth, doesn’t it? The secrets of life?”
“But, wait.” Esquibel leans forward. “Before you continue, Alonso. First, a few questions for Jidadaa. Are you alone?”
Jidadaa looks steadily at her. “I have Kula.”
“No. Just right now. Is anyone with you tonight?”
“No.” But as she says it, she nods her head yes.
“Eh.” Katrina reaches out. “No is a shake of the head this way.” She demonstrates.
Jidadaa laughs. “New to me. English words with my body.”
“So you are alone right now?”
“Jidadaa last saw the people this morning.” Her tone suddenly shifts. “This is a story about the ecchic oviki.”
Triquet finally gets the light back on. “This is?”
“The house of Thunderbird rests along the path to the house of Inchwi, god of winter east wind. That is what they say.” Jidadaa turns and unerringly points aboveground toward their secret village in the trees. “They say the god sends the cold wind to drive their enemies away. But the Shidl Dít say the wind make them strong. Their skin thick. Their blood hot. I do not say it. I do not believe. But I feel the wind. I sleep with them last night.”
“Oh, up on those platforms?” Katrina longs to console the lonely girl, to encircle her in her arms. But she knows she cannot touch her. “They sway so much it’s like a ship at sea.”
“And how are our old friends the golden childs?” Alonso asks.
But Jidadaa is too literal for this question. “Only people of the pollen in the spring. That season is past. No more golden childs. Now they are people of start of summer. People of the green sea.”
Alonso nods. “Understood. Are they well? I hope they know how much we appreciate all they have done for us.”
“It is a happy village. Three fox babies for them, young people and old. Great blessing. Old curse is lifted. The Shidl Dít say the prophet poem that the island has chosen is mostly their own.”
“Oh!” Katrina squawks. “It happened? The doom has passed and we’re now in the new era?”
“For most. Then I go to Ussiaxan. Not happy. Shouting. The people only have one fox and the girl, she is not strong. Village split. Many want to join with Keleptel. They have four fox now. Many want to find mama fox. To them she is new god. Shaman tell them to find her.”
“But isn’t the shaman their slave?” Flavia frowns. Then she holds up a hand. “No. I will never understand. Do not explain.”
“So, wait. When we first got here there were only three foxes,” Pradeep inventories. “Morska Vidra’s, the old one with the exiled shaman on the north coast, and the vixen. Where did the vixen come from? The Shidl Dít?”
“Yes.” But Jidadaa shakes her head no. Then when she sees Katrina correct her she laughs and imitates the nod.
“And then ten babies?”
“Eleven.” Amy lifts her own kit, now sleek and full, with colorless fur shading toward silver. The vixen still feeds her kits, appearing twice a day on an endless circuit around the island accompanied by her mate. “And I think I can finally safely say this one is a female.”
“Three with the Thunderbird. Four with the Mayor’s village. One with the bad guys. Aren’t there two missing?”
“Other íx̱tʼ on island.”
“Aye,” Miriam agrees. “Other íx̱tʼ. Whoever they are. The mysteries never cease. We could stay here our whole lives and never really learn the way Lisica works, could we?”
“Wait…” Amy holds up a hand like a student. “That’s what Xaanach called out, isn’t it? When she killed Wetchie-ghuy. She repeated that phrase again and again. What was it?”
“Ja sam sada íx̱tʼ!” Katrina mimics the girl’s triumphant cry from the clifftops. “The first part is Slavic. Like, ‘Now I’m the…!’ And the last part is íx̱tʼ. What Jidadaa just said. What is íx̱tʼ? Shaman?”
“Yes…?” Jidadaa tentatively nods in agreement. “Wetchie-ghuy was íx̱tʼ. Daadaxáats is íx̱tʼ. Aan Eyagídi was íx̱tʼ before—”
“Yeh. That’s it!” Katrina puts the puzzle together. “Now I’ve got it. She said, ‘I’m the shaman now!’ So Xaanach killed Wetchie-ghuy and became the shaman in his place. Bloody circle of life, mate. I thought that may have been it. Does that mean she got one of the missing foxes?”
Jidadaa frowns. “I look and look. No Xaanach. No more fox kit. This is a story of ecchic oviki.”
“Oh, right. What is that?” Katrina starts recording video on her phone. “Ecchic Oviki. Or who…?”
“Sacred stone. On the path to Northwest forest god. That is what they say. I climb there, follow its poem. From ecchic oviki, see like bird over Agleygle valley place. See all island of the south gods.”
Katrina tries to square this with the relational framework she has puzzled out in their language. “So the story is about the place from where you searched for… Xaanach? The baby fox? It isn’t about your search or her hiding from you or even about the vixen. It’s about the rock. And, what? How it like bears witness?”
But Jidadaa frowns at these questions. They are evidently the wrong ones. She makes a flushing gesture with her hands, pushing them away from herself. “The current ran from me, too fast.”
“I see.” But neither Katrina nor any of the others do see.
Finally Jidadaa collapses with a sigh, leaning against Katrina’s legs. “No find her. My heart hurt. So I come to you, under the grounds. Then I hear music.”
Alonso offers, “Yes. Would you like more music? Perhaps a little Brahms lullaby to put us all to sleep? What do you think? Nice and gentle…” And he begins to sing it.
Jidadaa nods happily one last time then slumps, the simple lyricism of the lullaby affecting her deeply. She rests her head against Katrina’s knees and sighs again.
Katrina hasn’t moved since the unexpected contact. She is too surprised. But as Jidadaa settles against her, she reaches out and touches Jidadaa’s hair. The girl does not startle. So Katrina runs her fingers gently through the tangles. After a while, she begins picking at them, grooming her like the fellow primate she is.
Jidadaa is the first to fall asleep.
Ξ
In the dark, Flavia pulls herself through the tight squeeze of the lower tunnel to win through to the culvert beyond. She takes out her phone and turns on its light, looking in despair at her clothes. These are her favorite top and pants and she’d hoped to travel in them but now they are filthy, and will only get more so when she returns. But she needs to empty her bladder too much to care.
“Ah! Blinded!” Mandy’s head emerges from the tunnel, her black hair streaked in mud, and gets a face full of Flavia’s light. She shuts her eyes with a grimace and drags herself from the tunnel.
“Eh, sorry.” Flavia whips the light away, to the water racing in the culvert below. “I think, maybe, we should just pee in here.”
“I’m not going down that slope. Looks slick. Might fall in. And then what?”
“Yes, you are right. Better somewhere in the cave…” With an aggravated sigh she leads Mandy to the rusted steel door and they step through.
“Who is that?” It is a male voice. Pradeep.
Flavia startles, then laughs. “Oh, great. Just looking for privacy. Didn’t find it. Sorry. I have to go!”
Maahjabeen sits up, clutching her pillow to her bare chest. “Go? Go where, Flavia? What time is it?”
“Ehh…” Flavia can’t hold it any more. “Go to the bathroom!” And she hurries in the other direction from the sleeping pair, toward the rotting pier and curtain falls in the back corner.
“Me too!” Mandy ducks into the cave and hurries after Flavia, squatting like her at the edge of the fall’s wide but shallow pool, adding their own fluids to the Lisica freshwater and the ocean’s salt. For the sake of decency, Flavia turns the light off and they finish in darkness.
“Creepy.” Flavia stands and sorts her clothing. She turns the light back on and joins Mandy, who is waiting a few paces away. “I thought something would jump out of the water and bite me on the ass! The whole time!”
“Oh, god!” Mandy cries. “So glad I didn’t think of that.”
“You didn’t? How? What were you thinking of?”
“I was just thinking how nice it was. The dog pile we were all in. Me and Skeebee and Jidadaa and Katrina and Jay. But I don’t think you were in there? I didn’t… like, feel your skin.”
“Ehhh. I was in another pile of skin. Triquet and Alonso and Miriam and Amy. Like the sea lions on the rocks. Best sleep I’ve had in weeks. I never knew I liked sleeping in a pile!”
“Huh. Maybe it’s like,” Mandy approaches the door, her voice dropping as they near Maahjabeen and Pradeep, “it’s the ancient way of doing it. How we slept for like millions of years. Everyone spooning each other every night. Young and old, cousins and strangers. The only way to beat the cold, right? Imagine, like, you got into a fight with someone during the day. But you still had to sleep with them at night. That’s like super healing, you know?”
“Or,” Pradeep’s voice emerges from the dark, “one of you is held to be in the wrong by the larger group so you are shunned and you must sleep on your own. Those would be some pretty strong social contracts. Risk death of exposure for not conforming.”
“Like the world is not full of homeless people now,” Flavia says. “Or maybe the group splits. Some agree with you and some agree with the other one. And this is how we get the first like individual houses. From some prehistoric drama in the bedroom.”
Maahjabeen’s sleepy voice mumbles, “What are we talking about here? I am trying to sleep.”
“Ah. Sorry.” Flavia tiptoes by to the door. “Group sleeping. How it must have been the status quo forever, until we got too emotional or something.”
“Yes, come here.” Maahjabeen doesn’t even open her eyes. Flavia can only see that she holds out her arms to her. Without hesitation, Flavia goes to her, embracing the woman she still privately considers a living goddess.
“Aww, so sweet.” Mandy joins them, taking the edge of the mat behind, enclosing Flavia and Maahjabeen between her and Pradeep.
“Sisters,” Maahjabeen grunts, kissing Flavia once and petting Mandy with a heavy hand, before falling right back to sleep. Flavia is not far behind. She begins to snore.
Minutes pass. Pradeep coughs.
Mandy whispers, “I can’t believe this is our last night. I hardly got to know any of you. And at the same time…”
“One big Cuban family,” Pradeep whispers back. “I’ve hardly ever known a group of people better.”
“You and Maahjabeen just have to stay together.” Mandy reaches across the two sleeping bodies to clutch his arm. “Oh, please promise you will. You two give me like so much faith in humanity.”
“Yes, we are working that out. Money will probably be the main concern, as well as visas and all that nonsense. But Monterey has a huge oceanic sciences and kayaking community. We’ll be able to find something fitting there for Maahjabeen, especially with Amy and all her contacts.”
“You know, LA is only like five hours away. If you guys would ever… like come by for a dinner or something?”
“Really?” Pradeep’s hand clasps hers. She feels something deep within him release. “You know, you people are so good for my anxiety. I never knew I could be so… liked.”
“Loved,” Mandy amends.
He squeezes her hand. “Yes, Mandy. Loved.”
Ξ
“Good lord, dude, I couldn’t tell what I was looking at there.” Jay laughs and approaches the giant log on the lagoon’s beach, behind which Esquibel stands in her purple jacket, peering out at the gray haze of dawn. “You looked like another log, just like vertically resting against…” He reaches her and rests his sternum against the cool, wet wood. Jay studies the horizon. “So what are you doing?”
“The Russians…” Esquibel doesn’t take her eyes from the water. “They said they would be back in two weeks. As of midnight, it has been two weeks. They could arrive at any moment, yes?”
“Uh… yes. Right. Dawn raid. Total Call of Duty commando-style. Too bad we can’t lay down trip wires and C4. Right?”
“This isn’t a video game.” Esquibel sighs. She has been standing here for an hour and the chill has penetrated to her bones. With a hiss, she rubs heat into her legs and claps her arms. “And you aren’t a soldier.”
Jay grabs her hands and blows heat into them. Esquibel scowls and begins to pull them away but the sensation is too nice. “Ehh. What are you doing out here, Jay? Why aren’t you asleep?”
“Scouting the perimeter, yo. Like a sheepdog. You know me. Damn, sister. Your hands are like ice.” Without asking permission he wraps her from behind in a bear hug and breathes hot air into the back of her neck.
Esquibel squirms. “You can’t just grab me!” Then she relaxes into his embrace. His hot breath cuts straight into her bones, warming them. She sighs. “You really haven’t learned a thing about consent, this whole time? Surrounded by women?”
Jay pulls back, shocked and hurt. “Oh! Did I do it again? Fuck. So sorry, dude. I just thought…”
Esquibel shivers again. She draws his head back down. “Just don’t ever do it again. But now. Just blow.”
“Aye aye, Captain. And you keep watch.”
Esquibel does so, glaring at the blue smear of a horizon with hostility. She hasn’t had a man this close to her in years, and never so gladly. This must be what it is like to have a brother. Esquibel was never really exposed to the masculine world in her home. The home was for the women, and her father was out drinking every night until late. She would only ever see him in the morning, contrite with a hangover, sipping coffee and demanding quiet. Friends had told her of their own brothers, and how much grief they gave their sisters. So growing up, she had never wanted anyone but her mother and herself. But now, it makes her wonder what it would have been like to have a little brother who loved her.
“Good Heavens, I couldn’t tell what I was looking at there.” Triquet approaches through the mist, their face pinched in a frown. For this chilly morning they’ve brought out the vintage ski bunny coat with the ermine hood fringe. It’s so warm there hasn’t been too much opportunity to wear it here. But Triquet is determined to finally make its weight and bulk worth all the effort they’ve put into hauling it around for eight weeks by wearing it on the open water when they get picked up. “Well, if it isn’t the most unlikely couple I could imagine here. Pardon my interruption.”
“She’s just cold.” Jay breathes another lungful into Esquibel’s neck. “I ain’t macking on her.”
“Looking for the Russians?” Triquet shifts closer and wraps their own arms around Jay and Esquibel.
“Someone must.”
“You know Mandy’s plan? To be up on the cliffs where her weather station was? Scouting from the highest point, but from a spot where she can’t be seen. I think Amy’s going with her. But I don’t know what kind of luck they’ll have in this fog.”
“Well if they don’t get up and start soon, their plan won’t be of any use at all.”
“They’re already up and heading out. What, you think I woke up of my own accord at five in the morning?” Triquet laughs. “Amy was my blanket.”
“Good. And perhaps we should have a string of runners through the tunnels, to shout it out and relay the news faster than they could carry it. Everyone else is staying in the sub, yes?”
“As far as I know. Mandy said she left Flavia and the lovebirds in the sea cave. They were still asleep.”
“We should all stay together now. Remember,” Esquibel speaks softly in the gathering fog, “the Russians have always used that west beach entrance before. So they may be there this time. Or they are waiting for the dead scientist, and when he doesn’t arrive there they will sail back over here again. That is my thought.”
“It’s a good thought,” Triquet nods.
“I wish we knew,” Esquibel continues, “what killed that scientist. If it was intentional or not. But no one is talking.”
“They say the dead tell no tales but I wish I’d been there with you,” Triquet says. “ I’m sure I could have gleaned something from his gear and his context. They don’t call us forensic scientists for nothing. God, what a bloody place. He’s dead. Wetchie-ghuy. Those two Chinese soldiers we found.”
“The bodies in the bunker on the west beach,” Jay pauses in his warming breaths to add. “The ones Maahjabeen told us about.”
“Maureen Dowerd,” Triquet continues. “And look at you, with your broken hand and twisted ankle.”
“And the spear blade along his ribs.” Esquibel shakes her head in despair. “The report I will write… My god. They will bring me up on charges. Not for the espionage work, but because I did such a poor job protecting the health and safety of you lot.”
“Pradeep and Maahjabeen getting poisoned…” Jay lists. “Katrina had that night of exposure. And Flavia did a couple times. Then Maahjabeen almost getting lost in that storm. And Mandy getting shot. Shit, we’ve really been through the wringer out here.”
“Not to mention what Alonso arrived with.” Triquet grimaces, then confesses, “Then there was my miraculous healing from the bird bite and those unhygienic tattoo dots between my toes… And I haven’t been able to take a deep breath since March.”
“What? You? Why?” Esquibel shakes Jay off so she can inspect Triquet, who only waves her away.
“No, Doc, I’m fine. It was just that dive through the waterfall after I got lost inside the cliff. It hit me hard. Hyperextended my spine or something. Never really got over it.”
“You should have let me look at it,” Esquibel admonishes them. “I’m sure Mandy could have helped.”
“And that is why,” Triquet purrs, “I never mentioned it. I heard all the screams of the tortured. No thank you. Motrin and jacuzzi for me. I’ll be right as rain. As much as I’ll miss all of you and this beautiful place…”
“Motrin and jacuzzi,” Jay echoes. “Yeah, that’s hard to beat.”
“Look, it’s Alonso.” Esquibel peers over Triquet’s shoulder to see the man’s width resolve out of the fog.
“Aha! I found you. I woke up alone and I wondered where everyone was. For a moment…” Alonso shakes himself and wipes the sleep out of his eyes with the heels of his hands. “I was afraid I’d been left here. The boat had come and gone.”
“Oh, lord.” Triquet laughs. “Could you imagine? How sadistic we’d have to be, to leave one of us here.”
“Not just anyone.” Esquibel laughs as well. “To leave Alonso.”
“No, but I awoke from the most lovely dream. And then that panic almost made me forget it but I…” Alonso shakes his head, a fleeting sadness washing through him. He sees they are waiting, expectant, so he tells them. “It was morning. Bright and sunny. Not like this. And the ship was here. But the tide was very low. So we started packing it and we had so many things, a mountain of things that needed to be piled on the boats and taken out. And I was very busy. We all were. Then the tide went out. Like far far out. And the lagoon became very shallow. Like it didn’t even cover my feet. So then we were able to work very fast, moving back and forth across the water right up to the hull of the ship. And I would pop the things in the hatch and go back for more. And I worked so hard everyone else got tired and collapsed on the beach so I…” Tears suddenly spring into Alonso’s eyes and his throat closes. “I began to run. And I was so fast. And it didn’t hurt at all. But everyone was so tired so I just picked you all up like my children, carrying you one or even two at a time through the water. And I was so strong. And I had so much energy. And my legs didn’t hurt. Not at all…” Then he can’t speak any more. He buries his head in Triquet’s embrace. Jay pats his back.
“Our big Cuban papa.”
“Doctor Alonso,” Esquibel stands at attention and speaks with formality. “I do not know if you would ever want to work with me again, but I would very much work with you again, sir. You were in a difficult position, between the military and your scientists. And you handled the situation as well as anyone could. I have learned from you, how to be a leader and how to…” She shrugs eloquently, “as inappropriate as it may sound, you and your incredible wife and your crazy graduate students have taught me how to love. Better than I ever have. And because of that, I will miss you.”
“Aww, Esquibel…” Jay goes in for the hug.
She wards him away. “You, not so much.”
Alonso laughs and pulls Jay into an embrace with Triquet. “No, don’t listen to her, Jay. We love you so much. You are our mascot. You are the littlest brother. In every family, it is the same. You get all the love but none of the attention.”
Chapter 58 – Saving The Baby
February 3, 2025
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58 – Saving The Baby
“I really don’t think this is a good idea,” Alonso confesses, his legs ready to give out from the pain. It clouds his mind, making it hard to think or make decisions or be brave. And the hillside ahead only goes more steeply down, each footfall an increasing stab of agony. “I am sorry, everyone. Here is where I reach the end of my limit.”
“Then here is where we pop you onto the travois.”
“Mirrie, I already told you…”
“Stop, Alonso. Just stop.” Miriam puts a calming hand on his hunched shoulder. “Look. It’s too far to turn back, eh? So if we’ve got to carry you, it might as well be forward as back.”
“I cannot abide the idea of being a literal burden. You know—”
“Zo. Darling. Sweetest?”
“Yes, mi amor?”
“Shut the fuck up and get on the travois.”
Once he finally does so, they follow their earlier tracks down the slope of loose soil under the trees, pine camp behind them. Miriam leads a large knot of the crew, six in all, back to the canyon and the lake. Back in the sub, she’d promised an evening swim. Everyone but Flavia, Mandy, and Esquibel had enthusiastically grabbed towels and followed. Now Amy and Jay range eagerly ahead, finding better paths on the hillside. Maahjabeen descends with Triquet and Miriam toward the stream at the bottom, as Pradeep and Katrina drag Alonso awkwardly downhill. He grunts at every impact and won’t stop complaining, loudly and bitterly, in Spanish.
“Why don’t you sing us something, love?” Miriam asks with forced cheer as she takes her turn at Katrina’s travois pole.
But the way she looks at him only makes Alonso feel more like a child. “No!” he shouts back, petulant. “No lo haré!”
They finally reach the banks of the stream. Alonso rolls out of his conveyance and scoots down the steep bank until he can soak his legs in the cold water. He groans with pleasure and falls back against the rocky shoal behind him. Time passes. He listens to their efforts to dismantle the travois of nylon straps and branches. The warmth of the day fills him. He nearly falls asleep. Then someone blocks the bright sky and he squints up at them. “Yes?”
“We have built a raft for you.”
“Now this is getting ridiculous…”
“Not a word, you ungrateful sod. We have three extra inflatable sleeping pads from storage. Never needed them. Two get used today. Everyone’s been working hard for you while you’ve dozed.”
“Yes, yes… How very kind.” Alonso heaves himself to his feet and stares at the long black avenue of the stream, curving into a canyon dark with woods. There stand Pradeep and Katrina, knee-deep in the shallows, proud to show dad what they made for him. The gesture touches him and he holds up a hand, resolving to act with more grace, regardless of what happens or how much it hurts.
They have bound the mats loosely into an X. He drops himself in the middle. The water is nearly shocking at first, but the streambed is dark, warming the water, and it is getting later in the season. Soon he finds the current refreshing. Amy tows him, wading hip deep upstream. Now he can sing. “Don’t cry for me, Argentina…!” But the ballad isn’t suitable and he lets the echoes fade to silence.
They enter the canyon, wading through the rushing stream. His bottom bumps against the rounded riverstones. Alonso hasn’t ever seen a forest like this. The grove at the beach was just a fringe of trees compared to this deep wilderness. The nooks and crannies of this canyon have never felt the tread of human feet. So this is the pure unspoiled natural world environmentalists rhapsodize about. It is hypnotically beautiful, with glowing mushrooms and hanging lichen and flitting birds and bugs. The winding side canyons they pass are chock full of redwoods and ferns. Their amount of organic wealth defies reason. The higher orders of emergent processes that he and Flavia spoke so persuasively about are writ large here, with such a degree of fineness in the clouds of buzzing gnats and haze of pollen dusting the leaves, that it scales up out of his ability to sense it. Now this is where actual magic is, where we can tell that even after we’ve reached the limits of our measurements, there is still something immeasurable beyond.
The eight people speak in a hush, as if in a cathedral. The water sounds fill the canyon instead, and the intermittent cries of raptors overhead. The sky cracks open just as Alonso looks up through the trees, and a banner of blue appears between the gray clouds. Rays fall on the stream, making its pale-green waters luminous. “Mira.” Alonso tugs on the strap Pradeep hauls on. “The sky. What do the locals think when the blue sky shows up like that, eh? You said you think their sky is a surface. So what is this? Their egg is cracking?”
“No, the idea, as far as I can tell,” Pradeep answers, “isn’t that there’s anything beyond the clouds. They are a ceiling. A dome. Therefore, the blue we see is only a dash of paint against that surface. Their cosmos is enclosed, according to what Jidadaa has told me, although she has nothing but scorn for Lisican beliefs. But what must they think on the rare occasion they see the blinding sun? Where does that light and heat come from? God has gotten angry, very angry indeed.”
“Or the phases of the moon?” Triquet asks, wading at Alonso’s floating shoulder. “Do they even recognize it as the same body when it’s all over the sky in different shapes and colors when they can catch a glimpse of it at all? Can they track the craters and think, ah yes… a planetoid lit from various angles! I doubt it. They’re all just in this big like room of island and water, however many kilometers wide, with a perpetual gray ceiling and people appearing every once in a while from what she called the line between the sea and the sky. How many kilometers is it? Someone do the math. On a clear day how far is the horizon away?”
“Well,” Alonso reasons, “first we must know the curvature of the earth. And then the height of their point of view. I think, standing on the beach, we could see no more than a kilometer or two.”
“Yes,” Maahjabeen adds, “even standing on that fallen log on the beach, you could double the distance. These cliffs, ehh. How high did we say? Four hundred meters? We have seen from the top. It is very far. Maybe a hundred kilometers or more.”
“I’m getting a radius of like 34, 35, if I’m calculating it right.” With one hand, Katrina consults her phone for the equation while she trails her other fingers in the stream, tapping its surface like a keyboard. “Distance = 1.226 x the square root of the height.”
“So that is the extent of your whole world. Seventy kilometers in diameter on a clear day. What is that, like a couple hundred square kilometers?” Triquet muses. “A tiny little universe indeed.”
“And only like twenty of those square kilometers are land. It is nearly all open ocean. But even so, these still aren’t any kind of seafaring people.” Maahjabeen luxuriates in this water, pushing against the strong current. keeping herself in the deeps up to her waist. It is so much warmer than the ocean. And just kinder to her in nearly every way. She has very little experience with fresh water. There wan’t much in Tunisia so she spent all her time on the beach and in the sea. “The Lisicans were always completely closed off from the ocean by the surf and currents just like we were so they could never learn to build boats. Just net fish in the lagoon. So, to people like them, the ocean must be as impassable and mysterious as the sky. What do they think happens beneath its waves? They must see whales and all the marine life break the surface. How do they…? I mean, do they know fish live down there? They must. Their ancestors were a whaling people, yes? Didn’t they teach their children how the world works before disappearing in here?”
“Who knows?” Katrina muses. “They didn’t bring music. I thought music was essential to being human. So that means all kinds of things can be lost or forgotten. Even the sea and the sky.”
They finally fetch up at the base of the deadfall that blocks the canyon, damming the rest of it upstream into the lake. But it is a serious climb, perhaps thirty meters up at a steep angle, on slick black logs poking out every which way. Alonso regards it, baleful. This is impossible. He gives up before he even thinks to try.
“I think the best route is over here,” Jay calls out from the far left of the dam. “Got to hug this side on the way up to avoid a big hole in the center. You don’t want to drop down into like dark rushing water and never be heard from again.”
“Yes,” Alonso declares loudly, “I think I will be just fine here. You can all go on. Please do not worry about me.”
“But we can’t leave our big papa behind!” Katrina pats his head and smiles down at him with love. “We’ll figure something out.”
The others have already started clambering up the wreckage. Miriam turns her back to the dam and sits, scooting upward, using her arms. “Look, Zo. You can do it like this.”
“It is too far, Mirrie.”
“Oh my god, listen to you.” Amy laughs at him in disbelief. “Can you believe this is Alonso, Mir? Our Alonso? Boy used to swing through the trees like Tarzan now you ask him to scooch a bit—”
“And he bawls like a baby.” Miriam joins in her laughter. Alonso scowls at them both. They don’t know how depleted he is.
“Be nice.” Katrina comes to his defense. “Good days and bad days. I learned with Pavel. Probably for a very long time.”
But the older women aren’t chastened. They both sit backwards and scoot their bums up the broken terrain, laughing as they go.
“Fine.” Alonso sits up in his floating mats and grabs the nearest broken branch. He hauls himself to his feet and wades toward the dam. He even manages to take a dozen steps upward before the cold wears off and the pain returns. Then he turns and sits as they did and scoots himself ignominiously backward up the fallen logs. Each move provokes a grunt, but he does find a rhythm, recalling once again the strength that remains in his arms and shoulders. Soon he is the only one left on the face of the dam, the only sounds a trickle of water and his echoing sounds of effort.
His gaze drops. Below, one of the Thunderbird clan stand at the edge of the stream, watching him. Seeing the youth makes Alonso’s breath catch in his throat. He had been lost in his misery, thinking he was alone. But there are few more powerful forces in the human heart than vanity. What a pathetic figure he is. They’ve surely never seen anything like him before, a pale gray man bloated with all the ills of the modern world, unable to climb a pile of logs.
Pride deeply stung, Alonso stands. Ignoring the shattering pain, he marches stiff-legged over the last logs to clear the top edge and behold the lake for the first time.
A patch of sun shines on it. Ancient primeval trees crowd its banks on both sides. The sunlight is luminous, blue and green and gold. All his toil is forgotten. This lake is a paradise. The pain and the humiliation have been worth it, indeed.
The others follow Pradeep, stringing along to the left at the base of the canyon wall where a fringe of lakeshore provides a narrow path further in. Except for Katrina. She’s already in the water, paddling happily beside them like a dog.
Alonso sighs in pleasure and rolls into the lake at his feet.
Their waterproof packs provide both Dyson readers and lunch. At the pocket beach ringed by willows, they find the gravel sharp but the logs plentiful. They set up a porch and benches and a camp chair for Alonso. But he refuses to get out of the water yet.
Maahjabeen does too. Now that she’s in the lake she relishes it. Fresh water has so many different properties from salt. She is less buoyant here and has to work harder to stay afloat. But the water is cool and crisp. So fresh. And she can drink directly from the lake. The best water she’s ever tasted. No, she will never get out. They will have to drag her kicking and screaming from this lake. From now on she is no longer a proud and noble orca, she is an eel slithering about in the mud. And it couldn’t feel better.
Her crew on the shore are busy setting up their day camp. Look at them. Her very own Pradeep, busy and serious as always. Amy, who has gently removed the weak little kit fox from where she kept it, in the chest zipper pocket of her windshirt. She now crouches at the shore, digging up grubs or any other nutrients she can get in its mouth. Katrina, standing unabashedly naked in a spot of warm sun, wringing her hair out. Miriam kneeling at the edge of the treeline, rearranging her backpack for geological work. Triquet in a sarong, picking their way barefoot to the shore, collecting flowers. Jay, scrambling restlessly further in. They are her family. They really are. It did happen. All those she cares about right now in the world are here, in this sacred little valley hidden away from the rest of the world. Sure, add Esquibel and Mandy and Maahjabeen’s Italian sister Flavia and she will be complete. This lake shall be her private little ocean, this canyon her temple to God.
Alonso floats beside her. His trailing hand accidentally snags a strand of her hair that has snuck out from under her wet scarf. “Oh, I am very sorry, Miss Charrad.”
“It is no problem,” she turns her body in the water to face him, “Papa.” And she favors him with a dimpled smile.
Alonso beams with satisfaction, like he just completed a jigsaw puzzle. Maahjabeen had surely been the last holdout, hadn’t she? They had all embraced the family, except for her. But now she has found her own way in, through the love she shares with Pradeep.
“I never want this to end,” she continues. “You are all too dear.”
“Here we have found our heaven,” he agrees.
And then they hear a distant cry, from above the canyon’s rim somewhere, a ragged scream of outrage and pain. It stops them all. Everyone stands and those in the water paddle over to a fallen log so they can stand too, hip deep. The cry comes again, from a voice they don’t know. It is human, certainly, but that is all they can tell.
“Dear lord. Impossible to say…” Miriam studies one rim then the other, “where that originates. Which side…”
“Yeah,” Jay agrees. “First I thought it was from the far side up there. Then our side. Now… I don’t know.”
They wait for another cry. They wait and wait. But it never comes. Five then ten minutes pass.
“Starting to feel foolish here…” Triquet mutters. “Who even was that? And what do we do now, people?”
“Are we sure that was human?” Amy asks. “I’ve heard some calls from rutting elk that didn’t sound too different.”
“Seen any elk on Lisica?” Miriam asks.
“Well, no, but…” Amy shakes her head, none of the catalog of life she has found here appropriate for that tortured sound. “I don’t know. Maybe it is human. But they can’t be looking for us. Right?”
“Maybe they are,” Pradeep shrugs, “but they just can’t find us. Maybe that is their frustration at losing our trail in the stream.”
“Well, I am getting cold,” Alonso decides. “Let us all keep doing what we were doing. Get to work. All we can do is keep our ears open. But I don’t think we should go anywhere. Doing anything rash like moving back to pine camp now will only expose—”
The cry reaches them again, like a white noise wolf’s howl from over the horizon. Its pain and rage is horrible to hear. Whoever it is must be tearing their throat to shreds.
“Yes,” Maahjabeen agrees, climbing up the submerged log until she can grab one of its upraised roots. She holds a hand out for Alonso to join her. “Let us carry on. You are right. Nothing else to do. But Jay, please don’t go any farther. Stay close.”
“Yeah, I think you’re right.” Jay’s spidey sense is totally tingling. That sound is evil, like straight up dangerous. He had been about to skirt around an outcrop to see what the next inlet held but now he returns to the safety of their little pocket beach. Leaning down, he hauls first Alonso then Maahjabeen from the water.
Katrina dresses as they dry off. Jay locates a nice stout branch that would make a good club. Amy begins preparing lunch.
Alonso sits and listens, their watchdog. He leans back and scouts the broken edges of the canyon rims above, their dark shadowed slopes against the sailing clouds. Bits of sky still break through and patches of sun race across the redwood treetops of the far canyon wall. He hears nothing. Idly, he removes his laptop from a dry bag and arranges his workstation with the external hard drive and a pair of batteries. Might as well get some Plexity tasks done.
Miriam finishes ordering her kit and hauls her pack on, facing the wall of the canyon behind them. She only needs to go a few steps before she touches a formation of pale epidosite hiding behind a fern. Finally she might get to see the island’s interior ophiolites in all their glory. It is just further confirmation in her model of uplift and the remnants of the Kula plate beneath. “The Late Cretaceous,” she muses to herself, “was a happening place.”
Maahjabeen joins Pradeep in preparing the Dyson readers for lake organism collection. They have five with them and a couple aren’t charged. They plug those in and Jay takes one, leaving the two others for Pradeep and Maahjabeen. Pradeep crouches at the shoreline, looking under rocks for pale annelids and Belostomatidae waterbugs and Pacifastacus crayfish. She re-enters the water with a sigh, wading out into its velvety embrace. Now it doesn’t feel cold at all. She takes one sample of the lake’s surface water at the edge, then others at meter increments heading into deeper water.
AAAAACCCCCCHHHHH!
The cry echoes through the canyon again, this time closer and if anything even more wild and urgent. Triquet flinches, weaving the flowers into a garland, and scowls at the sky. Maahjabeen ducks her head under, instantly resolving to get water column samples from a place she can’t hear that awful scream. Reveling in the silence, she opens her eyes underwater. It is still and deep green, only turbid and dark below her feet. With her fuzzy vision she looks at her glowing hand and the white reader. Pressing a pair of buttons, she takes a sample at the depth of one meter, then two.
She surfaces just as another scream erupts from above. Yes, it is indisputably human now, there is a slur of inaudible words in the gaps between. Maahjabeen swims over to Pradeep. He looks up at the cliff tops with an anxious frown. No. She will not let him slip into the clutches of his panic. She will hold him tight.
Now there is no break in the screams. The unseen figure circles above somehow like a raptor, their cries splitting the air again and again. The crew share worried glances and draw close.
“There!” Jay shouts, pointing down canyon toward the top of the cliffs. They can all see the huddled figure atop the highest stone, lifting his face from where he found something at his feet all the way up to the sky. But he uncharacteristically sways, this barrel-shaped Lisican, and lifts his arms in triumph. With a final scream he steps confidently out into space, arms windmilling.
They all cry out in shock, watching him plummet over a hundred meters to the ground. His last scream is cut short by impact.
Alonso stifles a sob. Triquet cries out, burying their face in Miriam’s embrace. Maahjabeen can’t move. Her mind is blank. Pradeep whips an arm around her and turns them away.
“No way.” Jay edges back toward the dam. His breath comes in fast shallow gasps. “No fucking way. That just happened.” He can’t process the gruesome event. He doesn’t even want to. But his feet move him to the dam regardless. The man landed past it alongside the stream below on the same side of the canyon they occupy.
Pradeep joins him, as do Katrina, Miriam, and Amy. In silence they make their way down the slope of fallen logs back to the stream. It is the oxbow where they had stopped during their first exploration of the canyon that they halt again. “Yes,” Pradeep estimates. “It was directly up there…”
Jay finds the body a surprising distance from the cliff, in a field of rubble. The man lies still, on his side in a pool of blood and gore, quite dead. “Yooo. Oh my fucking god. It’s Wetchie-ghuy.”
Miriam joins him, clapping a hand over her mouth at the gruesome sight. One of his eyes burst from his skull on impact. His jaw is shattered and blood still leaks from his skull.
“Dear god.” Pradeep grips Miriam’s arm as nausea sweeps through him. Even his trained clinical detachment is challenged by this much carnage. He retches.
Amy stays back, looking up to the clifftop. “There’s still someone up there. Waving.” She waves back.
A tiny voice reaches them, repeating the same phrase again and again: “Ja sam sada íx̱tʼ! Ja sam sada íx̱tʼ!”
“It’s Xaanach.” Amy shades her eyes with her hand. “She’s got something in her hand. Like a paper. Oh! She dropped it!”
The small parcel flutters down to them with the weight of a leaf. It lands in the stream and Jay has to chase it down like a retriever. He returns with his prize, holding it up wordlessly for the others.
It is a small ziploc with a pair of pills and chalky residue in it.
“What am I looking at?” Amy asks.
“Oh my days,” Miriam sighs, recognizing it.
Jay’s voice is flat. “This is the bag of drugs Katrina brought. It was like pretty full when Jidadaa stole it.”
“And then it somehow ended up with Xaanach and…?” Pradeep falls silent, staring up at the cliff top, dark thoughts gathering.
“He lost our rap battle and took off. I didn’t see him again ‘til now…” Jay shakes his head in horror, his own part in this tragedy becoming clear. “I mean, fuck. This is seriously hardcore. Way way too messed up for me. They fed dude the whole freaking bag. “Tripping balls. That was like forty hits of acid and a whole handful of MDMA. He didn’t even know where he was. Or what he was doing when he fell off the cliff. Never even knew he died.”
“Oh, he knew… He knew what he was doing.” Pradeep backs away from Wetchie-ghuy’s corpse to the water’s edge. He can’t take his eyes from the clifftop. “See, that’s where Xaanach left my blood. On top of that rock. Then she filled him with drugs and led him here. That’s my blood on the rock.” His voice trembles, the anxiety clawing at him, impossible to deny. “This wasn’t accidental. He was hunting me.”
“And Xaanach killed him,” Amy tells him, in an attempt to allay his fears, to soothe his trembling limbs and startled eyes. “He’s gone now, Pradeep. He can’t hurt any of us any longer.”
Xaanach sees him from above. She lifts her own ring finger, the same one as Pradeep’s where she drew his blood. Xaanach laughs and calls out to him again in triumph, repeating the same phrase as before. “Ja sam sada íx̱tʼ!”
Ξ
Mandy finds she can move her arm again. It hurts, and it makes her ill thinking how torn and ruptured the fibers of muscle and flesh are, but she can move.
She sits up in the clean room. Esquibel has rebuilt it around her. Pine camp is quiet. It is amazing how exhausted she is from getting shot. Hollywood’s got it all wrong. It’s such an emotional event. There is somehow so much grief in it, like she’s lost a part of herself that she’ll never get back. Like her soul was just punched right out of her frame. And that makes her so tired. But now a bit of her energy has returned. Enough to get her moving.
She finds her sandals and shuffles out the slit door. Esquibel is at the stove, cursing a teapot. Flavia sits in Alonso’s camp chair on her laptop. She looks up in surprise when Mandy appears. “Eh, the soldier rises. She is ready again for battle!”
Mandy smiles at her weakly and waves with her right hand. She moves toward Esquibel, who watches her critically, with a doctor’s assessing eye. “How are you, Mandy?”
“Uhh… great. Fantastic.” A tear leaks from the corner of her eye and she wipes it away. “Hungry.”
“Ah. Well.” Esquibel sets the teapot down and steps away from the table. “That is one thing Flavia and I found we do not do well. Perhaps you can show me how to turn on this stove. And then I can try to make you a—”
“You don’t know how to turn on the stove? It’s been eight weeks.” Mandy doesn’t mean to sound so critical. Or maybe she does. She doesn’t know how she feels about Esquibel anymore.
“We all have our specialties, no?” Flavia calls out.
“You know how I feel about kitchens,” Esquibel says.
Mandy just shakes her head. Cooking is too essential. It’s like saying you don’t know how to bathe yourself or brush your teeth. She turns the stove on but even before she hits the electric ignition she can tell from its silence that its canister is empty. In a bin at her feet she finds a pile of them, the empties mixed with the few full ones left. “Could you please…” Bending hurts. Talking hurts. She nods at the bin. “A full one.”
Esquibel frowns at the bin. “How can I tell which are full?”
“They’re heavier. And they have caps. Please, Esquibel! Stop being so useless right now!”
Esquibel looks at her with a level gaze. “No one has ever called me useless before.” She bends down and grabs a canister, placing it silently on the table before retreating to the clean room.
But Mandy doesn’t have the ability to care. She is bruised, inside and out. She just wants some tea, then some soup, then—
“Phone.” As if by magic, Mandy’s lost phone appears in the air before her, gripped by a slender brown hand. She squeals and jerks back, hurting her shoulder and nearly losing her balance.
Jidadaa stands beside her, a simple smile on her face. She laughs at the physical comedy. “Mandy phone.”
Mandy gathers herself and snares the filthy phone. Its pink shell is cracked and the battery is nearly dead. “Why did you…? What did you do to it?”
“Vid-yo for you. See?” Jidadaa reaches for the phone again but Mandy wards her away.
“Video?” Mandy opens her phone to find a series of photos, most of them obviously unintentional blurred shots of green. But there are a pair of 41 second and 54 second videos near the end.
The first is a covert view of the Ussiaxan village from a distance. Jidadaa, watching over her shoulder, exclaims in disappointment. “Ai. People so little.” Mandy spreads her fingers on the screen to zoom in, eliciting another exclamation from Jidadaa. The people on the screen are now fuzzy blobs of dark pixels in their town square. But she is still able to identify them. “Chinese man. The Daadaxáats shaman. Kasáy.”
“The one we call Lady Boss. What’s her name? Kasay?”
Jidadaa nods. “Means ‘always sweaty.’ Here her men.”
Flavia stands and joins them. “Eh, what are they doing?”
“Kasáy, she make decision. Chinese man her koox̱ now. See?”
He wears a collar and they lead him like a dog. One of the villagers pounds a stake into the ground and they leave him there, leashed to it. The video ends.
“Seriously?” Flavia asks. “That is what Wetchie-ghuy hopes to do with me? Lead me around with a collar and leash?”
Jidadaa shrugs. “If you don’t act good.”
The next clip is from a closer vantage from above. Jidadaa must have taken refuge in a tree. The camera is canted, panning and tilting with frantic energy. Screaming people run beneath the tree. None think to look up. They are all focused on the edge of town.
Nearly a hundred people congregate, surging toward the treeline. They have left Jidadaa behind. Something gray flickers before them in the canopy and they all fall to their knees, like they’ve all been chopped down. The whole crowd falls silent, unmoving.
“What is this?” Flavia demands. “What are we seeing?”
“That is first time they see dla x̱ald, mother fox. First time for Ussiaxan since the eleventh mother. She will choose to give baby fox to one person in Ussiaxan.”
“Wait. The fox decides?” Flavia hadn’t believed this silliness until now. But here is the proof, digitized and indisputable.
Mandy points at the screen. “Look, here comes Kasay-jah like a big bully. Oh my god, even she falls to her knees? Wow, she looks like she’s starstruck. This must be like such a big deal.”
Flavia scowls. “No, do not give the fox to that mean woman…”
Jidadaa laughs as the video ends with the people crying out in shock and outrage. “She do not. The baby go to young girl. Starts big fight. Kasáy try to take baby fox. All people say no. She is sent out of village with her koox̱. Now they must find new home.”
The phone’s battery dies and the screen goes black. Mandy stares stupidly at it. What has she just witnessed? Somebody’s life was just really really fucked with. Two people, actually. The Chinese spy and Lady Boss. Things will never be the same for either of them.
Jidadaa claps, remembering another detail. “And the Ussiaxan wreck the Chinese man radio. No more orders. He is lost.”
Mandy doesn’t know how she feels about that. It brings her no joy that the man who shot her is now a bound slave to an outcast village chief on an undeveloped island thousands of kilometers from his home. Maybe a vindictive person would feel pleasure. But he must have a family and hopes and dreams of his own that have nothing to do with being discarded on Lisica like this. But at the same time, Mandy can’t quite bring herself to feel sorry for him. Fucker shot her.
“Who is there?” Esquibel calls out from the clean room door. “What do you want?”
“It’s just Jidadaa…” Mandy begins but Esquibel interrupts her.
“No. There. Out on the meadow. What do they want?”
Mandy and Flavia turn. Among the green and gold grasses a hundred meters away stand two women, the Mayor and Yesiniy. They watch pine camp, standing patiently in the open.
Jidadaa answers. “I tell them. You leave soon. Sewat and Yesiniy say no, they must tell woman story first. Woman to woman. They do not ever see woman on Lisica. Only Maureen Dowerd. Then only men. Now you are women.”
“Now we are women,” Flavia echoes. “Well, I didn’t know girl power mattered. I mean, if it did, they could have been a lot more nice about it before now. Okay. We have a sisterhood now. Fine. What is this woman story? Some secret?”
“Come.” Jidadaa beckons to Esquibel as well. “Come, please. They wait for you. To tell.”
“Brilliant,” Esquibel mutters. “More nonsense.” But she follows, bringing a chair.
As they approach, Flavia asks, “Ehh, where is Katrina? None of us speak their language. She is the one they want.”
“Maybe one of you could record it for her?” Mandy asks. “My phone’s dead.”
Both Esquibel and Flavia agree, taking out their phones. And not a moment too soon. Before they even reach the meadow, Yesiniy begins intoning a chant.
“Wait! Wait!” Flavia calls out. “We haven’t started recording yet!” They hurry into position as Yesiniy continues.
Jidadaa translates. Esquibel puts her chair down and turns her own camera on her. “It is the story of two sister. First mothers. In beginning they were Ganaaxteidee clan, hibernation frog. Before they are mothers. They are little girls. Two sisters only share little names. Names they only call each other. They forget their old names. They call each other Init and Ta.
“Init and Ta live in Qe’yiłteh. Alone on island. The people do not like Init and Ta. They make their family live alone. They are outcast family. There is no love. But then white men come in big ship. There is fight. Men from the village are killed. They take one white prisoner. This is Tuzhit. He is slave. They make him live with family outside town. He meet Init and Ta.”
“Wait,” Flavia interrupts. “You’re telling me this is their origin story from like three hundred years ago? Can they prove any—?”
Mandy hushes her as Jidadaa continues her translation.
“Hibernation frog clan do not like Tuzhit. Treat him like dog. Tuzhit and Init and Ta steal boat. They try to go down coast but storm take them out to sea. They think they die. Eh. Here is where Yesiniy tells about gods of water and wind. Many gods. Some love, some hate. Three people on the ocean and one mama fox, babies in her belly. Now there is more talk of the gods of wind and water. Sewat repeat what Yesiniy say. Repeat three times. The boat land on Lisica. Here they become big family. Init and Ta have many children. Children marry and have babies. Again and again.
“In the time of sixth mothers there is new shipwreck. Two men. One is dark from south islands named Mkuwelili. One is pale like Tuzhit named Kristaps. Lisica people take them as slave. But time is bad. Island is sick. Too many foxes. Mkuwelili and Kristaps say must kill foxes to save bird and little animal, so people do. They kill many many fox. Then there is almost no fox left and island lose its heart. They blame Mkuwelili and Kristaps. Make them exile in north canyon. Forget their words, forget their language. Only names remember of them.”
“So they were like off some nineteenth century whaling ship?” Esquibel wonders. “Grim end for them, I take it.”
But Jidadaa continues, keeping pace with the chant. “In the time of ninth mother first Japanese ship. They cruel. Lisican people hide. Then American soldier and Russian soldier, all bad. People of all village fight to keep them only on beach. But then Maureen Dowerd come. Everything change.”
“The woman story.” Mandy smiles at the Mayor, who continues her litany uninterrupted.
“Fox say,” Jidadaa tells them in an aside, “Lisica is for woman. First fox tell Init and Ta. They listen with their hearts. That is why, after Tuzhit give them babies, they push him into water and kill.”
“Wait, what? Init and Ta killed Tuzhit?”
“He was first bad man. Bad white man. Bad soldier. Init and Ta escape from bad village. Only after he gone, Lisica is good.”
“Escape from the village back on the Alaskan coast?” Flavia asks. Yesiniy and Sewat have fallen silent, realizing they’ve lost their audience. “So this is the lesson they learn? Murder solves your problems? Their whole lives were bad until they killed the father of their children? But these sisters are not like the Christians, are they? They do not call this murder their original sin. Instead they say it’s when things finally got better. Eh. A brutal age.”
But Jidadaa doesn’t understand the question. She repeats what they already know, just slower. “Init and Ta have clan that hate them. Hibernation frog. They escape with bad man. Come here. Start the people. Past is bad. Him and old clan. So they forget all. Teach children new way. New gods. New traditions. Follow the wisdom of fox.”
“Damn,” Mandy grimaces. “They went hard.”
Sewat, the Mayor, takes up the tale again. Jidadaa shares her words but they already know this part, about Aan Eyagídi the shaman and the love affair between Maureen and Shanno and the baby that came of it. The disputes with Ussiaxan and the advent of the Chinese. The burial of the sub, which cut off their access to the beach for a long cruel time. And how the cycle is coming to a close, with the arrival of the lidass and their inescapable Jidadaa ending this time of peace and prosperity once and for all.
“But why?” Mandy asks. “Why does it have to end? That’s what nobody’s told us. Everybody’s all ready for the good times to turn into the bad times. Why aren’t they like fighting against it?”
“Jidadaa you cannot escape,” the eponymous girl says with a sly smile. “It come when it come.”
“But why are they being punished?” Esquibel shakes her head in disapproval. “This is just a story. There is no real external factor here causing this change, is there? They could stop it if they really wanted to, eh?”
Jidadaa patiently explains. “In the days of third mother they forget to honor first mothers. First bad time. It start long string of curse. First Mkwelili and Kristaps. People from between sea and sky who come. Even Maureen is curse. Yesiniy is curse, all her life. Kula and me. The people deserve Jidadaa very long time. Curse split them into three village. Fox grow very few. Ussiaxan get dark in their chests. Divide island with the creek. Then you come.”
“Oh, yes? We are part of this story now?” Flavia would rather not be included as a co-author on any such disreputable paper.
“You are women,” Jidadaa responds with a simple shrug. “You hear the story and remember.”
Ξ
“No, really. Go on,” Amy tells the others on their return from the lake, stepping away from them. “I’ll be back in a bit.”
“Well… ask him if he like needs anything,” Katrina calls out as she and the others keep walking, heading back to pine camp. The dark mass of the crew disappear into the gloom. They are still mostly stunned from the tragic events of the day and none of them have the energy to argue with her about splitting up.
Amy watches them go, then turns back to the small fire Morska Vidra has built in front of his tiny hut. She approaches the grove of madrones in which he has built it. Her sandals make noise on the dried leaves. In response, his dark head pokes out of the narrow doorway. The old man watches her approach.
“Bontiik.” Amy chucks his chin. He does the same to her. “Where’s your fox?”
But Morska Vidra just looks glumly at her, his face closed.
“I know. Can’t live without them, can we?” Amy gently removes the fox kit she keeps in her pocket. The poor thing is fading. She just can’t find enough nutrients for it.
Its appearance makes Morska Vidra exclaim in shock. He pulls away, outrage flaring in his eyes. He begins to lecture her.
“No no. The mama rejected it. She told me I could have it. It would have died otherwise. I swear.”
But Morska Vidra won’t hear it. He tries to take the baby from her but Amy is afraid of what he might do with it. She clutches it close, daring him to fight her. Protective instincts surge in her.
Morska Vidra sees the ferocity in Amy’s eyes and hesitates. He goes back to appealing to her, his words coming out too fast for her to follow at all.
Amy pulls back and waves goodbye. “Uhh. This was a mistake. I shouldn’t have come here. I’m sorry.” Perhaps she can catch the others before they get too far away.
The old man suddenly stops talking. He looks out at the gloom instead and asks a loud question.
“Oh, shoot.” Amy turns, dismayed. “Someone out there?”
But who emerges from the gloom isn’t human. It is two foxes, Morska Vidra’s fellow and the vixen he impregnated.
“Wait!” Amy cries. “Mama, what are you doing here? Where are your babies? Oh my god, you didn’t lose them…!” She can’t make sense of it. There isn’t hardly a single mammal in the world that will abandon her babies so soon after giving birth.
The vixen’s teats are swollen with milk. Amy drops to her knees as the silver foxes approach. She holds out the tiny kit, wriggling in her palm. Its mother blinks at the tiny thing and approaches. She nickers at it, licking its head, then nudges it toward a teat.
Morska Vidra carefully approaches as Amy encourages the tiny thing to latch and suck. He may have opinions about its life or death but he won’t gainsay its mother. But it may have already been too long. With a gentle pinch Amy coaxes a drop of milk from the teat and the little thing starts slurping greedily.
Morska Vidra’s fox sniffs his child, blessing it with a lick.
The man looks up at Amy, his face filled with wonder.
“Uh… This wasn’t my idea. I only did what she told me.”
It is dark now. Morska Vidra’s face is in shadow. She can only see his eyes. Still he stares at Amy. There is something coiled in him, as if he is about to pounce on her.
“What? What is it?”
His fox pounces instead, landing in Amy’s cross-legged lap. But she is too familiar with animals to react. Staying still, she allows him to crawl around, sniffing at her. The creature stands on her bent knee and watches the mother and baby nurse. Amy finally releases a held breath, which ends with a quiet laugh.
Morska Vidra laughs too, scratching his old boy between his ears.
As the infant finally gets the nourishment it needs, Amy’s maternal anxieties finally ease. “Thank you, Morska Vidra. And thank you, mama.” She reaches out and strokes the vixen’s head with a fingertip. “Thank you for saving the baby.”